( * danielle fitzherbert! ) “I like my eggs sunny side up at midnight, and I wear sunglasses when I eat them because they are so bright" - fourth year klutz &a child at heart.
“Do you plan to become a motivational speaker in the future? I see a potential in that future for you.” It was easy company to be with Dani, something she appreciates because with the bundle of nerves she has been for the past few days, to talk to someone who was solemn or rigid would intensify her nerves. Not that Xiuqi has anything against people whose personality is like that, no not at all. In fact, she was very open to talking to any sort of person with any sort of personality. However to speak with someone with a personality as bright as Dani naturally makes her want to be as bright and to finally leave the rut she had been in.
“There is nothing wrong with being clumsy.” Well, unless it is on the battlefield of course because right there and then is the very moment where you do not wish to trip over an enemy’s mine or to have your sword not being able to unsheathe properly in time for that would only mean an ultimately death for you or if you are lucky enough, a few injuries here and there. But it was still a pity to hear all the paint she had fell over and staining the floor, can only being able to imagine how much time it took to get rid of the stains and how much time or money it would take to get back all the colours she had. “What is like to have a sibling? If you ask that question to every person, they would reply it to you differently. I only have one sibling and that is my brother, Wufan. For me, Wufan is like a soulmate of mine. But in a familial sense of course. We know each other better than anyone else and has been there for each other for every step of the way. He is my brother, someone for me to cherish, take care of and love. Just like how he does the same for me. ”
“I don’t think I can be someone like that yet, I just talk and hope that the people I talk to stop feeling down because that’s the only thing I can do to help people.. aside from taking them to ice cream, right? Happy things make people happy. It’s easy as that and happy people spread positive vibe, that’s supposed to help people a bit.” With the expression of the other girl that had changed, or so she would think it did - Dani felt a whole lot better that she had somehow managed to help the girl feel a bit at ease. That was the least she could do.
And she chuckled at the statement about being clumsy. Dani tries though, she tries hard to be careful when things are near her -- it’s just sometimes she tends to be all over the place and hence, things fall over. She could be graceful, at times. Repeat: at times. Though, her attention then went straight to what Xiuqi was talking about. “Soulmate in a familial sense... I guess that makes sense to me? I have a best frie-- I had a best friend who was like a soulmate to me as well. It’s a long story but yeah, it would be amazing to have a soulmate in a friendship sense or something like that.” Shrugging her shoulders, she pushed the rooftop door opened and they were greeted by all the greens before them. Dani had always loved garden and plants; they bring an odd sense of serenity to her soul and caused her heart to feel at peace.
“We’re here. Do you like plants? I can show you some of the plants I bought and placed them here. I even named them!”
one. he’s not some sort of extraordinaire that asks everybody if they’re okay, that provides bandages and plasters to lay upon their open wounds and even more open hearts if they say they’re not fine. with dani, there’s always been a saccharine sort of relationship that meant more to her than it did to him. maybe it’s because she’s sweet like that, maybe because he’s an awful person like that. it doesn’t matter in the end though, what happened in the past stays in the past. if she still cares for him in some sick way, he doesn’t return the feelings. should he?
two. the reunion stuns her, and he doesn’t feel more stable than she does. xiaoli is just better at hiding things, he has been for eighteen years and will continue till the end of his bitter life. he would have thought she’d walk away by now while her pride is still in one piece, while her poor soulful heart is still stitched together in tormented betrayal and pink thread. she doesn’t move, nor does he.
sorry.
three. his smile’s always been his strongest point, paired with those feigned eyes of his that have people falling. he knows it won’t work on her, she can see past that smile to his rotting soul. it won’t hurt to try, though, to continue providing the smile she once loved seeing, but now brings a sick feeling to her stomach.
four, en garde and strike. “why wouldn’t it be out of concern?” xiaoli pipes, wide eyed and a questioning pose. why would it be, though? surely she’s smart enough to see the only thing he holds value to him is power. “i was just .. wondering if you were okay. if you’ve done anything interesting over the summer. those type of things.” he fades off, a hurt expression on his face. it means nothing. he feels nothing; least of all hurt. but the expression is there to draw guilt like blood from a needle pressed into fine skin.
“you can ask me how i am if you would like. you don’t need to.”
why was it so hard for her to walk away? was someone holding her legs onto the ground? she stood there, stood still with her eyes fixed on her face the whole time. she didn’t do anything wrong, he was at fault. he will always be at fault. and so she looked into his eyes. why was he so hard to read? all the questions started to grow inside her head as looking at his face revealed nothing but a well-plotted plan of how he wanted their encounter to be. she wanted to yell at his face, how much she hates him for hurting her
... but more, how much she hates him for leaving her.
after all, he was her pole of stability that have been holding her up ever since the first day she set foot into this school. memories wouldn’t be wiped away that easily. his smile. he kept smiling. and the it changed. he knew all her weaknesses. perhaps that’s the downside of never changing. her heart never changes, she has always been the same old dani. she cared for him and still does - despite it being the decision that she has made turning into a mistake.
so he cares?
his expression feigned sadness. perhaps not entirely, but she could see a hint of sadness written on his eyes. dani took in a deep breath and stopped in her tracks for a short second with her eyes squeezed shut. when someone breaks your trust, you don’t trust anything they say anymore, you start doubting their actions. you start doubting what is real and what is not. there is no fine line separating reality from lies. and in that moment, she was torn.
brows furrowed, she bit down her lower lip and scratched the back of her neck. “i -- i’ve been home with my parents. the usual things i’d tell you every time i come back from summer vacation.” her voice was shaky, it was almost as if she was about to burst out crying at the mention of the bittersweet memories that she thought about. talking about something that they did routinely hurt more than she had ever imagined. “... how are you?”
how have you been? has people been nice to you? have you found someone to replace me? did you miss me? do you feel sorry? did it hurt you as much as it hurt me? and well, those questions will never be answered as she won’t ever say them out loud.
( TXT.RUFI ): grab me some tampons and chocolates and idk??? maybe a couple of dvds and stuff i really need them i feel like dying ( TXT.RUFI ): i can’t believe this dorm’s bed is going to be my death bed sTAR I CANNOT BELIEVE ( TXT.RUFI ): you.. a r e not.. star.. ( TXT.RUFI ): Sorry to announce that this number has been cancelled and deleted. Pretend the texts were not sent. Thank you very much, this is from the hotline service it really is. Don’t question us goodbye..........
there’s nothing more that margot desires than to turn time and return towards the days where her childhood seemed as a picturesque. where the pallid watercolors plaster through her rose colored hues and explore the world with her fingers clasping against another’s whose age wasn’t far from hers. not at all. they were the same aged girls who as toddlers laughed till there was no noise able to compete with the boisterous expulse or how their words sounded to be something heard on the midst of a confession from a teenager who had too much romanticism struck on his head. no, they belonged to the pair of girls who had too much dreams that struck upon the sky.
she remembers fondly the days where her days consisted on doing good deeds. where her neck is wrapped against the carmine blanket that resembled the cape that superheroes wore those days. dani wearing the same exact clothing, giving margot enthusiasm and energy to last for days. but, such times were over and a new phase came. expect, the only one changing such was the villain’s child because the hero’s child remained the same pristine state she remembered her on it. that’s the first thing she notices. before, she notices a second thing. that dani still had that pretty face, but it was blooming. it was blooming towards the full bloom, where margot knew she would end up being prettier. ( she was right. )
she wondered what the other was thinking when margot veiled her current nature. her thoughts unraveled as she contemplated on the choices that dani would take. would she leave her be or enter to her life as the sunshine that knocked down the walls of the child who wanted to impress? the maleficent child had the answer within, but she never thought that she would be right. margot should have known better.
❝ creep? ah, says the person who, if i remember correctly, said it first. ❞ her head shaking on denial with a smile rimming through her before margot prepared for the ramble that dani had stored for her. her head tilting as she nodded, giving signals to the brunette that she was paying attention. but, her words were too amusing that margot broke once in laughter before wondering how someone could keep such guise of a child. it was too pure for her to be around for long.
❝ really? does that mean that it doesn’t matter if i escape, you will find me? because if so, ❞ there’s a pensive hum escaping, letting it linger for a few instances. ❝ i might have to find something to counter that because i don’t want such a energetic child like you searching for me. ❞
the feeling is almost bittersweet, something dani herself cannot quite explain seeing as things have been so different for her when she grew up. she expected fairytales, she expected ‘friends forever’ friendships but everyone changed. her best childhood friend changed. even her first love had changed. everything was happening so fast and it had her questioning herself whether she was supposed to change as well or not, but there hasn’t been any circumstances at which dani was not pleased with herself. the silence that bubbled from the other was obvious, yet dani didn’t feel uncomfortable with her talking and the other just watching.
the other seemed... kind. different, but still kind. she knew very well not to get too close - dani never had the intention of suffocating anyone with the happy energy that surrounds her. she knew some people preferred gloomy meadows to a field filled with daisies and dandelions. however, she wanted to let margot know she will always be there.
their friendship compared to a small star in the sky. you can’t always see it, but when things get dark, it’s the one small bit in the universe that lights up - they might not be as close and margot might not let her in like she did, but she was doing her best to take care of someone whom she had grown up with.
hearing the laughter from margot who now has a different vibe to her eyes, dani smiled along, her eyes turned into crescents as she laughed along. perhaps, the child in her has never been a bad thing, perhaps it is a gift she was gifted to cheer people up during the time of needs. though, she pursed her lips and listened to the voice that she had always been so familiar with. it was soothing and it felt like home. she felt young once again -- oh the irony of feeling young when you’ve never really grown up.
“i said it first because i just thought that it was cute... but now that you’ve said it, creepy! i’m kidding, i’m kidding.” holding both her hands up as if to show that she was giving in, she beamed her a bright smile and shook her head in a reassuring manner. “hm.. i’ll follow you to places and wherever you need me. my positive energy can help with anything. it’s too bad they don’t store positive energies in tiny bottles.” the mere thought caused her to laugh though her expression softened while she tilted her head to the side. concerns started to bubble inside of her.
➣ Mm I do not have a lot of pictures of myself with me. Mostly because most of my photos are back home with my parents and also I really hated taking photos when I was younger. I do not dislike it as much nowadays~.
( ✉ ) SMS → Dani
➣ Oh come on~! I am sure you did not look like a boy when you were twelve. Even if you did looked like one, you were a cute one!
( ✉ ) SMS → Dani
➣ Ah! I have this photo. My instructor took them so I am sorry if the photos are not clear and it being blurry!
you hated taking photos? my parents had to take camera away from me because they told me it was filled with unflattering close ups of my face.... ANYWAY THIS IS EMBARRASSING
i was a cute boy i swear, heh hehe hehe :D
omg............... tell me u have bones
.... TELL ME YOU HAVE ALL THE BONES!!!
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by the way, was really a boy. such a pain to go through my folder of old photos!! * ~ *
i’m stating the obvious! it’s a cute photo and you havent changed one bit, aside from getting prettier he he heheh
twelve... i still looked like a boy when i was twelve...
ENVIOUS, btw do you have more photos to share?
oh my god???? THAT’S SO CUTE
i think you still look the same
you’ve been so cute ever since you were young how is this possible :,(
gorgeous little pea <3
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): jaye, jaye, jaye! good morning. i heard you slept late last night.( TXT.SUNSHINE ): do you want to grab some breakfast together? or maybe brunch considering the time.. but if not, see you around and don’t forget to smile today :D
Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): you’re still as handsome as i remember( TXT.SUNSHINE ): even more handsome…( TXT.SUNSHINE ): GROWTH HAS BEEN SO GREAT ON YOU I’M AMUSED ( TXT.SUNSHINE ): congrats on your beautiful genes… damn…
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): yea yea ok but wait i gotta go to the bathroom i’ll get back to u ?? 2 sECS
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): hUG MEEEEeeeeeeeeEEEE( TXT.SUNSHINE ): *voicemail of her singing stupid songs*
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): welll……….. you did mention the fact that your lips are now super soft( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i think it’s only appropriate if i test to approve or deny the hypothesis right??
Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): are you asleep?( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i bet you are, so saying this is going to be a lot easier…( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i really miss you. like, a lot. it’s 3am right now and seeing your face again just reminds me of the times where we’d lay under the dark skies and do nothing but to look up at stars and talk about how we’ll be next to each other like this ‘till we’re old and grey. do you remember that?( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i want to relive all of that again, i was so happy. i’m.. not gonna bother you and explode your phone with texts now. ( TXT.SUNSHINE ): sleep well, sweetheart.
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i hate how you act like we’ve never met..
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): i dont understand how i’m always sleepy??? its not that i don’t sleep enough. sometimes i sleep more than 8 hours but i’m still a sleepy piece of poop. life is so unfair!!!
Send “@” for a SCARED text.
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): so my friends told me about this story that had monsters and ghosts in the storyline and i’m here in the dark bedroom like ? my roommate is out and about i would call her but i don’t wanna bother her can you please come sleep with me i amsmso scakrjhed what if i die????
Send “&” for a LOVING text.
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): you know i love you right? ( TXT.SUNSHINE ): you taught me how to love and i just thought that i would talk about this to you.( TXT.SUNSHINE ): you’ve always compared yourself to a shadow but to me, you’re brighter than all the lights mom had told me about. all the lanterns don’t compare to how you’ve brightened up my life and somehow.. that light at the end of the tunnel started to dim and faded when you faded as well. ( TXT. SUNSHINE ): i’ll always love you, it’s just up to you to accept it or not. you’ll always have a spot in my heart and you’ll always be my weakness.
… DELETED.
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): do you… hate me?( TXT.SUNSHINE ): why don’t you talk to me anymore?
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): NO CLASSES TOMORROW I CAN SLEEP ALL I WANT AHAHAHAHA!!!!
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( TXT.SUNSHINE ): look at this photo of this stupid cat lol[ attachment ]( TXT.SUNSHINE ): I………………….. SENT THE WRONG PHOTO DDFSDFG( TXT.SUNSHINE ): don’T OPEN IT PLEAS E
Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.
( TXT.SUNSHINE ): why can’t you treat me the same? at least… look at me as a friend, jaye. ( TXT.SUNSHINE ): is it so hard to do that for me to make me happy?
( TXT.IDIOT ): good morning! the sun and the earth says hi- i meant the depths of hell awaits you but have a good day when you decide to force your butt out of the bed!! ( TXT.IDIOT ): don’t be lazy like you usually are.. :/
Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.
( TXT.IDIOT ): i miss having a best friend( TXT.IDIOT ): ever since we fell apart i’ve been too scared to call someone else my best friend( TXT.IDIOT ): i miss my best friend. i miss you.
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( TXT.IDIOT ): k noted i gotta go sorry i’ll get back to u later.
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( TXT.IDIOT ): ?? ?? ?/?/// why i sth eroom spinngin i have t o puke
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( TXT.IDIOT ): haha then what? ;)
Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.
( TXT.IDIOT ): it’s late and i know i shouldn’t be texting you but.. it would be nice to have you to hang out with when i can’t sleep like this. i think you’re asleep? goodnight, xiaoli. have a wonderful sleep.
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( TXT.IDIOT ): i hate you. i trusted you. i really hate you. DELETED
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( TXT.IDIOT ): milkshakes don’t bring boys to my yard. i dont want to share my milkshakes anyway, ugh.
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( TXT.IDIOT ): the lights went off in my room and i don’t know why i think the bulb is broken but i heard a weird noise and i’m alone??? star is nowhere to be found i think someone wants to mURDER ME HELP M E
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( TXT.IDIOT ): i know things are not the same right now and i don’t know if they’ll ever be the same again but.. thanks for all the memories you’ve given me as my best friend - however long it lasted. ( TXT.IDIOT ): i loved you and our friendship with every inch of my being, every cell in my body and every bone that i’ve got. i still love you that much - but it’s not the same. i’m sorry.
Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.
( TXT.IDIOT ): did it mean nothing to you?
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( TXT.IDIOT ): i got aN A FOR THIS TEST WHAT THE HECK??? HOW EVEN I’M SO HAPPYP
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( TXT.IDIOT ): man i want tacos lets go get tacos later can we???( TXT.IDIOT ): sorry wrong number.. lol
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( TXT.IDIOT ): i can’t stand being in your presence anymore, it hurts me a lot more than i could ever imagine. don’t talk to me again. ever again.
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