What did I lose in 2016: I lost 37 lbs and my will to live at one point. I lost some dreams my stamina and my mind. I lost faith and without it, my job and my purpose. Down the line also lost my innocence and trust. I lost the love of my life and my grandma all at once. I lost love, a couple bets with myself and a little or a lot of self respect. I lost some money, and some Facebook friends and I definitely lost a lot of time feeling sorry for myself. In the midst of everything gone I also lost perspective of who I am. But I have yet to find a reason to quit because life is both sucky and magical at the same time. 2016 also gave me the joy to hear "the cancer is gone" from the body of one of my biggest loves and the gift of getting a thousands of "hellos." I danced and sang and had fun. I kissed my kids and had amazing adventures with them. I climbed mountains, went to concerts and felt free for the first time in a very long time. 2016 brought so many stories and experiences that while some were painful are rebuilding a new me. I'm not done. Most of the end of this year has been foggy to be sure but as it comes to an end I'm falling back in love with the reflexión in the mirror and the dreams that are hatching in the depths of my soul. New Year, new cycles and new life. Losing the fear one step at the time. Although I wish I could shut the door on this year letting go of everything that still hurts, I suspect this time being strong will mean allowing all the pain instead of putting on the mask I've carried for so many years. No pill strong enough to just make it go away. In each new decision taken free from fear, I gain my courage of accepting my rawness, my rough edges, all that I am. And it's going to be fine, it's going to be more than fine. It's going to be legen... wait for it 😜 maybe not, but it's going to be all mine. I'm still here and my life is not over. 2016 was the semicolon of my life🙏 💕 11:11 My words for 2017: stay, create, become #newyearmood #happynewyear #writersofinstagram #newyearnewme #2016sucked #love #mentalhealth #heartbreak #be
