I haven't used tumblr in months but I'm popping on here to get this out of my damn head while I'm sitting in the cab It comes out of fucking nowhere man. My sobriety is the best thing in my life and I'm so grateful for it but god, the cravings sneak the fuck up on me at the most unexpected moments. It's been a year since my last drink so it's not really a "craving" anymore - it's more of an extremely powerful wave of anger and jealousy at the people who can drink. It's a sick jealousy that seizes up my whole body. I get flushed with anger that I can't be like them and do what I want to do. It's not fair. Fortunately it always passes but it's a hell of a nasty feeling to sit through and it makes me viciously resentful of people who didn't do anything wrong
