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a wonderfully patient and creative nonnie asked for a list of prompts based on interactions between two good friends in the aftermath of a trauma that happens to one of them, and iβm nothing if not a sucker for angst and deeply emotional connections! so here we go! iβm hoping these will be up to the nonnieβs expectations! have a wonderful day, my lovelies, and DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST !!
β i really hate seeing you like thisβ¦Β β
β why donβt we hang out tonight? like we used to, you know? order in cheap take-out, watch crappy movies, go for a walkβ¦ whatever you want, right?Β β
β please say somethingβ¦ anything. even if itβs telling me to shut up and leave you aloneβ¦ just say something.Β β
β i really miss you, you know.Β β
β iβm here. you got that? i donβt care if you never say anything to me ever again. i donβt care. iβm not going away, and iβm not going to stop being here for you, no matter how long you glare at me or ignore me or pretend that youβre okay. because i know youβre not. i know. β
β talk to me. i donβt care what we talk about. it doesnβt have to be anything big. we donβt need to talk about whatever happened to you, not unless you want to. i justβ¦ just talk to me, will you?Β β
β you know, i talk to a lot of people every single day. i hear all their voices telling me all kinds of stuff; i hear it all. and the only voice i really wanna listen to is yours, you know? even when youβre driving me crazy. so come on. pleaseβ¦ just drive me crazy again?Β β
β β¦seriously? no come-back? no witty retort? noβ¦ sarcastic shot at me? come on, iβ¦ i know we never ask these things, but, honestly, iβm worried about you. whatβs going on?Β β
β penny for your thoughts? hell. a dollar? ten? fifty? my whole life-savings? damn, at this rate iβd give away everything i own just to hear your voice again.Β β
β this is like, the ninth voicemail iβve left, and i know you hate voicemails, so iβm thinking this might be the one that pisses you off enough to pick up the phone and talk to me. because despite the number of times iβve told you to shut up, iβm actually begging you to say something, now. weird how things work out, isnβt it? anyway. pick up your freaking phone, moron. please.Β β
β will you please talk to me? please?Β β
β i have exhausted every single topic that i can think of to get you to open your mouth and say something to me. all of them. you leave me no choiceβ¦ how are you?Β β
β listen, weβre all really worried about you. okay? and we wanna help you, but we donβt know how. so how about you write us a note, or something? maybe just, open the door, huh? i just wanna know that youβre okay.Β β
β youβre not alone, you know. youβve got people who love you. who care about you. youβve got me. and iβm not going anywhere.Β β
β look, i donβt know what happened to you. and i donβt need you to tell me, okay? i donβtβ¦ i just want you to know that iβm here. i got you. no matter what. and if you need some space, thenβ¦ then i can leave. just tell me what you need, okay?Β β
β i donβt need you to say anything. you donβt even need to open the door. iβm just gonna slide this paper under the door, okay? you tell me what you want for dinner, and iβll bring it up.Β β
β iβm sending you on a list of therapists and group support meetings in the area, okay? you donβt have to go, butβ¦ promise me youβll take a look at the list, right?Β β
β listen, i know you gave me a copy of your key for emergencies, and this feels like an emergency, butβ¦ if the silent treatment is part of you trying to get some space, then i donβt wanna intrude. you know? so just text me if thatβs what this is, and iβll leave you alone.Β β
β i know, i know. you asked me to leave you alone. but that was two weeks ago, okay? and i havenβt heard from you. you arenβt answering my texts, you arenβt even reading them. nobodyβs seen or heard from you, andβ¦ and now i just want to know that youβre okay. so please, open your door, and let me make sure that youβre safe, will you?Β β