Jimin has been my bias before I knew what a bias was. It was 2015 when I found BTS. The No More Dream album was not my first interaction with K-pop, but it was the first time I felt personally connected with any particular group or member.
Over the years, Jimin, in particular, was such a relief as a dancer myself. Ballet was rough on me to the point I had to quit, only 4 years in. To me, it felt like my world caved in around me. It's all I wanted; I wasn't worth anything without it. It may sound silly, but I was so young, and when you bank on your entire life being one thing, it was staggering to know it could never be, no matter how skilled or passionate you were, because your body couldn't keep up.
I saw Jimin make somthing more out of himself, you could tell he was a dancer first in his blood, but he has more then one side to him. His vocals were a stop and listen worthy type of vocal. I had somone to look up to, someone aiming for higher heights with more then something he was already amazing at, and he still gets to perform no that hes back. I hope it's as rewarding for him as it is for me, seeing him still stand tall.
Even though I no longer dance, I found another passion that still felt like I was portraying myself, my creativity, and my passion. It's funny how you find a way to connect things, but I always had a pre-show ritual, if you will. I would put on perfume, or my grandma's dusting powder, or even sometimes dabs of vanilla on my costume or neck. It was a way to steady myself, something to help me focus and stay calm.
Somehow, I think that is really what brought me into the world of perfumery, and well, it's been a couple of years since then, and I have grown past using it only for nerves. I spent years on schooling and training my nose and skillset to make worlds I had only ever thought I would be able to bring through dance. This concept might be hard to udnerstand but it sort of feels like showing not telling just through ambient scent. I can see, feel, and hear my home town with the fragrance or a moment in time that feels like deja vu. I think some people (like me) often limit themselves out of being scared of failure at something new. Jimin is an amazing idol, and I am glad to see him healthy and inspired. It brings me joy to see him smile.
Well, thank you for my little Ted talk, haha. To anyone who sees this, know that you are worthy of whatever you want to be or become.
