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25 HW: 255 lbs || CW: 191 lbs || GW: 140 lbs UGW: 117

[3therals-deactivated20240430]

[mjalti]

nothing is real and then all of a sudden everything is very real with no warning

[sailorwhoosh]

[saudadebunny]

[everythinghurtslol]

I’m so disgusted with myself

Every time I see a picture of myself it sends me spiraling because I always look way worse than I do in my head. I check my reflection in every surface as I walk past and I look away disgusted

By the way my arms fall at my side

By the way I can’t go anywhere without shapewear

By my neck, my chin

By my hanging belly

By my stretch marks and my loose skin

By the size of my clothes

By the shape I take in the mirror

By the number that blinks back at me on the scale

I’ve been putting in insane effort to eat as little as possible and walk the 2.5 miles home instead of taking the train. Every time I eat anything at all, the bloating is horrendous and the scale goes up +3 lbs. I know it’s water weight, that it’ll even out…but when? I restrict until I’m dizzy and gagging over the toilet but I haven’t seen the number go down for days.

I have to be 189 by August 1st. I have one week to get it together.

[everythinghurtslol]

I am 78 lbs from my goal weight 🫠

I hope I can hit 193 tmr 🤞🏻 I wanted to go to the gym tonight but I have no energy. I know I should be lifting heavy and eating well, but this is so much faster :// the only thing I ate today was a coffee cake and a Cortado, about ~500 cals combined. I got some konjac jelly for lunch so that puts me at like 520? 550 to be safe…

Walking home will burn about 250, so I’ll be at 300 net cals give or take. There’s just no way I won’t wake up lighter tomorrow. I need to see some progress again :(

[everythinghurtslol]

15 hours into my fast 💫

196.1 lbs // 88.9 kg 😃

I close tn so as long as I stay busy and spam water, time will fly and I can knock out as soon as I get home (time skip method iykyk). If it’s nice out maybe I’ll walk home and burn an extra 250 cals. 😋

By the time I wake up it’ll be 36 hours 🥹 It’s been forever since I’ve made it that long…if I think too far ahead in the timeline I tend to get ahead of myself but it really seems like I can hit my soft goal 130-140 lbs by Halloween and my UGW 117 by Christmas 😭🫶🏻 I keep telling myself that all I have to do is tune my mind to the channel where the only thing that interests me is seeing the number go down, no matter what I have to do.

I’m feeling so optimistic for this fast, I can’t wait to start off August 20 lbs down 🍁

[jellyfish-greentea]

[hopelesssophie]

BODY GOAL...

[oneday-dream0o]

summer is right around the corner!

[preflurityyyy]

i will be skinny

i will be skinny

i will be skinny

[silly-me-haha]

[exeqrualspo]

some spo for me and whoever else needs it. 🤍🪽

[everythinghurtslol]

I finally feel like I’m locked in again

Asked my psych for a dosage increase on my Wellbutrin and he agreed. I was on the max a few years ago and it had me walking around all night long with no appetite at all…

My boyfriend said he’s going to take me shopping this Saturday but it’s always so humiliating :/ I have no clothes but the thought of trying on shirts and jeans in front of him makes me sick. I’m genuinely trying to lose as much as I can before that but it is what it is.

Honestly, I seem to be losing almost a pound a day so I’m not too worried. Still works out to like 173 lbs by my vacation.

[everythinghurtslol]

Finally was able to use the bathroom 🥲

Gonna weigh myself after my shower, I’m hoping for 190 today 🤞🏻

[everythinghurtslol]

Breakfast:

Yogurt - 160

Small iced lavender oatmilk latte - 150?

—————— walked 2 miles to work (-270) ——————

Net: 40 cals

Lunch:

Brown sugar oatmilk Cortado - 130

Yogurt with blueberries and honey - 400

Watermelon - 45

Net: 615 cals

Dinner:

Tilapia - 100

Cucumber and bell pepper - 70?

Olive oil - 120

Net: 905 cals

1 am: 🫩

Cheese stick - 90

Yogurt - 130

Cake pop - 170

Total for the day: 1295 cals

[wishingiwasdiffrent]

Fml just want to be skinny

[myalteregosposts]

dream body right here