i feel worse than last time
im gonna tell a story because i have nobody else to talk to but ill try and make it short. a few years ago i met a genderfluid person who at the time identified as a boy. i am not gay or bisexual but was attracted to him. we ended up talking online as she lived very far away and due to a lack of physicality in the realtionship resorted to sexting. it didnt last long at all. i broke up with him nad we stopped speaking, after we began to sext again and like a fucking dumbass i said “this isnt romantic right?” which really upset him as i would expect it too now ive matures. this happened once more because im a dumbass adn we never spoke since. i thought i would try and sort it out with myself and i tried to make myself a better person as a result but after about 2 years i still miss her. still find excuses to look at her social media and for the first year continues to try and text her to no response. i dont know what to do. :(