The first time she’s ever been heartbroken was when she was seven years old, she wanted her mother and father to attend a play she was in and she was one of the stars. But they never showed up. They never have for anything from then on and she just had to put up with it like it was just a regular thing that happens in families.
The second time was her first crush and almost relationship with a guy when she was fourteen. They flirted and made out but it turns out that he was only using her to show his guy friends that he can ‘get with her’. She was ‘infamous’ and played hard to get. It hurt her so much that she lost trust in most men.
The third time was when she was fifteen and she buried her brother. From then on, Harper was just lost in every sense of the word.
The fourth time was when she felt abandoned from all her friends. Shane. Quinn. Mykah. She never felt more worthless then when they disappeared from her life. But she knows they probably have better things to do than deal with her.
The fifth time was when she knew there was no getting back together Hope. She had moved on it seemed and it was about time that she had too. Though Hope was the first person to ever show her that can feel and be in love... it was probably for the best they never end up together. Harper was toxic after all.
And finally, the sixth time.
Those simple words echoed in her head now as she packed the last of her things in the uHaul and taking one last look back at the apartment that she had shared with Kyle, and Mykah at one point, before sitting in the drivers seat and starting it up.
Suddenly, she was crying. For the first time in a long time, Harper Hill was crying. It felt like a relief and an annoyance. All at once.
Images passed through of Harper holding hands with Hope, to hanging out with Shane at his grandmothers house, to playing video games with Quinn, to losing her house, to arguing with Debbie, to getting mad at Mykah, to Harper breaking a light bulb with her hand, to kissing Hope, to kissing Mykah, to hugging Shane, and finally tucking Kyle sleep in his bed. And then nothing. Just all black.
She had no hope left, no viable reason to stay in Greensville anymore. Kyle was gone. She had lost custody after trying so hard. All because of her past mistakes. Not holding down a job... Slightly burning Kyle’s arm (how his so called mother found out about that Harper had no clue)... To her anger and anti-social behavior she had displayed all throughout her time in town... and the cherry on top was losing sight of Kyle in a market.
She hated herself. Absolutely despised her reflection as she looked in the side view mirror, tears steadily falling down her cheeks, she tried to wipe them away but they just wouldn’t stop pouring out.
“Just leave!” She ordered herself.
With a forceful foot on the pedal Harper lurched the vehicle forth and decided to never look back. No matter where she would take herself to she had no choice but to keep looking forward. That was the only way that she could survive. The only way that she could live with herself.
“Bye.” She whispered as she turned onto the route that lead her away from Greensville.
And this time, it would indefinitely be the last time.
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