IT'S SINK OR SWIM

caught in the middle of a crossfire lost my balance on a high wire trying to figure out what to do pushed to the edge of my reason everywhere around me it's treason i don't want to do that to you kamikaze airplanes in the sky are we going down or will we fly this could be a shipwreck on the shore or we could sail away forever this time hearing the song in your laughter a melody i chase after no one else has done this to me

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\ DON’T LET ME DOWN /

It was early in the morning and Felix was exhausted from a restless sleep the night before, but the house they roll up to - the one they’d bought a week ago - instantly lifts his mood. It was his dream house; even better, their dream house, where they could live together and not be bothered by what others around them thought. For once they had a true space where they didn’t have to hide their love, and Felix was unbelievably excited for what was to come. First, though - boxes had to be moved. The movers they’d called where already there moving in the heavy stuff - Felix recognized their bed frame being carried in - but there was still some smaller boxes to move for themselves. Felix grins across at his brother and gets out of the car, shutting the door carefully behind him before he side-stepped to the back seat door to open it. He took the first box in his arms, and tried to nudge a second one on top of it. He was stronger than he looked, but maybe a little too ambitious. He already felt the strain in his back and arms as he lifted them up. 

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine at first was just going to put on a show for the girls, it was all fun and games but something switched when Felix whimpered against him. He was someone who relied very heavily on knowing he was making whoever he was with feel good and he had never felt more prouder knowing he had some effect on Felix; he never wanted to stop kissing him. Pulling him closer, Blaine kissed him rougher, knowing not to shove his tongue down his throat but rather tease it along his bottom lip. He knew kissing wasn’t just about their mouths but a full body experience as well, Blaine wanted Felix to feel this everywhere in his body.

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Blaine had a profound effect on Felix - his heart was thudding hard in his chest, his stomach was fluttering with butterflies and his skin was tingling where Blaine was touching him. He was well outside of the realm of rational thought at this point, as his mind was nowhere near the girls who were watching them with gawking awe. Instead, Felix’s mind was focusing on the way Blaine was kissing him, the way he pulled him closer, and when he licked at his bottom lip Felix’s mouth fell open with a wanton whine that was muffled by Blaine’s lips. He was quaking under Blaine’s touch, and his own hands were clenched into fists in his lap, knuckles going white and nails biting into his palms.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

The thought of his brother having his lipstick smudged all over his lips, panting heavily and looking up at him doe eyed almost made Blaine moan into his mouth. The dare was to make out, not kiss so Blaine slowly moved his mouth against Felix’s, feeling the smaller boy’s body shake beneath him. In an attempt to steady his nerves, Blaine brought his hand up to softly cup the side of his cheek, caressing his thumb along his cheek bone. Blaine didn’t usually enjoy extended make out sessions because there was always something better in his mind to come but now, he could just savour how sweet Felix tasted and how nice his naivety felt. 

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The movement shocked him into motion again, but it wasn’t into the kiss perse - he was shaking instead, uncontrollably, waves of indescribable emotion flowing through him. He’d never felt anything like this before, and it overwhelmed him very suddenly. It was enough to prompt a whimper out of his mouth and against Blaine’s, startling in the hushed silence that had fallen over the room. The girls were probably staring, but Felix couldn’t concentrate on that knowledge when Blaine touched his cheek, giving his stomach a swooping sensation as if on a roller coaster. He tried to mimic the motions Blaine’s mouth was making against his own, shuddering at the sparks the touches gave him. He was quickly coming undone at the pressure of Blaine’s lips against his own alone but nothing else seemed to matter in the moment but Blaine. Who was obviously a fantastic kisser.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

“It’s just a bit of fun, don’t think too deep into it.” Blaine had never seen Felix with any boys, whether that be in school or at their house and that lead him to believe that maybe there was another reason as to why he was nervous to kiss him. “I’ll guide you through it, don’t worry.” Blaine whispered in reply, being the first one to drop his eyes to his brother’s lips, back to his eyes one last time before he was leaning in and their lips were pressed together. He could feel the hesitation and tenseness on Felix’s lips but that didn’t deter him, if anything it made him more eager, Blaine kept the kiss still and soft to begin with. If this really was Felix’s first kiss then he was going to make it one he’d remember.

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Trying to do as Blaine suggested and not think about it made it even harder to ignore in Felix’s mind. Warning signs were going off in his head - loud, red flashing lights telling him to STOP! and not kiss Blaine because he was his brother, and they were twins, and this was weird. What scared Felix, though, was the yearning he felt in his bones, the pull towards Blaine’s lips that seemed irresistible. This was a dare - it wasn’t supposed to be this serious - but Felix felt as though he was crossing a line that he hadn’t dared to before. He was aware of the hammering of his heart in his chest, the shaking of his hands and the way it was suddenly so hard to breathe. Blaine was close enough that Felix was almost crossing his eyes to look at him and with his sharp inhale, their lips touched. The connection shocked him into stillness, and everything in him focused on how Blaine’s lips felt on his. It was a gentle pressure that Felix realized he didn’t mind, especially when he felt Blaine’s warm breath on his skin.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine agreed with Tina, it would be hot, he found the whole innocent thing very alluring and now he thought about it, Felix basically embodied that completely. Sitting there quietly whilst his brother freaked out, Blaine glanced over at Rachel and Mercedes who were watching eagerly to see what would happen. “You can’t be so adamant about something you haven’t tried yet.” Blaine eventually spoke directly to Felix, slowly moving closer and closer to him. “Come on, Felix. We might as well give them what they want.” His voice was low and teasing, close enough to Felix now that he could kiss him if he wanted to.

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Felix’s mind was spinning, and his gut was clenching anxiously at the way the girls were looking at him. He wouldn’t let himself focus on Blaine until he had to - his brother started to move closer, scooting across the circle they’d made to where Felix was sitting with his back against his bed. He felt the heat rise in his cheeks as Blaine spoke, and he was shaking his head before he even realized he was doing it. “We’re brothers, it’s wrong,” Felix said in a trembling voice, drawing his knees to his chest and wrapping his arms around his legs, curling into himself. Blaine got ever-closer and Felix’s breath caught in his throat, trying to keep his eyes on Blaine’s and not let his gaze drop to his brother’s lips. Which was oh so tempting... especially when Blaine was looking at him like that. “We shouldn’t be doing this,” he whispered.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

The thought of wearing lipstick didn’t bother Blaine in the slightest, he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded, he was hoping for something a little more vulgar but he could work with what he was given. Looking around, he spotted Rachel’s bag behind them and quickly picked it up and put it on his lap. “You better have some pretty colours and not some gross shit.” He commented as he rummaged around her bag with no regard for her personal space, eventually pulling out a tube of red lipstick from the bottom. “How the fuck..” Without a mirror of any kind Blaine had to wing it and apply the lipstick without looking, it came out pretty well apart from a smudge at the corner of his mouth. After dumping the bag back behind him, he turned to look at his brother. “I think Felix should go next.”

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Felix wasn’t expecting Blaine to be okay with it, but then his brother was always full of surprises. He watched as he took Rachel’s purse - to which she didn’t protest but smiled - and rummaged through it to find a lipstick. When Blaine found it, Felix snorted at the sight of his brother trying to apply it without any mirrors. He was again surprisingly good at putting it on - he only ended up with a smudge at the corner of his mouth, and Tina offered to wipe it away for him before he spoke again. And Felix’s smile and stomach both fell at his words and all eyes turned to him. “Yeah, Felix, truth or dare?” Rachel prompted, and he had no choice but to go along. 

“Um.. dare,” he mumbled, and Tina’s smile grew wide, which made him eye her hesitantly. Moments later his suspicions were confirmed when she spoke. 

“I’ve always thought it would be hot if you and Blaine made out.” 

Felix certainly wasn’t expecting that, and he sputtered in response, mouth and eyes opening wide as he gazed at his insane friend. “What? No!” This was going way worse than planned and they were only the second round in.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine noticed very quickly that Felix wasn’t happy, he was quiet and his face just read that he was bitter that Blaine had interrupted. That was his problem though, it wasn’t Blaine’s job to make sure that he was happy and okay. “Dare.” Blaine decided on eventually, leaning back on one of his hands and cocked his head towards Mercedes who he hadn’t paid much attention to, probably because she had given much towards him either.

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Felix rolled his eyes when Rachel and Tina cooed in response to Blaine’s answer. Mercedes raised an eyebrow at him and studied him for a few moments before she said, “I dare you to put lipstick on and not be able to take it off for the rest of the night.” Tina scoffed and Rachel started to laugh. “That’s not much of a dare,” Rachel started to say, but Mercedes cut her off. “It’s my dare, so deal with it, Berry. So, Blaine. You gonna take it or not?” Felix was avoiding the entire conversation at this point. Something about the idea of his brother in lipstick didn’t sit right with him, but he wasn’t going to object unless Blaine did.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine offered a closed mouth smile to each of the girls before walking over to where Rachel was sitting and sat down beside her. It was too blatantly clear that some of the girls had a crush on him and while the attention always felt nice, he in no way felt the same about any of them. It was fun to make them think that he did though, the school girl giggles and blushes were cute but not something Blaine craved. “Thank you.” He made sure to make eye contact with each of the girls, especially Tina who had curled up inside herself after Rachel overpowered her. “Should we get started?”

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It was fuel to the flame that Blaine encouraged and went along with them, even though Felix was pretty sure his brother didn’t feel the same about either Rachel or Tina. He started to feel the tell-tale churning in his stomach that made him clench his jaw and stare angrily at the floor. He wasn’t very good at hiding his emotions, nor did he really want to. This was supposed to be his sleepover and he wasn’t happy. Mercedes, the only girl not enraptured with Blaine’s smiles and eye contact, noticed Felix’s change of tone and spoke up before the others could. “Yeah. Why don’t you go first, Blaine? Truth or dare?” Felix lifted his head a little to look at his twin as they waited his answer.

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TRUTH OR DARE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine didn’t mind having to basically babysit his brother, most of the time he kept quiet and out of Blaine’s way but even when he didn’t; Blaine didn’t care at all. Even from downstairs he could hear Felix and his friends and considering he had no other options of things to do, maybe going up and seeing what all their fuss was about might be enjoyable. He pulled himself up from the couch, ruffling his already messy curls up as he walked up the stairs. Just as he came up to their shared room, he heard one of the girls exclaim about a game of truth or dare. “Oh, should you now?” Blaine interrupted their giggling, looking over at Rachel who was know smiling sheepishly. “Maybe I should come join you, stop things getting out of hand.” He said before walking into the room, gaze falling over to Felix.

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All heads whipped to the source of the comment, the girls with various faces of embarrassment and admiration, but Felix’s was a mixture of trepidation and excitement. He wasn’t quite sure how to feel about Blaine barging in on their sleepover; he cared for his brother, and certainly didn’t mind his company, but he knew that two out of three of his friends had crushes on Blaine, and he hated the way it curled his stomach with something angry and dark. He’d been feeling this for a while now, and had maybe distanced himself from Blaine just to try to get it to stop. It was no secret that his twin was flirtatious, and while he knew it shouldn’t have bothered him, for some reason it did. Hopefully this would go quickly - judging by his friend’s faces, Felix was going to start feeling the twisting in his gut soon enough. “You don’t have to,” he said weakly, while Rachel and Tina started to talk at the same time about welcoming him into their game. They looked at each other for a moment with tension before Rachel continued and Tina fell silent. “We’d love if you joined us. Blaine. Take a seat.” She patted the space next to her and across from Felix, who was shifting uneasily in his position on the floor.

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TRUTH OR DARE

It was a Saturday night and Felix was having a sleepover. Their parents were on a trip to God-knows-where once again and Cooper was out late, as usual. Felix took the opportunity to have his best friends over for the night - Tina, Rachel, and Mercedes were camped out in his and Blaine’s room. The large room could surely accommodate three extra people, and they were all on futons across the room, turned towards each other for best conversation experience. At the moment though, they were all looking at each other while Felix was rambling on about his new favourite book, and soon mouthing the words. With a group nod, Rachel’s voice piped up, “We should play Truth or Dare!” Felix stopped mid-sentence and gave a tentative shrug of his shoulders. The girls arranged their futons in a circle and motioned for Felix to join them on the ground, so he did, back to the open doorway.

[bdlanderson]

TAKE MY WHOLE LIFE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine sat silently and watched Felix sing, there was little he loved more than his voice. This cover was so beautiful and so pure that Blaine couldn’t not love it, especially since it was coming from his boy. He waited until he’d finished before leaning forward, gently taking his guitar off of him and placing it on the floor and then scooping Felix into his arms. “That was beautiful, baby.” He whispered against his cheek, kissing it tenderly. “You’re beautiful, thank you for that.” Blaine held onto his brother tightly, wanting to protect his innocence from the whole world. “You’re too good for me.”

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Felix watched with a smile as Blaine took his guitar off him and set it aside. Moments later he was being brought into his brother’s arms and Felix giggled before getting comfy in Blaine’s lap, as close as possible. He blushed at Blaine’s praises and leaned into his touch, heart warm and head buzzing with love. He got nervous when he performed for people he cared for, and getting positive feedback was an enthralling experience itself, let alone having it coming from Blaine, who’s praise was regarded highest than all others. Blaine’s encouragement meant everything to him, and Felix would never stop seeking it. He nuzzled at his brother’s jaw with his nose when he spoke next, and at his comment he pulled back to catch Blaine’s eye. “We’re good for each other, Bee. I don’t know what I would do without you.. I wouldn’t want to be in the world anymore,” he said quietly, “You make me better. And I make you better. It’s a symbiotic relationship,” Felix added after a moment with a wide smile.

[bdlanderson]

TAKE MY WHOLE LIFE

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Sbdlanderson:

Blaine reluctantly let go of Felix, watching as he rushed up the stairs while he stayed on the couch, patiently waiting for his brother to come back. When he saw the guitar in his hands, he slowly sat up and leant against the arm rest. “You gonna play me something?” Blaine asked curiously with a smirk, raising an eyebrow. Felix was far more talented than he was, he believed. Blaine could sing but not as well as his brother could and there was no way he’d ever learnt how to play an instrument. 

Felix could see the curiosity grow on Blaine’s face and it was making his heart beat fast. He nodded at Blaine’s question, wrapping the guitar strap around him and found the right chords to start. “It’s nothing original, but...” he shrugged and gave Blaine a tender smile. “I’ve been practicing it for you.” He cleared his throat before he started, voice growing stronger as he continued. “Wise men say only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love you.” Felix kept his eyes on Blaine, trying to convey his feelings through the emotion in his voice and face. “Shall I stay? Would it be a sin? If I can’t help falling in love with you.. Like a river flows surely to the sea.. darling, so it goes; some things were meant to be!” His voice rises. “Take my hand, take my whole life too, cause I can’t help falling in love with you.” He uses his falsetto carefully: “Like a river flows surely to the sea... darling, so it goes: somethings were meant to be, oh, take.. my.. hand,” he continues quietly, “Take my whole life too - cause I can’t help falling in love with you. No, I can’t help falling in love with you,” he finishes with a soft smile as he watches Blaine for his reaction.

[bdlanderson]

TAKE MY WHOLE LIFE

[bdlanderson]

Blaine remained quiet for a few moments, his hand stroking his brother’s shoulders softly. He would gladly just sit there for an entirety and listen to Felix’s sweet voice, Blaine planned on that fantasy becoming a reality one day. “You’re so sweet.” He commented simply after a short while, pressing two kisses against Felix’s head, nuzzling his nose against his hair. “I’m in love with you too, you know that right?” His voice was barely above a whisper, lips moving down so he could kiss just behind Felix’s ear.

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Felix didn’t need an answer right away, all he needed was Blaine’s presence and when he got it he was happy. He smiled to himself at the way his brother stroked his shoulders, tender and protective at the same time. He leaned into the touch without a thought, immediately welcoming the contact. He smiled wider when Blaine spoke, kissed and nuzzled him. He let out a soft, content hum and nodded at Blaine’s next question. He closed his eyes at the kiss behind his ear, “I know, of course I know. You show me every day.” The tune he was humming - the song stuck in his head - was wonderfully appropriate. “I wanna show you, too.” He paused and twisted around to look at Blaine’s face. “I’ll be right back.” With a smile he slid out of Blaine’s embrace and bounded up to their bedroom where his guitar was. Thankfully he was playing it earlier so there was no need to tune it; he was back in the living room minutes later. “So, I had an idea..”

[bdlanderson]

TAKE MY WHOLE LIFE

With Felix curled up on his lap, Blaine felt more content than he ever had before. He was close enough so he could kiss his cheek and neck whenever he pleased and pet his fingers through his brother’s soft curls. There was some movie playing on the tv but Blaine hadn’t paid any attention to it, why would he when he had something far more interesting in his lap. “What are you thinking about?” He eventually whispered, leaning his head forward a little so he could rest it on Felix’s shoulder, looking at him with what he didn’t know was with all the love in the world.

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The movie playing was Easy A, and Felix had seen it a million times before. Emma Stone was hilarious in it, and he loved the movie as a whole, but he wasn’t completely focused on what was happening on screen. He was in Blaine’s lap and could feel his chest rising and falling behind him, comforting him. He appreciated all the little moments they could be alone together, away from the prying eyes of everyone else. All he needed was his brother, and he was happy. He smiled at Blaine’s question, and turned his head to meet his gaze with a warming chest. The look in Blaine’s eyes, it was only ever for him and he loved that knowledge. “You,” he answered quietly, leaning back against him. “How in love with you I am. How perfect you are for me.”

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EVERYBODY WANTS TO KNOW

[bdlanderson]

Finally content, Blaine laid back down on the bed, bringing Felix down with him. He was more than happy that he’d convinced his brother to skip school with him, not just because of the sex but because he liked spending time with him. “I love you.” Blaine knew he didn’t say it enough, at least not first, his hand came up to pet gently through Felix’s curls in a somewhat comforting way. 

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Felix moved a little so he could rest his head on Blaine’s chest before he let himself get comfortable next to him. He could hear his heart beating, slow and steady, and felt the way his chest rose when he inhaled. It grounded him and Felix looked up at his brother at his words with a bright smile. He leaned into the touch to his hair and dipped his head down to kiss Blaine’s chest before looking up at him again. “I love you too, Bee. Always.”

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EVERYBODY WANTS TO KNOW

[bdlanderson]

A couple more thrusts into him and Blaine was coming, stilling his hips and burying his face against Felix’s neck. “Fuck.” He breathed again once he was finished, nipping gently at his skin before slowly pulling out of Felix. After he’d come back down from his orgasm, Blaine chuckled breathlessly and pecked his brother’s lips. “Do you feel full now, baby?”

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Felix let out a quiet moan when he felt Blaine come. It was an odd sensation, one that took getting used to but it wasn’t bad. He had originally been hesitant to try it because of his anatomy, but when he asked his doctor about it he’d been reassured that there was no chance of pregnancy, and that had been the deal-breaker. Not that Felix didn’t like Blaine’s come on his skin, but there was something more intimate about it filling him up. He smiled when Blaine began to chuckle and nodded at his question, nuzzling at his brother’s cheek with his nose. “Mhmm, feels so good. Thank you,” he murmured.

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EVERYBODY WANTS TO KNOW

[bdlanderson]

Blaine took Felix’s pleasure very seriously, he didn’t stop fucking him or rubbing his clit until he knew he’d finished his orgasm. At this point, Blaine was aching to come, his cock was practically throbbing inside of his brother. “Fuck, where’d you want me to come? Inside of you?” He husked in his ear, not thrusting into him as forcefully as before as he wanted to make sure Felix had recovered.

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There were stars behind Felix’s eyelids before he opened his eyes again as he came down from his orgasm. He moaned quietly against his brother’s neck at Blaine’s words, nodding against his skin. He sucked a hickey below Blaine’s ear and whispered in his ear, “Come in me and fill me up, daddy,” hoping he would soon feel just that. He loved when Blaine came in him, it felt like he was marking him as his and he loved feeling that way.