Why I made this blog!
Truly cannot begin this with anything else I believe.
Ever since I was a little girl ive grown up being encouraged to play by my father and older brother. As a child I would spend hours watching my brother play all sort of games; from shooters, to story telling games.
So as you can guess, I grew up and started developing a separate love for games: meaning I started collecting my own consoles, videogames and merch.
Growing up in this perfect enviroment for self expression I was not aware of all the misogyny that goes around in the gaming community, so it all hit really hard when I was around 9, casually chatting with a classmate. Hobbies were brought up...and I was lectured as to why girls were not fit to game.
I was extremely puzzled, as I, in the most non-bragging way, have always been good at most games and have never had much trouble beating anything, even as a kid.
Me being me, I stopped talking to that kid altogether, but it really stuck with me for years, even now it comes back to haunt me from time to time. The thought of a kid having such ideas saddens me.
Once I became older and started being more involved in online gaming, I was met with the same discourse over and over again. You'll find more than half the time, my only mistake was letting myself be percieved as female in lobbies, which led to very uncomfortable situations.
Ive always been a hyper femenine girl, so you could guess this would reflect on my game accounts, even now I still do it because I refuse to have to hide myself in order not to get harassed.
It's exhausting; honestly! Always having to prove yourself, that you're worthy of a space...always being invited to 1v1 as a way to try and humiliate you, you win and suddenly you're 'good for a girl' or 'they were just joking'. 'Show me your game hours!' 'Give the controller back to (insert male figure here)'
I'll be damned if I ever allow someone that started gaming at 15 to discourage me from doing the hobby ive been enjoying ever since I can remember.
Anyway...villain backstories aside, the whole reason I made this blog was to:
1.Have a creative outlet for myself so that I can remember small bits from my games and also show my drawings, and other hobbies from time to time.
2.Give visibility to female gaming in it's most cutesy and fem shape, even if i recieve like two views LOL.
That being said, thanks for sticking by, and to all my fellow girl gamers: enjoy gaming however the hell you want, make it pink, blue, purple or green! Don't let anybody dictate what you do or how you do it.
Love,
Eva