fatihah

this journal has been created ever since 2011. this is all place i have to write or story. no more on twitter or moments because everytime i post there is people who judge. i guess theres nobody here. 😳

[fatihahrosdi]

There’s A Reason Why God Brings You Closer To Certain People And Then Lets Them Go

People always say you can’t really explain why you feel a certain way about someone. Why you click with some people more than others or why

[fatihahrosdi]

People always say you can’t really explain why you feel a certain way about someone. Why you click with some people more than others or why you suddenly feel connected to a stranger.

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[fatihahrosdi]

What i did that i deserve him

[ode-to-blasphemy]

“I don’t wanna die but I can’t fucking stand to live”

— Scarlxrd, King Scar

[fatihahrosdi]

He is such a dick

[fatihahrosdi]

Sapa bilo aku keno idup gini. Sapa bilo aku keno idup nhe kehendak ore. Lamo dh aku ketepi kehendok aku demi nk penuhi impian ma abah aku. Tp gapo aku dpt? Xdpt gapo pun. Sakit ati ado la. Aku nk guno keto xse bui. Pdhl keto stambong dumoh. Kedekut. Semo bndo aku nk buat xleh. Pastu nk cari saloh aku. Nk letok atah bahu aku. Nk wak gapo hibah? Xpyh la. Abah kei saye harto abah. Bwk la g masuk kubo. Along xse sikik pun. Along janji xse guno keto pong. Along relo tubik nge prebet. Xpo la. Nk wak gano. Buke keto kito nk guno sokmo pun. Ambik la along xse. Buke nyo nk guno sokmo. Aku tanyo nk bwk g kijo xleh ko keto. Xyh la bazir minyok ule alik g mari duk ata ambik. Aku pun xlorat nk kelik, nk g kijo. Buke lamo pun nk kijo smta jh tu gak. Buke sapa mati. Nk pinje smetajah. Tu pun xleh. Kdekut.takut keto dio panas la. Xleh. Punoh. Relo anok sakit hati pade keto sakit. Aku sakit ati, pitih xabih. Keto sakit pitih abih. Keto pdhl xguno pun caro ko duk bekki jgk. Punoh supo tulo. Minyok isi byk supo tulo. Duit gapo2 ma byr. Agah kato kijo nk pencen 40 la gapo la. Kito tu kijo wak pun dok. Koya ak kijo la. Ma jong byr blako slamo ni. Wpun tu buke keda ma, tp ma hok kijo. Ma hok jago. Ma xlapa pun nk duk keda, kalu abh xsuh ma breti kijo sblm ni. Abah tu palo, tp xreti nk handle. Pah nk saloh ko ore lain. Semo saloh abah. Saloh palo. Srabut!

[fatihahrosdi]

Ho la mugo aku ni mano ado keto lg. Xleh la pinje hok ore. Napok nok ata sgt, aku mls bwk sungguh dh. Bianyo ata la g dinner. Napok nok ngata sgt. Tahu pulok oyak suh g sdri. Hmm. Kare aku mls balik, bia g terus nge xmandi nge paka gini jah. Kukmung.

[fatihahrosdi]

Sedih idup aku ni serbo buat xkeno 😭😭😭 maleni ado dinner alumni, aku igt nk g terus balik kijo tp gak abah tu sibuk nk ata. Xse bui aku guno keto. Gitumo lalu nah. Keto 4 butir dumoh pun xckup lagi. Aku nk pinje hok kecik skali jah pun xse bui jugok. Bakpo laaa... Hmmm.. Nk kijo pun xsedak. Pagi ore ata pah nunggu lua jugok, balik kare pun nunggu jugok. Xtahu la saye ko gapo keto. Xguno pun punoh jugok. Xtahu gapo nok.

[fatihahrosdi]

Saba fatihah sabar

[fatihahrosdi]

Convocation just around the corner so sneak peak anyone?! #spillingthetea https://www.instagram.com/p/BorL3W0HXthVXz5wkBIxD58GYE9a_2VnSypTxM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=qdi87yhe2d3n

[o-serendipity-o-deactivated2020]

Still Searching

Words unspoken,

Intensified silence.

Lost in delirium,

Surrounded by demons.

…

Promises of desires,

Left deserted.

Is it true, are you happy?

Or happy, just feeling blue.

…

Burying not resurrecting.

Stardust settles in.

Consumed by aeons of fiction,

Amidst fabricated walls.

…

Rubble on the pavement,

Pebbles turn to stone.

Lost in a universe,

Still searching for home.

- o-serendipity-o // Still Searching

[fatihahrosdi]

Aku beci jate. Bakpo pok aku laye mok aku gitu. Bodo la

[extramadness]

[fatihahrosdi]

Satu janji pun xboleh paka..duk sibuk minum air.ketum babi tu

[thelovejournals]

First admit that you are unhappy. Then admit why. Then understand you need to let go. Allow yourself a moment. Breathe in the moment deeply. Then the healing will begin.

Nikita Gill, How to Start Healing (via thelovejournals)

[fatihahrosdi]

I feel so empty often.

[thelovejournals]

Find someone who loves you well. Someone who never belittles you. Even in the heat of an argument. Someone who is gentle with you, but does not treat you like you are fragile. Someone who knows what you are capable of, and celebrates those pieces of you. Not someone who is intimidated by your strength. Someone who doesn’t make you feel guilty for being flawed. It is not love’s job to punish you. And remember the person you love is just as broken as you are when they fall short. No one is perfect – do not hold them to this standard. Find someone who is patient, forgiving, and apologetic. Someone who practices forgiveness freely and often. Love someone who is humble, kind, and empathetic. Not only with you, but with a beggar on the street, or a stranger in the supermarket. Common courtesy is important. Compassion is important. Kindness is important.

Unknown (via thelovejournals)