I think my idea and concept backfired. Maybe I should just delete all that posts about failindentity and post again only when I will better work on the label.
I will have to work more on this label. The idea is not too bad but... this label is half baked. I don't want to create another moodboard, therefore I will work more on the name, but meaning and how the flag should look like is already settled which is surprising. I didn't thought I will manage to create a suitable flag so far, plus palette is pleasant and it gives off vibes of something sad even for me, which is suppose to be since it's literally about deep rooted feeling of failure, not a pleasant emotion.
And I think that my flag is not a pride one but a shame flag. I don't know if it even shoukd exist in LGBTQ collection of flags at all. Or maybe I'm not just doing something that nobody else created yet, something unusual. And I will work on it. Because no matter how much it can seem silly at first, I don't think that it's ouright bad, because as a creator, I didn't knew that such unpopular label as demicis will describe my entire experience throughtout my life and the way I am towards myself, like I'm basically like others yet I can't be count into norm, into majority, and itxs all thanks to whoever came up with "demicisgender" label, so I'm doing a favor and also working on that because I know that the feeling that my created label grasps exists, but people don't talk much about it or there isn't a bigger label for it.
I'm more interested for this label to be overall known, therefore you aren't obligated to give a credit to me as a creator of this flag and label, but if you do that would be very sweet of you.
Meaning of colors:
Start from scratch, hollowness, person themselves (porcelain white)
Loneliness (light gray)
Dissappointment (from other people or in yourself) (dull light blue)
Failure (dull rich red)
Questionable path (dark gray)
Downfall (pitch black)
It's a summarized, but in picture below there's more possible meanings:
And here's the flags variations (without stickman, clear and beta (duller, earlier) version):
Which version is the best?
First (with stickman)
Second
Clear
Duller/earlier version
suggestions... (send me ask, tumblr doesn't allow me to use comment section)
Voting ended onApr 25
This post is not as good as I imagined it to be but I managed to create some semi-deep meaning behind this flag and I hope it's good enough to use. My intention is not create some moodboard, but I just created something that nobody else created so far (as well as I know through research) and I know that this feeling not only I inclusively feel.
How can it be used and meaning of the label itself:
It can be used by person who feels more like a failure than anything else. They don't care about their current gender (whether they're AMAB/AFAB cis or any other gender identity) and feel like a walking failure that does everything wrong than anything else.
People who feel like they failed to be a "correct" woman, man or what they imagined themselves to be.
For people who are confused about their strange feeling of feeling like entity because they fail societal norms of binarity and system itself for who they are but label agender, genderfree and similar labels to those doesn't suit them.
Struggling people who aren't treated according to their current gender and instead abused like they're the lowest life form.
People who got rejected for not being perfect and collapsed under heavy pressure of expectations
People who used to be great, top students or masters at their work but they got worse
People who feel like they're degradating or feel like degenerate (which again, makes them less feel their current gender than usual)
Or just simplify -
If you go into category of people who say something like:
"I identify as a failure"
Or
"I feel like a loser more than overall who I am or what I suppose to be"
Then you already can possibly be a potential person whom this label can be suitable
But...
I don't want a label created by me used by this type of people:
Creeps who live on shoulders of their parents even though they're over 25+ and still unemployed and instead doing... those disgusting things we all aware of (yakwim)
Or just simplify, the label that I created is more for struggling people who are very strict to themselves already, and less for some slackers who like to live at someone elses expense. They're practically a losers too, but in a very bad sense, not in a sense like the intention of label is. There's a difference.
Let's just say, imagine this as Jerry from Rick and Morty but instead of being a cis man he feels like... hollowness inside him and like total failure, which overrides his feeling of gender, making him little bit different from usual people.
