Them Fatale

Vintage Glam, Pulp, & Journaling my FeeFees

[thegikitiki]

Living Room Decor, 1979

[feelsarethenewglam]

Show me. I’m ready.

Something wild has come over me. I am purging, literally purging, physical things from my home and garage as if I’m no longer the same person who I was when I had this stuff.

I can’t explain it or describe it. I’m just done with all of it. It isn’t me anymore. I mean some of it I guess is still me but I didn’t realize just how much I was holding on to.

Being a slave to the scroll had me asleep. Doing nothing but working and surviving had me stuck.

No more. All this manifesting and energy work has helped me break some things wide open! Getting off social media on this sabbatical has been life changing. And yes I’m posting on tumblr but I’m basically just using this as a journal. No endless scrolling. Just a few little aesthetic things and some shouting into the void because my therapist agreed it was a good idea lol.

Aaaaanyway.

Purging. Making room. Waning moon. Reflecting. Cataloging. Taking stock. Just filing away all this internal dialogue I’m having and pushing through this massive exodus of energy and physical stuff. It’s sort of reminding me of Swedish death cleaning and Marie Kondo method all in one. I’m about to toss my mother effin futon out the window too. It’s so comfy but it is not aesthetic.

I want more space to grow and I know it’s going to happen. But the next move I make is going to be exactly what I want and in the best possible timing. I’m going to settle into a house where my family can have good memories growing up and not bounce around in rentals.

I’m also changing my personal aesthetic some. Mostly a wardrobe facelift. New glasses frames. I’m really going for a refresh in all aspects of my life and I couldn’t be happier.

No more funky energy. No more entertaining half-assed efforts. No more listening to people who are all words with no action behind it. No more projecting hope onto a thing and just seeing it for what it is the FIRST time. No more second or third chances. Just done with all that.

I’m too busy believing in myself and building the life I want and deserve.

There is now a fucking paywall to be a part of my life. Get with the program.

[feelsarethenewglam]

How very unfortunate for you.

[kitschmelange]

by Mike Strouth from Things to do While Getting Well (1971)

[feelsarethenewglam]

✨ 3 weeks off Meta and I’m vibing and manifesting and y’all it’s working! Got rid of these energy siphons and wouldn’t you know it’s already yielding results ✨

Fucking Magic.

[feelsarethenewglam]

Turn it all the way the fuck up.

[feelsarethenewglam]

Less bitter. More glitter.

[feelsarethenewglam]

Please don’t

[punkdollrora]

[feelsarethenewglam]

Update. I blocked him last month. I deactivated and deleted my dating app accounts. I deleted my social media apps. I announced that I’m taking a break from performing. They were all siphoning my energy.

Day 2 of digital detox LFG!

[girltalk]

[lacedollie]

[feelsarethenewglam]

Everything reminds me of him

[feelsarethenewglam]

Be the entity you wish to see in the world.

[girltalk]

[feelsarethenewglam]

07/08/24: Manifesting Challenge

Day 4: Write down what your dream life looks like.

I have a lovely home, conveniently located near shopping and such but quiet enough that it feels tucked away from the busyness of city life. It’s decorated eclectic, vintage, witchy, gothy, glam, with a dash of kitsch.

In my beautiful eclectic home, my son and I reside happy, unbothered, friends and family coming and going. We have game nights and family dinners. I have community.

I’m also loved and bedded well, and often. Content companionship is mine.

I’m earning a secure amount with a newly launched career in tech after having completed my degree OR I’m doing well as a certified veterinary technician.

I have a smashing wardrobe and I’m better known and liked in the burlesque community.

I am making music, art, and I even have plenty of time to do it.

We have a cat. And maybe a pocket pet or some kind of cool fish or snake or something.

Our needs are met. We are thriving.

[feelsarethenewglam]

Almost 20 months later and I never finished the 30 day manifestation challenge. I spent some time reviewing my past posts. I found this earlier one at the start of when I attempted to do this challenge. It gave me new direction in the midst of a lot of upheaval. It helped anchor me. This vision, this dream, while it doesn’t look too radically different, feels different to me now. 20 months ago I was deep in healing, exploring a new relationship connection, and really only had a rough outline of a life I felt would be satisfying. That version of me was on to something.

There are few changes I would make; hardly any really, minus career choices and having a pet. But I think that’s why I’m making this post because with healing and time also comes growth. And so while I initially thought I’d continue the challenge, I think I’ll start over. Or engage in a new challenge altogether.

Time to start writing again, because screaming into the void wasn’t cutting it for me.

[feelsarethenewglam]

[feelsarethenewglam]

Manifesting Challenge

Day 24: Focus on one thing you are grateful for today…

Okay so literally I just had ritual with a partner because I went off on how grateful I am for how things have been going lately and my partner was sharing how excited they were for how things are moving for them… and by ritual I mean 👉🏼👌🏼

You see we have the profound spiritual connection that’s very potent in the, ahem, spicy department. No I will not elaborate. I charge for that 😜. And now I’m laying in bed totally beside myself with gratitude.

If I had to pick one thing to be grateful for today, I would be really difficult in some ways. I guess it would be fairly simple to say how I’m grateful for this partner and our connection this evening. But what seems to weigh in more than that is how honored I feel to be the parent of such an amazing tiny human. He makes me laugh every day. He brings me joy. Even in moments of tired or frustration, my love for this smol guy transcends all of that, all of me, all of existence. I have made large strides towards my goals and rebalancing. I’m just happy to be taking stock of this and for there to be this moment of gratitude and total bliss.