wanna be skinny

block , dont report ! active dec 2022 sw: 140 || cw: 130 || gw: 120 || ugw: 85 he/they

[nieloxychen]

remember to take care of yourself <3

[everything-dainty]

best way to avoid eating : get rly super high while my parents r home so i physically can not leave my room to get food without risking getting kicked out

[everything-dainty]

my friend told me the other day “ i know i shouldn’t be saying this because it could be triggering , but haven’t you noticed you’ve been looking smaller lately ? the waist of your pants doesn’t touch your body at all when you walk ” and just expected me to not take it to heart

[everything-dainty]

it’s been over a year since i logged out of this acc to recover but i’m back now !!

[everything-dainty]

i think i’m relapsing , everyone cheered !!

[anxietyproblem]

[everything-dainty]

you’d think that after having an ed since middle school i would’ve lost some weight at this point , how have i gained ??

[everything-dainty]

it’s been so long since i last properly worked out , i feel like i’m gonna die

[everything-dainty]

i’m going back on antidepressants after being off them for a while , which means i can’t fast anymore without getting extremely fucking nauseous and passing out ,, i cant tell if this is good for me or the worst possible decision i could make

[everything-dainty]

hello , it’s time for my monthly rotation between restricting below 500 cal every day and binging for a week straight bc i can’t seem to bring myself to just eat a normal , healthy amount

[everything-dainty]

how do i fuck up so badly ?? i restricted for two days and then immediately started binging again , and it wasn’t even low restriction either

[everything-dainty]

i cant wait for school to start again . i cant wait to walk the long way to all my classes and spend lunch breaks drinking 0 cal energy drinks and focus so much on my work that i forget to eat

[everything-dainty]

everything is connected to my moms phone , the treadmill , the scale , everything . and obviously i don’t want her knowing how much i weigh or that i’m running at 2 in the morning , so i just can’t use them

[everything-dainty]

the competitive nature of eds is disgusting . it’s gross how prideful it makes me feel to eat less than others . it’s gross how good it makes me feel when my clothes are too small on others . it’s a constant nagging in the back of my mind that makes me feel superior for being sick and all it does is feed itself more .

[everything-dainty]

i always thought stretch marks were pretty on other people , and i didn’t particularly hate them on myself , until i literally just woke up one day and the entirety of my legs were covered in them . there’s just too many now and it’s so ugly .

[everything-dainty]

i think my body dysmorphia making me look skinnier than i actually am sometimes might be worse , bc then when it flips and i see myself differently , it’s a massive difference

[everything-dainty]

last night i went to the store with my dad and tricked him into buying every single one of my safe foods , and then this morning i looked in the mirror before i got in the shower and my waist looked smaller ?? i think i might actually have lost some weight finally !!