he has social anxiety. this stems from his lack of socialization as a child, which in turn stems from the decline of visits from his father. it caused him to withdraw from his social life, and still seems to trouble him from time to time.
he has plenty of scars from all of the fighting, but the most important are: the lye burn on the back of his right hand and the bullet wound scar on his left cheek.
he has a deep fear of not being masculine enough. between his lack of a father figure and obnoxious children on playgrounds doing anything they can to fuck another kid's life up, his child self didn't has much confidence in the area of being a 'real man'.
he's also slightly uncomfortable with men who are more effeminate/men who defy gender roles, but that's more inward than anything else.
sometimes he finds himself missing that deep, unbearable burning sensation. or perhaps it's the feeling of absolute freedom it gave.
most of the music he listens to is 90s grunge, garage bands, and anything that gives that sort of aesthetic. nothing will convince him that nirvana isn't one of the greatest bands of all time.
he smokes. tyler got him started and he hasn't had the emotional stability to actually quit.
he was physically attracted to tyler. he'll never tell a soul, but he got off thinking about him more than once.
after project mayhem, he found himself going to more and more commercial coffee joints and restaurants. although, he's still rather weary of the food for obvious reasons...
he has a blood/bruises kink, but doesn't really mention it to partners for fear of rejection/disapproval.
he's passively suicidal. he wouldn't purposefully put himself in danger, or in any way attempt suicide, but he wouldn't mind dying either. it's the worst kind of limbo.
his name is robert paulson
he has the date marked on his calender. he still mourns.
his insomnia quickly returned after tyler left. he's okay with that.
while he's into everything tyler's into, he'll never actually act on any of the kinkier side of things without prompt from his partner. he already has a fear of being rejected and a fear of being disappointing in bed. mix that together and you've got a grade A mental breakdown.
he's very bad at saying no. it makes him nervous.
he doesn't really keep up with the newest whatever nowadays, and barely bothers to renew his phone. seriously, he probably still has a nokia or something.
he has a hard time forming his thoughts. this is why he tends to stammer, his mouth and social obligation to answer quickly for it.
entourage was going to be a beautiful black labrador, and he was going to follow him everywhere