PRETTY WHEN I CRY

(indie witch oc. somewhat self based.)

[allhcndsondeck-blog]

“I hope I’m not disturbing.” Father Gabriel’s voice is soft and calm, and he approaches the other as one might a wounded animal. “I realize that most people come here for solitude, an opportunity to be alone with one’s thoughts. Thankfully, you don’t have to be alone if you don’t wish to be. There are answers if you wish to ask for them. I’d be happy to help in any way, or simply lend an ear, if you’d like someone to talk to.”

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

His footsteps had startled Aroha, but once they saw it was only Father Gabriel they relaxed, and even smiled. “You’re not disturbing me Father, don’t worry.” They rose from their knees and unclasped their hands, letting the silver cross fall from their fingers and rest against their collarbone. “I was just...” They hesitated, biting their bottom lip. “It’s been a while since I prayed in a real church you know? It feels a little...weird, to tell you the truth.”

[allhcndsondeck-blog]

“What’s up.”

An attempt at his usual slick, blasé greetings, but the toll of being locked up and humbled this long was pretty obvious. He got through each day with the (perhaps misplaced) confidence that he’d get through this pickle too, but all things considered, it was getting harder and harder to believe that.

“You come to stare at the inmate or am I getting a conjugal visit?”

A weak wiggling of the eyebrows and a lazy grin followed this. Never too worn down for a dirty joke, naturally.

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

Aroha sneered, lips curling in disgust. “Why aren’t you dead yet?” They asked, somehow able to sound both bored and agitated. “Are you part cockroach or some shit?”

[vivienvalentino]

Shit Negan Says

[withaconscience]

AROHA AND NEIL FOR THE SHIP MEME

oh deaaar, and after all they’ve gone through lately;;;;!! @fcllcpcrt

opening credits: twice by little dragonmeeting for the first time: can’t help falling in love by ingrid michaelson (my love)hey, i kinda like you: what time d’you call this by elbow (from a simon movie!)i’m going to kiss you now: starlight star-shine by spgfalling in love: can’t sleep by vanic x k.flayyour place or mine: noticed by mutemath (<3)naked in bed: wake up the castle mashup by quentin mashupsfirst fight: i’m not calling you a liar by florence and the machinemaybe we should take a break: midnight run by examplei want you back: intro by the xxwill you marry me: such great heights by the postal servicewe’re getting older: hello my old heart by the oh hellosif you die i’ll go with you: exile vilify piano cover by friendlysquidpianoend credits: deceiver of fools by within temptation (i sh*t u not its what came up)

[conciiousness-deactivated201909]

open rp —- any connection ;; any muse

The first 75-degree day of the year, and Benny accidentally fell asleep outside. His pale skin was going to be a nice shade of tomato if no one woke him up—- poor boy. 

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

Aroha frowned at the sleeping young man, more than a little concerned. It was far too hot and sunny a day to be asleep out in the sun, especially on the beach. Silently, so as not to wake him, Aroha set themself up beside him, setting up their umbrella so that it would cover the both of them. They then got out their towel and laid out on it, ready to get a tan.

[hawwkette]

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

waveofthehand:

Aroha didn’t hand over the package and now they were coming closer. Neil took a step back closer to his door, almost tripping over his feet in the process.

“What,” he said, eyebrows together, expression tightening in confusion. “What d’you mean ‘what am I talking about’?” They still looked too close to tears and Neil was really starting to get worn down by these varied tests and games. Hadn’t he repented enough; hadn’t he done the best he could do? Hadn’t they made the right choices for themselves already by avoiding him completely?

“Be-be-because.” He took another step back at Aroha’s step forward, and now the doorjamb was digging into his back and he could retreat no further. “Because I had you get me off in bed. I’d denied everything else up until then, but I’d been tired and I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to tell you to quit, and I know you’ve been forced to-to do sexual acts before and I didn’t mean to make you do any to me, just because… Because…” He watched her, frozen, too lost to even shrug.

“And that’s why you’ve been avoiding me,” Neil continued, “to keep yourself safe. I thought you’d moved house, honestly. A-and I really do appreciate you coming back here to give this to me, but if-if it’d make you feel better you really can donate it, or-or throw it in with the rubbish.” He waved his hand flippantly, “To just…just throw it away.” Like me.

A stunned silence overcame Aroha, as they tried to process what Neil had said. They stared at him, the cogs in their head slowly turning.

He thought-he really thought....

“Neil...” Aroha’s voice came out small, as small as they felt for putting Neil through this. “That isn’t why I-I cut myself off.” They looked back down at their feet, trying to find the right words. Lifting their head they looked at poor Neil, who looked very confused.

“You’re the one Neil.” They whispered, allowing themself to let go of their fears, just this once. “You’re the one that-that people introduce to their families. That people plan their futures with. That people dream of growing old with.” A lump formed in Aroha’s throat and they had to gulp to force it back down. “You’re-you’re perfect. You’re kind and handsome and funny and-wonderful. Just so wonderful , it’s almost like you’re not even real. And I’m...not any of that.”

“I’m the one you call for a good time. I’m the one you call if you want to fuck. That’s all I am.” Aroha shrugged and looked down, gulping again before raising their head. “That’s all I’ve ever been. I’m not the partner or the one you bring home. I’ve never been that, and I don’t know if I ever will be.”

This thought had long plagued Aroha, but it had never really bothered them. Why would it? They had never met anyone that they would make it bother them. They had John, and that was all they needed. But then Neil happened, and threw everything so out of balance that Aroha was still trying to find their feet.

“And I knew that sooner or later, you would figure that out.” They tried to blink away new tears, but they still came out. “And when you did...you would throw me away.” They sniffled and wiped their eyes with the heel of their left hand, their right still clinging onto the package. “This is what I do Neil. I cut people off before they can cut me off. Because I get scared.” It was a lot for them to admit, but they knew it was now or never, and they would rather scare Neil off with the truth than keep him with a lie. “It was never because of you. I want to make that clear. You have never ever done anything to make me uncomfortable. I...” Another swallow. “I’m in love with you Neil. Totally in love with you. But I’m no good for you. That’s the truth of it. I’m sorry.”

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

@waveofthehand i saw the picture and i had to do it

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

waveofthehand:

Dennis needed more food. Neil had finished up the work day and come home to a piss stain in the corner, because he hadn’t been able to come home for lunch so of course Dennis couldn’t have waited. I ought to just find him a new house if I can’t fucking take care of him properly. Neil had cried about it, and Dennis had kept trying to lick his face, which was never helpful. He cleaned everything up and went to check his food bowl, and saw the bag barely had anything in it. Neil snatched his wallet off the counter, pulled on one of his rattier jackets, and headed out. And then they were parked at the meter outside of his house. With a little package and they were already crying, because seeing Neil was probably frightening or at the very least uncomfortable.

“You…” Neil stopped. Then, “You could’ve just taken it to a charity shop. You didn’t have to come all the way out here.” He glanced Aroha up and down, saw they were shaking, and his bottom lip quivered. He didn’t step forward, not wanting to frighten them further, and instead held out his hand. They were too sweet to donate the jumper or just throw it in the bin, obviously. His voice is soft. “Give it here, then, and you can go. I won’t try to keep you here.” Why are they sorry?

“You’ve nothing to be sorry for, I know it was my fault, I forced you, and I’m sorry I didn’t realize it sooner. You never have to see me again. Thank you for returning this, it’s really sweet of you.” His voice is shaking, now, and there’s people walking around and behind him, like the two of them are in the way. It was nearly sundown and Dennis needed food, and he wanted to know Aroha got home safe. But, of course, he’d never get another text from them, again.

Knowing that Neil didn’t seem to want them around made Aroha burst into tears. They brought a hand to their eyes, catching the tears before it could ruin their makeup. Of course they knew that Neil wasn’t going to want them around forever, especially considering how they’d acted lately, but to hear it so soon tore them apart.

It wasn’t until Neil spoke again that they looked back, eyes red and raw, and expressing extreme confusion. “I don’t-what are you talking about?” They furrowed their brow, daring to take a step closer to Neil. “What did you force me to do?” Aroha could remember every last detail of the night of Neil’s birthday, and none of it pointed towards Neil doing anything that could be read as forceful. If anything, Aroha could be called the forceful one, as they were just on the precipice of blowing Neil, without asking, and just assumed that just like all the other men they had known, it was something he would’ve wanted. To be shown otherwise was a game changer, and only endeared Neil to Aroha more.

Without noticing they took another step, and hugged the wrapped up jumper close to their chest, gripping it tight to stop themselves from shaking. “Why would I never want to see you again?” Admittedly, a rather confusing question considering that was the exact vibe Aroha had been giving off, but clearly Neil’s head was in a place that they hadn’t expected it to go to, and they needed to know what was going on.

[doodlerdoodle]

When your face reveals more than you’d wanna say. (https://youtu.be/pR0FTacPMjg Pornvoice alert. Watch at your own risk.)

[sphinxmemesmusings]

leave a ship in my ask box

and i’ll put my music playlist on shuffle and come up with their soundtrack.

opening credits: meeting for the first time: hey, i kinda like you: i’m going to kiss you now: falling in love: your place or mine: naked in bed: first fight: maybe we should take a break:   i want you back: will you marry me: we’re getting older: if you die i’ll go with you: end credits:

[doodlerdoodle]

[beaniesandmachetes-arc]

 🙋 Raise your hand if you’re proud of your OC regardless of the amount of attention you may or may not get or what anyone else thinks.  ✋  🙌 

[eviefyres]

PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME .

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

ENEMIES.   dangerous to themselves  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  passionate  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into a sexual tension  /  developing into a romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based of misunderstandings or lies  /  other .

[jennifercheck-a-deactivated2020]

2 all my beautiful muslims that live in london, please be safe as this “punish-a-muslim” day is today and tomorrow and will go on for god knows how long. i personally believe we shouldn’t hide in fear, for these white racists are just using this to scare us away but they’re failing. have fun and live your life.

[rpprompts]

send me 'well hello' and my muse will climb into your muse's lap

[fcllcpcrt-blog]

I don't think white people fully understand how exhausting it can be to be around racist white people, or just white people in general. Like I don't care how otherwise '''''''nice''''''' your racist uncle is, I don't wanna meet him!!!!!! I don't give a fuck if your aunt makes good food I don't want it!!!!! I don't want to be around people who think I'm lesser than them and would be happy to see me dead!!!!!!

Like tbh a lot of you give your relatives a pass because you're white but newsflash I'm not gonna!!! I will fight your racist cousin if they talk shit!!!!

And especially don't introduce me if you're trying to change their mind about their racism lmao why would I want to be part of that?????? It's exhausting emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and even physically and I can do that shit to myself just fine lmao they're your relatives you do the heavy lifting and let me chill out!!!!