To start off, the two fandoms I'm going to be talking in depth today are Batman and Harry Potter. I'm choosing these two because Harry Potter has been a fandom that I've been apart of for many years and I've been deeply involved in the community and Batman is a fandom that I've been shallowly apart of for years but have obsessively fallen into lately and reflects a recent desire to analyze media that I engage with.
I own a few pieces of fan merch, mostly Harry Potter or MCU. I have official HP merch from Universal like a Deathly Hallows crop top and a Slytherin pendant necklace and scrunchie. I also have non-official merch like a tumbler with HP plants or various MCU stickers that I got from my friend's business. I don't own anything Batman related.
Recently, I have gotten into analyzing the movies/TV shows that I watch and while I don't go back and rewatch them, I do look them up online to see the cinematography choices, themes, and other relevant information which I've done with various Batman media. I've also just deep-dived into how Batman has been portrayed in animated movies, TV shows, and live actions like the Burton movies, Nolan, and latest R-Pat revival because it's an interest of mine.
I've definitely been involved in fandom communities. I engage with fanfiction for both communities respectively, right now Batman but I have engaged with Harry Potter fanfic in the past and probably will again in the future. I've also created fanworks - like, really long fanfictions for Harry Potter and other fandoms, including Batman - and in doing that I've engaged in discussions with other people in those fandoms. I've also been apart of groupchats with people and started friendships online over mutual interests.
I've definitely followed actors from media that I engaged with in the past, but I no longer do that because I don't want to follow celebrities. I fan a finsta for my fanfic writing and all I follow are other fandom members on there.
I've only engaged with rewatch podcasts slightly. My only experience was watching the pilot episode of the Lost Girl rewatch podcast because they just aren't what I enjoy. I'd rather just listen to music. I'm much more interested in watching videos about fandom on YouTube, whether it be discussing the media itself or the fandom. It doesn't matter if I'm apart of the fandom the video is about, I just like learning about fandom so I'm inclined to watch the video if I like the creator, like Strange Aeons.
I do think there is an "us" vs. "them" binary because of the way fans are viewed but those who don't see themselves as participating in a fandom. I also see it in myself when discussing fandoms that I'm not apart of because I'm an outsider of a community. In my fandoms, I'm an insider. For Harry Potter, I think I'm expert who is accomplished and has spent several years writing and has a good amount of followers. For Batman, I think I'm newer and still learning about the media so that I can feel like an expert. But for mainstream, I think bleeding feels uncomfortable, because for me growing up there was such strict separation to where now when I try to blend the lines I feel such push back internally because of the many years I tried to repress this part of myself.
I think anonymity affects online fandoms by making people feel more comfortable. When I was younger and making my way into fandom, if I had to use my legal name and add a picture, I would've run the other way, but instead I had the freedom to choose a name that I liked more than my legal one and the ability to be whoever I wanted. My pseudonym allowed me to write what I wanted and gain control over my thoughts and feelings and in turn meet people online that I never would've had the chance to in real life. Anonymity makes people feel free, which is good, but I do see the downsides because I saw firsthand the bullying that comes when people don't see the repercussions for their actions. When I was creating my podcast, it helped me because I already had the experience of existing in a fandom space and knowing about Harry Potter and the queer community but also felt the freedom of speaking into my phone mic under the guise of not giving my name.
I think fandom has acted as both a site for me to built autonomy and intimacy but I did use it for psychological compensation. I went looking for something when I went online; I wanted to engage more with a media I loved, and then I wanted to continue the story. I did have a parasocial relationship - or perhaps a hyperfixation on certain medias - where I just need to cling onto a media and continue the story either through reading about it continuously or writing about it. However, through fandom I also found community and people. People I could talk to about my day, people who gave me advice, people who become my friends. I also became more confident in my writing and my abilities in simple graphic design, the latter which I wouldn't have engaged with if I hadn't been apart of fandom.
Language that associates me with my fandom outside of fandom spaces is asking "what house are you?" and saying in response "Slytherin." Harry Potter has become so large that the use of the four Hogwarts houses or just asking someone for their house outside of a fandom space immediately cues someone in that you're talking about the series. It automatically lets the other person know that you're apart of the fandom, or at least a little bit enough of a fan to associate with a house or have taken the quiz. I don't really use it outside of fandom spaces. The only time I have is after I had taken an in-depth fan made house quiz and I loved it and thought it was completely thorough and wanted to share it with them but we weren't talking about the fandom, but otherwise I wouldn't bring it up.