Memories are your own private prison.

Words are the only thing I can rearrange over and over again.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Is your worth measured in how much regret you feel?

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Tears like acid, burn with shame

Not my fault, no witnesses

Fists of cotton, I don't know how to help (me)

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Dear diary,

Help me, help myself back to being nice again.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Blinded by fear and stuck in habits passed down by generations,

Smothered my confidence to a tiny spark.

How unfair! I would like to scream;

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

There is no power to fight this unfairness afterwards. The waves crashed but rage didn't vaporise.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

I'm missing out on things I wish I didn't know about.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

I repeat.

"How do you know?"

"You just know."

I repeat.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

When she touched me all I wanted was to scream, but I kept silent.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

After all this time, do you still think I was the best option?

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

All the shops are closed, the bus is long gone, but I'm still waiting for my ride back home.

Are you there?

- l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

My rythms don't rhyme,

My tic is missing tac and toe.

I always thought you would be mine,

But you're just another broken vow.

- l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Colours guide us through life.

I chose red to mark your finish line.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

I fought for your maybe, the what ifs and your love.

I battled and bruised, but reached the finish line.

They handed me my prize, but it wasn't you, it was the realization that no feelings are true.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Messages are left on read, I'm slowly losing my grip as I plead.

You're slowing slipping away from me, turning heads where I don't see.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Somebody showed you the consequences of your actions and you seemed surprised.

I watched from the distance and enjoyed the view.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Childlike eyes are watching the street.

No driver, no passenger.

I just keep waiting at the window for your words to arrive.

-l.w.

[fairiesinmyhead]

Fairies started to crawl inside my head, like oceans shape rocks, they forged steel of anger.

-l.w.