rat

a small creature with many thoughts

[fearfulrat]

✨about me✨

⭐You can call me rat⭐

⭐it/it's or neos preferably but I'll usually go with whatever⭐

⭐I'm 16 (turning 17 soon yippee)⭐

⭐I'm lowkey a furry but I have other things to worry about rn⭐

⭐full time college student and I will be crashing out about this regularly⭐

✨what's wrong with me✨

Literally everything! Mysterious pains? Mental illness? General bad vibes and dysfunction? I've got it all

✨interests✨

⭐any kind of fibre arts but especially crochet and sewing⭐

⭐I love being outside and touching grass⭐

⭐sometimes i consume media and then post about it⭐

✨tw✨

I drink, smoke and do various other drugs and I also have suicidal ideation and make wayyy to many suicide jokes but I try my best to tag anything triggering appropriately

I also sometimes suffer from psychosis and delusions but I don't really post about it much

[fearfulrat]

Goodnight

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Wish I could get high again but I'm still not over my hangover and I have work tmr so it's probably best that I don't

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Really tired after my day of doing nothing

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Having executive dysfunction is so lame bc my brain is like 'hey you haven't eaten today how about some fruit' and then also my brain is like 'actually moving is evil and you should kill yourself'

[fearfulrat]

Washed my hair and I feel great now the colour looks so good

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Going to wash the hair dye out now yippee

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Sometimes I wish I had a more mainstream taste in books bc I'll read the most amazing life changing novel ever and nobody I know wants to read it bc it sounds weird and scary

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I haven't read anything in a while bc I've been kind of depressed but when I was on holiday I got a new book and it was so fucking good that I finished it in one afternoon

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It's all 'read books by diverse authors' until you can't pronounce the names of the characters or places in the book

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I can feel hair dye dripping down the back of neck omg this is hell

[fearfulrat]

*Takes a long hit of my strawberry flavoured vape pen*

I haven't heard those pronouns in years

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my stupid fucking head just loves to ache

[fearfulrat]

Happy pride month specifically to the 'guy' I went to high school with who was very interested in my transition and asked a suspicious amount of questions to just call it curiosity

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Hair dye is on!!

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Ok going to actually put the dye on now bye bye

[fearfulrat]

I think red might become my permanent hair colour bc I always feel most like myself with red hair