Reagan/Eli

she/they | ana sw 60kgs | cw 57kgs | gw 55 | ugw 45

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i’m drunk rn

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i hate my mum

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[euphoriainbeingthin]

i would only drink zero cal drinks but i can’t drink anything but water without throwing up.

which is amazing for purging, just gotta drink smthing over than water everything in my stomach straight into the toilet.

which means i can’t drink green tea so i’ve never tried it lol don’t know if i’d like it or not.

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i binged yesterday god i’m so close to my goal and all i do is be a fat fucking shit PLEASE god i fucking hate myself i’m actually gonna ugh.

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2 kgs away from my gw and 12 away from my ugw i can do this fjfnfn

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ugh, it’s fine i guess. i’ll try and fast longer next time :(

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i need a new scale that’s cheap mine is in my grandmas room and it’s really trash. help please <3

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true euphoria is putting on clothes that used to fit me perfectly and them becoming big

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i’m like craving everything, but at the same time craving nothing I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT. like i want to eat everything but at the same time i don’t want to eat anything i’m so confused rn :(

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i’m on hour 23 of a fast and i’m already struggling i hate this i used to be able to fast for so long i hate myself why did i ever choose to recover i’m so stupid.

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i just want to feel cold, i want to be able to look in the mirror and finally be pale, i want to be able to be eurocentric. i never got over the internalised racism. i fucking hate that i’m not pretty, i’m not skinny, i’m a fucking fatass tanned butch with thick eyebrows and a nose that everyone makes fun of.

i’ll never be the beauty standard, but i’ll be skinny.

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REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

[euphoriainbeingthin]

i cant wait till i go back to school,

i will literally lose so much weight because i hate eating in front of people and ill be walking so much more than i am rn.

and when i’m home i can say i won’t eat until i finish all my homework and after i do my homework i can go to sleep or read (and what i do with reading is i say i can’t eat until i finish this chapter or this many chapters) ugh i actually am so excited for school to start again.

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TJIS SHOULDNT BE FUNNT JDNDJDNDHNF

[euphoriainbeingthin]

BRUH SAME LOL 💀

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i cant wait until my mum finally sees me as pretty, i won’t be too fat for her anymore. she’s already saying i’ve gotten skinner so it’s progress! if my fatass cousin can get skinnier than so can i! (i’d like the preface this by saying not fatphobic my cousin is just homophobic so i dislike him lol)