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Life at 26

Every year has brought me so much growth. I am now 4 months into my corporate position for the company I have been with for almost 5 years now. Not to be repetitive, but it is still so crazy to think about how I started as a seasonal employee in Irvine and now I run the entire OC area. This was never supposed to turn into a career for me, but now I’m ready to start training to take over a region. My path has been so blessed with fortune and leaders who continue to see potential in my abilities.

Now, I may still be single… BUT I don’t think I’ve ever loved and appreciated myself more. To realize the change in my priorities in life has been such an eye opener. Of course there are still moments where I yearn for someone to share these experiences with, but if there’s one thing I am certain of, it is that I am never alone. The community I have found within my workplace and the support I have from my family and friends who I do not get to see often, has always been my reason to persevere. I am everything I can be, but I am also nothing without the people around me.

Writing this blows my mind when I think about my older blogs all relating to some type of heartbreak. I know every bad experience has brought me a lesson worth keeping. I’m just really happy to feel happy with myself. I’m so excited to see this version of myself. I’m so grateful I did not give up on myself.

Manifesting for the rest of my 26 to be blessed with more lessons, opportunities, and heartwarming moments.

Here’s to me yesterday, today, and tomorrow!

- Royce 9/26/2024

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My Life Now: 25

One of my younger friends has been going through growing pains recently. At a certain point she asked, “were you really different when you were my age” and it hit me how much my life has changed since I moved to California 7 years ago.

That question alone brought me peace I was struggling to even get close to all year. At 22, I had just moved back to SoCal after two months of being at home, but this time on my own. The pandemic hit and I couldn’t work to pay bills, I lost 20 pounds from not eating, and felt like I was crumbling every day. Looking back at my time here even further, I almost failed out of community college, learned how to party to hard, and gave myself away every chance I could.

When I look at myself now, I don’t see someone who can’t get over a heartbreak or make ends meet. I see myself as someone who still cares and loves hard but knows who to place it in. Someone who put so much effort into his first job ever as a seasonal hire and spent this year helping open eight stores from California to Illinois and now runs three locations with a long commute. I love myself and the people I allow in my space and feel a purpose in life. In a sense, almost free.

Of course, there are still so many areas of my life that need attention, but I don’t think I’ve felt this grounded in my life. Growing up seemed so scary. Knowing what I know now, I cannot wait to step into the rest of my life and become the best version of myself possible.

25… here’s to the age something switched in my brain and made me focus on myself. The only way I can think of ending this is by telling myself:

“I’m proud of you for trying your best in moments where you feel your lowest.”

Goodnight to myself.

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Unfinished Business - Kiana Ledé

#fvc

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feeling woozy

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meant to share his newest song but you already know how relevant his recent catalogue is

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Happy birthday

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After watching people walk away from the person I was turning myself into and feeling nothing but anger, I can finally accept my role in my own downfall.

For months, I tried to present the best possible version of myself for someone who ultimately was not willing to accept it. Once I lost him, every negative trait I previously had, resurfaced and pushed more people away.

On this journey to healing, I am focusing on matching my words with my actions. Allowing myself to admit that saying “I’m sorry” and “I love you” means nothing when my actions are selfish and invalidating to those I care for.

For those who return, I’ll be more mindful and considerate. For those who do not, my prayers and best wishes still extend.

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i truly think getting face-fucked would fix me

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Driving on your street cause I can’t stop thinking about you

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Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022)

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Finally watched this movie and this alone brought me to tears.

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I wish I knew how to let you go.

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As I’m listening to Glimpse Of Us on an endless loop after spending the day with him yesterday, I see your name light up my screen.

I’m sorry for thinking so loud. I’m hoping things are working out for you the way they are for me, but I selfishly hope you have these small moments too.

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We were both at Umi tonight. We’re in a different time of life now so I was there with someone else, but once our song came on I couldn’t stop looking for you. It’s almost like I could feel you looking for me too.

In all honesty, sometimes I wish I could forget how amazing it was. You know? Loving you. Being loved by you.

I guess I’m just saying, I could never forget you even if I wanted to. I remember so much that I can’t let you go. Even in silence am I still questioning and contemplating you.