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[fake-intellectual]

I am intrigued by far-fetched sophisticated literatures, and I post my babbling here.

I am sure that my writings are full of grammatical and factual errors. This is because I don't do the necessary research for my writings, and I post them just for fun. Point out flaws as you may, but please don't take them seriously.

[fake-intellectual]

I feel people simply forget how opaque everyone is. Like you never understand another person's thoughts. Language is but a mechanical tool that human beings use, but countless moments in one's life is they hit with the realization that people have fundamentally different understandings and experiences over a very same set of words. We only assume another person, assuming how thoughts, reactions, experiences, meanings work.

In this sense I feel David Hume actually conveys the very same message as the Law of Assumption... One never has evidence of how things work, we only assume.

[fake-intellectual]

I realize that I lack of a concept of trust. To me trust is a really rude presumption of how people will behave in the future, especially when people get offended when their “trusted person” did not behave as they expected. Like I treat you really well for a while doesn’t mean that I will automatically keep doing the same thing in the future, at all. I can be exhausted, in a bad mood, or I simply din’t want to. I don’t owe anyone any explanation when I stop doing that. Assuming that I am “good” or “kind” according to your expectations doesn’t make an excuse. To me, the real term of trust is “contract,” where I explicitly consent and promise that I will do the same thing in the future.

With this I avoid “trusting” anyone. I consider every good act as purely accidental, and I can be really grateful when others do good things to me, because I know they should have the absolute full right not to do it. But there is another catch: Can I trust (assume) others to comprehend my conception of trust at all? I cannot establish any long term relationship without explicitly asking, and I cannot trust others not to feel weird or take offence from it. Doesn’t this asking thing also takes a lot of trust and courage?

I think the real problem is that I am too paranoid trying to avoid conflicts and offence. But I am who I am. I have 6 and 9 fix I think.