Houzukigami by *Myme1
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Houzukigami by *Myme1
KABOOOOM!
Ah, Natori didn’t plan to leave yet. Was he relieved? Somewhat. Perhaps it was mostly relief he felt, which caused him not to protest. That or the warmth that was slowly trailing over the exposed expanse of his pale flesh.
“I’m not disagreeing,” Takashi pointed out, his voice soft as if afraid he’ll ruin the moment or his lover’s mood, “I just…mm… B- But I did call them…so I guess you’re right,” he finally relented. Perhaps coaxed by the soft kisses, or perhaps just seeing no point in pressing the matter further. After all, Natori had come all the way out here in the rain - getting himself soaked - just for him. The least he could do was honour the actor’s wishes, right? Right. It had nothing at all to do with how nice it felt to let himself be spoiled for once, that definitely wasn’t what those soft sighs that managed to leave his lips meant. Takashi had gone silent - aside from those pleased sounds here and there - after his previous statement. Instead he was relaxed (as much as he could be) and allowing the other to kiss and touch as he liked. After all, even Takashi himself had those cool and somewhat-shaky hands exploring Natori’s smooth back - every little contour from muscle and bone. It was almost mesmerizing.
It turned into one of those moments where words were useless in a sense. They didn't have to talk to each other to send a message, because the situation turned quite romantic and loving at that moment, once they came to realization that they could stay a little longer.
Natsume served as not just a lover at that moment, but his body became Shuuichi's source of heat. Not that he felt cold in that sense, but his body did seek out the warmth from his lover. Meanwhile, the kissing stopped, but the nuzzling didn't and neither did the soft and pleased sounds that left Shuuichi's mouth either. Especially when he felt Natsume trail his fingers over the back. Shuuichi hated to admit it, but that kind of action... He was a sucker for them and would probably lay on his stomach all day long if someone offered to do it.
"I think they can wait one more hour," he finally murmured, and began to trail kisses where he could reach again.
KABOOOOM!
The magic would end if they left. Not that it meant they’d never be close like this again of course, even if Takashi protested the actor would still make cuddle sessions happen. Perhaps because he knew the blond would sooner or later relax into them and enjoy them. In other words, there would be more moments like this…but not quite truly like this one. It was one of a kinda and Takashi wanted it to last just a little longer.
Sure, he was scared. Distractions aside, he still felt that rush of adrenaline with each flash and boom, and it really made him wish he was within the safety of a home he could finally call his, along with Natori. The shed wasn’t bad, and the older male did make him feel safe but it just wasn’t the same. This was all true…but he still wanted to stay, just a little more. They were alone. No one would dare brave that weather in interrupt them. Takashi liked this peace. Even days where the Fujiwara’s were out, couldn’t compare to this feeling of having a place truly to themselves. Even if it didn’t last forever. The candles were indeed a nice touch as well. He mentally admitted this felt rather romantic, fear aside. Natori was right though, and the teen finally dared to speak up and break that silence (save for mother nature outside) that had settled over the room. “It does sound less threatening, and the thunder is less frequent. …We probably could make it if we ran,” Takashi pointed out, a bit reluctantly. Although a part of him did want to hurry home for more than just safety. It was his guardian’s peace of mind he was worried about more than dinner or a blanket to hide under. Which he was sure to voice, despite that it probably sealed the deal on them heading out soon. “The Fujiwara’s will worry. We should probably take the chance while we’re allowed it. Who knows if there’s another harsh wave to come,” he all but sighed out, while letting his arms continue to rest loosely around the brunette. “Unless you like your makeshift love shack that much?” Takashi then teased a bit, even if it did backfire and have him blushing softly at the thought of it really being a ‘love shack’.
"Yet they also know that we're here. Although, I know what you mean about worrying," Shuuichi trailed off, but made no move to part from Natsume at all. From the looks of it, he looked pretty comfortable, all snuggled up against the teen, despite the small jolts now and then.
With each jolt, came a soft kiss against the equally soft skin, anything really to calm the other down for the time being. "I think we could stay just a little bit longer. Who knows when this opportunity to be alone comes again...," Shuuichi finally trailed off and actually left it at that, too. Words weren't needed from his part, considering he was in a gentle and calm way, showing his love for the teen by innocently worshiping the skin he could reach.
KABOOOOM!
Oh. He was speechless. A part of him knew that Natori wouldn’t be anything but understanding, but that other nagging part that seemed to permanently take a spot in his mind. That part said the actor would want to leave, or be upset that he hid something so large. Well…anything but understanding, really.
No, Takashi wasn’t only speechless. He felt that prickling, itchy sensation at his eyes - signaling his desire to cry - perhaps due to the relief that flooded him. The relief, the warmth, the— Okay, now Natori was going a bit too far, but still. Who would think he was crying and shivering from fear mere moments ago, with the way he just felt so…happy, that the same fluids were threatening to spill. The human body was a strange thing at times. Thankfully he was spared the embarrassment of more waterworks, as he found a spot to choose the less emasculating route and respond to the compliment instead…in his own way. Although the blush surely didn’t help him seem as in control as he wanted to be. “Your ‘for once’ must mean ‘for the first time today’,” Takashi pointed out, as he fidgeted a bit under that gaze. “I know you won’t do that without my go ahead,…you don’t need to remind me. It’s embarrassing,…” Like this position…and your intense gaze… He practically felt naked under that gaze already, without being reminded of such things!
Shuuichi knew well enough that his gaze made Natsume uncomfortable, which is why he instead relaxed his body and hid his face against the teen's neck. Of course he still held himself up with his arms, since he really didn't want to crush the poor blond.
"Do you think it will calm down anytime soon? It's close to dinner time and it's very uncute to have stomachs growling in this kind of setting, right?" Shuuichi murmured against the soft, but warm skin, unable to part from it obviously.
At one moment, one could think that Shuuichi fell asleep, with how calm and relaxed he became, and his breath evened out, but he felt more relaxed than ever, finding himself to be alone with the person he treasured, without any kind of interruptions, unless one counted the small jolts Natsume made with the lightning. At least he didn't jolt much when the sound came anymore, but his body did still react to the thunder in a sense.
Meanwhile, it seemed as if the wind began to calm down, not making the rain hit the walls in that angry way, nor was it 'screaming' in that scary way either, so perhaps they could make a run for it and arrive home, soaking wet, but at least they would be home.
Not that the shed looked shabby with the candles.
[ooc] I'm back!
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So you walked in on poor little Natsume, all bound and helpless! What went on here??
What went on there, that is a good question. I rather not think of how Natsume-kun ended up in that state, although I have to admit that he looked quite adorable in that state.
I wonder if anon-san wanted me to do something to him upon finding him like that, but we all know that Natsume-kun would find a way to punch me in the face if I ever touched him wrong. -chuckles- Either way, I would say that his 'bodyguard' must have been up to something... again.
KABOOOOM!
“Oh…I’m sorry. I can sort of relate, but I was too young to even have memories of my mother before she passed away,” Takashi confessed - his expression one of sadness as he imagined how Natori must have felt. He’d known they were alike, but that even their pasts were similar had come as a surprise…and brought about that frown on his face as he wondered if they didn’t have even more in common from their childhood.
Takashi leaned his face slightly into the other’s touch - an automatic reaction for sure, but that just meant it was all the more genuine. “Because, just because one person or youkai is cruel, doesn’t mean they all are. Ones that are often have a reason as well. Like stress,” he explained - buying time to think of a response for the other question. Could he really say it? He hated hiding things from Natori, he really did. It wasn’t like he thought his boyfriend would steal the book and use it for bad, it was more like…he didn’t want to involve anyone. Knowledge could be dangerous. “It’s…not just my powers, although I’m sure that helps lead them to me,” he began, trembling and gazing into those reddish brown pools - hoping it would relay the seriousness of what he wanted to say. There was still time to turn back though, and Takashi was so tempted…but at the same time he didn’t want to hide any more. Feelings were one thing, but the very thing that put Natori in danger? Could the danger of the actor knowing be any worse than the danger of being at Takashi’s side, though? He was so conflicted, but the pros of just spilling it finally, far outweighed the cons. Which was why a deep breath was being taken, with the teen closing his eyes to calm down. “My grandmother,…she left behind a book which I inherited. She would…challenge youkai, and have them put their name into this book - I’m sure you know the power of names, right? So, I can call upon the youkai that have their name in the book, and order them to do things. Of course, that’s not how I use it though. I’ve been giving the names back, instead,” he paused to catch his breath and recollect his thoughts, before daring to continue piling information onto his poor audience. “I was taught how to return them, although it takes power and leaves me exhausted after each one. So some youkai come to me for their name back, and are kind. Others…come after me because they want the book to use for bad. To control other youkai…s- so…that’s why so many of them flock to me and search me out.” He waited for a response - any response - from the actor, worrying the inside of his lip as his mind went over all of the possibilities. Like…Natori deciding he was in over his head and that Takashi was too much to bother dealing with…
Shuuichi moved a bit and stood up on his fours to hover over Natsume. His look didn’t say that he was angry or anything, but it was more of a look that said Shuuichi understood. He knew that these sorts of books existed and he knew how important names were to youkai. Actually, this also explained why his blond lover passed out so often, without Shuuichi realizing it. Every piece of puzzle fell into place.
“I’m glad you told me. I won’t take the book away from you, if that’s what you thought. It answers many of my questions and I understand you for returning the names. Honestly, I didn’t expect anything else,” Shuuichi suddenly smiled down towards Natsume, one of those rare smiles Natsume only received, and sometimes his guardians.
“I’m glad you’re able to fend them off. I worry about you, and I wish to protect you and now I can protect you even more… now that I know what you’re going through. Thank you for sharing with me. I feel as if you trust me more and more each day that passes,” he continued, to reassure Natsume that he still wasn’t upset to hear about the book. No matter how useful that book can be, Shuuichi swore at that moment that he will never use Natsume for his own purpose, not even now with the new information given.
“Have I ever mentioned how… handsome you look in this light? No, I am not trying to use a pick-up line on you to sleep with you. I still told you that we take it at your pace. If you want to wait a year, then you can wait a year. To me, what we share now is enough,” he once again reassured, since Natsume had dared to voice up his issue a few weeks ago. At that moment, Shuuichi confessed how he felt when he and Natsume shared more intimate moments, but he could compose himself, if his lover wanted, and they would do anything Natsume wanted to do, when he felt he was ready. That offer never went away. “I just felt like complimenting you for once.”
As if he’s not doing that daily, already…
やもり | 氷々-hibi-
[I'm always left to wonder what is really going on in this picture. Is he blushing because Natsume rolled a bit too close, or is something naughty happening? My innocent mind wants to go for the former, but the way Natori holds a hand over his mouth, and that blushing face, makes it possible that Natsume's hand may have strayed.
I clearly like to over-analyze things.]
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Uwah—! Natori-san, you’re here too?
Yes, my agency told me to make something like this for the fans.
I-I see…
-Can't help but to chuckle softly at the other's reaction-
What brings you here, then?
KABOOOOM!
Takashi was successfully tamed with the second meeting of lips; no longer fidgeting or avoiding eye contact like he had suddenly decided to do prior to their kiss. That wasn’t to say he felt comfortable answering questions now, but he at least wasn’t ready to flee - much like a wary stray cat that had been lured in with fresh fish - and the peck to his forehead seemed to seal the deal. The teen really was a sucker for such caring gestures. Besides, it wasn’t just him who was being told to open up. So it should be okay… I probably shouldn’t answer about the book though. Damp strands of blond were soon clinging to Natori’s skin again, as his younger lover used his chest as a hiding place before timidly speaking. “I think I’ve always been afraid…but I can’t remember. The first experience I can recall though, was with one of my early foster families…” Takashi trailed off, taking in a shaky breath. “I had a secret base, you know? A place to hide from youkai and just get away,” he admitted, “but one time when I fell asleep there, I woke up and it was dark and storming. I’m sure you can imagine…how scary that could be for a small child. Yet I worried more about getting back and not causing trouble for everyone, at first,” he couldn’t help but chuckle softly at that - even he could see the amusement. The fact he hadn’t changed a bit since then. Even now, he hoped that the Fujiwara’s weren’t still worried over him. “Anyway… I was trapped there by my fear until I wore myself out. The next thing I knew, people had come to bring me back to the family I was staying with.” Takashi sighed as he finished the story, and purposefully left out the kind of greeting he had received upon his return - let alone how he had reacted. They had nothing to do with his fear, and no reason to be told. The past was the past, after all. The past was the past, but he still wanted to hear a bit from Natori. To learn what made him the man he was today. After all, that glimpse he’d caught before told him the actor hadn’t always been the way he was now. But where did he even start with questions, to find out and not step on a landmine? Takashi finally raised his head - as well as his voice - and met the other’s gaze as he began to speak again. “I don’t really have a specific question…but, anything about your childhood you can remember and want to share? I mean, besides the stuff with Hiiragi.” Yep. Be vague, that would work.
Shuuichi couldn't back down this time. He was the one that initiated the talk in the first place, and Natsume had the right to know about his lover's past. "Alright, but I don't really think it is a happy story, I just want you to realize that before I tell you a little bit about myself, okay?" Shuuichi cupped Natsume's face, to make sure he saw the seriousness in Shuuichi's eyes, in his facial features, before he began to tell Natsume about his childhood, save for Hiiragi whom he already knew about.
"My mother died when I was young and I was raised by my uncles. Because of what I can see and could see back then already, my uncles blamed me for my mother's illness and later her death. I don't know, but I think their words have forever been imprinted in my brain and shaped me to be the exorcist I am today, but I also come from a family of exorcists, so maybe that was their job or something," Shuuichi explained and could for once not meet Natsume's eyes, he also decided to add in a small detail about a certain someone they both met on more than one occasion.
"I am also Matoba-kun's sempai. We went to the same school and grew up together. I... I just felt like sharing that small detail, so you know we aren't just enemies in our line of duty."
It wasn't like Shuuichi to talk this openly, but he has been thinking about it ever since he and Natsume became more than friends, because it was every right for Natsume to know about his lover's past. "But I have changed a bit, I mean... When it comes to being an exorcist. I rather keep you in my life than do something you disapprove of. Same as I rather keep you my friend and lover, instead of wanting you as my powerful assistant. It works better this way," Shuuichi finally looked at Natsume again, and his large hand cupped the cheek again, with his thumb that drew patterns over his cheekbone. "I will never understand how you can be nice to those that try to harm you, but I have come to accept it at least. It still doesn't explain why they come after you. I know you have great powers...," he trailed off, but perhaps that was too much to ask for now. Shuuichi based their relationship on trust, after all.
KABOOOOM!
It felt as if he’d been running a marathon by the time Takashi could trust mother nature enough to deem the thunder gone. His chest had that slight heavy feeling, one which slowly lessened as his heart beat eased into its usual pattern. …For the most part. Those words had it picking up pace just a bit.
Natori knew just how to treat him in any given situation it seemed, since those soft movements helped him to finally relax again. It didn’t feel like he was being pried or pressured when the actor asked like that; all he could sense was genuine curiosity and the desire to know more about his boyfriend. A feeling that Takashi shared. “Talk about what, exactly?” he finally murmured, “I- I can’t exactly start without knowing what I should be explaining. It’s not like there’s anything that’s been bothering me lately…more than the usual.”
"Well, I was thinking that I wanted to find out the cause of your fear of thunder, and perhaps... Why youkai follow you as if you are a piece of sugar to ants." Shuuichi admits, and for once, he's not using his voice that hints he has a hidden thought to it all, nor is it playful. He's genuinely curious but has never dared to asked before.
Again, he leans in and gives Natsume another of those kisses, since it seems as if the first one didn't do a proper job at making his boyfriend breathless. This time it seems to work, as he can feel Natsume's cheeks grow warmer, and the teen actually gasps in the middle of the kiss. Shuuichi doesn't take that opportunity to deepen it though, but parts with a soft peck to the forehead instead.
"And this moment to talk goes both ways. If there is something you want to ask, then feel free to ask it. I mean everything, since I don't know what you actually know about me or not," he reassures, since it may seem as if this is a moment for Shuuichi only to have answers to some questions, but that is obviously not the case.
KABOOOOM!
It was amazing really, and he was given the chance to admire Natori’s handiwork during breaks between thunder - said man holding him tightly during each actual ‘boom’.
Indeed, how had such a dingy place that was merely Takashi’s quickest solution…become a perfect spot and almost romantic. Then again, if one lost the candles, it was a lot like a cliche set up for romance to begin with - being locked up in such a small dark place. It had been used so many times in those manga…that he of course did not read. Right. Of course. Another crash had him taking his boyfriend’s offer without hesitation, and holding onto the man for dear life for that moment until he could speak again. “I called, and they’re fine… I didn’t tell them exactly where I was stuck, ‘cause they’d just worry. But they know we’re together and within the school,” he admitted in that soft voice, perhaps even softer than usual. Although that could be blamed on the fact he didn’t want his voice echoing in the room. “Thanks for coming, even though I was going to tell you to stay,” he softly chuckled, and remained snuggled so close - holding on almost painfully tight even without the loud sound. “I will, you know. Take care of you if you get sick. I will…but please don’t.” It was a soft plead, as if Natori could actually stop himself from getting ill, but the words seemed to ease him somewhat at least. “Is my shirt too cold? On your skin, I mean. Most of the rain was on my jacket, but it feels like my shirt may have gotten a little damp in places.”
Shuuichi continues to hold Natsume with each passing 'boom', that seems to never cease nor leave the place. Persistent little bugger they suffered today. Although, it seems as if the thunder passes, but the wind and rain is staying, making the two males unable to leave home still, but at least Natsume will relax more now.
"Your shirt is fine, this is fine. I'm sorry I am left to my boxers only. At least I put on the nice looking ones and not the ones with tiny Pikachus on." Shuuichi joked and shifts a little, now that the hold on him isn't dead tight. His hand runs up and down on Natsume's back and side in that soothing way he manages to always pull off. "So, we are alone and it seems we won't be able to leave. Our phones work at least so people can reach us. Why don't we stay here on the mattress a while longer and talk? I mean seriously talk in that way we can never manage because there is always people around," he offers with that genuine look on his face.
Shuuichi isn't stupid, he knows Natsume is hiding things from him, but he figures that after dating for months now, Shuuichi is entitled to know why Natsume react to certain things in a certain way, and why there is always youkai following him. The last one is wishful thinking but he can always try. Talking about those things obviously mean he will come clean as well, exposing his past for the first time since he told Hiiragi about it as a child. Natsume deserves to know.
As if to coax his lover into it, a thumb rubs over his cheekbone in a soft and loving way, and he soon gives him a sweet kiss after, one of those breathtaking ones he's prone to give Natsume at least once or twice a day.
KABOOOOM!
It was with great reluctance that Takashi allowed his boyfriend to leave. It felt like he was moving in slow motion as his hands released the wet fabric, allowing his arms to drop back to his sides…while they ached to wrap themselves around Natori again.
“There’s emergency kits in classrooms, maybe even the gym teacher’s office? Or you could find the art room…” he trailed off, giving instructions on where said art room was located despite that teacher desks were their best bet. Just to be thorough. After Natori took off back outside, the teen was quick to huddle up on the floor again - pressing himself back against the corner, as if that would somehow help get rid of the booming outside. It didn’t. Takashi hugged his knees, waiting and hoping that his lover would be okay before remembering what he’d been worried over mere seconds ago. That served as a temporary distraction at least, as he called up the Fujiwara’s to let them know that he was fine (although definitely not going into detail over his exact situation, that would only worry them) and make sure that the elderly couple was doing okay as well. After a wish for them to be careful, since the winds seemed strong, the call ended…and he was left to wait alone again - amber orbs staring intently at the door, just waiting for Natori to barge in through it again. By the time that did happen, however, the blond was very much a curled up ball that was only seconds away from giving in to tears.
It isn’t long before Shuuichi finds what he’s looking for, and he’s with Natsume soon again, although dropping everything he has in his arms to hug his boyfriend close to him again. At least while the next set of thunder sounds right above them. “Take off your clothes, or at least the wet ones,” he almost demands and is doing it himself, only to take one of the mattresses perched up against a wall and drag it to the middle of the floor. He also begins to set up the candles everywhere, sort of making a bit of a moody setting but candles also work as a heating source in a sense, which is why it looks like he has raided the entire school of them and matches.
With them set up, he goes back to where the mattress original position has been, and uses the rope that held it up as a place to hang their dripping clothes. Actually, it’s more his clothes that drip than Natsume’s, but at least they are drying.
“Did you manage to call your guardians?” Shuuichi asks, once he’s finally sprawled out on the mattress, that might work as their bed if the wind and thunder won’t calm down anytime soon. He’s also patting his chest as an invitation for Natsume to cuddle up against him.
Take Natori Shuuichi of all people to make a shabby P.E storage into a romantic room, thus – insert ego inflation here.
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Uwah—! Natori-san, you’re here too?
Yes, my agency told me to make something like this for the fans.
KABOOOOM!
He didn’t even need to respond to that nurse comment. Even if one ignored the state he was in, there was the fact he’d feel guilty later if Natori really did get sick. Rather than think on nursing, he hoped it wouldn’t come to that! Although he was being too selfish at the moment to say so, as he worried more about his own fears.
Fears that were soon pushed aside at least a tiny bit by the view of his soaking wet boyfriend standing in the doorway. “I could have me— Uwa! What? Is it that bad out there now?” Takashi wondered, in a bit of a panic as the door was blocked off. Were they stuck? What about the Fujiwara’s, what should he— The teen was on his feet again and in Natori’s arms mere seconds after the question had left his older lover’s lips. Why would he care about that? He was already wet - although not nearly as soaked at Natori - since he’d been too afraid to use an umbrella, and even in normal circumstances he wouldn’t refuse. “Sorry. Sorry for bringing you out here,…and now you’re soaked…- And cold! Natori!” He was staring up at the actor now, obviously worried…until another flash made itself known through those small windows, and is quickly followed by the loud boom that has Takashi clinging again - trembling in the other’s hold.
Shuuichi can see himself holding Natsume like this for the remainder of the storm, but he can sense the worries, not just for himself, but Natsume is worrying about the others, for a valid reason too. "Call them. I...," he trails off as another flash flares outside the window, but Natsume can't see it, because he's pressed against a firm, but wet chest. The boom comes seconds after and he feels his boyfriend tense up all over again. He wants to ask why Natsume is so afraid of thunder, but it's a topic that is laced with memories that he has a feeling his boyfriend might not want to talk about right now.
Once the booming fades out for now, Shuuichi decides to speak up again, "Call them and... I think we might be here for some time, maybe the entire night. It's windy out there and I barricaded the door in case it picks up, but... Do you know if your school has any supplies of candles? We need heat in here, but we also need to dry our clothes. Wait here and talk to the Fujiwara's while I get everything needed," he explains and begins to move the shelf again and he leaves with a promise to return in no time.