(is this) the end i want ,
with two messages to kim wonshik, hakyeon leaves his dorm room, note in his pocket and noose hidden by his jacket. destination? the woods. away from people, away from mutants,
away from the place that he had built himself upon for so long (yes, he was ready to give that all up within a matter of seconds).
because he felt useless, and to the point of no return. he knew that, even if he tried his hardest, he would fall short of what they could do (shock, fly farther and be stronger than him
all in all, hakyeon was dispensable).
so, to cure this problem, hakyeon took it into his own hands -- abet too literally; there he stood deep in the forest of busan, rope at one hand, lips pursed, so willing to take his own life (immature, yes, but hakyeon was hell bent on this idea).
before he saw something right next to the branch that he had predesignated as his death spot -- a black bird.
careening its neck to get a better look at hakyeon, to see the slip of paper peeping from his pocket and bulging jacket before letting out a caw.
"you won't tell him, will you?"
finally, the bird responded with by clicking its beak and flying off.
finally, hakyeon was left alone.
making his way up said tree and tying the top of the noose across the branch, hakyeon paused for a second, realizing exactly what he was doing ('i'm killing myself. i'm really about to do it -- and within minutes after tying that noose around my neck ...
i would die'; most certainly not the most pleasant thoughts).
and what would ravi think about hakyeon? a liar, first of all, as hakyeon had told him that he had gone out for just a walk. and second? spineless. weak. most definitely not someone to look up to (with that in mind, hakyeon stopped, even began to regret his decision of being so prompt with his death).
but the two people that really made hakyeon change his mind about his death would be none other than his parents -- they would be, to say the least, crushed, their only son gone ... for good.
and with that in mind, hakyeon backed away from the noose, legs still danging from said branch, pondering what to do next.
now here, he could return to the institute .. but even hakyeon knew how badly that would end (more self loathing, more broken bones, more chances of hakyeon 'trapped' for the rest of his life in mid air, wings extended, breath leaving his lungs -- tragic at best).
or hakyeon could do what he does best (what he thought was once his best asset), fly. he could fly away and become stronger, physically and mentally --
and after a few minutes of mulling over this idea, toying around with it, asking himself questions of 'would this really be worth my time?' or 'would ravi even accept me again if i came back' (god save hakyeon if ravi didn't, though), he decided that this would be in his best interest -- a little selfishness never hurt, right? -- and with that, the once-expert extended his wings and took off, one wing stroke after another propelling him into the sky and away from the place where he planned to end himself.
(and in a final, conclusive flap which sent him gliding through the air, hakyeon promised himself that he wouldn't look back).
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