🌻 Fallyn | 26 | white 🌻 Previously -> twiddletaffy ⭐️ COMMISSIONS CLOSED⭐️ Pls do not repost or use my art anywhere w/o my permission thank you!!!Contact : [email protected]
Beating depression back with a large stick. After work today i will post all of the finished comms (or at least queue them so its not like. A lot lol) and I will work on art and i will not just sit there sad while playing coral island for hours for the 5th day in a row and I will start posting again or else I may wither and die
One thing I've been trying to do is NOT self isolate. Bc thats always never great. My friends made me a magic deck (commander) around one of my miku cards and I've been using this deck to learn how to play.
I beat them yesterday. And its one of those things like. When watching them take their own cards and put it all together and im like. This is it.
Okay sorry I am back. I really needed a week to process everything. I am doing a lot better than I thought I would. There was a kind of calm that settled over me after he passed. I think bc of how every minute for months my brain had been consumed by grief and worry and i wasn't sleeping barely at all. Im still sad and I have new feelings to deal with but it'll be okay. Everyone has been so kind though. Both irl and online and its something that makes me feel like it's all worth it yknow
I would also like to say thank you so much to everyone for saying such kind things. I know i haven't been present, like at all, for a while now. Due to the obvious reasons. But all of that kindness has made things feel a little lighter
We've decided to take him to be euthanized. It feels awful to be the one pushing for that decision. But my god. He seems to be in so much pain. And its going to feel so awful but I know there will be relief
I've barely slept for what feels like forever. Literally will be waking up every hour of the night bc either he needs me for something or just to check to see if he's still breathing. While he's been getting less mobile he's been staying alert. But today he didnt even wag his tail when we got home from work. Just laid there. We made the decision to not take him to get euthanized bc he's so afraid of the vet. We didnt want him feeling like that during his last moments. Which i know doesnt really mean anything bc he'll probably feel scared regardless. But idk. I've accepted the reality of it all. But I still feel so angry and sad. Every day I am trying not to breakdown at work and most of the time I fail. Not sure what im going to do with him gone. I've spent so long being miserable and coming home to him made things okay. Hm. But yeah. Honestly am not sure he'll make it through the night.
Also how to not be angry all of the time when you are at your retail job and your boss constantly talks down to you and laughs when you drop things and takes stuff out of your hands when you're not doing things the exact way they want you to do them like you aren't a grown ass adult and also Taylor Swift is constantly playing in the background and you feel like dying
Another Basil update. Sorry they’re not often. every day is just idk. Something. They doubled his medications and gave him a steroid. Trying to get him to take said medications isnt a fun time I will say. But idk. He’s starting to eat again which is good I think. I have to keep reminding myself that he’s not going to get better. But at the very least maybe some things that are making him feel worse can be helped. Idk.
He was doing really well until a few days ago. For the past 2 weeks we haven't been able to get ahold of the medicine that was basically saving his life. The vet doesn't know why or when they'll be able to get it. We're having to take him up there today due to him making the noises he has made every time we knew it was time to take him. Probably has fluid that they will need to drain. Other than that he still acts "normal".
During his last appointment 3 weeks ago they said that the medicine shrunk his tumor so small they couldn't even see it on the basic xray so it's sucks that this visit could've been prolonged further if he had his medicine, but oh well. Hopefully they'll have an answer today.
Heya! My dog Basil is currently experiencing some mystery medical issues. Which is a very expensive experience. My family is really struggling right now to afford both Basil's medical expenses along with regular bills and groceries. So here I am lol
If interested please either DM me or shoot me an email @ [email protected]!
💖 Additional Info Under the Cut 💖
🌻 Visual references!! Any and all types of references are appreciated!!!! Anything from: pinterest boards, other commissions, your art, or irl refs (such as selfies or face claims) are great. Things like personality descriptions are also good, as long as you also provide visual references!! (and if you have any questions about what qualifies as a good ref just ask!!!) If you don’t have an idea for a pose that’s also totally fine! I found that this reference sheet is a good example: LINK however, a google doc (or any other document word document) is not necessary.
🌻 The price for an extra full body character is $10 less and the price for an extra half body character is $5 less!! For example: 2 full body, fully rendered characters would be $95 + 85. 3 half body, partially rendered characters would be 55 + 50 + $50. There is no extra character limit!
🌻 Backgrounds will be a solid color by default. However if there is a specific color you want just say so!! and I can also provide you with a transparent background version. If you’re wanting something more complicated be aware that the commission will take longer than an average comm with a solid color background. For a more complicated background there can be a $10 to $20 additional fee.
🌻 I cannot and/or won’t do anything: heavy nsfw (ex: genitals. boobs are okay as long as there’s no sexual vibes I guess???), furry art, heavy mecha stuff, or heavy gore. Also if anything about what you want me to draw makes me uncomfortable/upset I have the right to turn you down obviously. I do have some experience with some dnd fantasy races, so I’m definitely willing to try animal-like humanoid characters.
🌻 The commission can take 1-6 weeks to finish depending on how far down the line you are and the complexity of your commission (i.e a partially rendered bust could take a week, while a fully rendered, full body could take 2). More complicated comms can take longer, such as ones including multiple characters or detailed backgrounds.
🌻 If interested please DM or Email me!!! please do not send an Ask unless you just have a question!! bc they often get lost / idk if my reply actually sent. If you prefer email, my email is [email protected]
💖 If you wish to support me in a different way, please consider donating to my ko-fi or reblogging this post!!!!
I'm at the vet rn with Basil. And things aren't looking great. They believe he may have a mass on his heart. There's a chance that this isn't the case and that he'll be fine. But in order to figure that out the bill is $2,758.58. I can cover about $2,500 of it. But that last $258 I dont have due just to starting a new job.
Payments are Upfront only also!
And there's no limit on slots per say!
The higher end total $3,182.58. But I fear that's gonna be out of the realm of possibility at the moment. But if I could just get that $258 then at the very least he can be treated today. Commissions are my last resort so here I am.
Thanks so much everyone! 😭 I'm keeping them open just in case the results come back and there needs to be more to be done, but at the very least they can run the tests!!
Made a seperate post but I should mention it here as well. They found a tumor on Basil's heart and we don't know how much longer we have with him.
I'm going to be closing comms for now just so I can work through the generous amount I have already gottten! And thanks so much again to everyone who donated, commissioned me, shared the post and left kind words! The amount of aide was such a lovely suprise and truly made me emotional ;-;
So they did find a tumor on Basil's heart. We don't know how much longer we have with him, but they said he's "compensating" really well. They sent us home with some medicine to help slow the process down, but yknow. This truly came out of nowhere. So it goes.
I'd like to thank everyone who is commissioning me and who donated. Without that I wouldn't of been able to afford the tests that determined what the problem was. So at least with that we know what's going to happen.
I just wanted to check since you mentioned in tags that you'd prefer to do invoices, but if somebody wanted to send a little donation rather than get a commission, would that be okay?
Oh of course! I have Kofi link in my pinned post! And if that's not an option this is my paypal me thing: link
I'm at the vet rn with Basil. And things aren't looking great. They believe he may have a mass on his heart. There's a chance that this isn't the case and that he'll be fine. But in order to figure that out the bill is $2,758.58. I can cover about $2,500 of it. But that last $258 I dont have due just to starting a new job.
Thanks so much everyone! 😭 I'm keeping them open just in case the results come back and there needs to be more to be done, but at the very least he they can run the tests!!
Heya! My dog Basil is currently experiencing some mystery medical issues. Which is a very expensive experience. My family is really struggling right now to afford both Basil's medical expenses along with regular bills and groceries. So here I am lol
If interested please either DM me or shoot me an email @ [email protected]!
💖 Additional Info Under the Cut 💖
🌻 Visual references!! Any and all types of references are appreciated!!!! Anything from: pinterest boards, other commissions, your art, or irl refs (such as selfies or face claims) are great. Things like personality descriptions are also good, as long as you also provide visual references!! (and if you have any questions about what qualifies as a good ref just ask!!!) If you don’t have an idea for a pose that’s also totally fine! I found that this reference sheet is a good example: LINK however, a google doc (or any other document word document) is not necessary.
🌻 The price for an extra full body character is $10 less and the price for an extra half body character is $5 less!! For example: 2 full body, fully rendered characters would be $95 + 85. 3 half body, partially rendered characters would be 55 + 50 + $50. There is no extra character limit!
🌻 Backgrounds will be a solid color by default. However if there is a specific color you want just say so!! and I can also provide you with a transparent background version. If you’re wanting something more complicated be aware that the commission will take longer than an average comm with a solid color background. For a more complicated background there can be a $10 to $20 additional fee.
🌻 I cannot and/or won’t do anything: heavy nsfw (ex: genitals. boobs are okay as long as there’s no sexual vibes I guess???), furry art, heavy mecha stuff, or heavy gore. Also if anything about what you want me to draw makes me uncomfortable/upset I have the right to turn you down obviously. I do have some experience with some dnd fantasy races, so I’m definitely willing to try animal-like humanoid characters.
🌻 The commission can take 1-6 weeks to finish depending on how far down the line you are and the complexity of your commission (i.e a partially rendered bust could take a week, while a fully rendered, full body could take 2). More complicated comms can take longer, such as ones including multiple characters or detailed backgrounds.
🌻 If interested please DM or Email me!!! please do not send an Ask unless you just have a question!! bc they often get lost / idk if my reply actually sent. If you prefer email, my email is [email protected]
💖 If you wish to support me in a different way, please consider donating to my ko-fi or reblogging this post!!!!
I'm at the vet rn with Basil. And things aren't looking great. They believe he may have a mass on his heart. There's a chance that this isn't the case and that he'll be fine. But in order to figure that out the bill is $2,758.58. I can cover about $2,500 of it. But that last $258 I dont have due just to starting a new job.
Payments are Upfront only also!
And there's no limit on slots per say!
The higher end total $3,182.58. But I fear that's gonna be out of the realm of possibility at the moment. But if I could just get that $258 then at the very least he can be treated today. Commissions are my last resort so here I am.
Thanks so much everyone! 😭 I'm keeping them open just in case the results come back and there needs to be more to be done, but at the very least they can run the tests!!
I'm at the vet rn with Basil. And things aren't looking great. They believe he may have a mass on his heart. There's a chance that this isn't the case and that he'll be fine. But in order to figure that out the bill is $2,758.58. I can cover about $2,500 of it. But that last $258 I dont have due just to starting a new job.