lottie’s #1 acolyte

frankie / nb / 28

[nataliesscatorccio]

okay but here's the thing I can't shut up about. they would have been these people anyway!!!! tai did everything she said she was going to. jeff reminds shauna "secrets have always been a part of us." lottie has struggled with her mental health since childhood. shaunajackie fallout was always going to be nuclear whether it happened in the woods or at college. if van and natalie weren't stuck in the woods they'd be stuck with their parents or what was left of them. and everybody knows misty was already who she is. they could have taken any route and they would have ended up at the destination of themselves anyway. say they didn't crash, say they won nationals. it doesn't matter. it doesn't fucking matter!!! fast forward twenty-five years and the class reunion plays out more or less the same. they win nationals and misty is still a nurse playing god and natalie is still in rehab or maybe not because who would be paying for it so scratch that they win nationals and natalie is still dead, and shaunajackie are still swallowing each other whole. they win nationals and nothing singularly or uniquely terrible happens to them and they still grow up to be wracked with anger and guilt anyway! they're still unsatisfied, cheating on their spouses. they're still suicidal, still schizophrenic. terrible things still happen to them but they're commonplace terrible, so who cares? get over it. all this to say the self is inescapable. all this to say this life fucks you up no matter what. there was no other way for them, there was no other fate for them. there is no ideal life where they are perfect and good. the crash isn't the tragedy. the tragedy is that they all are who they are. they are human. they win nationals, and they still have to be these people. they have to be these people, but alone. the tragedy is that they think they could have been fine if they hadn't done such terrible things to survive after the crash. but they were never fine, they were never going to be fine, and that IS fine because neither was anyone else. "we're all like this." we were always going to be. and I don't mean it's a good thing they crashed. I mean it's all a crash. there is no unscathed life.

[389]

A look back at Tom Hardy’s MySpace pictures from the mid-2000s.

The actors old MySpace ‘About Me’ section read: “I act for a living now adopting characters for money, it is a language I was born into. I’m Grateful, arrogant self centred, tenacious, versatile, honest, honourable, loyal, loving, gentle, consistent, reliable, focussed, prideful, passionate and nuts. I have a head like a disco ball, if I say I’ll do something, unless I absolutely can’t it gets done, I never give up on humanity, I love people. I want to see communities stand up, honest and open, flexing to the fullest of their capabilities and combined usefullness. happy. I laugh at bullies. I am reactionary but I have learned to hold my tongue and my trigger finger.”

[failgirltwink]

i know everyone is obsessed with spider!lottie so who's gonna be the one to write the 100k slowburn fic where lottie is still reeling from the death of her gf laura lee when nat scatorccio starts at her school and gets obsessed with solving the mystery that is lottie mathews

[elizabeth-mitchells]

feeling completely normal about this parallel

[chlodines]

addy and beth ↣ kisses

[cronegloam]

Lot wants to die for them so hard and they said no you don’t get to. Lottie says I belong to all of you let me die. They say yeah you belong to all of us and we say you’re not allowed to. They said get back on your shrine we have more worship to do.

[cronegloam]

@teabookgremlin GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE A MARTYR THAT THEYRE MAKING A GOD

[failgirltwink]

lottie kidnapped nat while twirling her hair thinking I can fix her and make her worse 🤭🥰

[thebonedogs]

embroidering on the felt hmm 

[lovewillbreakyourheartforever]

me sexting: i feel like something bad is going to happen to me. i feel like something bad has happened. it hasn't reached me yet but it's on its way.

[failgirltwink]

The truth is: I want to hold your hands because they are like mine. Holding a knife

by the blade and sharpening it

[nataliesscatorccio]

pretty painful that lottie and misty spent the entire show trying to protect natalie and it’s lottie and misty who kill her. (Ladies and gentlemen, on behalf of the crew I ask that you please direct your attention forward as we review the emergency procedures). pretty painful that natalie and travis put in the footwork to find and protect javi but both kill him in the end. (There are four emergency exits on this aircraft. Take a minute to locate the exit closest to you). these people love and understand each other so uniquely, but they’ll never be able to help each other out of the woods because they are ALL lost in them. (Note that the nearest exit may be behind you. Count the number of rows to this exit). their efforts, while so sincere in their good intent, are rotten from inception because they’re each so deep in anguish themselves all they can do is hurt others. (Should the cabin experience sudden pressure loss, stay calm and listen for instructions from the cabin crew. Oxygen masks will drop down from above your seat). it feels like at the end of season two they all begin to see what we’ve known: it isn’t Lottie who is the especially crazy one or Natalie who is the singular fuck-up or Misty who is the outlier nutjob. it’s all of them, equally. (Place the mask over your mouth and nose. Pull the strap to tighten it). natalie was so shocked when she realized “oh. we’re all like this.” reaching out for the world trying for tenderness with weapons where their hands should be. (Make sure that your own mask is on first before helping others).

[cronegloam]

it’s the way every yellowjacket has reacted with the exact same incredulousness to lottie being out of the institution which is making me think abt the intensity of them finding out she’d been institutionalized in the first place . what do you do when you make a prophet of a girl and then return to civilization and find that civilization has deemed her clinically insane. what do you do if you believed her and did everything she did but no one deemed you clinically insane. what do you do if you find out she’s not there anymore. she’s in the wider world again and people trust her and rely on her and you want to trust her again , so badly. what do you do if immediately on returning from the wilderness, it is recontexualized as madness and you lock onto that, and it changes how you look at everything you did, and if she’s back what does that mean about how you understood your own actions, your own belief in her, your own love of her, your own fear of how you love and fear and want to love and want to fear her

[cronegloam]

furthermore !!!! It’s the way they all know her exact diagnosis too. who told them. Did Lottie’s parents let her friends know she was being sent to the mental hospital. Was Lottie communicating with the other yellowjackets before she was sent away even though she wasn’t physically speaking to anyone else. did Lottie just vanish one day and they went to her house only for her maid to tell them she was gone. did Lottie’s parents tell the yellowjackets about her diagnosis . what was the tone of the conversation. was it anger or grief or disgust or sadness. what do Lottie’s parents think of the girls who made their daughter a prophet. do they know they did that. do they resent that the other girls came back quote unquote normal. what’s it like when they all return to wiskayok. sitting up late at night in their beds at their parents’ houses all alone remembering how they used to sleep in a big pile together on the floor clinging to the warmth of their friends. if you can call them friends. more and less than that all at once. do they hang out before they all start to drift away into the next phase of their lives. do they meet in the woods to sit and talk and drink and dance and scream and cry and fight. does lottie come to meet them until one day she’s just gone. and then one by one they all stop coming too. what’s holding them together if their girl god is gone across the ocean and they’re saying she was mad the whole time. what then!!!! what then!!!!!!!

[vanpalmr]

jackie & shauna (yellowjackets) // planet of love - richard siken

[ems-smoll-sanctuary]

The whole “we both know we’re on borrowed time but we fall for each other anyways” trope is one the most romantic things ever and here’s why:

That trope is basically saying “I know this will break my heart and I know I will never fully recover from this, what’s more I know if I walk away now this will only be an occasional twinge in my heart and nothing more. But for YOU I’m willing to suffer that passion and the heartache it brings, for our short time together I’m willing to spend the rest of my eternity slowly growing my agonizing way around it. Because you surpass my self-preservation and everything I could ever want and I will forgo anything if it means I can have THIS LOVE WITH YOU in my life.”

And it all boils down to: “I will willingly endure the darkness that comes after if it means I can have the most dazzling firework for one fleeting second in my entire life. And that firework, is being in love with you.”

This trope burns me from the core of my heart and I relish in that flame every. single. time.

[thinkershipman-deactivated20250]

SHAUNA SHIPMAN: AN ORESTEIA

[rootmode]

was about to sound incoherent so i will just settle on: jackie is somehow gayest in this specific scene

[rootmode]

oh this IS a safe space suddenly