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[aivelin]

Illustration to "Unusual Strings"

by @ashfae & @mostlyjustgoose

Read fic - https://archiveofourown.org/works/22246867/chapters/238242291

[hornetsatabatnest]

When I was initially searching I wasn’t able to find these easily so! RAMCOA information:

- End ritual abuse (links to even more resources on the website, haven’t looked at many of them)

- RA-info

- Extreme abuse survey

- Becoming yourself: overcoming mind control and ritual abuse (note: heavily recommended to go through with a therapist or someone you trust rather than alone due to triggers and safety issues. Even if you don’t have a therapist please try to have someone nearby who can intervene if something gets triggered)

- this paper seemed promising regarding information on therapy and recovery, but I can’t find a freely available version:(

- Ritual abuse and mind control: The Manipulation of attachment needs (note: not full book, haven’t read it yet but I want to)

Might gather research done on it at some point, but I know the first three links ended up being incredibly helpful with figuring out what was going on in my system and it took a while for me to even find them so. I hope this helps someone else

[dic--e]

for people saying RAMCOA/OEA isn't real because "It's all conspiracy", there are actual records of places that use those abuse methods, and no not all of them are some big scary cults (while they very much are real, and you can simply look up famous cults and get a butt load)

these things can be schools like the troubled teen industry, most known to me are Ivory Ridge and School of Élan. both abused the kids enrolled there, gaslit and manipulated them and their parents to convince them they committed bad things to get the parents to spend more money on tuition, and that they were bad kids who deserved to be there, Élan literally had a "bully" ritual where they'd pick a kid to be a "bully", and students surround them and one other student and force them to fight until one gets knocked out or until a staff member calls it off (which these were always started by staff members, sometimes for no reason). Students were forced to carry around degrading signs on themselves, some were forced to live in a dumpster for around 30 days i believe?

Ivory Ridge has a whole documentary you can watch on Netflix called The Program, where they even show a whole shed filled with files from the school.

In both of these schools, students behaviors were heavily monitored and their access to the outside world were extremely limited, if they wanted to write a letter, it'd be screened before sending out to make sure they were trying to tell parents what was happening inside the school, and when it came to phone calls, they were heavily monitored and the line would be cut off if you tried to call for help and your calling privileges would be taken (which were very difficult to even get)

these same schools also had hierarchies to climb, and rules that were impossible to follow (things like no smiling, no singing, no making eye contact, no talking to someone on the same level as you, no looking at the opposite sex, no pretending to sleep, 5 minutes showers, etc) Not to mention the staff here had lack of qualifications to be saying they were offering therapeutic care for these "troubled teens"

this abuse is also in underground trafficking rings, which i feel like i don't even have to explain how those can be organized abuse.

no RAMCOA/OEA isn't with the intention of "making a system", but it definitely can be a cause of it if a child were to endure these things, or someone who already has DID/OSDD were to be enrolled into the troubled teen industry and worsen their mental state.

if you look into these things and proceed to say RAMCOA/OEA isn't real, then you're being willfully ignorant.

[creature-wizard]

Satan Wants You, a documentary that explores the investigations and debunkings of the ritual abuse allegations made by Dr. Lawrence Pazder and Michelle Smith, is free on Tubi. You should watch it because those who forget history are bound to repeat it.

Satan Wants You (2023)

When a 1980 memoir uncovered a Satanist abduction, a Satanic Panic pervaded the globe, leaving destruction and wrongful convictions in its w

[post-authenticity-society]

If abortion is murder, then:

Male masturbation to orgasm is genocide

Swallowing semen is cannibalism

Fetal ultrasound images are child pornography

Vasectomies and condoms prevent homicide

PDE5 inhibitors (Viagra, Cialis, et al.) are the most dangerous type of drug on the market

Men must start paying child support at six weeks

[briarpiranian]

Some Facts & Personal Knowledge from A Human Trafficking Survivor

I had a post like this that disappeared from tumblr (probably moderated out of existence) so I'm rewriting it with more careful language. Hopefully I can recapture the gist of what it said. Please mind the CWs.

I am speaking out as a survivor. I've experienced much of (though not all of) the experiences I describe here, and I'm not going to answer personal questions about what happened to me. Please be respectful of that.

First, involuntary human trafficking isn't exclusive to countries with less wealth. It happened to me in the United States.

Most people have a stereotype view of what human trafficking is, and who it can impact. Needless to say, women and girls are not the only victims of this crime. It can and does happen to men and boys as well as trans, nonbinary, and intersex people like me.

A few other things you may not know:

Some people traffic their own children or grandchildren (yes, for real).

Some trafficked children are literally born to other trafficked children as a result of SA or non-consensual artificial insemination.

Trafficking often looks normal from the outside. Traffickers go to great lengths to make it so, enrolling their victims in school and other normal activities, presenting as a "parent" at doctor's appointments etc. You may even know someone who's being trafficked right now.

Trafficking can involve many different forms of slavery, not just the one that likely came to mind first (I'm being coy here to avoid getting this post taken down).

People who are being trafficked usually will not tell you what is happening to them for good reason. Their handlers have likely threatened them very effectively (for example, I knew my handlers would try to end my life when I escaped, and I was right). Handlers usually have significant power (often financial and legal) that keeps them silent as well. Some individuals are even forced or tricked into signing non-disclosure agreements.

Many trafficked children are not aware of human trafficking as a concept and don't understand what is happening to them. All they know is that it's different than the childhoods they see other children having.

Traffickers use any means of control at their fingertips, often preventing individuals from even building their own savings or accessing the Internet to make plans for eventual escape. They also deliberately sabotage their victims relationships to prevent rescue. Trafficked people are also often forcibly exposed to substances as an additional means of control.

Survivors who escape are often left with not only Complex-PTSD, other trauma disorders, or substance-use disorders.

Survivors also have a complex set of issues with entering normal life due to the restrictions placed on them previously. Some have no legal documents or medical records and/or no job history to reference. Those who were financially abused may also have debt and bad credit deliberately created by their handlers to decrease their capacity to escape.

Survivors are often disabled. They may have been born disabled and were targeted by traffickers because they would be easier to control (hi, me, here). Or they may develop disabilities as a result of physical abuse and living conditions enforced by their handlers.

Many survivors are targeted even after escaping, and some don't make it through that. My handlers stalked, harassed, and attempted to off me, which is why I'm being very careful how much I say about my own experience here.

[fanduber]

[fanduber]

[animentality]

[unspeakablearchives]

i'm not a gay man, but i think the weird influx of gay trucker erotica may have stemmed from the gay BDSM artist known as tom of finland? who may be of interest to you since he dealt with similar battles fighting censorship before his death. he very clearly had a type of man and often drew military or working class gay porn.

Oh. My god. I LOVE Tom of Finland! 😍 🇫🇮

That is the exact type of art that I love. Not the content, mind you (personally don't think men should be allowed to be masculine - being masculine is a woman's job 😏)

No, I'm talking about the motivation behind it. I LOVE when someone makes art about (or writes about) some weirdly specific topic just because they think it is the hottest thing imaginable. He qualifies:

I like that he knew exactly what he was into, and wasn't afraid to show it. I like the fact that he quit his successful job at an international advertising firm in order to draw gay porn. I like the fact that he made a bunch of problematic drawings of gay Nazis because, and I quote, "they had the sexiest uniforms!"

And I also like the fact that the government of Finland officially released the gayest stamp of all time in his honor:

And at this point, you may be thinking, "surely she's not going keep talking about vintage gay beefcake hardcore pornographic graphite drawings for much longer, right?"

Well, there is a bit more, actually.

Because I have found some relevant info regarding the sorts of books in the original post: underground taboo erotic pulp novels of the 70s.

The books with illustrations that most resemble the style of Tom of Finland were published by Surrey House / Surree Limited from roughly 1972 to 1978, with illustrations attributed only to "Adam":

And I have identified this elusive artist as being... Giacomo “Jack” Bozzi!

Although I don't have direct confirmation from the artist, many second-hand accounts do say he was strongly influenced by Tom of Finland!

...what's wrong with me? I hate how easily I get distracted & write these unnecessary long-winded posts. Just hope someone likes this 😭 🏳️‍🌈

[unspeakablearchives]

[unspeakablearchives]

Hi, please do talk about Addio Zio Tom (if you want to, and have time ofc). After some light wikipedia reading I’m intrigued!

Let's take a break from our regularly scheduled discussions of fucked up books, and instead talk about a fucked up movie!

Here's the (kind of) short version:

"Addio Zio Tom" aka "Goodbye, Uncle Tom" is a bizarre 1971 docudrama, which one person online summarized thusly:

Goodbye Uncle Tom boldly asks the question “What if a European film crew went back in time and shot a documentary about the history of slavery, slapped an atypical Italian soundtrack on top of it, and saw it marketed as a piece of exploitation?”

Yeah I know. There's a lot to unpack there. But let's just focus on what made it actively unethical / harmful: The film was made with the enthusiastic participation of the brutal Haitian dictator "Papa Doc" Duvalier. He provided the filmmakers with hundreds of "extras" that they could use for anything, with no oversight. In reality, these appear to have just been normal Haitians who were forced to participate in the film without any knowledge of what they would be required to do.

The film's goal of depicting the brutality and cruelty of slavery meant that these people were subjected to abuse and humiliation on a scale that is almost unimaginable.

The most harrowing parts of the film are in the slave ships and the receiving station where recently arrived slaves are "prepared" for sale. Roaches and rats are shown crawling all over naked people, packed next to one another in a ship's hold. Vast crowds are stripped naked, buckets of cold water are flung on them, others are thrown into pools, have delicing powder thrown in their faces. Some are locked in chains, cages, stockades, some are hung upside down by their feet. They're made to kneel down and scoop out gruel from a trough with their hands and shovel it into their mouths like animals. This is a mix of naked men, women, and children of all ages, mind you.

The sexual elements are particularly offensive. Pregnant women are paraded around naked during scenes set in a "breeding ranch" for slaves. A happy little white girl is filmed running through a meadow pulling a naked little black boy along behind her by a leash around his neck.

Hey, were you upset over the idea of adolescent girls twerking in Cuties? Do you think you would you perhaps be more upset if those girls were forced to be in the film, were depicted as being in a slave brothel, and were entirely naked when they were twerking? If so, perhaps you should avoid watching "Addio Zio Tom." Yes, seriously. That 100% happens in this movie. Yes, it's legal, but like, ethically? Wow is it fucked up.

Sufficed to say that it's a rough film.

Once again, I want to point to The List I recently posted of reasons that even repulsive content such as this should be preserved. But there's an extra reason this particular film should be preserved, in my opinion. Despite the horrible background to the film, and despite some really tone-deaf elements where the movie tries to be goofy, funny, or erotic while dealing with some stuff that should be treated with much more respect - despite all that, the truth is that this movie really does have many moments that are probably closer to an accurate depiction of American slavery than anything that has ever been made.

Hope that helps clear things up.

[paraphiliaresearcharchive]

The Paraphilia Research Archive

A public digital library preserving books, papers, and research on paraphilia, fetish, atypical sexuality, and related topics.

This archive exists to keep knowledge accessible at a time when research on stigmatized and taboo topics related to sexuality is increasingly difficult to find, removed, or buried. It collects academic texts, historical material, and other resources so researchers, paraphiles, fetishists, survivors, and curious readers alike can explore the subject with nuance rather than panic.

The goal is simple: preserve information, encourage informed discussion, and support approaches to sexuality that prioritize harm prevention, accountability, and understanding over ignorance and stigma.

Knowledge should not disappear just because it makes people uncomfortable.

[unspeakablearchives]

[quasi-normalcy]

It's incredible how all of the censorship on the modern internet doesn't actually seem to be making society kinder or more wholesome hmm maybe there's a lesson in this

[unspeakablearchives]

In my humble opinion, Censorship is not only vile, But also useless. It's useless when you can guess EXACTLY what it's trying to hide.

YES. Okay so this reminded me. Hmm... hey, can I go ahead and deeply upset everyone here?

Great, thanks 😅

So I really don't like the common internet usage of things like censoring the word "nigger" as something like "N------" regardless of context.

And yes, I understand that you can get in trouble on many some social media sites, regardless of the context in which it. Yes, I understand that it can be shocking and upsetting for many people to see that word written out, regardless of context. No, I don't think people should be using it all willy-nilly without any restraint.

But I recently saw people using that sort of self-censorship to refer to famous quotes (ie. "No Viet Cong ever called me nigger"), and the titles of some very well-established literary works. For instance:

(Edit: I don't know why this post refuses to use smaller thumbnails... 😓)

And that didn't quite sit well with me. Like, these are very good authors, it's not like they were oblivious to the connotations and impact of that word. It was a very deliberate choice on their part to specifically use the word "nigger." If they wanted to call it "The N Word" or "N-----" then they would have done that.

So to me, self-censoring yourself when you talk about those books or quotes has a bit of a twinge of disrespect about it somehow. I guess it feels like you're prioritizing your own comfort over the surrounding context and the author's intentions on this very important subject.

Just my personal thoughts. What do you think?

Note: Those books I mentioned earlier are most relevant titles, in my opinion, because they were written by some very important, influential black authors. But there are several other significant books that used the word in the title too.

[unspeakablearchives]

What would you say is the weirdest book that you've seen in your research? Not the most disturbing or freaky or whatever, but the type that makes you go "...what?"

Huh. Good question... 🤔

As a matter of fact, I've found a lot of very weird books just incidentally as part of my research. I might have to actually break this up into a whole series of posts...

Here, let's start with one very specific category:

𓊈 Weird French Books 🇫🇷 𓊉

The French have a particularly long and illustrious history of very weird books, including the weird literary movements of Lettrism and Oulipo. So what the hell, lets start with some Weird French Books:

Livre de Prières (1886) aka "Book of Prayers" by J. Hervier, J. A. Henry, and A. Roux

Huh, this just looks like a normal prayer book... What's so special about it? Heh, well buckle up. Strap in. Shit's about to get crazy.

Because this book is not printed, and it's not handwritten either. The pages of this book are made of woven silk. The creators used a precursor to modern computers, the extremely complex, Victorian Era programmable Jacquard loom, in order to literally weave the threads into the intricate pattern of text and illustrations. This was unimaginably difficult, and required many thousands of punchcards to be meticulously punched by hand. It is a literally insane the amount of effort for what I believe amounted to only... something like 50 copies of the book.

You can examine the whole thing HERE

Le Livre (1984) aka "The Book" by Pierre Guyotat

Guyotat is revered by academics in France, and his writing style was always extremely unique and bizarre. For instance, his book Éden, Éden, Éden (1970) is a litany of obscenities, written as a single, long, frantic, delirious run-on sentence. And let me be clear, THAT book seems absolutely mainstream and boring compared to Le Livre.

Le Livre isn't quite written in a separate invented language, it's more as if it was written in a rhythmic, polyphonic French that's been mutated and mutilated so drastically in morphology, syntax, sound, and typography that it becomes something alien. The style is aggressively broken up, sometimes described as being "riddled with apostrophes, as if they were sprayed from a machine gun." It's composed of chopped-up words, intentional misspellings, certain sounds missing or added, and contractions that can make it look almost unreadable, etc.

It's never been translated because that would be literally impossible. And I've never read it because I can't even read normal French, let alone whatever the fuck this is written in. Also it's strangely hard to find a copy of the book.

Composition n° 1 (1962) by Marc Saporta

Okay, the descriptions are getting too long. I'll try to keep them more compact from here on out:

This "book" is one hundred and fifty loose pages, which the reader is instructed to shuffle and then read in whatever order they land in.

Cent mille milliards de poèmes (1961) aka "One Hundred Thousand Billion Poems" by Raymond Queneau

A "book" designed as a sort of... poem-generating machine?

It is only ten pages long, consisting of ten different sonnets, using the same rhyme scheme. Kind of. But each line of the poem is cut into a thin strip. This allows you to mix and match the different lines in order to make 100,000,000,000,000 (one hundred trillion) different sonnets.

La Disparition and Les Revenentes (1969) aka "A Void" and "The Exeter Text: Jewels, Secrets, Sex" by Georges Perec

The first book is written to not use the letter "e" at any point. And the second book is written using "e" as the ONLY vowel. I cannot stress how difficult and frustrating these would have been to write.

Even more baffling was that both books were somehow translated into English so that the translations ALSO avoid the letter "e", and exclusively use the letter "e" for vowels, respectively.

I know that the first book also also has a rather clever premise where the sudden disappearance of the letter "e" from the world becomes a central mystery in the book.

Les Journaux des dieux (1950) aka "The Journals of the Gods" by Isidore Isou

Bro, I don't even know wtf this shit is.

The book mixes words, letters, drawings, diagrams, musical notation, mathematical signs, and blocks of color layered on top of one another, in an attempt to unite many different systems of communication inside one book.

...it might not work, but hey, he gets points for trying.

[unspeakablearchives]

I saw your post that had the advanced anarchist arsonal. Do you have any other anarchist books that have been heavily censored?

Mmm.... not really, no 😅

HOWEVER It turns out that Internet Archive has quite a few. Here are a few collections that seem like a good place to start:

182 books published by AK Press - These seem like more polished, mainstream, intellectual - BORING. Comrade, do I look like I want professional graphic design and glossy, properly-bound books? Who wants anarchist lit with an official ISBN number from THE MAN?

300+ books by Sprout Distro - Okay, now that's more like it. Their shitty black-and-white zines about showing up to protests to cause a ruckus are clearly designed to be printed at home and distributed by hand - way more authentically anarchist imho

4000+ books in the Sparrow's Nest Library and Archive - Aw fuck yeah. That's the kind of look I like in my underground literature. An interesting collection of historic self-published anarchist materials - largely from the UK.