I love that im getting married in a few months, but I hate it that when I'm looking at ideas for photos and ALL the suggestions are "Bride with Grandparents" and having to delete that because ive lost my grandparents.. it just makes my heart sad.. and I have other people that have stepped in to be pseudo family members but I just wish that my grandpa could have seen me..
I think i have still a bit of delayed grief surrounding the subject of my grandparents - and the fact that I still feel like im 16 and playing dress up but with no instructions for *how* to play it.
And the fact that I keep having to defend myself for the decisions that I make to my fiancé and his mom; and I just really don't know how to be married and stuff.
ALSO..
People have LOTS of opinions on how I should do that.. like shove off dude.. you've had your day, this is mine and his. Like Im doing my best..
^^
This is what I want to say to people.. but I have to say it non-threatening like:
"I'll consider the responses" :p
Anywho.. Moral of the story is:
I WANNA BE LEFT ALONE FOR 2 SECONDS














