Sparkle ノ The Herta

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Welcome to my blog !!

I'm Fenris or Sparkle !

This is my main blog where I mostly talk about being fictionkin, a reality shifter and ficto spec!

I'm Sparkle IRL, I'm not very comfortable with doubles or people who hate on my character (I don't mind discussing my actions in canon but if you're just gonna trash on me I'll just block you)

I'm also not comfortable seeing others gush over my partners from my DRs, so please be respectful of that

I'm spiritual and follow the faith of Astrofel, the aeon of reality in my hsr DR, I'd be happy to answer any questions about my faith!

My other blogs:

@shiftingdaydreams Reality shifting blog

@wildcard-circus Polymind blog, very inactive right now

@wolfboy-odysseus Caninekin blog

@gates-of-dreams System blog

@lucky-fools-paradice Reblogs and just my interests in general

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I was dramatic as fuck yesterday my hair can actually go into a small ponytail

I'll probably get an undercut tho because the hair at my neck is bugging me

I'm gonna go buy hair dye now tho, might do another colour for my roots tee hee

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I know I'm deep in the trenches when I'm considering a buzz cut again 💔

Although considering how my eczema is acting up now that it's getting warmer outside and just how long hair is a chore in general it might be best to cut it

Sighh I've had such an attachment to my hair the past year and I would just love to grow it out long enough to put it in a half up style but I think it's time to accept that my eczema won't let me have long hair again

It's fine in the winter but the second it gets warmer outside my skin starts acting up and it just doesn't work to have long hair because it's just a hassle to handle it when my skin already becomes a huge sensory issue because of flare-ups

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I look into the mirror and I chant three times:

My f/os love my cluster B traits and would know how to work with my mood swings

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They put me in the yearning chamber and it's so terrible

I wanna kiss my husbands 💔💔💔

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I really need to stop pulling all nighters but I just couldn't relax all night and now it's almost 8 am and I'm just waiting to hear my brother wake up so I can get up and make coffee

I got syrup so I can make my yummy sweet coffee again and brother bought cream for me that I can use as coffee creamer and I'm really looking forward to trying it

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When your kin is starting to look a little too good so you know it's time to pull out the selfcest/mirror ship

Hashtag self love

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I finally got The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild !!

I'm gonna play through it and then get the dlcs and play through it again :3

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How life would feel if my friends actually changed up what names they called me every once in a while based on my preferences:

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I'm still too much of a pussy to watch actual horror so instead I'm working my way around by watching those "[video title] - EXPLAINED" videos because they sprinkle in some jokes so I don't have a heart attack

Currently watching "I Made a Self Aware Robot" by LIGHTS ARE OFF

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Me when I get the opportunity to stay up all night and imagine how accepting my f/os would be over my aceness

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I've been Diluc's #1 hater for so long now and a damn ragbros angst edit is giving me kin feels STOP THIS MADNESS DON'T MAKE ME REALISE I KIN DILUC

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I've genuinely become so obsessed with this cherry juice that I can only find in one specific store and when I move it's gonna be on the other side of town for me and I'm gonna be so sad when I can get my sweet and delectable cherry juice 😞

I think I'm moving up from The Mango Guy™️ to The Cherry Guy™️

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Been avoiding sending out an email for a whole day now because I've been too anxious but as much as I don't wanna be a responsible adult I also know I can't avoid it so instead of continuing to tell myself I'll do it tomorrow I decided to just get it over with at basically 1 am

Now I'm just hoping I'll be able to get some sleep because I'll probably also need to have a phone call tomorrow

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Finally actually deciding to call myself genderfluid after being in denial for months because I realised I actually don't panic the moment I don't feel the same way I've felt for week anymore

Like suddenly I'm so okay with my identity being fluid and I'm very comfortable with expressing how my identity changes

I am looking at some different names to use depending on what gender I feel like, I'm trying out Odysseus now since I'm feeling masc and I'm having fun playing with my identity and stuff :D

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Phew.. Things have kinda calmed down since I finally met my new social worker and we're gonna be working on getting me a new apartment as soon as possible

I have some emails I should send out but I'm so beat now... And they're asking for another meeting either tomorrow or the day after and I can NOT do two meetings in a week back to back but I guess I don't have much of a choice 💔

I'll maybe take a nap and try to relax a little before I handle those things because I'm exhausted now

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Being pushed into another episode the moment I got out of my last one because my brother got home and immediately started rushing me about moving out because he doesn't want me to stay anymore

There's literally nothing I can do but wait for my social worker to help me but this man is saying he's gonna have to kick me out if I don't move out in like a month or two at most

Like hey I'm literally doing everything I can so why do you have to threaten to make me homeless instead of, oh I don't know, give some advice that might actually help me ??