Dream a little dream

I'm just trying to figure out who I am in a world full of people. Believe in yourself, in your dreams, and in magic.

[yahooentertainment]

[fallforashootingstarr]

Maybe if I tell myself enough, maybe if I do.

[fallforashootingstarr]

Honestly, all I want for my birthday is for my best friend to be here.

[greenjellies]

if u ever need something to smile at here’s my dog in his raincoat

[fallforashootingstarr]

I'm also just waiting to wake up and realize this was just a nightmare. And that I actually am good enough for this

[fallforashootingstarr]

Today

I know this isn't true. But I feel like it is.

I feel like I've let my grandparents down. I feel like this should have happened. I should have gotten this position so I could have helped these families struggling with one of the hardest things in the world. I felt like if I had this opportunity to help others, then my struggles would have meaning to them. Then my hardships wouldn't have been for nothing, it would be to help others. To give me the strength, courage, wisdom, and honesty to help other people. Because I understood. I do understand.

Part of me really wanted this position so it would validate my experience. So it would help in my own healing. So I could feel some solace in helping others.

But I didn't get this position. And yeah, I know it will all work out. And yeah, I know this gives me the opportunity to do other things on campus. And yeah, I know I can still be involved and still help other people. And yeah, it's not the end of the world. 

But I still feel like it was supposed to happen, and now that it hasn't I've let myself and my grandparents down. I know that I didn't get this position because I wasn't good enough. But it sure as hell feels like I just wasn't good enough. 

[fallforashootingstarr]

Is there nothing worse in life than knowing the car wreck that awaits you and yet unable to stop? 

[atzulastorm]

[wvnderlst]

Belarus | Serg Dombrovsky

[iwantcupcakes]

I see nothing wrong here.

[ruinedchildhood]

[becausesometimesdreamsdocometru]

Main Street first thing in the morning might be my favorite thing. (at Main Street USA at Walt Disney World)

[i-n-e-f-f-a-b-l-e-m-e-deactivat]

[forever90s]

[bowtiesandbatman]

If you don’t like Monty Python you’re wrong

[whiterabbitproject]

^^

[fallforashootingstarr]

Catch my hand I'll be fighting for ya. All this time been tripping and slipping around. You got me now, I'm swimming, swimming in clouds.

[followyourbliss973]