no

im too full to swallow my pride

[norylan]

So you admire it     you some kind of stalker now Ellie?  Why are you fucking with me then? You get a thrill out of annoying people? That’s  some fucked up fetish you have there. I-I’ll.

[fckelias]

They had been arguing for what felt like forever, and Elias' patience was running an extremely thin line. Of course, he had found somewhat of a deranged thrill in seeing Rylan squirm and get frustrated but it was starting to bore him. "I'm not a stalker, and my fuckin' name is Elias," the tone in his voice was beyond the point of what should be socially acceptable for a civilised conversation — raising to a loud shout, as he thrust his fingers through his hair in complete frustration. As annoyance, anger, frustration and every other negative emotion conserved him, he was too preoccupied and indulged within his own feelings to realize that Rylan's lips had crashed on his. The moment the other boy pressed his lips upon his own, Elias had no hesitation in kissing the other boy back. No. No. No. Reality seemed to snap back into focus, as he shoved the boys shoulders away, his eyebrows furrowing. "W-What the fuck?" If he wasn't that angry before — it was fair to say he was livid now. Well, livid and confused. He wasn't gay. Sure, he had probably made out with a handful of guys but he wasn't aware of his actions when he had pursued with the act — they were just merely acts of intoxication. "What the fuck? Are you gay or somethin'? I mean, I'm aware of the fact that I'm utterly and completely irresistible to any gender but c'mon." He ran a finger through his hair, his eyes trained on the ceiling above them. He was beyond the point of confusion. He wasn't gay. The amount of girls he had fucked obviously proved that. But, there was no point in lying that he kissed Ryan back. He would deny it 'till the day he died, but he couldn't even lie to himself that he didn't enjoy the kiss because he had. Very much.

[norylan]

Well…Really, you’re that jealous of my life. You want to be able to have everything I currently own, so that’s why you’re mouthing off to me. Oh god no, please don’t, it’s too horrible     I don’t really care tho. Would you quit it, what did I ever do to you? You’re so irritating just shut up, or I’ll-I’ll.

[fckelias]

Let me assure you — in no way I am jealous of your life. Trust me when I say that. I just merely admire it, but also despise it at the same time. You haven't done anything to me, mate. I just like seeing a rise of anger from you because it's thoroughly entertaining. Oh, you'll what, exactly? Going to throw a punch at me? Do it, I dare 'ya.

[norylan]

You don’t know my old man, or what he’s capable of     Elias, you have no idea of how things go around in my house, it’s not that easy as you say. Every time I see you have some type of dirt on you, I don’t know if it’s a fashion statement. Yet, tis always those whom are more astute that are on top, isn’t it?” Is this behavior going to continue once you’re not a teenager anymore, or is this just a phase? You perplex me. Well, sorry, I guess? You’re not half bad.

[fckelias]

You're making him sound like he's a potential serial killer. What's not easy about living a life everyday in luxury? Oh, my bad, does he make you clean every once in awhile? Geez, that's a hard life. It's not a fashion statement but now that you have proposed that idea — I'm 'gonna make it my fashion statement. It's not a phase nor is my behaviour going to stop. Not half bad, eh? I think we're finally moving forward on our road to be mutual acquaintances. It almost brings a tear to my eye.

[norylan]

I’m actually saving money Sherlock. You do know I have parents, and my dad being all military like doesn’t give me much of a say. Oh, well and you’re just you, petty, and unhygienic. Being intellectual is something you should aspire to be, so you can get out of the whole you’re in right now. The nation is full of damn idiots then, to follow your example. It was weird, but accurate. Genuine? Do you even know what the word means? I’m not being fake, this is who I am, not like you some odd product of whatever the hell it was that made you this way.

[fckelias]

That's why you need to take a stand, kid. If I don't agree with something my father says or wants me to do then I don't take his shit. It's simple, really. Why am I unhygienic? I have showers everyday. I do have a thing called a shower, you know. It may not look as classy and elegant as what you may have but it does the job. Intellectual doesn't mean shit. I know a lot of people who aren't smart or anything but they still have their life on track. I'm only ever going to be a teenager once, so I'm obviously going to do anything and everything that rebels against societies norms. Yes, I do know what that word means. As I've told you before, I'm not a fucking moron. I may not be really smart but I'm not completely dumb either.

[norylan]

Do you think, my family has had wealth all of their lives? If it wasn’t for the fact that my dad busted his ass, we wouldn’t have anything right about now. Truth is, I’d probably be exactly like you. Hey fuck off, not everybody dies that, you’re just generalizing and classifying a lot of people into a stereotype that isn’t exactly true. There are a lot of middle class families that buy expensive things, that wouldn’t be considered a necessity. Only for fun? Why don’t you read a book once in a while? Instead of causing a ruckus, you could always try to better yourself. Eh, you’re probably hopeless. Still doesn’t exclude the fact that sex for you is meaningless, just like having a drink of water, if someone ever felt some sort of connection to you, you’d probably just walk out on them. I was actually kidding, but, since you’re so convinced I’m the bad guy, why prove you wrong? S’not like I’m going to gain anything from you. People only like you because you’re a stereotype bad boy, after a few years, you’ll be nothing babe.

[fckelias]

It isn't true? Enlighten me on how exactly do you spend all of your cash? And, don't feed me any bullshit because everybody has seen the type of car you drive, the brand of clothing you wear, and all of the other ridiculous merchandise. You're basically like a spitting image of a stereotypical rich kid. Like the kind you see in the movies. Did you honestly just tell to go and read a book? Out of all the possible things in the world? Damn, you really are a geek. I'm pretty sure half the nation would agree with the fact that the way I live my life is fun, exhilarating and beyond the point of boring. I can't believe you just compared me having sex to drinking a glass of water. That is just a weird ass analogy. Nah, mate, people like me because I'm genuine and not fake as fuck. 

[norylan]

Yet, you’re still here, listening to my countless berating as you say. See, you are just what you appear to be, nothing more, nothing less. So here you are calling em a rich bitch, while all you seem to care about is money as well. Hypocritical don’t you think? Oh, that’s right you don’t think at all. It’s Rylan, Ellie. Everyone has their own definition of fun, but, your minuscule cognizance might not be able to perceive that, seeing as you think you’re so bad. I’d rather not have sex, my choice, does that make me a prude then? Not like, I’m not well informed, you’re probably going to end up on some bad talk show, with someone screaming at you because you’re their baby daddy. Send me to the hospital, you’re going to end up in juvenile jail, and then a correctional facility. All of your life, us rich bitches, have that power.

[fckelias]

Hey — when you take a walk in my shoes, you will soon realize that money is one of the most important aspects that you need in life. You guys just flaunt around your prosperities, buying random shit that you don't even need, whilst people like me need the money to actually survive. So, yes, I do care about money. I don't think I'm bad. That would just be really egotistical of me to even think that for a second. Like, the shit I do might be considered bad, yes, but I only do it for fun. Listen here mate — I'm not gonna be anyones baby daddy. I take extra precaution with everybody who I sleep with, so I'm sad to say for you that it will never ever happen to me. This is exactly one of the reasons why I despise you rich pricks. It's because you guys just love flaunting around your power and money, and one day it's going to get you beaten up with people way worse than me because nobody likes a stuck up snob.

[norylan]

See that’s where I begin to think, you’re some sort of moron. A person in need of seeking thrills just to make himself momentarily happy. Aw, getting busted ruins it for you, how sad. Guess you’re not as good as you thought. Basically, everything I say to you sounds stupid, funny, since you’re the one with the gerbil sized brain here. So what if I haven’t, I still have a whole life ahead of me to do so      you’re just ruining your life as quickly as you can. This is where I pity you, when you have to do outrageous things, to compensate for your meaningless existence. Wow, nice touch of sarcasm there. Didn’t think you actually knew what it meant. So, what you’re saying is I need to have sex to experience life? What a ridiculous argument. A world outside? You mean, your world. Charity case, come on punch me, you’ll be locked up for probably the rest of your life.

[fckelias]

I'm a moron? Oh, here we go again with the countless and pathetic attempts at an insult. I don't need to be seeking thrills everywhere I go, you're making me out to be some kind of adrenaline junkie — well, in some respect maybe I am. I never recall saying I was good at drug dealing? I don't really care if I'm good or not. I mean, all I cared about was the cash that came with it. Ryan, I'm not ruining my life. I'm just merely having fun. Do you know what fun means? I'm living a life of a stereotypical troubled teenager, and my life couldn't get any better. You're treating sex as if it is nothing and just something you can brush off your shoulder. Mate, when you've actually done the deed or whatever the fuck, then you will know what I'm talking about. But, until that day, you will just remain a prude. Are you suggesting that I do punch you? I do hope you know that I've put guys into hospital.

[norylan]

I mean, you could always take selling drugs as an option. M’not saying your parents didn’t turn out normal     wanting stability in my life is the goal. To be able to have all the things I enjoy. W-What, the street? I bet you’re just dying to hear them all, aren’t you. So eager to learn. Idiocy  is what I see every day. There’s nothing wrong with any of those things, you can smoke, drink, and do whatever just not in excess. Sleeping around? I’m a virgin, but, still against slut shaming, puritanical assholes have brainwashed most of society into thinking that sex is the be-all, end-all. Sex is not as good nor as bad, as anyone makes it out to be. Rich bitches? Cute, using terms. I haven’t even once called you the charity case, or the poor kid, and there you go bashing away. So I may be a snob, you’re still just a loser. Everyone knows it.

[fckelias]

I've already tried selling drugs. It's exhilarating for the first few months or whatever, but the countless times of nearly getting busted just spoils the whole fun of it. I'm pretty sure that's the lamest thing I've ever heard and trust me when I say this — I've heard a lot of stupid shit in my life. I'm just going to take a wild guess and imply that you've never tried anything really rebellious? I smoke, drink and do whatever the fuck is against the law on a daily basis and I'm having the time of my life. You haven't even lived. You're a virgin? You have got to be kidding me. I thought all preps were into that whole crazy sex life. Blah, blah, sex is the best thing about living and that further backs up my argument that you haven't lived. There's a world outside bringing in the the cash, shopping for ridiculously expensive shit and studying for hours upon hours. Call me a charity case, I fucking dare 'ya — but you are going to have a broken nose and a bloody face by the end of it.

[norylan]

It’s the way to actually survive in this world. Y’know, get out of high school, go to college, graduate, get a job. Being a graduate will surely give me more opportunities, that some wash out. Yes. Elias, you with your rag tag bunch of misfits, thinking it’s cool, to do whatever the hell it is you do. S-Shut up, this is all for me, not my father. Really now? Well, it seemed to me that you had quite a struggle even being able to enunciate it. Don’t talk to me like I’m just some snob, idiot.

[fckelias]

Stop being so dramatic, kid. It's not the only way to survive. Like, I'd be damned if I ever said my parents went to college, and they turned out normal. It's not like we're living on the street. Rag tag bunch? You are just full of interesting phrases. Oh, but that's where you're wrong — I don't think it's cool but I'm pretty sure that the teenagers of our society have deemed smoking, drinking or sleeping around as cool. All of you rich bitches are the same — doing anything and everything to do whatever their father orders them to do. But, I'm just stating the obvious that you are a snob. Everyone knows it.

[norylan]

Of course it’s bad, how am I supposed to get into college     if not with a perfect record? That’s obvious, we’re from opposite sides of the spectrum. The one and only? Someone thinks of themselves as high and mighty. Say it with me, R-y-l-a-n Hart.

[fckelias]

I don't really get why every damn kid across the globe is obsessed with getting into college? I'm pretty sure it's just a complete waste of time, and it's not like it's going to guarantee you a job in the near future. Obvious sides of the spectrum? What an interesting analogy. Kids like you — the rich, pompous assholes who obsess over pleasing their dear little daddy — are the ones that irk the utter shit out of me. I know how to say your name, dickhead. Don't talk to me like I'm stupid.

[norylan]

Because, I don’t know, it felt kind of nice    the idea of doing something bad. Sorry, for not being the most astonishing in your eyes. Jerk. You’re Elias, I don’t know much about you.

[fckelias]

Do you honestly think not doing your homework is considered as bad? Well, I can definitely say that you and I have very different perspectives on what is deemed bad or not. Yes, I am Elias — the one and only. And, you're Rylan or Ryan or however the fuck you say your name.

[norylan]

I’d rather finish my homework first. The marathon will still be there when I finish. So, I guess that makes me stupid in your eyes      have the better grade point average tho. 

[fckelias]

Just out of mere curiosity — why did you feel the need to ask for which option to pick when it's evidently clear that you had already chosen? It's just a waste of time. Yes, maybe a little stupid in my eyes but who am I to judge?

[norylan]

I still haven’t finished my homework, but, there’s a fiends marathon on. What do I do?

[fckelias]

If it was me in your position, then I would definitely go with the Friends marathon. I mean, you would have to be completely and utterly stupid to miss an opportunity of watching the best television show of all time.

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