I.'ll Burn Da Heart Out of U

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Just want to say I love your blog and the posts, if you start a IG account maybe post the link here? so we can still follow:) All the best❤️

I wonder when this was sent. I was thinking about creating an account someplace else as Tumblr does not seem to be it anymore but I doubt anyone would be interested. I don’t think anyone will even read this answer. But if anyone will, what are your suggestions? Which platform seems the most fitting to you?

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Hi everyone who might be reading this.

This is one of the rare occasions when I log in and see what’s up and honestly it seems like nothing’s up, I don’t even know if the football fandom even exists on Tumblr anymore and how functional it is. Thinking of closing this blog and maybe starting an IG account or whatever. I dunno. I’ll think about it for a while.

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If anyone still visits this blog, do send messages. I’ll do a better job answering them from now on. I could seriously use distraction and just talk about anything, really. Because frankly, every day I feel like I’m on the verge of losing my shit. I’m tremendously happy that Iker is doing well and thank the Universe every day for looking out for him but it still is so damn difficult to get my head around the fact that the heart attack even happened in the first place. And now the news about Sara. Everything just seems so surreal. I march on and so should everyone but it feels like I’m way out of my comfort zone and will never get back in again. The world is no longer a safe place. It always seemed so, even when terrible things were happening I still thought that nothing bad would ever dare touch Iker. And now I know it’s not like that. My whole mindset has been turned upside down. And I need time to accept that and learn to live in this new reality. And this is just me. I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of adjusting Iker has to deal with, him being so sure that he would play at least until he’s 40 and loving his craft as much as he does. All of it pains me on a daily basis and I just wish I could take some of Iker’s anger and hurt, or better yet, all of it. But again, he has to go through this process on his own. I’m sure he will only get stronger as a person and as the true man that he is. I’m sure Sara will win the battle she faces and I sure wish her well. Because each of us has only one option, which is living our lives, enjoying and treasuring it, whatever obstacles thrown our way.

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You said you’ve changed your mind about some of the people you’ve criticized on your tumblr. Could you name some of these people? I’m just curious :)

Well, I already mentioned Ricky and Sara. Sorry it took so long to reply, I’m going through a difficult period in my life.

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do you think Cristiano is happy?

He is. Not every minute of every day but he is a happy person and there’s a good reason for that.

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As promised, Happy Belated Birthday, Foxy. Love u.

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Happy Birthday, My Love! Wish You all the health, strength, happiness and joy in the world. I love You endlessly…

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U´ve missed David´s beeday. Cause of Iker?

Yes. Sure Foxy wouldn’t mind. I’ll congratulate him after May 20th.

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Hola, Nina! Mmmmm, Sara... ¿Por qué cambiaste de opinión?

Hi. Since you obviously understood what I wrote in English, I’ll answer in English. I learned she loves Iker. Probably not in the highest sense of this word but at her maximum anyway.

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Doubt anyone remembers me. Still I want to get something off my chest. What happened to Iker is beyond my understanding. A heart attack rarely comes out of the blue, there usually is a heart desease developing prior to it. If there was, Iker and the medical staff would know, given that he has always been serious about his health and work ethic. I can’t get my head around it all. It still feels like it could not happen and I’m just dreaming. Still, I feel so very happy and relieved Iker received the help he needed exactly when he needed it. Nothing is more important to me than his health and well-being. I love him so much. I don’t know what happens next career-wise, too early to talk about that. For now, I just want Iker to rest and be as attentive to his emotional and physical state as possible.

As for giffing, I’m not able to do it now because of many reasons but I will post everything I’ve missed eventually. Especially now that there is a pause in Iker’s schedule plus the summer break around the corner for Cris, I’m sure I’ll have time to make it up for anyone still counting on me. Thanks.

Also you might remember me saying I changed my mind about some people I criticized. Not one of us likes admitting our mistakes and nor do I but in this case, I’m glad I’ve been mistaken, especially now. The list of people I’ve been wrong about now includes Sara. I am sorry for the bad stuff I’ve written here. And I’m sincerely glad I wasn’t right about her.

Well, that’s all I wanted to say. Let us all hope scares like this won’t happen again and our loved ones will be healthy. Let’s be kinder to each other and more positive about each day we’re given. If anyone wants to talk, do send messages, I could use a distraction in times like this.

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For those who might be interested, I’m giffing. Just been super busy, sorry.

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Can’t see how filming a documentary gives one the right to personalize a stadium box and shit it with your logo. But I guess it’s just me. That moron is truly something else.

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Историческая хуйня. Pepe, sunshine, thank you for that save at the end, it was heroic. 😘 Iker deserves the world and finally has some good things thrown his way. I’m absolutely worn out but happy. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Can’t believe it’s been one year since Davide Astori passed away. The applause on 13th minute kinda caught me off guard.

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It’s March 2019 and I still cannot bring myself to watch the concert in celebration of Chester’s life. It’s not the first time I fail at doing it. I want to watch it and one day I finally will, just not this time. I turned it on and lasted seven minutes before I had to press pause. Mike and the guys lasted three hours on stage and managed to not blow up from all kinds of emotions, so soon after Chester was gone. I can’t imagine how devastating and cathartic it must have felt, how heart-breaking and surreal it was to not have Chester there by their side. I admire their strength and the dignity they’ve gone through it all with and just wish every ray of sunshine their ways. Mike, you have a heart of gold and are everything we should aspire to be as human beings. Chester, you are one of a kind, totally irreplaceable and ever present in the lives of everyone you’ve touched with your incredible voice and your precious soul. There’s not a single day when I don’t think of you somehow. Knowing there are people you can never be disappointed in, people you believe in, people who are the solid rocks of your existence is the greatest privilege and in you two I have exactly that, just like in many others. I love you both.

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thoughts on Ramos copying Cristiano nonstop

Does he continue doing that? If so, I’m not aware. I have discussed it when I had to follow RM while Cris stayed there and have said that Ramos has no stable identity, he just steals bits of this and that from different people and builds up a non-existing public persona.

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Did as promised and watched a few films today. Green Book was okay, very nice writing-wise at times. But Roma… Can’t get why would someone find it a brilliant movie, like, seriously? It’s boring and slow af, there’s no palpable conflict, no real plot, no acting, no proper close-ups even, no music, no nothing???? I lasted an hour and turned it off. I probably have no taste, at least in the way society understands this word. Whatever.