Iām 20, lost my dad, ran from abuse, and Iām trying to survive ā please read š„ŗ
Hi, I donāt really know how to start this, but Iām bhanu. Iām 20 years old, from India, and Iām posting this here because I donāt know where else to go. Iām not looking for pity ā Iām just really, genuinely in need of help.
This year has been the hardest of my life. A few months ago, I lost my dad to a sudden heart attack. He was the only person in my life who truly made me feel safe. After he passed, things at home got worse fast.
A close male relative who was āhelpingā us started touching me inappropriately. When I told my mom, she asked me to keep quiet because we needed his money. That moment broke me. I still regret not running sooner. But I finally did.
On June 16, I left my house with a few clothes and my college admission papers. Thatās it. Iāve been staying at a friendās place since then. No money. No laptop. Barely food sometimes. No family support. Just me trying not to break.
The only thing Iāve ever wanted was to become an animator. Iāve loved art since I was a kid ā itās the only thing thatās ever made me feel free. I got into my dream college, JNAFAU (a fine arts school in Hyderabad), and I even got a 35% scholarship. But I still have to pay clg fee and I donāt know how. I donāt even have a laptop to do my assignments.
Iāve been doing some small freelance work when I can, but itās not enough. I feel like Iām drowning. And yes ā Iāve had suicidal thoughts. But I donāt want to give up. Iām still here because something inside me believes Iām meant for more than pain.
Soā¦ Iām reaching out. If anyone can help ā with a donation, a job lead, a laptop, a safe space, even just a reblog or kind message ā Iād be so grateful. I have all my documents and proof if anyone needs them. I just want to hold onto my dream. Thatās all I have left.
Please donāt scroll past this. Even if you just read it, thank you for seeing me.
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