guys, would it be okay if i delete all my current coming soon list and work on fresh requests? u can still submit the same ones if u want. itās just the thought of working on requests without knowing if the person that asked for it is still around. wanna restart slowly, with clean bases š„¹
guys, would it be okay if i delete all my current coming soon list and work on fresh requests? u can still submit the same ones if u want. itās just the thought of working on requests without knowing if the person that asked for it is still around. wanna restart slowly, with clean bases š„¹
Iām positively overwhelmed by all the loving messages you left over months and iām so sorry for disappearing like this, you have my deepest apologies. iām going through a lot honestly. i feel like iām losing all the love i once had for writing. i guess work really destroys everything uh? never hated my work that much lately.
but I want to try to find this love back. i really hope fanfiction will help me.
i have to check my waiting list again, i might not be able to work on everything. i just want to try things that will bring me a bit of joy and personal satisfaction.
again, iām sorry for the silence and iām really grateful that you still checked on me constantly. š¤
Hi sweetie. Youāre so right, itās a hobby and all. This thought really needs to get through my thick skull. I think I'm gonna stop gatekeeping and just release them so at least I won't overthink about them whenever I open my drafts and Iāll finally be able to move on. And maybe it will help me to write down my last requests because I have the ideas and all, but I feel like Iām going to fail again. Vicious cycle.
And guys, I started to write a request for the canāt handle it anymore series (the safe word series)ā¦ characters are Shanks and Mihawk. I need your help for the last character š¤
edit: iām dumb forget about shanks in the poll lmao
Heya Sparkyyy! I just saw your most reason post and oh my gosh are you okay? Take as much time as you need obviously, you need all the rest you can get but can i miss youuu and ur awesome writingggg. And i saw that you were getting a bit tired of one piece??? does that mean you'll stop writing for Kid when your able to come back? Its just that theres not many people who write Kid as well as you do!!!
donāt worry for me pookie, iāll be alright, iām already happy to be able to not feel as much muscular pain as before T^T and nah, iāll never stop writing for op and my fav characters are absolutely safe lmao. I just want to write for hsr (especially Jing Yuan, Anaxa, Blade, Ratio & Ashveil) to balance the "overdose" feeling
Hey Sparky, do you think you will be back soon? I miss you :(
Hope whatever you doing is going great! ā¤ļø
XOXO
hello sweet anon,
I'll use your message to state some facts about my situation and why I kinda disappeared. It's probably gonna be messy because it's not proofread and all, so I'm sorry, please bear with me.
first: my health has always been a mess. Last months were intense, I had some medication that was working pretty well on me. Then something traumatic happened again and after that, those medications never worked again so I got trapped back with my personal issues regarding my health.
Second: still regarding my health, for a few months, I had something pretty heavy but it was doing wander regarding my muscle issues. Long story short, one of my issues is heavy traumatic anxiety, heavy insomnia and PTSD. It reached a state that bad that because I'm always tense, my ribs are now 4ever too high + I have "floating ribs" idk how to translate this lmao. everyone has this, it's just that mine are flying like YOLO and it cuts out my breath every time I do some move and it's a pain in the ass to fix those goddamn ribs right back in place. And my neck, upper back, and shoulders always hurt, even though I'm doing sports 5 days/7 (I mean it has nothing to do with basic muscular issues). But the thing is that those medications are not good for the heart at all. I was doing a regular heart medical check, but I started to have some heart ache pain, so we stopped those medications. Now I have something else, it's kinda working. My muscles are still painful but not as stiff, which is already an upgrade of my physical condition.
third: work. things are going well, which is a good thing. but sure, when writing is already your work, sometimes you just don't want to do extra work and I'm in a situation where I'm switching between two texts lol, so more work.
four: honestly, I have finished some requests. I could publish them, I guess. but I don't like publishing stories that aren't proofread but the issue is: if I proofread, I automatically think it sucks. probably because it's requests I struggled to write. I'm not blaming requester at all, don't worry or feel bad for me guys, it's just that some requests take me more time to think about or struggle because of something more or less random. anyway I'm trapped in a situation where I don't know if I should release them even though I'm unsatisfied or keep gatekeeping and hoping for a change that could never happen. what would you guys prefer?
five: don't get me wrong, I'll always love one piece, but i think I'm starting to have a "one piece overdose" - requests wise. I still want to write for this fandom and especially all my fav pookie, but I kinda want to start writing for HSR.
six: my rhythm. I used to write and post almost daily but it's way too overwhelming and I feel like I need to find a balance but to quote the song "I still haven't found what I'm looking for"
and I think it sums up the main points, sorry for the rambling, love you guys. please lmk what would you prefer regarding the requests I'm gatekeeping for quite a while now.
Welcome back queen. š¤ I read you were thinking about writing for Honkai Star Rail, please do it. You would literally write for my two favorite fandoms, omg. Also, will you write the requests you received lately?
hi dear, tysm <3. iāll probably give a shot to hsr, it will give me a cool opportunity to dig more into the lore of my pookies. regarding the requests: if itās on my list: yes, just need to write them down. I havenāt had the time yet to read the ones i received and that are still waiting in my ask box, so idk, it will depend on my inspiration.
ā ft.Sir Crocodile, Donquixote Doflamingo, Eustass Kid, Rob Lucci
they are always so busy you decided to pretend to be busy as well. but these men hate being ignored.
A/N: based on this request. finally starting to drop the last requests of the last session. not properly proofread tho, sorry :( have a good meal.ā
CW: gn!reader, hcs, established relationship, kid & doffy are slightly suggestive but there is nothing explicit
WC: 1k
one piece masterlists. ā my ko-fi
Crocodile loves one thing: control.
Crocodile hates one thing: being fooled around.
Right now, youāre depriving him of his precious control and driving him mad with your stupid games. He knows he has been quite absent, and honestly? Itās pissing him off to have less time with you. But why, all of a sudden, are you acting this way? Ignoring his calls, pretending you never heard about the work he asked you to doā¦ It has always been your life to listen to him at work. Locked in his office, as always, he taps his fingers against the desk, his mind racing with ideas to put some sense into you. Maybe you deserved a good old spanking after all? Or a bit of discipline when he comes home tonightā¦ Yes, it could work. But is it really what he must do? He has always been strict, but not unfair. If youāre acting like this, itās for a reason. The right thing to do is not to punish blindly, but to understand. So with a sigh, he rummages through his drawer and drops on his desk his collection of cigars, two glasses of whiskey, and one of his most expensive bottles before calling for you again, with a tone leaving no room for negotiation.
āIāve been neglecting you lately, right?ā
He shows you the glasses and cigars waiting for you at his desk.
āWork over for today. How about you tell me about all the things I missed about you these last weeks?ā
Doflamingo noticed in a blink you were playing with his nerves when you started to ignore him. Honestly, he thought you were just being a cute yet petty little bird that needed a good lesson. To be the leader of the Family isnāt an easy task, and when he wants to cool down, he wants you obedient and ready for him in any way he needs to. Not you, laughing and giggling or pretending youāre musing, lost in your own world. He lets it slide once. Twice. But the third time, as you keep going with your games, he decides to simply use the necklace he offered to you last time to his advantage.
āSometimes, even birds need to have a leash, right little bird?ā
With a wicked grin, he pulls you down closer to him, using his devil fruit without any shame nor care for your dignity. And he made sure toā¦ heal that mouth, body and mind of yours. Itās hard to ignore him when heās making you scream his name so loud everyone around thinks heās murdering you, right?
Kid is impossible to ignoreāexcept on purpose. This man canāt do anything in silence. Heās always barking your name as if it was meant for the entire crew to hear; his heavy stomps on the ground could be enough to shake the ship. Even when heās breathing or sleeping, this man canāt shut up and be quiet. The only moment heās calm is when heās working. So yeah, Kid knows how to put two and two together. Youāre not suddenly becoming deaf and blind. You perfectly see his angry gaze and hear his loud voice ordering you to bring your ass. But no, you decided that playing cards or drinking booze with Killer, Heat and Wire would be funnier.
Thatās Kidās fault. The day he's busy beingā¦ well, the captain of Kid Pirates. And the night, heās locking himself in his workshop to work on his robotic limb or more weapons. You canāt even remember the last time you shared more than a kiss or a stolen quickie against the wall. You deserve more than this. Youāre not a sex friend or a one night stand, damn, youāre his partner.
This morning is just like any other. Youāre with your friends. Kid is already bossing everyone around, and when he shouts your name, you pretend nothing is happening, and thatās his breaking point. With a strong grip, he grabs you by the collar and drags you to his workshop, slamming the door and then banging your back against the wood.
āWhat the hell is wrong with ya? Stop being a fuckinā kid, you know I fuckinā hate kids!ā
āStill, your name is Kidā¦ā
Eyes burning with anger and dark satisfaction, Kid flips you against the wall. āGot your tongue back? Lemme check for myself, right? Gonna remember me for fuckinā months, I swear you lil annoyinā shit.ā
Lucci has always been clear as day: his work will always be more important than you. Itās not because youāre working in the same unit, it means he will pin you down against the wall whenever he has the chance. Heās cold. Merciless. Heās the world government's weapon. And between two missions, heās your husband. Youāre fine with this, really. Though, sometimes, it hurts to be ignored when youāre literally working together. To be perceived as a distraction rather than his partner wound your heart. Lucci always judged you too weak, too vulnerable, too human. There is no half-measure with Lucci. You donāt have the right to side with him during a mission; you can only talk to him if itās really importantā¦ but heās always expecting an immediate answer and obedience from you. So one day, you decided to turn the tables. You started to ignore him. Pretend you didnāt hear about his orders. It pissed Lucci off for the entire day. The second he had the chance to be alone with you, he pinned against the wall, his hand wrapped tight around your throat and his mouth close to your ear.
āYouāre acting like a child.ā He said with his velvet tone, before adding lower, with a voice sending shivers down your spine. āWill you stop being a child if I promise you we will kill someone together tomorrow?ā
Yes, Lucci always had his own definition of romance. But at least, you got his attention back.
Hey Sparky! Just checking in on you. Hope you're having a good time off, and hope that your cat is getting better too, and your work load lighter! Muah, Muah hope to see you soon on Tumblr again š
Have you tried Arknight Endfield? It might be your cup of tea š¤
Anon, you have great taste!! Iāve been waiting for this game for soooo long (Iām an arknight player) and I love Endfield so far. There are still room for improvements but Iām sure āGryph will cook as always. Factory must grow š£ļø
Hi Sparky! Just checking in to see how youāre doing, hope things are going well at work/w your pets ā£ļø
hi dear <3 iām working on the last important step of my next book, itās taking me so much timeā¦ T^T one of my cats is still sick but hopefully it wonāt last forever.
i donāt have the energy for doing requests after work lately, but iāll drop one of my drafts soon. :D
anyone playing wuwa around? i need to know if the story is getting better because the beginning is so boring i just wanna quit, iām already bored and losing my interestā¦ orz.
