fabfemmeboy

Fic, musicals, clothes, and way too much about gays on film. He/him, Kinsey 6, Double-demi, Neurospicy

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

you have to dress in this style for the rest of your life!

(you do not have to follow the beliefs associated with the style if that style has associated beliefs. The wheel curse does not affect anything like that.)

Do you like it?

yes!!

it's okay I guess

no

NO.

I dress like this already

results/other/unsure

Remaining time: 4 days 12 hours

[ropoto]

7.01 “It Takes a Village”

[phantomrose96]

Dealing with burnout is sooooooooooooooo easy all you need to do is operate at 40% indefinitely and be kind of mad at yourself the whole time.

[woman-becomer]

imagine a goat with a hat

STOP-

what hat did you give the goat what is the instinctual hat you gave to this goat

[fabfemmeboy]

10 people I'd like to get to know better

Tagged by @futchbambi

last song: I don't remember what played last as I got out of my car. I know what's stuck in my head is "Nothing Holding me Back" by Shawn Mendes because it played on the way home. Not my choice but Sirius is gonna Sirius.

currently watching: Rewatching kind of on rotation Ink Master (currently season 8), Last Week Tonight (currently season 5), and Criminal Minds (whichever episode relates to whatever I'm writing).

currently reading: I finally started 109 Days by Kamala Harris, which has been on my TBR list for over a year. Next on my list is the translation of The Odyssey by Dr. Emily Wilson. Also a crapton of fanfic that I'm obsessively refreshing my email in hopes of seeing notifications.

current obsession(s): Criminal Minds especially Moreid, finding the perfect purple sweater, the Persian Dreams knit throw blanket, chocolate covered pretzels.

currently working on: Knitting a dark blue cabled shawl-collar cardigan; blackwork embroidery of a serotonin molecule; two different briefs for work stuff; and my giant Moreid fanfic series o doom.

currently wearing: Pajamas - black lightweight jersey with white piping, short-sleeved with buttons and a collar. I have almost every color they make and need to clear off my table so I can start sewing some of my own.

last online search: California Code of Civil Procedure 413.30 (requirements for a request for electronic service of a summons).

no pressure tags: Literally whoever wants to. I'm always so awkward about this part, it makes me feel like I've somehow been forced into MySpace 20 years after I never used it in the first place.

[caffedorzo]

spin the wheel to be assigned a mysterious source of income - who will grant you 10k usd every month without fail!!

will you take the money?

yes

no

bald / nuance

Voting ended on19h

[pangur-and-grim]

whenever I’m fresh on meds, I’m like wow but I feel fine, I must have made up being sick. and then when the meds start to wear off it’s like [SOUND OF PIANO BEING PUSHED THROUGH GARBAGE COMPACTOR]

[fabfemmeboy]

Okay we talk a lot about Morgan's deeply unhelpful advice to Reid in 2x16 when Reid confides that he's traumatized by the whole Tobias experience and keeps seeing himself in the photos of crime scene victims because that was almost him. We talk about how empathy is never something Spencer Reid has lacked. But can we talk for a second about how really fucked up Derek Morgan's week has been when he gives that advice?

He's a biracial (non-passing) ex-cop, son of a black cop, tossed into a case that's a racial powder keg. He tries to stay out of that and go with the profile instead of the delicate racial dance. We know he hates when cases get political. We know he tends to stick to the sidelines on cases with a racialized component. He and the black detective go out to 'do real police work' - read: get out of the station where Gideon is fighting with the white chief and mayor about whether a profile can include race, all while the pastor (who Morgan has no love for in general) makes proclamations about how the FBI only cares once a white boy gets killed. It's pretty clear he sees similarity between himself and the detective: black men in law enforcement who are really sick of being asked to represent something, who just want to be judged by the work they do and the content of their character.

And then the detective is shot and killed in front of him because a white guy - whose family was *never* in danger, since the UnSub was only going after black teenage girls - saw a black man and assumed "that's the bad guy!" and took it upon himself to shoot him. A black cop, shot and killed by a white guy, leaving young kids behind.

Who's that sound like? How many times has Derek stood over that body before?

How many times has he been assumed to be the UnSub or the bad guy in general because he's a 6' tall black man in a world that makes assumptions? He was in juvie when he was freaking 11 years old because of a racist cop who keeps climbing the ranks and recently arrested him for murder. He was identified as a potential killer by his freaking *boss*, the same guy back at the station arguing in favor of putting race in the profile.

How does he keep moving forward? How does he keep showing up and doing his job - a job he believes in, but also a job where he gets used as bait for racists a lot more often than he should? How does he "pull himself out of the gutter"? How does he keep from pummeling pedophiles into the dirt?

He tells takes the terrible shit he never should have needed to go through, and he lets it make him better. A better person. A better profiler. A more precise, more insightful, more empathetic, stronger person. He embraces "that which does not kill me makes me stronger" and tries to channel it into something useful, because the alternative is to let it fester and turn into anger and resentment and he knows that won't serve him.

So when Reid admits he's struggling...so is Morgan, that week. For the past two months, really, since Chicago. And he gives the only advice he can, the only thing that's gotten him through all the bullshit. The only thing he can tell himself after watching a good black cop get killed by some paranoid white moron and leave behind a little boy: turn this awful feeling into something positive.

It's not helpful for Reid at all, especially not the implication that he isn't empathetic enough. But it's giving the kid the only answer Morgan has that week.

[snarkylinda]

I think Spencer in that s5 episode with the Unsub that turns people onto dolls is fascinating because at face value, is not your typical Spencer projects himself on the Unsub episode.

Like by the premise alone one would assumed this would be an Derek episode, an CSA víctim, or Even an J.J or Hotch episode, with the whole parental "what the fuck did you do to your daughter you piece of shit". But instead- the focus is on Spencer. Why?

Like putting what Memoriam implied aside and even if you believe William did MORE that abandon his son, Spencer doesn't go full volatile when he learns that the guy raped his daughter- he was already seething when he learned that this doctor, this psyquiatrist, was using electro shock therapy. On his own child. And this is late s5 Spencer- the man that was seeing his pregnant co-worker and started to imagine one day, having little ones of his own, Specially while holding the newborn in question.

So now he is confronting a "father", an scientist hurting his daughter only to uncover the even uglier truth and once again, their Unsub is an víctim. Not only of their mental illness out of severe parental abuse (in this cause, physical and sexual).

But ultimately, I think that this is an Spencer episode because the víctim is the Unsub. What Made these kind of Spencer's episodes so compaling to me (besides the fact that he is My fave lmao) is how...empathic he is with someone that otherwise would just be looked at for the atrocities they commited, and not what was done to them. And sure, everyone would scorn at the fucking pedophile that molested his own daughter and other parients- that is basic human decency- but not everyone would gently look at a woman that hurt other women and hand her a doll with a smile before she is taken away. Not everyone would feel Bad for the man that tortured them. Not everyone would hand a armed teen something important to them, nor give more scorn to the principal that failed him. Not everyone would feel bad for hurting people that were planning to murder you. Samantha was failed, Tobias was failed, Owen was failed, and SO was Spencer.

Mom I love him

[mango-lovrr]

All of the team is undeniably compassionate, but like you said, Spencer always feels considerably more compassionate towards those less likely to receive it. I think a lot of it must come from looking after his mom as a kid. It’s what makes him stand out to me tbh. He’s such a valuable member of the team purely for being able to empathise and communicate with unconventional unsubs and victims, a skill the rest of the team can weirdly struggle with at times. I think an interesting part of this episode in particular is Spencer’s anger at the father abusing his role as a scientist and therapist. Spencer has a big history with medicine and therapy, in relation to both his mother and himself. We know he had to try and dismiss school councillors who were concerned enough to monitor him. At a very young age he saw therapists as enemies, which I reckon made adult Spencer always just a little skeptical of the many doctors and therapists Diana is cared for by. I do wonder if he thought of his mom at all in this episode, if the anxiety of medical malpractice got to him. We know he’s a scientist himself outside of work and we know he wanted to solve schizophrenia for a long time, maybe his involvement in the medical field made this more upsetting for him. I’d never really thought of this episode outside of the lens that Spencer was sexually assaulted as a child, ur points r all really interesting!!!

[hotpinkbitch-breakfast]

this shit is why it pissed me off so bad when- immediately after Spencer was kidnapped and almost killed- he's expressing a trauma response when presented with pictures of women who were killed in a similar environment, and Derek is like "oh yeah that's empathy" as if it's the first time he's ever expressed any kind of empathy when its constantly so obvious even before the kidnapping that Spencer is a deeply and openly empathetic person

[whumpshaped]

i see your "i dislike characters who talk like theyve been in therapy its more fun when they dont know whats going on" but i raise you "theyve been in therapy for a decade and theyve read all the scholarly articles on the topic they know exactly whats wrong with them and yet they cant logic and reason and rationalise their way out of their mental illness and its driving them insane because they shouldve gotten better years ago and they feel like theyre on square one"

[hotch-girl]

+ BONUS

PENELOPE GARCIA and DEREK MORGAN

CRIMINAL MINDS — 2.17 “DISTRESS”

[holdthisphoto]

1910

[carljrimes]

Thinking moreid thoughts and it’s not my fault

[abortionado]

I just wanna know why the writers make it out to be such a big deal that Spencer doesn’t have close friends outside of the team as if most adults don’t make friends at work. Why are y’all doing him like this he didn’t do anything wrong

[abortionado]

“I can’t believe this fucking loser only has 6-10 extremely close loving friends who trust him with their lives, two of whom have made him the godfather of their children”

[kosmogrl]

depressed at 11 was crazy i should have become a child prodigy

[mosquitogirl]

paul preciado “can the monster speak?” (2020)

[girderednerve]

[Medicine and the law of gender binarism portray the process of transsexuality as a narrow and dangerous path, a definitive, irreversible mutation, that can be achieved only in extreme conditions, such that few people, as few as possible, would be able to follow that path. I, however, would say that the path is easier and more pleasant than most of the experiences and experiments that the dominant discourse suggests are desirable and obligatory and which have been legitimized by medical and judicial institutions. In itself, gender transition is easier to accomplish than going to school every day at the same time throughout the long years of childhood and adolescence, easier than a faithful monogamous marriage, easier than pregnancy and childbirth, easier than starting a family, easier than finding a rewarding full-time job, easier than being happy in a consumer society, easier than growing old and being shut away in a retirement home. I would go so far as to say that, contrary to what is routinely claimed, the mutation process that accompanies gender transitioning is one of the most beautiful and joyous things that I have ever done in my life. All the things that are terrible and terrifying about transsexuality and gender transitioning are not found in the process of transition itself, but in the way in which the boundaries between the sexes punish and threaten to kill anyone who dares cross them. It is not gender transitioning that is horrifying and dangerous, but the regime of sexual difference.]

[sunwornink]

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