[fellowyellow]

Truly don’t know if it’s just different tolerances for mess or just depression I just don’t know and honestly this has been weighing heavily on my mind like sksjdjjdjsksjsodnfbf

[fellowyellow]

God told me that life wasn’t finite, some of us have a brief timeline of when we’ll go, it’s terrifying, those sickness’s. He showed me by the end of the summer that love could rust and rot my heart whole, and then he gave our family another addition and showed me a heart brighter than the sea that sparkles under the shining sun.

I’m broken, healing, humbled and blessed under the moonlight tonight.

[fellowyellow]

Do not self sabotage and push away someone who will love you for you and all of you.

Do not romanticize and doubt the past.

Do not engage in self destructive shitty behavior.

Note to self, do not fuck this up.

Do not run away from commitment.

[fellowyellow]

[fellowyellow]

Minding my biz getting ripped n being. A loverbutch

[fellowyellow]

In my final butch form fr

[fellowyellow]

Just benched an easy 140lbs

[fellowyellow]

Emotional day for sure

My pops accompanied me

I bought a bike from a 70 year old guy who had cancer for a v long time - was in transmission for 17 years and is at stage 4 now. I wanted to know how long…but I didn’t have the heart to ask even though he was talking about his illness. I heard so many of his riding stories, asked about his family, saw his charm and love of riding. He was so kind to show me everything about the bike, offer me advice on how to get to the friction zone with the dct, talk about his added touches to the bike with the custom decals and such. The love he put into his bike is the same type of love I put into Bloo, with such care and reverence. His wife was super sweet too. All around just great guy, he had tattoos, talked about his riding days, was the director of a Harley chapter, has 3 kiddos and grandkids, truly the only person with an aol.com email still … pure soul. It was a rollecoaster of emotion kinda day. I see myself getting out of my down shell. I’m feeling how I used to feel…feeling kindness towards strangers. Idk if it was the depression that had me locked or just bad experiences with taking shots but my soul feels full again. After going on the cruise I realized, we don’t have much time at all to enjoy living. I want financial freedom. I want to spend more time with my folk now that they have it. I want to build my family. I want to keep … wanting to live my life to the absolute fullest.

[fellowyellow]

Little trip with my pops, hopefully new used bike 🏍️, club, buying a cardo so I can navigate anywhere on my damn bike, return those boots

Fun fun weekend 😃

[fellowyellow]

Minding my biz getting ripped n being. A loverbutch

[fellowyellow]

Love isn’t meant to be transactional or tit for tat and this truly is the first ship where it feels like an equal partnership

[olordelautomata]

a femme’s lipstick stain is deeply personal & also Holy

[fellowyellow]

Saying this bc I’ve been in the burbs lately - I got piece of mind because it’s just not hectic and out of the city but it just feels oppressive with the certain looks and shiii you know

[fellowyellow]

Honestly queer identity is one thing but growing up in a predom white community was so taxing…I’d love for our future kiddos to never feel cultural identity erasure or not feeling inherently proud due to a lack of exposure and viability. Being with a white partner is another thing to navigate, language, food, traditions, and such…I love her endlessly but I also don’t want to feel like my wholeness as me and my cultural identity will die away. I think on the whole, queerness is so much more easily accepted and celebrated in whatever town but my cultural identity and queerness can only be celebrated in certain places…

[fellowyellow]

Always will dote on you forever

[fellowyellow]

Motivated to run it up

Let’s go

A Leo on a mission is the most motivated

[giveherswords]