"You're a liability. I don't need you anymore."

Scorpio | 22 | Weird gender blob. Sideblog. *Depression, OSDD, BPD symptoms* Personal posts in the #practicing humanity.txt tag. Also check #about me

[adhd-asd]

ADHD test: asks if I experience a symptom

Me, who has spent 20 years masking symptoms and struggling to form a consistent identity: ………..maybe?

[kafk-a]

autopsy, donte collins

[tokyofashionpolice]

Some of you... should not be allowed to read fiction that describes the horrors of sexual and domestic abuse...

[dog-teeth]

me during a phase of extreme clinical depression: write unedited poetry in my phones notes app i must

[adhighdefinition]

being mentally ill + having adhd is just you thinking ‘it can’t go on like this forever’ but then it just… goes on… like this… forever

[adhighdefinition]

growing up with adhd

never living up to your full potential in school or at home or well… anywhere,

considering yourself different than other children and desperately wishing you could be one of them,

having difficulties forming friendships thus isolating yourself,

frequently beating yourself up for not being good enough,

seeing yourself as the family disappointment,

experiencing years of low self-esteem, loneliness, sadness & anger,

not only being irritated by everyone around you but especially by yourself,

depressive days and self-sabotage easily becoming parts of your everyday life,

asking yourself why can’t you JUST BE NORMAL over and over again,

eventually ending up with a mindset which leaves you tired of trying and failing so you become the “troublemaker”, the “slob”, the child and teen no one likes to have around,

realizing that it’s most likely going to take years to recover from a childhood which punished you simply for being you,

your adulthood consisting of picking up the pieces and trying to catch up with everyone else around you

[wlwellbutrin]

people wanna act like adhd is just forgetting shit all the time but you guys need to stop ignoring our emotional volatility/vulnerability, rejection sensitive dysphoria, the high comorbidity with substance use and depression and suicidal ideation like… adhd is not pretty. it’s not fun. lots of us are miserable all the time and we’re difficult to be around and we tend to have very complicated psych profiles that mimic a lot of aspects of bpd and bipolar. adhd is god damn complicated stop trying to sideline it

[sainthex-archive-deactivated201]

idk which 14 year old needs to hear this but your e-relationship is not going to last

[falsehumanhood]

And is probably abusive.

[weltenwellen]

Tracy K. Smith, from “Don’t You Wonder, Sometimes?”, Life on Mars

[countvonroo]

I love how groups of friends will end up adopting a group name. like wether it’s something just like “squad” or “meme team” an inside joke or something. and you’ll just refer to the group like one unit like “hey, the meme team is coming over,” and people will just know who that means. I love it. I love these little gangs filled with good pals.

[bookthiefes]

please install tag viewer for this one

[roguecampingrainstorm]

Having a group of friends sounds so fun I’d love to be a part of one someday

[sleepingpigeon]

why do u think u know me i don’t even know me

[iphee]

someone: you’re like an open book! me: what does the pages say

[adhighdefinition]

growing up with adhd

never living up to your full potential in school or at home or well… anywhere,

considering yourself different than other children and desperately wishing you could be one of them,

having difficulties forming friendships thus isolating yourself,

frequently beating yourself up for not being good enough,

seeing yourself as the family disappointment,

experiencing years of low self-esteem, loneliness, sadness & anger,

not only being irritated by everyone around you but especially by yourself,

depressive days and self-sabotage easily becoming parts of your everyday life,

asking yourself why can’t you JUST BE NORMAL over and over again,

eventually ending up with a mindset which leaves you tired of trying and failing so you become the “troublemaker”, the “slob”, the child and teen no one likes to have around,

realizing that it’s most likely going to take years to recover from a childhood which punished you simply for being you,

your adulthood consisting of picking up the pieces and trying to catch up with everyone else around you

[plushewi]

adhd shit from my experience

my diagnosis is combined-type adhd so this’ll be a mess

(self-dx people can reblog too!)

time is a social construct/i have no concept of time (casually forgetting what day/month/year it is)

chronic boredom

rejection sensitive dysphoria

i’m bored but everything is too boring/unappealing

“where’s my phone???” i say, holding my phone

thinking about one thing and then thinking about something else for literally one (1) second but immediately forgetting about what you were originally thinking about

bad yet good memory (i.e: i can remember entire movie scripts from movies i watched years ago but i can’t remember what i did yesterday)

Leg Bounce™

can’t sit or stand still (i.e: i bounce my legs while sitting; i rock side to side while standing)

stimming in general

i have so much energy!!!!!!! i gotta move and jump around Right Now or else i’ll Die

i know i should brush my teeth. all i have to do is pick up my tooth brush, put toothpaste on it, and brush my teeth. so why is my body doing Not That (executive dysfunction)

literally everything is distracting (i.e: that clock on the wall at school? distracting. the air conditioning? distracting. someone tapping their pencil on their desk? distracting. can’t focus on anything but the distraction.)

zoning out CONSTANTLY (can be both on purpose or accidental)

i’m reading this book but i’m not processing any of the words on the pages so i have no idea what’s happening and fuck now i gotta reread it from the beginning (having to do this over and over again to actually be able to read something)

what was i doing? what was i saying? what did i do yesterday? fuck if i know

having no! sense! of! volume control! (i.e: yelling when you think you’re whispering - not being aware of this unless someone mentions it)

i’m upset but i forgot why so now i’m just vaguely uncomfortable

oops i forgot to eat again

what’s an attention span? don’t know her

zero impulse control

[sleepnoises]

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ill never forgive the public education system

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this post isnt a joke btw. there is no feeling worse than being mentally ill in highschool

[mathsturbation]

i am the shyest attention whore ever

[such-justice-wow]

I want attention!!! If you’re not busy… And you want to…. Its okay if you don’t

[svrfwho-deactivated20210114]

i don’t think anyone has ever cried over losing me or the fear of losing me lol like i’ve never really been that important to anyone. most of the time, its more like “oh you’re there, cool” “oh you’re gone, didn’t even realise” :)