GACHIAKUTA— tamsy caines x gn!reader
You’ve been acting strange since that night. There aren’t too many changes, but he knows that you know something.
CONTENT. MAJOR SPOILERS, NO ANIME FRIENDLY! cleaner!reader, tamsy is a lil mean, manipulation, toxic behaviors (is tamsy bro), reader and tamsy are in a strange ‘relationship’ If you could say it like that, not proofread, last part? Idk.
A/N. My lazy ass and my procrastination didn't help at all in doing this, which is why this part looks worse than the others. Can we ignore Tamsy being ooc sometimes? He's a damn problem to write (but I love him so much, I don't care). Thank you for the support you've given me! Seeing that you like what I write gives me more motivation to publish whatever crap comes to mind.
anyways, english is not my first language so forgive any mistakes.
tag list: @briefpeachdinosaur @helendelrey
You couldn't sleep that night.
Or the next night, or the night after that.
You were rethinking what to do with ‘that’ information. Should you tell someone? But what if it's nothing dangerous?
And what would happen if you didn't say anything? You had already decided that you didn't want to get too involved in this...
No. That would make you an accomplice, wouldn't it? And as you thought before, if it is dangerous, you could have prevented it if only you hadn't been afraid.
But you wouldn't be affected.
You sighed and let your head fall onto the desk. While you were deciding what to do, you wrote down what you were thinking and what you couldn't tell anyone. It was a habit you picked up recently, you did it for this kind of thing. Sometimes you came up with a solution to the problems you wrote down in your notes.
It's embarrassing, even though that's all there is for now.
You played with your pencil a little. Fortunately, you haven't had to deal with Tamsy much these days; you had different things to do and were very busy. That gave you some leeway to slip away from his quick chats and get out of there. You don't want to avoid him, but it's better to keep your distance as much as you can, at least until you figure out what the hell is going on with him.
Now that you think about it, Tamsy is a very private person. He has never told you anything too personal, and when you tried to test the waters by asking him about it, he simply changed the subject or gave you minimal information. Nothing complete, everything very vague.
He has also never told you anything about his scars.
You have to stop thinking nonsense. It's clearly none of your business, and it would be hypocritical of you to want to know everything about him when you've hidden things about yourself too. But is it wrong to want to know a little more about him?
You looked at your notes for a moment. The page was almost full, you never bothered to reread what you wrote.
You have nothing more to write, it's time to put them away where you always do.
“You've been different lately, is everything okay?”
You looked up, turning your vital instrument for the tenth time in a futile attempt to let this silence flow between you. You're surprised that Tamsy sought you out shortly after finally finding a break in his busy schedule.
“Yes. I just haven't been sleeping well, as usual.” Tamsy stared at your face for longer than you would have liked, making you shift uncomfortably under his gaze.
Tamsy is more intimidating than you would like to admit. And even more so when you know his secret.
The smile he gave you afterwards confused you.
“All right, I'll stop with this. Why couldn't you sleep well? I'm a little curious.”
You avoided looking at Tamsy, focusing instead on the shape of your vital instrument. It was a little difficult, but you managed it very successfully.
“It's just me. Sometimes I have trouble sleeping.” Lie. He knows you're lying.
If you're not willing to tell him the truth, he'll have to find out for himself.
Tamsy nodded in understanding. “You can come to me when that happens, it won't be any trouble for me.”
He... you won't bother thinking that.
“Thanks, but that would be fucking embarrassing. No.” Tamsy just smiled, dismissing it with a wave of his hand through those big sleeves of his.
You jumped a little when Tamsy gently leaned on your shoulder, one of his characteristic locks tickling your neck. A shiver ran through your body.
“Can I complain that you've been neglecting me lately? It seems like you've been ignoring me.”
He doesn't like changes without explanation.
“What are you talking about? If I were ignoring you, we wouldn't be like this. I would have run away long ago.” Tamsy raised his hand and gave you a little tap on the cheek.
“Not like that. You don't have to ignore me because of your lack of sleep...”
You won't try to fight with him, it's useless. “Whatever you say, then.” You'll let him think what he wants, trying to convince him otherwise is impossible.
Tamsy seemed pleased with your answer, and finally walked away to give himself you some personal space.
“You are weird.” Is he being serious right now?
You stared at him, waiting for him to get the message, but Tamsy just stared back at you. “You know I'm joking. I've also noticed that you've been grumpier than usual lately, like now.”
You shifted your attention to a specific spot in the room, too tired to respond. “...You know, my insomnia makes me like this too.”
He already knew that, he knows you very well. He just wants to see if he can get anything more out of you than that.
“It must be hard for you these days, you value your sleep so much after all.” Boring. Could you talk about something else?
You stood in silence for a moment, there was no other sound but the occasional of distant voices and doors. “Oh, looks like some cleaners are ready to go on missions.”
You turned toward him, not remembering he was so close. “Hey, now that I think about it, why don't you—”
“TAMSYYYY, IT'S TIME TO GO!!!”
You heard Tamsy's irritated sigh beside you as Delmon abruptly entered, and you had to cover your ears for a moment.
“Could you please not make so much noise?” He's a little annoyed. He doesn't like being interrupted so soon.
“I'M SORRY, TAMSY!!! I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE WITH THEM!” Tamsy got up from his seat, and you just followed him with your eyes.
“Yes, I was spending time with them. But that doesn't matter now.” He doesn't want to go on that insignificant mission. Sometimes he is annoyed by his job as a cleaner, but he can put up with it for a while longer. He still has to continue in his role.
“I'M SORRY! I SHOULD HAVE—”
“I said it doesn't matter anymore. Let's go.”
Tamsy let out a soft sigh, briefly grabbing his head in indignation.
“See you later.” He turned around to look at you, giving you one of those friendly smiles of his, and hurried out of the room with Delmon, leaving you blank for a moment—Team Eager stuff, you guess.
“THE MISSION WE WERE ASSIGNED ISN'T AS DIFFICULT AS OTHERS! WE CAN COME BACK QUICKLY SO THAT—”
Delmon heeded the blond-haired man's words and they continued walking. Tamsy felt relieved again by the wonderful silence that ensued, finally his eardrums were no longer suffering.
That gave him a moment to calmly think about what had been going on these days with his interactions with you. You've been acting strange lately.
His smile remained on his face.
What's been bothering you so much?
“So...” you started with the boy next to you. You can't deny that it's a little difficult to try to talk to him, especially now, when he's so focused on eating some noodles.
Rudo glanced at you out of the corner of his eye, but said nothing. The fact that he was still sitting at the same table (even though you were the one who had intentionally sat here first) was the only confirmation you needed that he wasn't uncomfortable.
“How long have you had that hobby of yours? I mean, repairing things.” Rudo paused for a moment, thinking about what to say. Since... how long?
“Since I was a kid.” Rudo looked back at you, saw how you stared at the glass of some liquid he couldn't quite recognize.
“You're very good at it.” You both fell silent after the small talk. You didn't try to talk to him anymore, you were thinking a little, and the boy was more focused on eating.
A few months ago, Rudo had arrived at The Ground. He's a Sphereite that was kicked out by the idiots upstairs. In fact, you still think they're morons, but Rudo makes you doubt that thought.
Rudo is... you don't know him very well to be honest, but from the little you've talked, he doesn't fit the stereotype you had of all those people.
You might even have wanted to avoid him in the past, thinking he would be like a spoiled child, or looking down on all of you for even touching his precious porcelain skin. After all, that's how they are, right?
You think you were wrong, at least with him.
“Will you soon have your first job as a cleaner?” You stirred your glass a little. You didn't want it anymore, it tasted awful.
Rudo shrugged slightly. “They haven't told me anything.” You stared at him—or rather, you stared at his big gloves.
Do they get in the way sometimes? They're a little worn, which is normal after having them for so long, according to Rudo. If you remember correctly, his father gave them to him.
How did a piece of Watchman get to the Sphere? It doesn't make sense to you.
Watchman... Are Rudo, Amo, and Tamsy connected in some way?
You sighed again and leaned on the table, trying to forget about it for a moment. You wished you had never entered Tamsy's room that night. If only you didn't remember...
You've become a little different because of that incident. You think that something could happen to you at any moment, or worse, that Tamsy might find out. You don't know what he might do in that case.
You're an idiot. You'll never get tired of repeating it. You got yourself into all this trouble because of a stupid cassette.
“Well... I'm going to my room. Good luck.”
The boy looked up, his mouth full of noodles, but nodded slightly.
You got up from your seat and waved a quick goodbye before leaving the room.
This is driving you crazy.
You don't know how much longer you can take it.
The sound of paper made you turn to Semiu, who was sorting through sheets of who knows what. She's been very busy lately.
It seems that paperwork and missions piled up again, which is why you were able to take advantage of being close to her without arousing suspicion.
This was one of the consequences of your paranoia. you always tried not to be alone, as you felt safer that way. That said, it was quite normal to seek out Semiu, Enjin, or other cleaners to be around.
“How many missions are? I'm surprised by the number of sightings of trash beasts. I don't think even with all the cleaners working we'll be able to handle it...”
Semiu sighed and shook her head. “Right now, I'm sending out the cleaners who are available. I just sent Rudo and Tamsy on a mission, but we need more. Help me with this.”
You took the papers she gave you. There were a lot of them, but all you had to do was sort them, which was easy. On the other hand, you were surprised at how quickly they sent Rudo on his first job. You barely slept for thirty minutes...
“And Riyo? I heard she's back to normal.” You also heard that she came with Mildretta and that other guy who has a Raider uniform, what was his name...?
"She's fine now. She's ready for some missions I'll assign her, but there's still a lot to do. Tomorrow you'll have more work than usual, I have to make sure to divide all the missions among the cleaners who are available at this time."
You nodded. You had taken a day off to rest a little. It felt strange. It had been a long time since you had asked the boss for some time off.
You let out a snort. It would have been better to do a thousand missions today, at least that way you would have other things to focus on. The problem is that you're a little tired, perhaps due to the mental exhaustion you're going through. You don't think you're in the best condition to even activate your vital instrument.
“It will be Rudo's first job as a cleaner...” you said quietly, but Semiu heard you anyway.
“That's right. We can't send him as the only Giver, so Tamsy offered to guide him.” Then he'll be fine. Tamsy seems to have a close bond with Rudo. You had seen how he treated him on occasion.
“I hope they come back okay.”
They didn't come back okay.
At least Follo, who was good news in that he was now a Giver, had some problems in the midst of it all. First and foremost, some (including you) thought that Rudo had turned Follo into a living weapon or something, but that was quickly dismissed when Semiu took a look at the boy and said everything was fine.
“What the hell happened?” You said it without thinking, a little confused about what must have happened on that mission for everything to end up like this.
“It was a bit of a difficult mission. We managed, but obviously Follo ended up like that, and apparently Rudo couldn't use his powers when he had one more item left to use. So we deduced that maybe Follo could have become a weapon for Rudo.”
You turned to look at Tamsy, who was staring at the boy with a neutral expression. He was one of the calmest about all this, if you can say that.
You paid very little attention to Semiu's explanation of ‘why’ all this might have happened, understanding a little of what she was saying.
You were about to leave when you felt a chill run down your spine. You turned around quickly and bumped into the Boss, who had a strange expression on his face.
“Whoa! You scared me...” It seems you weren't the only one who was scared...
You took advantage of the fact that everyone else was focused on what the boss was saying and walked away a little, but you were confused when, after saying a few words, he left too quickly.
Did he have something on his mind?
“It looks like Rudo and Follo finally became friends.” You glanced sideways at Tamsy, who was looking in the direction of the two mentioned, and you quickly did the same. They were surrounded by many cleaners and supports, all celebrating and very happy. You couldn't feel the same way.
Something is wrong, but you don't know what.
Or maybe it's just you, there's nothing wrong. Everything went very well.
But then why did the boss react like that...?
“I'll go get him something to eat.” Tamsy's voice snapped you out of your thoughts, and you turned just in time to see him walking calmly out of the infirmary. When he left the room, you turned your head and noticed that Tomme, a few feet away, had a slightly serious expression on her face as she looked in the direction Tamsy had gone.
She quickly noticed you looking at her, completely changing her expression and waving slightly at you.
Does she dislike Tamsy? You wouldn’t think so. Tomme has never shown any sign of dislike towards him before.
Unless... You're not the only one. You know that suspicious look very well
Should you talk to her? just to get rid of your suspicions. It's a bad idea, but you can't live with the curiosity anymore.
You approached Tomme, asking her if you could talk for a moment. As you expected she agreed, and you left the room for more privacy.
“What did you want to talk about?” You were silent for a moment, the shouts of the others still audible outside the room.
You have to calm down, you can't back out now. Tomme is looking at you with confusion right now, and you just want to know if it's as bad as you think it is.
“Can you tell me how Rudo's mission went? I got a little lost with everything everyone else was saying, and since you always take notes on what happened...” Tomme nodded and began to briefly tell you everything that had happened. What confused you was that at one point she seemed indecisive, grabbing her cap and looking in another direction.
“If you don't want to tell me that's fine, I can—” Tomme interrupted you.
“No, it's okay. As I was saying, Rudo and Follo had a fight and... I don't know why it seemed that way to me, but... it seemed like Tamsy didn't want to intervene.” That's enough for you.
She left you with some doubts, but you thanked Tomme anyway and left. You need to process what she told you.
Tamsy has strange attitudes.
What is he doing? You trust him, or at least you used to trust him a lot. However, now you have too many questions. Is he really as kind as you think he is?
He is a person who inspires confidence, and his appearance is like... like an angel's, and his personality is no different. He is perfect in every way, no matter how you look at him.
You don't know what to think of him.
You stopped when you realized your feet had unconsciously taken you to the hallway leading to the boss's office. You don't want to bother him, and you have no business being here. Why...?
You have to leave. You're standing in the middle of the hallway like a jerk. You turned around, but you couldn't take more than a few steps before you heard a door open behind you. You looked over your shoulder, confused when you saw the person coming out of Corvus's office.
“I didn't think you needed to talk to the boss too, you can come in now if you want.” His signature bun was gone, letting his blonde locks fall freely over his shoulders and back.
Is he taking another day off?
“No... I can tell him later, it wasn't urgent.”
Tamsy tilted his head, his interested gaze making you break eye contact. He didn't say anything, and with that you were able to escape and go to your room.
Tamsy narrowed his eyes slightly in the direction you had gone. He needs to try something.
There's something you're not telling him.
“Was it necessary to come here?” You saw the place where Tamsy had almost dragged you by force. He had insisted on bringing you here before going on his 'trip.'
“Of course. This is the place I visit most often, they make good noodles.” You were a little reluctant to accept. You don't know what made him want to invite you, but you won't complain for now.
The two of you sat at a table that was further away from the others. It didn't take you long to grab the menu and see what to order. You were undecided about what to choose, you had never been here before.
“I'd recommend this one.”
You looked up, Tamsy smiled and pointed to a noodle dish on the menu. It looked delicious, and it seemed to be the specialty of the place.
“Don't worry about paying, consider it a gift from me for the cassette you gave me." You opened your mouth to protest, but Tamsy just shook his head.“Don't waste your time.”
You gave up trying to argue and just let him do what he wanted. You waited a while until a waitress came over to take your order, then left shortly after. “Where are you going?” You tried to start a conversation after a few minutes of silence.
“It's a little far from here, and to be honest, I don't like going there often, but I have business to attend to.” Seriously, that's all you got as an answer?
You sensed that Tamsy wasn't willing to say more than that. It feels strange. Tamsy always confuses you.
“I see. You'll be away for a few days, right?”
“Yes. Why? Are you going to miss me?” You blinked a couple of times, but then shook your head.
“Don't be like that! I was just curious.”
Tamsy hummed. “Curiosity leads to nothing good. You know that?” You felt uncomfortable with his words, but you shrugged it off; it's not like you could do much about it now anyway.
“Cut it out. I'm just trying to strike up a conversation. You know what that is?” Tamsy rested his face in his palm, looking at you with an amused expression.
“I know, but you're really bad at it. No offense.” You grumbled a little in annoyance at his words. Luckily for you, the waitress finally arrived with the two plates of noodles and drinks you had ordered.
She left, leaving you alone with Tamsy again, now in a slightly more comfortable atmosphere for you. That would give you some space to try to find out more about him.
You looked down at your plate of food, waiting for it to cool down a bit with some difficulty. Damn, Tamsy has good taste. It looks delicious.
“Tamsy, what things do you like? Apart from your taste in music and noodles.”
Tamsy put his hand on his chin, pretending to think. You're a little nosy today.
“I like loose-fitting clothes.” Wow, he finally deigned to give you a more direct answer. You started eating, and as you imagined, the taste was a blessing to your taste buds.
“What else? Are you passionate about anything?” Yes, his plans with Rudo set him in motion, but you don't need to know that.
“Nothing specific comes to my mind right now. How about you?”
You thought about it for a moment, not realizing that Tamsy hadn't touched his food yet. “I'm passionate about killing trash beasts and saving civilians in the process.” That almost made him roll his eyes.
“I understand.” You both remained silent for a short time before you insisted again.
“Where are you from? And how did you get those marks?”
If he wasn't pretending right now, he would have left you here alone. He organized all of this because he wanted to know something before he left.
Now, he won't curse you so much for being so curious. He's in the same state as you, he'll have to get a little ahead of what he originally planned. He'll borrow your attempt to ‘get’ information out of him.
“It was an accident I had a while ago. Are you feeling better now?” He changes the subject, again.
“Mhm, it was nothing serious.” You're a big liar. He doesn't like you lying to him.
“Are you sure it's nothing serious? I was a little worried, and the fact that this change started that night has me intrigued.”
You stopped eating, the noodles were starting to taste too sour in your mouth. You don't like where this is going.
“It has nothing to do with it.”
“Of course it does. If it's something serious, you can tell me.”
You looked away, anxiously hoping that would make Tamsy back off from whatever he was trying to do. Unfortunately, he didn't.
“Did something bother you that night? Did you see something or someone?”
“...No. I just had a nightmare.” As if he would believe you.
“Can I ask what that nightmare was about? The fact that it's been tormenting you for days gives me the impression that it was something serious.”
“It was awful, and that's why I don't want to say anything.”
Tamsy fell silent, but it wasn't long before he spoke again. “Does that dream have anything to do with your behavior? You only behave this way with me, and apparently when you're with someone else you seem more comfortable.”
That made you stop, Tamsy noticed that. There it is. That's all he needs.
You stopped talking when Tamsy gave you a light caress on your cheek. You looked at him with wide eyes.
“Don't be so nervous. I was just returning what you were doing a moment ago. But… I meant what I said about you being able to count on me. If you have a problem, don't hesitate to tell me, really. I'll try to help you as much as I can.”
He withdrew his hand and placed some money in the center of the table, then stood up. You didn't hesitate to follow him. You weren't hungry anymore anyway.
But first, you paused for a moment to look at Tamsy's plate. He hadn't eaten anything. Was he not hungry? Anyway, Tamsy was leaving, and you had to catch up with him.
He waited patiently for you at the door, and you left that place together. Surprisingly, you remained completely silent the whole way.
At least you were spared all that. You didn't think Tamsy would confront you like that. He had done it before, but never as directly as now.
You hope you didn't let slip anything too obvious; that's what happens when you get nervous.
Tamsy, on the other hand, was quite calm about what happened.
He has to take care of something before he leaves.
You suddenly stopped writing in your notebook; you couldn't think of anything else to write. It's night. Once again, you couldn't sleep. And that was the main reason you started doing this, to see if it would help you get some sleep, but it only made you overthink things.
What Tomme told you, the Watchman series...
The book... what was it for? And why does Tamsy have it? And why would he hide it?
And why didn't he intervene in the fight between Rudo and Follo?
Screw it. You're going to think more deeply about all this. There are many loose ends, and you feel that the book you saw is just the beginning.
You were overanalyzing everything, even what seemed ‘harmless.’ You didn't trust that it was all just coincidence.
To begin with, after a while you realized something that may be logical to you: the people who were affected during this period of time are all connected to Rudo.
Amo, Follo, and Rudo's father. There are few, but you just feel like there's something there.
Or is Rudo just a magnet for trouble?
Since he arrived, the cleaners have had more problems. You just thought it was because he was a Sphereite in The Ground. It has to be more than that, right? Or maybe not.
You have to start somewhere else, again. First, Rudo arrived down here more than two months ago, his goal is to go back up to the Sphere, and also to find out who killed his father. His father gave him the gloves. You don't know how, but he gave them to him.
But here we go again. What does all this have to do with Tamsy? You want to leave it at that. It's much harder than you thought.
Tamsy takes a lot of time off, and you don't even know where he goes because when you ask him, he never answers.
Your lack of concentration makes it harder than it already is. You're missing important things, or perhaps not, there was never anything to begin with. You don't know.
What if you tell someone else? That way you could get some help, and probably come to some new conclusions. You don't know if Tamsy is connected in any way to Amo or Rudo, but it's worth a try.
You abruptly stand up from your chair, you're going to tell someone. You can no longer bear the thought that you're being an accomplice if you remain silent, you'll do it to get yourself out of trouble. You don't care who it is, the first person you come across will be the one you tell everything to.
Tomme or someone else. You don't care.
All of this makes you feel sick to your stomach. Ever since you found out about that damn book, everything has changed, including your perception of Tamsy.
You walked quickly, and when you opened the door to your room to at least find someone and tell them everything, you saw the person you least wanted to see right now.
“Oh, I was about to knock, but I thought you were sleeping. It's very late.” There was Tamsy, with one hand slightly raised to knock on the door.
“I wanted to talk to you.”
“Uh... I don't know, Tamsy... I'm tired and I don't—” Tamsy interrupted you.
“It'll be quick, I promise.”
You mumbled something you didn't even know what it was. Would it be bad to slam the door in his face? You want to, but you don't know what to do.
“Please. I won't be here tomorrow, so I want to do it now.” And why especially in the middle of the night?
You quickly looked around, hoping someone would pass by and see you like this, saving you. You wished the boss, Semiu, Enjin, or anyone else would come to your rescue.
“Can I come in?” You look at him with a neutral expression before stepping aside and letting him pass. You have no other options left. Maybe it's something else and you're just making a fuss because you're thinking the worst.
“Okay, but just for a moment. It's late and I want to go to sleep.” Tamsy smiles at you, glancing slightly down the hallways out of the corner of his eye. There's no one around.
“I can't visit someone I care about anymore?” Of course not, you won't fall for that fallacy of his. What you are sure of is that Tamsy is a liar. “I couldn't sleep, so I thought I'd stop by to say hello.”
Tamsy entered your room, looking around curiously. There are several things, but it's not very messy. He's seen better, but it's decent.
“What did you want to talk about?” Tamsy turned his gaze to you, looking as calm as ever. Again, it feels off.
“Something important. Sorry if it's late, but I remembered this a moment ago and had to come talk to you about it.” You blinked a little uncomfortably. Tamsy just stood there, in the middle of your room. You didn't realize he had locked the door. As clueless as ever, he usually gets his way with you easily.
“Get on with it, I'm tired—”
You didn't know how you managed to ignore your instinct to run away when you saw that.
“Is this what's been bothering you so much?” You felt the blood drain from your face. There it was, the damn book you saw a few days ago, resting in Tamsy's hand. Damn.
“You saw this, didn't you? That was my only conclusion, and it seems I was right.” The false facade fell away, revealing him in all his glory. He didn't even try to hide it, showing himself almost completely.
His calm tone of voice made you more alert. There's no way he could be this calm after someone found out he has that thing. But he... is he so sure? As if he already knew the outcome of all this.
You took a few short steps back in a futile attempt to get away from him. Tamsy didn't move or try to chase you, he just smiled at you and stayed there, still holding the book up for all to see.
He knows he has you right where he wants you.
“How did you figure it out? And so damn fast?” You won't try to hide it anymore. Tamsy already knows, but how...?
Tamsy put his free hand on his chest, a little indignant at your response. “You underestimate me. You have certain patterns that are a little easy to spot.” Come on, it was a little obvious that something was wrong. You only behaved that way with him, however slightly. He spent time observing you before, so it was obvious that he would notice the slightest changes in your behavior.
And on top of that, he remembers not locking his room that same night. What he still doesn't understand is why you would go into his room? Why didn't you take the book instead and show it to someone when you had the chance? You're stupid.
You didn't have time to grab your vital instrument to defend yourself. Tamsy quickly approached you, and your attempts to push him away were useless. You felt both of you fall onto your bed.
“You should have left it alone. Maybe if you had kept quiet a little longer, I wouldn't have minded having you as my ally, hm?” Too bad you couldn't keep even the smallest secret you had. You'd be a snitch, and he's not interested in snitches.
Something he finds interesting is that you reacted that way just because of the book. He wonders how you would react if you realized that he killed Rudo's father, or that he was the one who kidnapped Amo.
Confusion and fear completely overwhelmed you. He was on top of you, and when you made a miserable attempt to reach for your vital instrument on the nightstand, Tamsy quickly grabbed it and carelessly threw it a little further away.
“Uh, uh. We don't want that, do we?” He stared at you. He would be lying if he said he wasn't enjoying this. Seeing your expression right now makes him want to laugh a little.
You struggled a little. He had to admit that you gave him more trouble than he thought he would in trying to subdue you. He knew you were strong, but he didn't think it would be more difficult than he wanted to admit. No matter, nothing Tokushin couldn't fix.
He quickly activated his vital instrument. You felt the thick navy blue strings on your skin shortly after the object finished growing, tightening as you squirmed like a worm, at his thought.
It took a moment before you felt Tamsy remove himself from on top of you. When his shadow no longer covered your face, you opened your eyes. You saw him there at the foot of the bed with a gentle grip on his vital object. He wasn't doing anything, just watching you struggle.
You stopped moving when the grip became too tight and painful on your skin. It would leave bruises later. Did you even care about that right now?
“Are you done? You know it's useless to fight the threads. If you move any more, it won't be long before you start bleeding—”
“You...” You took a few more breaths. Pausing, the lump in your throat preventing you from speaking properly. You feel so much anger and frustration right now. “You did all that to Amo... didn't you?” You said it without thinking, not even knowing for sure if he did it. You just said it to test whether he would be honest when you couldn't do anything about it. You felt several threads cover your mouth.
“How clever.” He's mocking you, you know it because his expression shows the opposite of what should be a compliment.
Although he may be a little curious about how you came to that conclusion. He'll have to pay more attention to you in the future.
“Snooping through someone's things is disrespectful. You know that, right?” A little dove decided to go where it shouldn't have.
“I'll let it slide this time, just because it's you. You're still useful to me, discarding you would be stupid right now. I'll have to do something lighter, just so there are no inconsistencies in all this, you know.” Aw, he finds your expression right now endearing. You’re pitiful.
Although he can't deny that he doesn't like this view.
You tried to hide as much as you could, you're embarrassed for him to see you like this. You didn't bother talking to him. It's not like you can anyway, his threads completely cover your mouth.
You'll have to wait for whatever he has in store for you. He'll probably use that book, or finally have Tokushin strangle you to death. A tingling sensation runs through your body.
The threads feel comforting in their grip compared to the person standing in front of you.
“Very good, you're doing well. Stay still and this will be over much faster.” The good thing about all this is that he can mock you all he wants, you'll forget this whole incident anyway.
Tamsy moved away from you a little, doing something you couldn't understand. You enjoyed the moment of peace he gave you when he moved away. He stayed like that for a considerable amount of time, until he returned to where you were with steps you could barely hear. That made you feel uncomfortable again, you couldn't help but squirm a little more in your place. And to think that before his presence made you feel comfortable, even safe.
Now you hate him, you feel weird. Was he always like this? Cruel.
“Take that look off your face, you're hurting me a little. Wasn't I the one you liked? Hm, how do those people usually say it...? Oh, right! You have to accept your lover no matter what, don’t you?”
He's crazy. Fucking crazy. What did you get yourself into?
Tamsy couldn't help it and let out a quiet laugh. He didn't think this was going to be a little funny.
But unfortunately, it has to end. He doesn't have any time left, and he doesn't want to risk anyone hearing all this commotion.
When you looked up, you saw that one of his hands was pointing at you, and in the other he held the book, wide open. You closed your eyes tightly. This is where it all ends, right? You struggled one last time.
You didn't have time to think about anything else before you fell unconscious. You felt everything spinning around you. Many whirlpools swirled around in your mind.
Tamsy watched as you slowly lost consciousness. Your body lost its balance, you were completely vulnerable and defenseless. So weak, he could have killed you if he had wanted to.
He finally let the threads go from your body. Several red marks appeared on your skin. Apparently the pressure was a little too much, it was a miracle that no blood came out. Without waiting much longer, he returned Tokushin to its original state.
He left Tokushin on the nightstand for a moment and went to your body. He easily settled you into a comfortable position and stared at your sleeping face.
He used to think that having you by his side as his ‘partner’ would be good and the best thing, but now that he thinks about it more, he doesn't want that.
Having a weakness like that would be counterproductive. He would leave it unlabeled.
Labels are stupid anyway. Besides, it's much more complicated than that.
The only problem he sees so far with not being an official couple is trying to keep you hooked on him. (And if he's lucky, making you depend on him a little, just to be sure.) However, he can fix that.
Everything can be fixed with a little affection. Make you feel like the most special and lucky person in the world. Hold you in his arms and warn you of the dangers out there, intentionally avoiding the fact that the person holding you sweetly is exactly what he's warning you about.
He can give you what you need.
He brushed a strand of hair from your sleeping face, remembering for a moment the sad expression on your face and that look of hatred in his direction. Hm... was that too much?
It's best for you to be like this, he won't regret it. He just needs to not go too far, he doesn't want to break you yet.
He withdrew completely from you, going to grab your vital instrument to put it back where it originally was, but when he stood up again he saw a notebook wide open on your desk.
That made him curious, so he approached and began to read it a little, at least to find out what it was about. His eyebrows rose slightly when he saw what it was.
You're full of surprises.
Did you suspect this would happen? Or would you just do it to sleep better?
He'll have to take care of it for you. Having this notebook at your disposal would be cheating later on. Don't worry, he'll take good care of it.
He'll read it all another time. He has to leave now.
When he was satisfied that everything was back to normal, he tucked you in and quietly left your room, closing the door behind him. He left a note on your nightstand
He expects you to behave while he is away.
He has matters to attend to upstairs.
You woke up annoyed when the sunlight hit your eyes. You ignored your sleepiness and sat up, your eyes still dazed by the excess light that covered them. A slight headache set in.
You only remember that Tamsy came to drop something off and you talked for a bit. It seems that you fell asleep at some point during the conversation you were having. But why, when you try to remember more, are there scratches covering something? You must be going crazy, or you're still very sleepy.
Tamsy... right. He probably already left for his trip.
You looked at your alarm clock. It was a little late, you overslept. You'd like to stay in bed a little longer.
A flash of something made you focus your gaze on something next to your alarm clock.
There's... a piece of paper?
You stretched out your arm and sure enough, there was a piece of paper, a note with beautiful handwriting.
‘As I told you, I'll be away for a few days taking care of some things. Before I left this morning, I left you a gift in your desk so you won't miss me too much. Don't get into too much trouble while I'm gone.’
You stared at the note. You're going to miss him during this time, just a little.
You can't expect to see him again.
