omg anon i’m so sorry for seeing this just now but this has got my eye twitching (every jon girl remembers him telling ygritte he’d rip off her dress it’s haunted us long enough…)
fem wife!reader x lord jon snow
you walk in rather casually into the shared space of your living room, jon had some guests over so you made sure to dress properly
the fabric of your gown was a deep blue velvet, adorned with silver embroidery, bell sleeves adorned your arms of a finer material, with a straight skirt, and a heart neckline that displayed your cleavage
when you went to greet the guests you bowed low and deep, they were unfamiliar to you but it didn’t matter, your husband outstretched his hand with wide eyes and small hint of a smile reserved for you alone, pressing a kiss to your hand when it found its place in his
you made polite conversation, all the while feeling jon’s gaze on you every so often, he was stealing rather obvious glances, unbeknownst to you he was counting down the seconds till he could have you all to himself, if you weren’t both under the scrutiny of your guests he would have dug his hands into the flesh of your thighs, letting the material singe his thumbs with how hard he’d grip
NSFW UNDER THE CUT MDNI
it’s not even minutes after the guests leave, maybe a total of ten seconds, all you know is it’s two breaths and a gasp before jon has his hold on you like a wild animal, hoisting you over his shoulder and to the nearest room he can find. he lays you down gently on the furs that line the mattress. you don’t even look down, your eyes are fully trained on him and his ravenous gaze. it makes the slight breeze traveling up your skirt all the more pleasant when you can feel your bare flesh, moisten and clamp down on nothing.
he doesn’t need to hold back any longer, he’s drinking in every inch of you, although he hasn’t even touched you properly you shiver at the way his jaw clenches at your now exposed calves. you hold your breath when he gains on you, predatory and careful like he didn’t want to scare away his little lamb, not that you would dare to run, you were entirely at his will
warm, large hands roughened by the leather of a sword clasp your ankles, tugging you down the length of the bed effectively dragging your skirt up as he planned for, jon’s gaze burns your skin, a flame licking up the trail he leaves and his hands are like fuel, making you writhe under his attention
he tries to wedge himself between your legs finding that your skirt couldn’t accommodate him, a dark look cascading his expression, and you shake your head as he removes a hand and takes a hold of the velvet “jon it’s a new dress.” he spares you an amused glance, tugging it apart and trying to make the fabric stretch, it doesn’t yield as he assumed, but he might as well give it a try for you his pouty wife. you look practically edible splayed out on the bed and he can’t hold back much longer.
“‘aye it is my love and i’ll buy you one in every color, you look beautiful in it.” you try to stop him but you know it would be futile, you hear the rip of the fabric before you can even speak, and then the skirt is pushed off your legs. fortunately it has some semblance of being saved, a tear down one side is manageable, if only you could count on this one being the last. jon swears under his breath at the sight of his wife’s pretty puffy cunt glistening all for him. “the dress never stood a chance.” your legs are hoisted onto his shoulders as he kneels between them, reverent and a ostensibly gentle gaze, drinking you in like he doesn’t plan to ruin you. the warm breath of his exhale fans across your core, pricking the sensitive bud and you shudder beneath him, trying to roll your hips closer to his face, for any semblance
“jon…lord snow please.” your whines snap him out of his trance, his lips pressing to you before he spits onto your cunt, as if it needs more slickness, and dives into you. jon slurps, spits, kisses, bites, and eats like he might never see another drop of liquid again, like he would rather die than be torn from you. you buck and cry his name as his tongue laves over your clit between coercing and drinking straight from your source. you’re about to cum and he can feel it the way you flutter around his tongue so he pulls back, drawing another whine from you. jon seems drunk off your taste as he licks his lips clean and relishes in your scent staining his beard. the sight of him lost in pleasure because of you makes you sit up and pull him up the length of you, urging him to take up the space that pulses for him, the space that feels empty without him. he chuckles at your desperation but assuages you regardless, tearing down the front of your dress, buttons and fabric flying across the room and you can’t find it in you to care, not when jon is latching onto your breast and biting at your nipple, you’re so sensitive you arch into him and try to find some friction by bucking your hips into his. he realizes what you’re doing and pulls off with an obscene pop. his poor wife, flushed and breathing heavy, pouting and writhing beneath him. how could he be so cruel?
your dear husband, finally gave you what he you needed and unbuckled his belt, drawing a sigh of relief from your pretty lips, and you fumbled with his zipper, he brought his hand to your entrance, ready to prep you but you gently slapped his hand away, prying his cock out instead. you didn’t care if it hurt, you needed him so badly and your body screamed for him to fill you up.
jon pressed a kiss to your lips and then your heart before he lifted one of your legs up and onto his shoulder, before pressing into you, you were so tight around him he felt like he had to push into you, a gush of your liquid coating him and his balls, making it easier for him to slip in. when you could feel the heavy tip of his cock brush against your cervix you knew it was in, relaxing and acclimating to his length and girth. jon was shallowly and slowly thrusting in and out to help you, but as soon as you shook your head slightly he knew you were giving him permission, permission to ruin you as he wanted
he pulled all the way out before slamming back into you, knocking against your cervix and jerking you up the bed, your eyes nearly rolled back into your head at the sensation of feeling so empty and then all at once filled so much you swore you could feel him in your lungs, the air was knocked out of you because of it, but your husband, still drunk off of you didn’t give you any time to recover as he continued his bruising pace, fucking you so hard the bed scraped against the floor and you worried the headboard would leave a dent in the wall. he had no such concerns, pulling your hips into his, as if he could reach further into you, when that proved unsuccessful he pulled your other leg over his shoulder and pushed down, down, down until his hips were flushed with yours and driving into the bed, the new angle made him curve against you, his tip hammering against the spot inside you that made you scream his name. in a few more thrusts you were coming around him, spasming and clenching him so much he felt close too and that wouldn’t do. he let you ride out your orgasm, his pace unfaltering but to him that was acquiescing enough. of course when the wood under the mattress snapped he had no choice but to pull you off of the bed, carrying you (speared onto his cock) to the desk nearby. you moaned at the change in position when he stood, pressing into you deeper and the pain of him pushing against your cervix had you near tears.
he put you down on your shaky legs before turning you around, pushing you against the desk and your fuzzy mind caught up to his actions, you gripped the edge of the mahogany in preparation for what was to come. the skirt was once again shoved up your legs and jon pressed into you from behind, a new angle offered new sensations and your clit bumped the wood with his first experimental thrust, earning a groan from you, jon moaned at the new position too, satisfied with how he could dive into you without the fear of breaking you, you weren’t so sure about that though with how deep you could feel him.
the sound of the desk shaking was negligible against the sick squelch of your cunt, you were nearly dripping onto the floor underneath you, you had came again at some point and then again and the orgasms began to blur into one hazy blissed filled sensation, your cunt tingling and spasming around jon
you could feel that he was close, the twitching inside you and the tightening grip on your hips told you enough, finally when you moaned his name, jon always loved to hear it from your lips, did he come inside, rope after rope filling you up and then out when there was no space left, he pulled back and held your skirt up so he could watch your hole pucker and try desperately to keep it all in
your legs crumbled underneath you as his weight left yours, the support you needed now gone and jon cooed at your shaky form, covering you in his discarded robe and carrying you out in your half-torn dress to a different room, one with an unbroken bed. your skin burned at the thought of your staff having to clean it up the next day, but then it wasn’t the first time they’d found such a state and it wouldn’t be the last with how your husband looked down at you, he still looked ravenous. oh you were in for a long night, especially given that your dress was still partially on your body, jon had more plans for the remaining fabric
okay i went a lil crazy (not gonna read the word count im embarassed)
cregan who loves to be soft with you, loves to look in your eyes and hold your hand when you’re fucking. he’ll kiss every inch of your body, tell you what he loves about you, praise you to high heavens even when his pace is making your head hit the wall. he worships you night and day.
cregan who can be mean when he needs to be, usually you’re testing him on purpose or plainly asking for him to be rougher, he’ll always prioritize your safety and make sure you know to stop him if he goes too far
cregan who treats you like royalty after, he knows he’s bigger and stronger than most men, in many ways ;) , but he’ll be at your beck and call after leaving bruises on your skin from how hard he clutched your waist to drive you down onto him when you tried running from his girth, or gripped your thighs as he kept them open till your third orgasm was running down his chin
robb who is almost always fast and rough, he rarely has time to spare so when he does get some time with you alone in his tent he’s making it quick and dirty
robb has you coming undone on his fingers first of course, bending you over the planning table and making sure you’re well prepared and dripping before he takes you. he’s rough and passionate, pulling your hair, maneuvering you to his will and of course you love it
robb who always makes sure you come first, unless you’re under the table sucking him off between meetings that is. even then he’ll try and coax you to give him a taste and prop you up on his desk as he makes you gush onto his tongue while he sits like the king he is between your legs
robb who loves you endlessly and will always listen to your desires, even if he wants nothing more than to fuck you both dumb, he’ll treasure the times he can look into your eyes and get lost in the love there
jon who always wants you, it’s his constant state of being, any sign from you that you need him he’ll jump at and give back tenfold. (the biggest service dom in the world fight with the wall). in the beginning of your relationship he would get hard from a look alone and you had to adjust to his insatiable sex drive.
jon who could eat you out for hours and would much rather drink from you than touch a drop of water ever again. who loves when you tug at his hair when he’s down on you, he’s instantly groaning into you and getting firm. when you’re in pain, when you’re sad, when you’re angry, when you’re just bored, jon will want to distract you. fucking you deep and slow, fast and rough whatever you need
jon who sometimes can’t control himself, especially when he’s nearly lost his life, and he’s fucking into you and breeding you again, and again, and again until his eyes look more black than anything else and you’re crying from overstimulation. he’s lost count of how many times he’s come nevertheless how many times you have and he can’t scratch the itch that he has to have you forever.
cregan, robb, and jon who live and die by “wear whatever you want i can fight”
cregan, robb, and jon are by nature protective and possessive but they never let bleed into controlling you, they only want you to be safe and no one dares to try anything when they’re over your shoulder, intimidating any and everyone possible
cregan, robb, and jon who can smell other people on you, chalk it up to the wolf ancestry, and immediately get irritated that anyone would dare get close to you, they need you to smell like them or just yourself. it’s something primal they don’t even realize until you’re coming back smelling like rancid fruit, nothing like your usual scent or their own. they’re on you in moments, holding you close and rubbing against you like a feral wolf
oh my god i was possessed by a horny demon writing this in one fell swoop
Hello. For the headcanons, is there a possibility to have times when Aemond couldn't control his body in regards to his wife?
⚜️ The first time is on their wedding night. Aemond likes to think that he is superior to most men. Reserved, controlled, educated, refined. Yet when faced with the naked form of his new wife for the first time in his bed he realizes he is no better than the rest of them. His baser instincts take over, and he just hopes it was pleasant for the both of them.
⚜️ Another, more common, time is after training. His heartbeat pumping in his ears. Adrenaline racing through his veins. That hot Targaryen blood running through him and his eye lands on his sweet wife, poised to bring him a cool towel and some comfort from the hot sun. Aemond would seek more than just comfort from her then.
⚜️ After he fights with his brother. It is not nearly as often, but Aegon is still very adept at needling him right where it hurts. Even if they are older now. He cannot strike his king but he can take his frustrations out on his wife. He would never hit her either, but a sharp smack on the rump while he mounts her will suffice. Aemond is always apologetic after this one.
⚜️ When she is pregnant with his child. There is something perverse about it that Aemond is aware of, but also something primal about seeing her great with child. He is drawn to her. Protective. Dutiful. But also incredibly aroused that she is growing their babe inside her and that she carries his legacy in her belly. Luckily at these times his wife is also incredibly eager for their marriage bed so this meets both their needs.
Reader is a khalakki/princess and has mastered herbs and is a healer. One day the tribe gets attacked and she gets away wandering to Clegane keep where she passes out at the entrance, Father Clegane takes her in and once she gets better he was gonna to kick her out but she shows how good she is at healing and he decided to let her stay but as a servant/healer. She gets close with Sandor and after a few years (now 18) they have their first time together when she came to his room to try a healing herb she made and he pins her down saying no then she gets sassy back and then he lets her do it leading to more 😉😉😉 and then they become boyfriend and girlfriend at the end.
IM SORRY IK IT’S A LOT
(Maybe a lil end credit of them going to kings landing together him as soon to be Joffreys sword and her a maester.)
Tags: SMUT, first time, everyone is feral, i am not joking, Sandor is mean, kissing, crushes, mentions of slavery, swearing, young sandor, post rebellion but pre canon, young love, loss of virginity, canon typical everything, no use of Y/N, reader has dark hair
Summary: Reader was the daughter of a great khal, she was once a sacred healer, and is now a mere slave in foreign land. When she attempts to escape her captors to find freedom she finds Clegane Keep in her path, and it soon becomes her only hope of survival.
Warnings: THIS IS NOT BETA READ AND I WAS SLEEP DEPRIVED. I feel like there are probably a thousand misatkes. ALSO ADULT CONTENT AHEAD.
A/N: HELLOOOOOO i am back at last! I made some minor changes and i hope you do not mind!! Also if there are mistakes please forgive me I was genuinely pulling an all nighter with this one. If it makes no sense you know why,,,,, this idea would work so well in a longfic too lol
“Yer ver yomme rhaesheser. Reki izvena” Going to the outside world, that is forbidden.
You repeat it to yourself under your breath, just like you have done since you had been dragged over the poisoned water, the salty sea, to which no horse lowers their lips, to set foot on the wicked ground beyond the black water.
That is no place for a dothraki, you are not meant to leave the great planes. You never were meant to leave Vaes Dothrak, either. You were meant to die in the sacred city, remembered as a khalakki to the great Khal Mirthas, your beloved father, who fell to injury and died when you were but twelve, and your dear mother who died in the walls of Vaes Dothrak of a broken heart.
You were dragged away from your people, your Khalastar, first when your father died, and the sacred city second when the slavers found you.
You had been found outside the walls gathering herbs by masked slave traders, tall men with mean voices who spoke a language full of hissing you recognized as Valyrian. You fought against them when they caught you, yelling for guards to hear you, but all was vain.
You fought with the might of any mare of your khalastar, you fought with your teeth bared. But you were alone, and they were many. They cinched you in ropes and chains as thick as fists and dragged you to the slave markets to be sold, as you had seen your own men do to the women of other tribes after battle. But there was no battle here that called for slaves, just slavers riding in the lone fields looking for victims.
Before they made a fool and a slave of you, you had been part of the sacred khalen.
You had been raised in the dosh khalen and taught how to heal the hurt and nurture the weak and the young the same year your father’s funeral pyre was held, mayhaps it had been mercy, mayhaps you had not been as strong as you thought yourself and you would not have fared well in the Khalestar. You struggle to admit it to yourself, but on some nights you think your father’s death was a blessing.
Vaes Dothrak had been a nest of safety, the most sacred ground for the dothrakis, where you grew and learned without fear of scorn or death. And of course that was taken away from you the moment you stepped out of its walls. It must have been a warning from the gods above.
Dothrakis should never be alone, as no horse is on the great planes of grass. No warrior shall fight only relying on his sword and his might. You were alone when they found you and they hauled you away. Alone, weak and young and perhaps unworthy of the title of Khalakki.
The slavers took you to a slave market, you were moved from hands to hands and appraised as one would a copper pot or a measly clay bowl. They sold you to a fat man from the summer isles that barely spoke any recognizable language but had pockets full of gold. They dragged you to a fearsome ship that trembled above the poisonous water of the salty sea.
They took you to the land of the Kingdoms, Westeros.
Westeros is a lonely world.
The legends were right about the ocean being made of venom. The venom must have seeped into the earth here, and made people dishonorable and evil. Not only are you a slave, bound never to return to your city, but you are looked at with scorn rather than respect. Even at age twelve, your khalastar looked at you as they would a khaleesi, and at age fourteen you were an healer, a promising one, in the bosom of the sacred city. Now fifteen you are no other than a strange creature from beyond the poisoned sea.
“We will stop here, get the Dothraki whore out of there!” The man slaps a palm on the side of the carriage. making it rock crudely.
The sun is shining, slipping through the canvas covering your cart and lighting up the prickly bedding you wrapped yourself in. Your back aches from sleeping on the rough planks of the cart, a splinter digs into the skin of your elbow making it hurt when you bend it. You simply frown, picking at your skin to try to wake up fully. The sounds outside already bother you, five or more voices fighting over each other.
You know their language, at least some of it. You had spent scarcely one year here, travelling with these no good fools and offering remedies to their wounds when asked to. They are entertainers from the free cities.
They disgust you.
They are flabby, and weak. Bald, with no braids to attest to power or well groomed beards to line their jaws. They are not handsome like your late father, Mirthas. You can scarcely remember his face now, but he is among the stars, riding the fire stallions through the night to light the fields for what remains of your khalastar, and perhaps he never thinks of you any longer. It makes you whimper and your throat squeeze.
He was a seasoned fighter, an honorable warrior, with hair so long and dotted in copper bells that would sing in the wind when he rode into camp, holding his weapons high. And your mother was the most beautiful of the women, and you were the most respected of the girls.
You want to cry, despite the early hour. Another slap hits the side of the cart jolting you out of your mood, just to make anger rise in you.
“Get up!” Huffs the head of the circus. You lift yourself up, vertebrae by vertebrae, until you feel like a living thing and not a carcass left to rot in the sun.
“Get up! You need to re-dress the cut on Titus’ leg!” He bellows.
You slip your fingers under the canvas, wiggling your fingers outside the edge of the cart until they turn cold, you feel the sun on your skin.
Sometimes even the sun feels different here than it did beyond the narrow sea.
You have made peace with the sun, even if it is another star all together, you care not, and imagine it is the same that used to guide your path when looking for herbs in Vaes Dothrak. It feels better to think the same sun is warming your people, so far away from you. A tear slips down your face, and you ignore it, letting it roll to your chin.
“Yer ver yomme rhaesheser. Reki izvena. I broke the rules.”
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You ride, the horse below you is quick and angry, you spur him faster, sitting on the Westerosi saddle. You dare not look back, afraid it may slow your riding and allow them to catch up to you.
You have been planning to escape ever since they purchased you. But no chance ever came, not when they distrusted you. No chance ever came, until now.
You do not know the fields of this land, or its paths and forests, it looks nothing like home, nor sounds like it. There are no eagles whistling above you, and the grass grows yellow the more you ride rather than pale green like it was back home.
But you follow the fields as far as they may take you, pushing the horse until he cries for mercy below you. Your eyes narrow, blurry with tears and blinded by anger. You are unsure where you are running to, anywhere far from the prison of the circus cart will do, even if it means being alone again, as you were when they captured you. Even if it means being as a lone horse in a great prairie, waiting on death.
The field of gold is interrupted at the horizon by a strange building. A tower house that looks to be close to toppling over, black on a field of yellow. Your horse slows, head dragging low and rolling side to side. You fist your hands in his mane.
“Go! Keep on riding! Go! Go!” You spur him, but the horse neighs angrily at you, ignoring your kicks to his ribs, or you bounding on his saddle to startle him. He stops, then lowers, bending on fragile knees until he is resting in the grass with a long sigh.
The grass tickles your knees and almost drowns the shape of the horse whole. Your hands fall from the line of his mane.
“Go! I beg you! Go!” You say, but the animal doesn’t move.
When you lift your head night is lifting from the line of the horizon, making the building ahead look even uglier, and spindly like the body of a spider. You truly think it is about to fall, the roof of the tower too heavy to be supported by the misshapen body. With the moon rising its shadow starts growing longer, as if washing ashore like waves of black to reach closer to you. It reminds you of the poisoned sea and you grimace.
The fire horses race in the sky, you look at them in near desperation, they twinkle above, and you beg them to send you strength.
They are silent, even when they continue to ride across the sky, they have nothing to give to an oath breaker and a slave like you. You feel ashamed, thinking of your father riding with the other Khals, and having to peer down at the disgrace that was made of his daughter.
“What do we have here?” Says a voice behind you, when you turn something dull hits the back of your head, and the world goes black.
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“How does a Dothraki get to the Westernlands?” The man sits on a big chair.
While the chair is big and ornate, decorated with the heads of lions, the interiors of the tower house are dim and unlit, bare, and smell wet as if the poisonous sea washed them up before you came in.
“Maybe a slave!” Says the old guard at his side, chewing on rotten teeth. A saggy leather cap keeps slipping over his brow.
“She can be a servant then,” says the man, there is a stiffness to his muscles, despite him being the lord of this poor household, he looks like the building is slowly bearing down on him to end him, he doesn’t command the room, rather he looks hunted, even in his wide stature and the seriousness of his eyes.
You stare at him carefully, sat on the floor where they dropped you to be looked at.
“We need another one, after Gregor–...” He seems to remember something and looks away. “Well, she may be useful. Unless she belongs to someone…”
“She is unmarked-” Says the guard, chewing again on his teeth and shifting.
The man of the house looks at you, then nods. A long banner of yellow and black hangs behind him, you look at the snarling dogs stitched into the fabric. The edges are fraying. He seems to notice you staring at his sigil and his grey eyebrows crease.
“I am Lord Philemon Clegane, head of this house. Do you know the common tongue, child?” he asks you, shifting back until his stiff back is cushioned against the back of his chair. Despite his pose he doesn’t look at ease.
“Yes” You answer dutifully.
“Do you know what a lord is?” He asks, looking at you with that expression you have come to know, like you are some strange sentient animal and not a dothraki worthy of her name. Or perhaps that is just what they see, a dothraki, and that is the very thing they despise so profoundly. As if they hated the blood in your veins and the tissue of your muscles, and the color of your hair, and the language of your people.
“Yes” You answer.
“Do you always say yes?” Asks Lord Clegane, a hint of annoyance where it shouldn’t be any.
You grimace.
“No.”
“She is not a dimwit at least,” He says, straightening again in his chair. He gestures to you again, dismissive. “What is your age, and what do you do?” he says.
“I am ten and five.” You say, you are careful now, you know how easily men dispose of other people’s life. As a slave if you are not useful you are as a dying man to a khalestar: a dead weight.
“I am a healer, I heal well, I was kept by a knife thrower… he died in a fight on a crossroad, I escaped” you lie, at least partially, they do not need to know your owners are searching for you in the woods, that you stole their best horse and run away from them despite them owning you by right.
“She is about Sandor’s age-” Says Lord Clegane, looking older than his years for a moment, he rolls one of his copper rings against his fingers and sits in grievous silence for a long time.
“I have a son who needs healing, will you help?” He asks, his tone suddenly subdued and almost timid. He doesn’t look at you directly but you answer anyway.
“Yes. If he is sick I can heal it.” you promise. Lord cleagen nods, looking away, into the hearth at his side where the fire is kept low and burns a dull yellow.
“Take her to Sandor, see if she can soothe his burns.” Says the lord, gesturing to his guard. The man walks towards you, grabbing your elbow to lift you to your feet. You follow, obedient for now so you may prove yourself a good servant and a good healer and show you have worth to grant protection.
The men of westeros do not keep slaves, they keep servants. If they keep you, you won’t be a slave any more, and if death takes you perhaps you will ride among the stars too, and not be remembered like a slave in a far away country and be followed by scorn in the after life. For a moment death is all you think about, and procuring yourself a safe corner to die in seems more important than life itself.
Your throat tightens when you realize you will be given burial under the name of their seven foreign gods and your body will not be burned like any other respectable dothraki.
“You know, we do not have many maids here, because our young lord Gregor tends to scare them away, he is a knight, a very strong one. The strongest.” Says the old guard while dragging you up the tower that sits at the edge of the house. The steps are slippery and narrow, and a strange fear grips your heart the more you climb up the stairs.
“As for Sandor– Ah, you will see.” The man steps further up until the stairs are interrupted by a platform. A heavy door cuts a dark shape on the wall. The man knocks on it and pushes it open just enough to slip in, forcing his hunched back through the opening without letting the door fall open on its old hinges.
Some words are exchanged inside, then the guard opens the door more fully to allow you to look inside.
You stand there, your hands held at your stomach like you did at the slave market in Pentos. You hate it, but it comes naturally, to present yourself neatly and obidiently.You do not feel like a dothraki at all, whatever it was you clung to of your people must have fallen right from your hands like discarded jewelry. Shame burns in your stomach.
A giant appears from the dark interiors of the room. A monster. Your eyes widen at the mere sight of him and your heart flips in your ribcage.
A tall and wide young man, his face clean shaven if not for a narrow line of hair on the edge of his jaw. But the hairs are abruptly cut off when they reach the right side of his chin. That side of his face is eaten away, covered in a thick matting of terrible scars.
The scarring starts at the edges as thin and grows thicker and deeper the closer to the brow, there it is red and angry, in some spots wet with humors. It eats at his browbone and hides his dark right eye under a mass of knotty skin. The features on his burnt side barely resemble those of a human male any more, what remains are the vague curves of his bone structure supporting the weight of ruined skin.
The other side of his face is far from unremarkable. He looks like a sad animal, with eyes so full of anger he seems, to you, the first true warrior you have put eyes on since you arrived in Westeros.
His hair is long, dark like the room behind him, they reach past his jaw and grow frizzy and tangled. His nose is regular, wide, and his lips are pulled in a serious line that is distorted only where the burns reach it.
You have no braids, yet you suffered the scars of a warrior, you think when he takes a step closer. You turn sharply to the guard, your eyes wide, a strange trepidation replacing the fear.
“I cannot heal this-” You say, pointing to Sandor. “This shall not be healed-” You add.
The skin has melted off the bone, like a limb lost. You have had it drilled into you that certain wounds are to be worn with pride, some stitched so they will leave a visible scar and ward off any doubt that a warrior is what he is. But you are not sure how to put this into common language. To explain to this measly guard that some pains are to be worn and not replaced with clean skin or treated with oils, they are here to stay and that is a fact of life.
You do not expect them to know, these vain pleasure seeking people of Westeros, who preen themselves on honor but practice none.
“It is not the burn you have to fix, stupid wench, but the sting” Says the young man, his mouth twitching, pulling at the scars.
Where the burns run deeper, and are still red as if they have been recently inflicted, they ooze a clear liquid. You nod, conjuring whatever memory of salves for burned skin you can think of.
“You need lemon flowers, no more tallow or animal fat, just– mint leaves, fresh cut grass, and I will need to make a balm with hazelnuts–... berries from the Reach as well.” You say. The guard blinks and hums. The young man looks at you with a sneer that, while mocking, is also somewhat tinted with curiosity.
“Well, if it works I am sure Lord Clegane will keep you around.” says the guard, adjusting his leather cap over his bald head. You swallow and pray. This is your only chance to find any sort of asylum.
“It will work” You promise.
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“You are also quite ugly, are all dothraki women ugly? Or are you just special?” Asks Sandor. You slap him across the face and he barely flinches, if anything his mouth grows wider with a mean grin.
He is mean, very, of course. Sometimes mocking, sometimes full of a fire not fit his age and station. Sometimes he is simply quiet, and so full of a disheartening sort of sorrow that makes you want to avoid him at all costs.
You care not for his teasing. Nothing he says ever truly insults you. It would take much to do so. You were a mighty mare once, at least.
“Sit still, or I'll poke your good eye out-” You hiss, pushing him at a distance from you when he tries to stand imposingly above you.
“Both of my eyes are good, you wench” He mumbles, but still enough for you to dip your fingers in the salve and apply it to his burn. His face, the bad part as well as the good, was dragged against the stone wall of the keep’s corridors during a terrible fight with Gregor when he last came back home. Sandor almost drove a knife through his brother’s stomach, Gregor left the same night.
These things do not happen often, Gregor is very seldom here, he mostly keeps to Casterly Rock where no one attempts to gut him like his younger brother does every chance he has.
Sandor’s lip is split open, and it keeps oozing blood that he spits on the floor, uncaring for manners. He truly is no knight. You could tell him so, but he would be glad to agree.
You go back to healing him.
“I don’t need help with this- I fought in the rebellion, you know that? Have you ever seen how men behave in war here?” He asks, his teeth clench like those of a wolf, and you stare at the curve of his mouth, so very unwelcoming.
“I know war,” You say. Your hands dab at the blood on his chin. Sandor looks down at you, his chest catching measured breaths. For his age he is a monster, but you hold no fear in your heart. Sometimes you think he seems a bit like a man from your home, with long hair, and a body meant to kill. It makes you feel strangely nostalgic, even if so many years have passed and you are not welcome anymore.
“You are sad thinking of it” He says, reading the shimmer behind your pupils with interest. You shake your head.
“I miss…” You shut your mouth.
“You miss seeing dothraki brutes divorce heads from bodies” He says, a mean smile on his lips that is close to being a grimace. You slap him across the face.
“You have no honor.” You say.
“Did your khal?” He cups his cheek, soothing the sting without further complaint.
“Yes.” You answer “My father was honorable-” Your eyes hold the last words, the ones you dare not speak in front of Sandor. Unlike yours.
Sandor grins, looking in pain, not physically however. He laughs.
“You were a princess,” He points out.
He doesn’t usually speak this much, however since you have been tasked with seeing him often, he sometimes drinks in preparation to see you, and his tongue loosens. He says many terrible things, often. This evening, as the golden shimmers of the wheat fields below the window send flickers of yellow to the edge of the windows, and the dogs howl in their kennels, he seems strangely tender.
“We have no such things” You say and go to rinse the rags. His blood stains the water of the basin. At the center of the old pot is painted the snarling face of a dog, its edges ripple under the water until he looks like a thousand different things. A sparrow, a cloud, a full moon, a scythe.
You turn back to Sandor. He stands, unfolding his great height until he fills his tunic completely. You stare at him, unashamed.
“You can be a princess without wearing silk and gold,” he says.
“The khal doesn’t pass his name on like your kings do, whoever is strong leads.” You say. Sandor looks down at you. You look up at him, at the width of his shoulders in his tunic, and the strong square of his jaw under the few hairs he keeps to line it. It makes it even more striking.
“Who says it works differently here?” He says. You swat him away.
“You are so irritating” You scoff, suddenly overcome with annoyance. You do not want him to talk circles around you just to make fun of you. Sometimes the Westeros language confuses you so he wins the game without needing to try.
He chuckles, and the laughter follows you when you gather your tools and slip away from his rooms.
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The clanking of armor as Sandor walks downhill is so loud it rouses you from your sleep. In the few hours you are allowed to yourself you often lay on the northern edge of the hill, where the grass is so tall it hides you completely, and listen to the bubbling of the stream downhill, the one that cinches the edge of the property.
Sandor is descending the hill, fresh from his training, undoing the straps of his vambraces. His gait is sure, it holds power even when it is slowed by the strain of his muscles. At only age eighteen he has the posture of a full grown man. He is leaner than one, however. You get to study him well from the edge of the grass.
Feeling like a beast of prey, you spy his movements when he discards some of his armor and lets it fall to the ground. The wind whips his hair back southbound. You can see the scarring on the side of his face has grown red and irritated with sweat.
Maybe you will be required to heal him tonight. It makes your mouth clench with strange hunger, a feeling balanced between passionate and tender. There is some fear too, that you hardly can tell apart from excitement.
It has been this way for many years, if you were to be honest. Sandor is a frightening boy, but he is the truest man you have known this far. Somehow something in him burns, and sometimes you can trace the shapes of the fire stallion in his eyes. If you were to tell him that you see the fire of a dothraki in him he would laugh at you. But it doesn’t keep you from thinking about it.
You continue to spy his scarred side, then the movement of his hands, tugging on the leather straps, he spits on the ground, angrily wiping his mouth on his sleeve. You lower your eyes on his frame, looking at the rise and fall of his shoulders, the weight of his breath compressing his chest and letting go great huffs of air.
“You ugly thing-” Sandor is looking at you now, spying the dark of your hair atop the golden grass. He sneers and scoffs, turning fully to face you. You do not move, imagining you are a hare and he is a hunting hound pointing right at you. It is not fear that fires up your belly.
“What are you doing? Escaping work?” He asks. You answer not, still staring.
His grimace turns to an ugly smile. If you are ugly, then you are one of the same. It makes the hair at the back of your neck stand.
When he pounces you expect it, you draw back, following the clinking rhythm of his armor when he takes two wide steps in your direction. It is a war drum, and it is the mellow ring of dothraki bells.
He grabs your foot, his thumb where the laces of the leather shoes are tied tight. He looks at you from underneath the damp curtain made of strands of his hair. He slips a finger under the rough leather straps, his pointer against the bone that pokes from the side of your foot. He strokes the arch of your ankle with his thumb, then squeezes tight, edging on pain.
You should shake him off, but you just stare back at him, silent.
He tugs. You yelp. He laughs.
When he is kneeling in the grass with you you turn sharply to slap him but decide not to just at the last moment, aborting the snap of your arm to sit very still below him.
You and Sandor both sit there, breathing the strong smell of soil and sunlight, looking each other in the eyes with no shame nor bashfulness. You feel as if you know his eyes so well, as if you have known them a lifetime, or a thousand more.
His chest heaves with a long breath, he sniffs the air like a wolf.
“I am not evading work.” You say at last. He groans in annoyance and lets go of your calf, allowing you to scoot back and curl on yourself. Your eyes stay on him, guarded, but he turns away to look at the stream downhill to ignore your staring.
In the movement of his head you see the attempt to hide the burn under the drape of hair. Somehow, despite how mean and how irritating he is, despite his violence, despite his size and his rotten words, he still hides the burn as if it offends him more than it does you.
You still do not understand his actions. Men should wear wounds with pride, not with such shame, as if they are a proof of fragility rather than strength.
One of your hands goes to his hair, moving them back without finesse. You swipe your whole palm over his hair, mussing them up until you find the knotting skin behind.
His eye, where the burns almost hide it, flicks to you.
You hold eye contact until he breaks it himself, looking at the horizon instead, up at the sky, where the clouds are growing soft and full.
“What do you want?” He snaps, once the feeling of your hand proves too much for him. You let your palm drop in silent understanding. Your hands go to your lap, and together you sit.
“You miss being a princess, I bet” he says, his eyes flicking to you again, his head turns more, allowing you to see his other handsome eye spying your shape. You do not hide, straightening your back instead.
“I lived in Vaes Dothrak, the holy city. A khalekki cannot stay in the Khalastar after the death of her father” you explain. He frowns.
“Your people are brutes” he comments.
“Are you not one yourself?”
Sandor’s mouth twitches.
“I never said I wasn’t” He says and looks at you, then proceeds to rub his blunt nails on the linen of his pant, picking at it angrily. “You shouldn’t sit with me. Do you know what happens to maids when they get too close to the Clegane boys?”
“Nothing happened to me.” You answer. He chuckles.
“You truly are stupid” He says. You launch yourself at him with a whine of annoyance.
It doesn’t take him much effort to stop your fists from battering on his back. He grabs your right hand with his own and pulls you close, until your body is leaning into his space, your stomach on his knee. You make a long sound in irritation, trying to tug yourself free by pulling at his forearm. You feel his muscles twitch under your hand, he doesn’t let up his grip, and your hand keeps slipping on the fabric of his chemise.
For a moment, a silly moment you wish he would stop being such a gross animal with you, and would instead go back to that strange quiet he showed a moment before, that almost-wistfulness, that reminded you of one of those knights from the illustrated manuscripts Lord Clegane reads in his studio when you clean it.
You tug your hand free at last and turn sharply away, offended at his contrast tugging and mockery.
“Don’t tell me the little khaleesi is angry now” Scoffs Sandor.
You slap him.
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“You have grown” Says Sandor, his mouth is on the lip of a brass cup, drinking his wine in the dark of his room.
“You have hardly been away for a few moons” You point out, grinding the herbs for his salve, the fresh herbs, the anti-inflammatory pollens, the lemon, all reduced to a gummy paste. The stone pestle grinds against the rough curve of the mortar filling the otherwise thoughtful silence.
You are no more grown than you were when Sandor left for Casterly Rock.
“If all goes well… I will leave this shit hole of a house soon” He says, informing you briefly about his travels, he doesn’t add much more but you do not ask. Instead you lift an eyebrow, skeptical.
“What do you want, you witch. I don’t fancy being killed in my sleep by Gregor. Perhaps you do.”
You do not answer him, sitting on the bed next to him to apply the salve to his scars. His hair is tucked behind the stump of his ear, what is left of it, eaten away as it is. You start there, tracing the curve of it with your fingers, spreading the salve over the blisters and the irritation.
Sandor looks at you.
“This is stupid, I am not eight, I need no stupid salve applied,” He says. Despite his bellyaching he is soft under your fingers, he allows you to rub the herbs into his scars until they shimmer green and smell strongly of weeds.
“Hush,” You whisper, and his eyes move to you. The dark interior of the room makes the sharp features of his face deepen, and, despite the shadows cutting such harsh planes over his cheeks, he looks much more fond than usual. His eyes linger on yours, and you allow it, looking back at him while your hands are busy with the healing salve.
Your faces naturally gravitate close to each other. He takes another sip from his goblet, looking at you aslant, his brows so low on his face it makes him look like a much older man. You almost laugh, but abort the sound when he frowns at your smile.
“What’s so funny now?” He asks. You can tell his anger is just performance, and you shrug, only to get him to look at you even deeper. His eyes are dark, dark, dark and lit of a late evening yellow light.
“Nothing” You promise. The conversation between your eyes continues, he says many things, with each twitch of his rough skin, and each movement of his strong jaw under the new beard he started growing in Casterly Rock.
Your eyes answer, and so do your hands, in the tenderness of your touch. You reenact that first time, when you approached him as if he was a wild stallion and had to bear the assessing force of his gaze for long, interminable minutes. But now, in that same room, tending to that same wound, you find a new sort of comfort.
Sandor stays quiet until he finishes his wine and he finds reason to grumble about that.
Another long silence stretches.
You finish your work and wipe your hands on your hemp apron.
“A girl like you should not give certain looks to a dog,” says Sandor. You keep cleaning between your fingers, your body relaxing the motion of rubbing the salve away from the creases of your overworked hands. You offer him no fear, even when he sniffs for it, tries to install it in you, not realizing the tenderness in his eyes is impossible to conceal behind his frowning.
You look back up only once you are done cleaning your hands.
“You know no girl like me.”
Sandor smiles, his mouth is full of fangs, his teeth are crooked and the slit of his mouth is not much better. It is a terrible smile and you like it too much. The pressure between your legs likes it too, the one you dare not name but know very well.
When he pulls at your sleeve you follow his lead, for once giving rather than fighting. His mouth is hot against your neck, and on your bosom, searching for the line of your dress’s neckline. He pulls at it with his teeth, and you dig your finger, hard, into his hair, pulling his face deeper.
You do not worry if someone may come in the room and find you in this position, no one tends to this dog but you.
His mouth drags over your chest, sucks on the swell of your breast where your linen garments push them up. Sandor’s fingers are quick on the lacing of your dress, the one that runs down your spine, behind the shawl you have tied around your shoulders.
It pulls an angry complaint out of you when he bites down on the skin ever so slightly, then licks over the graze of teeth with a smile pasted on his face.
“You are such a brute” You say, fisting your hands in his hair, until your palms are full of them and he groans in response. The sound is cavernous, his mouth widens with it, you spy his tongue and the line of drool that still connects your breast to his lips. You feel disappointment when it breaks and drips down to his beard.
“Are you a virgin?” he asks, finally freeing you of your dress, his movements are growing more powerful and hurried, he seems spurred along by an animal ire. You almost worry he will rip the dress altogether, with those square fists of his that tug at the wool seams and pull your sleeves off your arms.
“Yes, and you are too.” You say, only slightly offended at his questions.
“As if you know,” He groans, he plucks the kerchief away from your chest where you had shoved it for warmth and looks at the peaks of your chest against the tight linen of your undergarments.
“You always had nice tits-” His hands cup them, they are dark and hairy against the light colored material, the linen stretches and is worn thin enough that he can see the dark of your nipple and the round flesh of your breast compressed against the garment, “-just right.” He groans.
There is no humor in his voice anymore, just hunger, and a strange wild rumble that drags after every word.
You pant, pushing your chest against his palms. He squeezes them again, studying them carefully. Just then you are certain of the fact that he never laid with a woman. You do not tease him further, the words fail you and only sounds of need come out your lips.
“You wanted this, that day in the field.” He says, pushing you down on the feather bed to cage you under his body. You shuffle out of the under garments until you are laying beneath him nude, except for your stockings. He pulls them up rather than down, doing nothing to untie the garter keeping them over your knees.
You allow it.
“You wanted me to fuck you.” He says.
“Maybe, maybe I do not know what I want” You say.
“You know now, no…–” His mouth gravitates towards your neck, pulled down by the heat of your skin. You may just be his star, burning fiercely in his sky, demanding all sorts of attention, and just like the sun itself, making everything clear and chasing away the dark and the night. Sandor doesn’t feel afraid of fire this once, and he kisses the hot skin with fervor.
“You always know.” He says. You exhale, filling his palms with your ribs where he is squeezing your sides. You skin is ticklish there, and the feeling of his callouses on the soft length of your waist makes you sing.
“Gods–” Sandor removes his hands from your sides, searching for the space between your legs now, clumsily knocking over the skin and dragging his finger against the flabs of skin until he finds the dip of your hole. The wetness doesn’t disturb you, you hear the sound of his fingers sinking into you and let out a sigh to complete the melody of it.
Like a strange duet he groans above you, pulling sound after sound from between your legs and between your lips.
The world is going to sleep, and through the thin glass of the room’s narrow window you can see the stars start to twinkle outside. The sky expands in your vision, covering everything around you except Sandor and blanketing the room in dark blue draperies. The room disappears in a sea of stars, and the heat of the night is all that remains. Two bodies floating curiously against each other.
“Take me Sandor,” You ask him. You warrior nods, his hair is long and covers his face, when he looks at you he seems ready to charge in battle. All that violence, hidden behind the corded muscle, is all yours. In nineteen years of life you have ever felt this powerful.
As if mounting the strongest of stallions, you guide his rod inside you. He grabs your cheek to kiss you roughly, with a possessive sort of impatience, but he is hiding most of his face from your touches, so you grab him by the shoulders to set the rhythm.
“Ah– Sandor” Despite all your bravado the sensation is new and somehow strange. You like his fingers rubbing over you, and his mouth dragging over your neck and down your chest. You like touching his hairy chest, where his muscles bulge out the skin and his waist tapers towards the thick hair at his groin. Yet the feeling of his rod penetrating you is, by all means, unexpected.
You try to get used to it, the pressure and the pull, the feeling of your flesh allowing him to sink in, and rebelling at the very same time.
Your body curves on itself, looking down at his hips moving, as to make sense of the sensations.
“You won’t find one as big as this– in all of Westeros.” he says, brimming with the confidence of a young man his age, yet carrying the dangerous edge of Sandor Clegane. There is some fragility in his words, his face still hidden in your skin and his hands shaking ever so slightly when he pulls you back on his cock.
“Not even beyond the sea–” He continues. You allow your legs to fall open more and the feeling of being penetrated suddenly becomes more familiar. You let out a tiny sound, a gasp that seems to motivate Sandor to move deeper, and deeper, until you feel the head of his cock drag close to your stomach.
“By the gods, girl” He says. You swallow, bracing yourself on your elbow and letting one of your legs hang off the feather bed and bob above the cold flagstone floors.
“More– More- S-Sandor!” You call out. Sandor braces against the wall above your head and drives his hips deeper, rocking the wooden frame and making the feet of the bed squeak against the floor.
A drop of sweat forms and falls between your breasts, highlighting the space between them. Sandor licks it up.
“Go– Go faster” You ask him, out of curiosity more than anything. He makes a face.
“Girl, I have no intention to break you on my cock.”
“Didn’t you already?” You ask, you feel as if something has been broken, a tension, or the great wall of a dam, and everything is pouring forth now. It is so very sweet to drown in it, and allow it to take over.
“Oh shush,” He grumbles. You are not sure if he understood you, or if you understood him, but you go back to looking below you at the point where you are connected. You stare at it, like some game, until his hips start to tremble and his hands become rough and mean on your skin.
Sandor bends at the waist, hunching over himself and shaking hard against you. His hips twitch, three times, then his back unfolds again. The curve that his body draws from his navel up to his Adam apple amazes you. His shirt is slick with sweat, and sticking to his body, ruffled and wrinkled and open down to the middle of his hair chest. And his pants are lowered allowing you to follow the arch down to the powerful strain of his legs.
You lick your lips when he groans and cries out while coming.
He pants, grabbing the sheets and heaving long breaths. His rod softens inside you, you find the feeling strange, and almost funny. You feel the last twitches of life in it before he goes back to being a mere and uninteresting appendage.
You smile at Sandor, and his eyes smile back at you, even when his mouth is busy drawing in hungry breaths. He sucks all the life in the room into his lungs, and puffs out heat that clings to the sheets.
You can get used to this.
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All of Sandor’s life is on the back of a horse. Gregor killed father, and inherited the keep the same day, raising suspicion but little to no action to investigate into the strange death of Lord Clegane.
Sandor came in the night, to take his things and leave, move away and under the Lannister’s roof in King’s Landing. His armor, his two changes of clothes, his weapons, his few silver stags and his saddle pouches. And you.
“I am to be the only member of your following, you may as well introduce me as your whore” You say. Sandor scoffs. The edges of the Capital come into view, and with it the dreadful stench of life. Shit, manure, sweat and death. You draw your veil over your nose and mouth, squinting at the walls in the distance.
“If it bothers you I will marry you.” He says. “No one will care.” He adds, almost defensive. You say nothing to that, smiling under the edge of your scarf. What a terribly unromantic thing, you think, yet it makes your heart throb with affection. There is no other way for a man such as Sandor to ask for your hand.
“Who says I want to marry someone like you,” You say, because that is what is to be expected of you.
“You couldn’t do better,” he says. The self deprecation is there, but you muffle it by hanging tightly to his torso. Your eyes look at the bay where you can almost make it out, the shimmer of blue of the sea.
You miss home, in a way. Yet now you know another kind of home as well, one far from the great planes and prairies, but not without love. The same stars will shimmer over you tonight, your father will look down from atop his fire stallion, you mother atop her mare, and you will look up at them from your bed next to Sandor.
And in the morning the sun will kiss your forehead and that of many dothrakis beyond the sea. And you will kiss your man under that same sun, and rejoice in the feeling of a warrior alive under your lips.
“If you say so, my lord.” You say. The teasing earns you a disgruntled murmur and a tiny shove. Sandor’s new horse, Stranger is his name, shakes his head in discontent, chasing off the mosquitoes flying in from the bay.
So starts your new life, again, this time as a free woman, and soon as a wife.
(For the sake of the story let's pretend that angels are a thing in Westeros)
Summary: Daeron refuses to meet his potential betrothed in order to search for the woman of his dreams. What will happen when he discovers they are the same woman and that he is about to lose her to Aerion?
Contains: Some angst, drunk Daeron, Fluff, Daeron is completely in love with Y/n.
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Another day, another chance to make a fool of himself.
Daeron Targaryen lay in a puddle in the streets of King's Landing, a wineskin in his hand and his face smeared with mud. In his drunken state, he couldn't stand without losing his balance or utter two words without being overcome by the urge to vomit his stomach's contents. Still, it was better than reliving the horrible nightmares that haunted him every night.
He was doomed from birth. Daeron always knew his life was destined for suffering. All because of his curse.
There was a time, however, when, like an innocent fool, he believed the gods had taken pity on him and sent him a blessing that would break his cruel fate.
His angel, so beautiful and kind. On the few nights she appeared in his dreams, Daeron was able to sleep with a smile on his face. He eagerly awaited the nights to see her once more when he closed his eyes, to be enveloped in her arms as she whispered her love for him.
For the first time in his life, he wished his dreams would come true, but fate was so cruel to Daeron that he never found her, and little by little, the dreams of his angel faded away.
"Sir, are you alright?"
A melodious voice caught Daeron's attention. He struggled to lift his face from the ground and focus his gaze on the crouching figure before him.
Everything was blurry, and his surroundings spun, yet he recognized her: his angel, as perfect as the first time he dreamed of her.
"I..." Daeron couldn't form words; his tongue was numb from the alcohol.
"Oh, you poor soul." Even when he was covered in mud and his own vomit, she treated him with compassion. "Let me help you. Can you even breathe?"
Daeron fixed his blue eyes on her face, his mouth agape like a fool. He cursed the gods for sending her to him when he was at his lowest point; he wasn't even capable of appreciating the details of her beauty, much less asking her name.
"May I?" she asked, bringing a handkerchief to Daeron's face.
He didn't understand what she was asking, yet he nodded with what little strength he had left.
His angel gently wiped his face. He followed the movement of her hand, wanting to feel every part of her warm touch.
"Plea..." Daeron raised his hand. He didn't know what he was trying to tell her; he only knew that he needed her to stay by his side.
She looked at him with compassion.
"Can you stand, Sir?" his angel asked. "Will you tell me your name?"
Daeron tried. Never in his life had he tried so hard to achieve anything, and yet he failed miserably. All the wine he had drunk began to weigh heavily on his mind.
"Sir? Can you hear me?"
No, no. Not now.
His vision faded. No matter how hard he fought to stay conscious, Daeron collapsed into his angel's arms.
Daeron woke up in an inn with a splitting headache, and his guardian angel was nowhere to be seen. The innkeepers told him the girl seemed to be in a hurry, so she made sure he was alright before paying for his stay and rushing out.
"You should be ashamed of yourself," the old woman said, mistaking him for a commoner. "The poor girl used all her money to help you. Judging by the clothes she was wearing, I can tell she needed those coins."
"Why did you accept the money, then?" Daeron was in a foul mood, and his hangover was killing him. "Did she tell you her name?"
"She left the coins on the table, and I didn't notice until she left," the woman defended herself. "Why would you want her name?"
So I can find her and spend the rest of my life by her side.
"How am I supposed to pay her back if I don't know who she is?" He grabbed the wall of the room to keep from falling. He shouldn't have drunk that much.
"She didn't tell me her name, but she left this handkerchief. It looks like it has an embroidered emblem. Maybe she works for a noble house."
Daeron looked at the handkerchief on the bedside table. It had a hummingbird atop a rose embroidered on it. He didn't know the emblem; perhaps it was a lesser house.
He picked up the handkerchief and carefully put it in his pocket. "Next time, ask for the fucking name."
Suddenly, Daeron Targaryen was a man on a mission: first, he had to get sober, and then he needed to find his angel.
He barely made it through the first few corridors of the Red Keep before being intercepted by his father.
"Where were you all night? You made me look like an idiot, again." Maekar grabbed his son's arm, forcing him to stop. "I asked you for one thing. You were supposed to stay sober for one night and put on your best smile in front of the L/N, and you didn't even come to dinner. Your engagement to Y/N is hanging by a thread."
"I don't give a damn about engagement." Daeron yanked his arm and broke free from his father's grip. "I'm not getting married."
He wasn't going to accept any woman other than his angel. She was the only one for him.
"Are you drunk again? We need the L/N's resources." Maekar lost his patience. "You'd better get yourself together and come to lunch, or Aerion will take your place."
Daeron chuckled. "You'd be doing me a favor."
Aerion could marry that Y/n girl. It wasn't that Daeron had anything against her—he didn't even know her—but he knew she would never be as beautiful and sweet as his angel.
"I'm doing you a favor by arranging a marriage for you with the best contender you'll ever have. Who would want to marry you?"
His angel. She would accept being his wife, even though she deserved someone much better.
Daeron didn't have time to lose; he had to find her before she left King's Landing.
×××
A week passed, and Daeron lost hope. He spent every day searching for the emblem in the library and asking around the streets if anyone had seen his angel, but he found no answers.
He lived in his own world while rumors grew in the Red Keep that Lord L/N's daughter would soon seal her betrothal to Aerion.
"This is your last chance." Maekar intercepted Daeron in the gardens. "I can't keep making excuses for you."
"I didn't ask you to." Daeron clutched his angel's handkerchief in his hand. It was the only proof he had of her existence. "Why do you care that it's me? Aerion is a better option than a drunk."
"Aerion is impulsive, to say the least." Maekar sighed and glanced sideways at his son. "I haven't seen you drink in days. Maybe you're not the drunk you think you are after all."
His father was wrong. Deep down, he was a drunkard. Only the angel of his dreams could cure him, and if he didn't find her, he would once again wallow in the filthy streets, teetering on the brink of unconsciousness.
"Do you recognize this emblem?" Daeron showed the handkerchief to Maekar; his father was his last hope. If he didn't recognize it, no one would.
"No. Where did you get it?"
"It doesn't matter." Daeron choked back tears and put it back in his pocket. "You should go. I thought you had an engagement to arrange for Aerion."
Maekar walked away without another word, leaving Daeron to his suffering.
Why were the gods so cruel to him? Giving him a glimpse of his angel only to take her away was the worst thing they could have done. Perhaps they were laughing at Daeron, at how miserable and weak he was.
Then why did they send him such beautiful dreams if he couldn't have them?
"If she is my destiny, please help me find her," Daeron pleaded, gazing at the sky.
A beam of light blinded him before moving past him. Daeron followed it with his eyes, intrigued by the perfect timing.
It was then that he saw it: a servant carrying a laundry basket from which hung a sleeve bearing the same emblem as the handkerchief.
"Wait!" Daeron ran after the servant.
"My prince." The lady bowed. "How may I assist you?"
"This emblem, to which house does it belong?" Daeron held out the handkerchief with his trembling hand.
"A house? Oh, no. It's just something Lady L/N likes to embroider on her clothes."
Daeron froze.
His heart leaped; his angel, he had finally found her. Lady Y/n L/n, the girl he loved, the love of his life.
The lady who was about to get engaged to his brother.
×××
Daeron didn't stop to consider how inappropriate his actions were. He rushed desperately to Lady L/n's chambers and opened the door without even knocking.
"My lady, I beg you, don't marry him." The little dignity he had left vanished as he threw himself to the floor and hugged Y/n's feet as if his life depended on it.
"Leave us alone," Y/n said calmly.
Daeron raised his head, the admiration and love he felt for his angel overcoming his embarrassment at being seen by the servants. After all, it wasn't as if witnessing the drunken prince making a fool of himself was anything new to them.
"You." Recognition flashed across Y/n's face. "You're the man I found in the street. What are you doing here? Get up; the cold floor can't be comfortable."
"My lady, I am so sorry you had to see me in such a deplorable state." Daeron stood up, his legs trembling uncontrollably. He felt like a filthy animal in the presence of a gracious goddess. "I am truly grateful for your kindness; no one has ever stopped to help me."
Standing tall, in the formal attire he had worn all week to impress his angel should they meet, Daeron looked like the prince he was.
"My prince, I'm so sorry, I didn't recognize you before." Y/n bowed her head, noticing the brooch bearing the Targaryen sigil.
"No. Not you, my angel." Daeron tentatively reached Y/n's chin and lifted her face. "I'm the one who should apologize for disrespecting you and your family. I know it doesn't erase my wrongdoing, but if it's any consolation, I was busy searching for you to return this."
He released Y/n, took the handkerchief from his pocket, and offered it to her.
"An unfortunate misunderstanding, I see." She smiled and took the handkerchief, her hand brushing against his more than necessary. "I thought you were just a drunken man."
"And I thought you were a servant of a noble house."
"I wanted to see King's Landing, but my father insisted it was too dangerous," Y/n explained. "I never meant to deceive you, my prince."
"I imagine it was never your intention to find Prince Daeron the Drunken, living up to his name." Daeron looked down at his hands, embarrassed. "A truly memorable first encounter with your potential betrothed."
"As memorable as a lady pretending to be a commoner after escaping the castle."
Daeron smiled for the first time in a long time. They had barely exchanged words, and she had already warmed his heart.
"I've made many mistakes. I'm used to spending all hours of the day drunk, and I'm ashamed to admit that I know every whorehouse in King's Landing. I'm a terrible candidate, I know, but I'm willing to do anything to make you accept me." Daeron knelt and took her hands. "Please, I beg you, give me one last chance. I can't bear the thought of you becoming my brother's wife. Be my betrothed, that's all I ask. If after a month you want to break off the engagement, I'll let you go."
"I'm not the only one you need to convince." Y/N squeezed his hands. "But you have my yes."
"Really? You mean it?" Daeron brought Y/N's hand to his lips and kissed her knuckles. "Even if I’m the most pathetic prince that ever lived?"
Cregan Stark was known around Winterfell for never resting. He never sat down, never relaxed, never quit his work, and seemingly never took a deep breath.
When you and your family showed, that's when the staff of the castle knew you were important.
A two week trip your father brought you along for. He'd spoke about the importance of good impressions and keeping up good relations with the northerners. You had been day dreaming but conscious enough to nod along with his words like a good daughter.
Today— eight days into your stay in Winterfell— the two of you are sitting inside, playing a game of cyvasse. Cregan had taught you on the second day. By the sixth, you were a natural.
If only your opponent wasn't seasoned from the war he'd just won at age 23.
"'S a good move," his head tilts. "If I hadn't already planned for it." He moves a piece, easily blocking everything you had set up for.
You scoff slightly, slumping in your seat in thought.
While you glare at the board in hopes it will give you answers, Cregan's eyes are on you. He looks over your shoulders, your neckline, your lips, that crease between your brows. He thinks you're beautiful.
"Gold and silver are uncommon up here, but what do you think of beads carved of weir wood branches?"
The line between your brows only deepen as you move your attention to the Northman. "What?"
He shrugged. "Was only a thought. Would that suffice?"
"I… yes. I saw a woman with stitching on her cloak and white beads. Would that be those?" At his eager nod, you continue. "It was beautiful. I thought of it the rest of the journey. Any woman would be lucky to have such a thing."
You accepted defeat this time and the two of you moved to separate for the rest of the day.
He took your hand in his own large one. He bent down and pressed the back of your hand to his forehead. You told yourself it was more polite than a kiss would be.
You would be wrong.
But you gave him a nod. "Good day, Lord Stark. I shall see you at supper."
His eyes twinkled. "I eagerly await it, my lady."
When you left, you missed the way his eyes followed you until you were blocked from his sight.
Gods, he was utterly smitten.
…
After supper, your father had insisted you go to your chambers early. It was a bit unlike him, but the two men were going to Cregan's solar to discuss business. Perhaps he just wanted to know you were safe in bed.
You sit in the guest room Cregan had prepared for you. It's very nice— much better than yours at home. The hearth burns brightly. And for such a cold place, you were warm. It was pleasant.
You'd brought all of your thread and cloth for stitching, much to the chagrin of your father. He didn't approve of your habit of daydreaming and this was your next best option.
Cregan had noticed by the second day. On the fifth day, you had new colors of threads you could only find in the North.
He was so kind to notice such little things.
You'd been working on a Stark direwolf sigil. You'd started it the day you got here— half stitched on a handkerchief. The sigil was everywhere so it was easy to imagine.
You're working with this deep gray. A Stark gray thread you hadn't seen until it was left in your chambers by Lord Stark. The direwolf was coming along nicely.
Your handmaiden entered in a rush with a broad smile. "My lady, I have just heard the most wonderful news."
You set your stitching aside and stand as she chatters and rushes around the room to ready you for bed. Your mind is still on finishing that direwolf stitching.
"I did not mean to eavesdrop, but I will not say that I regret it," she quipped as she spread out a nightgown. "Oh, I rushed here immediately when I heard of it. It will be so wonderful, truly—"
You tried to listen. You wanted to. Your handmaiden was a kind girl, albeit one that loved to gossip. But your mind was too far gone.
She helped you dress to your night clothes, continuing her chatter. "I would not have considered you as a woman that could like the cold, but there are ways to keep warm here," she flushes. "Especially with someone like that." She pauses and grabs your arm. "What color shall your dress be?"
You blink, finally hearing the words. "My dress? For what?"
She scoffs like you're messing with her. "For the wedding, of course."
A wedding? Father has not mentioned a wedding. Your younger brother was growing in age— perhaps there was a worthy match for him and there would soon be a wedding. But that felt so odd for your handmaiden to mention now. So surely not that.
Your mother had passed years ago, but your father was not adamant on marrying again. So not that either.
"What do you believe Lord Stark shall wear?" She asks. "Do you think he owns different fur cloaks for special occasions?"
Ah. Lord Stark's wedding. That would make more sense.
You did not know he was courting anyone. But then again, you often did not pay attention to little details. And he wasn't one to talk in great detail. Maybe it was rude that you never asked.
"And his bride shall be beautiful!" The handmaiden almost squeals, tugging you this way and that in excitement. "You do not seem joyful at this. What is the matter?"
"No, I… I do love weddings," you defend. And that was true. You loved to daydream during the ceremonies.
"That's the spirit!" She claps. "We'll discuss all of it in the morning. But try to get some sleep tonight— if you can. I know how excited you must be."
She finishes up, wrapping you in your robe before retreating to the door. "To marry the Lord Stark? What a dream."
It shuts behind her, leaving you standing in the middle of your room in confusion.
…
You sleep as well as ever, for you still did not understand her words. She wakes you in the morning just as excited. "He wants to break fast with you," she smiles.
You rub your eyes and brush your hair from your face. "Father?"
"No! The Lord Stark! Hurry, though. I've heard from the Winterfell servants that he's been up for hours. He's most likely starving."
You reluctantly get out of your warm bed. You usually took lunch or supper with Cregan. Breaking fast was unusual.
You leave your room with one of your nicer dresses on (you didn't question why that one was chosen), and your hair nicely done. Your eyes were still puffy from sleep, but that would fade as you walked.
A servant escorted you through the vast halls of the castle until he stopped before a large door. "Lord Stark's solar, my lady. Shall I announce your presence?"
You were friends enough with Cregan that you surely did not need that. So you dismissed him and opened the door yourself.
Broad shoulders blocked the light coming from the only window. He looked out in clear thought. His head barely turned as he heard the door open. "Has she accepted?" He asks softly.
"Lord Stark?"
He turns now, eyes wide. His light lips part in surprise. "My lady, I did not know it was you. Forgive me."
You shrug. "'Tis alright. I understand how full your mind must be with things as of now."
He nods along. "Yes, yes, of course. But, please." He gestures down to the small table set up just beyond his desk. Two chairs and light foods to start their day.
Cregan was nervous today. In the last nine days, you had not seem him like this. The wedding business must really be affecting him. His hands shook lightly. His eyes glanced at you then away. He would open his mouth to speak, then retreat.
You were good friends with him, surely. Perhaps he would speak to you of his problems if you asked.
You pop a grape into your mouth. "You do not seem excited."
His brows pull up. "I assure you, my lady, I… I am."
You don't believe him. "Then why do your hands shake?"
He looks defensive. But when he glances down and sees that you were right, he doesn't fight it. "I am… I speak poorly," he settles on. "For important matters."
"You are a northman. They are mostly men of action, are they not?"
"They are." His tension eases slightly when he sees you understand. "We are not the best at poetic words, but we make up for it. I hope."
You nod, continuing to lazily eat your breakfast.
He's a bit better now, though his own food sits untouched. But he can at least look at you now without growing nervous.
"Is she pretty?" You ask.
"Whom?"
"Your bride," you smile teasingly. "She must be beautiful if you are this nervous."
He blinks. You're teasing him? Over this? Something greatly eases over him. You look so natural, so easy going. Why would he be so nervous then? He meets your eye strongly now. "She is the most beautiful woman in the Realm," he assures.
You hum, continuing to eat. Cregan's a handsome man. His bride is supposedly pretty. That would make for a good daydream to imagine later. You store it in the back of your mind.
The rest of breakfast goes quietly. Cregan does not have much to say after that, and you don't want to make him any more nervous.
But this bride must be lucky to get a man so worried to please her.
He invites you for a walk outside which you accept. You weren't all knowing in affairs of the heart, but perhaps he wanted to ask your opinion on things. You were a woman after all. And though you adored Cregan, he knew nothing of the gentler sex.
The winter was over in the North, but every season was a various kind of cold. At least in this one, you did not need to hide from snow.
"Is this spring?" You ask him as your feet crunch on dead grass.
"Almost. This should be the last week of winter before there is life in the plants again. Do you have a favorite flower, my lady?"
You shake your head.
"A favorite color then?"
You shake your head again.
He sighs softly, getting nowhere. "Is there…" He pauses. "Is there anything you want at the wedding? I know girls dream of this since they were young."
Asking your advice? That you could supply. "Well, if your bride isn't of the North, you could pick specifically northern things to help her see how well living here could be. Northern plants or such?"
He stashes that for later. "And there is truly nothing you've always wanted at your wedding?"
"At mine?" You ask. "Well, I have imagined it many times."
"Yes?" He hangs on.
"It's outside. My family is there. My husband is handsome and his cloak weighs heavy on me. He's tall… and kind." You look over at him. "Maybe as tall as you. That could be nice."
He flushes. "Right. But… the wedding details."
"Mm." You close your eyes. "Blue. I've always imagined something blue."
"Blue," he breathes. "I can do that. And… your gown. What does it look like? Is it a northern fabric, or…?"
"In my dreams, it is usually just a dress I already own," you smile. "But if I close my eyes now… perhaps a silver gray. With lots of colorful embroidery details that I do myself."
"That sounds beautiful. I'll have the fabric found soon so you may start."
You frown, opening your eyes. "Am I making your bride a dress?"
His head tilts as he tries to understand your teasing behavior. "You are. It is in your dreams, is it not?"
It seems a bit rude that he didn't even ask if you would do that for him. But no matter.
"I understand your beliefs in the new gods, but a northern wedding is to be before the old. We could have a second ceremony for your faith. If it pleases you."
"Why would what I think matter?"
He squints as if you just disgusted him. "What kind of man would I be if I did not indulge my own bride in her thoughts?"
You pause. "Your bride?"
"Yes. Yes, my bride." He sets his large hands upon your shoulders respectfully, yet firm. "I care for you greatly. Anything you want, I would give to you. We could have seven outlandish ceremonies for each of your gods if it made you smile. Why do you think I do not care?"
My bride, it rings in your head. Cregan Stark's bride. You are marrying Cregan Stark?
"Are… are we courting?" You stutter.
His hands fall as if you burned him. "My lady. Please stop jesting. Forgive me, but I do not understand your quips."
"I am not. I… You are courting me?"
His lips pull in a tight line. "I have been. For a while now. Why did you believe your family came to Winterfell? And that I spent time with you?"
You wring your hands together. "Father said we had to keep good relations with the North."
"What did he say exactly? The words he used?"
"He said to pack nice dresses to make a good first impression. That the North needed to like me. There was this odd thing…"
Cregan's eyes stayed firmly on you, watching the way the cloudy sky still made your features light up beautifully.
"Well, after I met you, the day you taught me cyvasse, he was very happy. After dinner, he couldn't stop smiling."
"I told him I liked you," he explained. "That I… I wanted to court you."
"You've been courting me since then?"
He smiles lightly. "I would have courted you years ago if I'd known you."
"I still don't understand. Yesterday, my handmaiden came in and said she overheard you speaking of your wedding to another woman."
"Last night?" At your nod, he rushes to explain. "I told your father my intentions to marry you. That today, I would…" he stops himself short. "We were discussing matters of your dowry and how I could ensure your happiness here."
"My dowry?" You frown. "Lord Stark, forgive me, but my family is quite poor. We do not have money for a dowry, not really."
"I know," he eases. "Do not worry about the details. It has been taken care of. I suppose I did all of it but the most important part."
"And what would that part be?"
Cregan Stark, the Warden of the North, lowers himself before you. He kneels down on one knee, tall and proud, stiff as a true northerner. He takes your hand in both of his.
"I am poor with my words. But I know what I think and what I feel. And I… I believe you would make a well off Lady Stark. The North would prosper with your soft hand to compliment my harsh one." He stops himself, forcing him to think— for once— of what he wants, and not the North. "I have fallen in love with you, my lady. Very much. Winterfell warmed when you stepped into it, and I refuse to let it grow cold again. Say you will stay. That you want me. I am trying to speak clearly now, for I've done it so poorly thus far. Our wedding will not have to be for some time, so I may properly court you with your knowledge. But say you will let me. Please."
His hands are callused, rough against yours. But warm. Safe. The same man that noticed your love for embroidery. The same man that taught you cyvasse. The same man that loves you. The same man who is currently looking at you like you are the sunshine the North lacks.
"I always wanted a handsome husband," you admit sheepishly.
His face falls a bit. "Is that… would…"
"You are very handsome, Lord Stark."
For a moment, he looks as if he doesn't believe you. But then he smiles. "You accept then?"
"I do."
He kisses your hand once, twice, then stands in excitement. Northern excitement looks different. He doesn't spin you around, or yell his love from the rooftops. Instead, his shoulders broaden proudly and he offers you his arm.
That gray fabric you imagined lays on your bed by the end of the day. Next to it, weir wood beads and multicolored threads to decorate it.
Your family suddenly became wealthier. You believed that it was because there was one less daughter to care for. But the servants' whispers told you that Cregan had denied a dowry and instead paid your father to ensure your family stayed comfortable. He didn't want you to worry for them.
A month passes, and spring was in full bloom— at least, what spring was in the north.
You had just beat Cregan had cyvasse finally. His eyes twinkled with amusement, a smile trying to be held back as well.
That's what you knew.
"When is our wedding?"
"When you are ready," he answers without missing a beat.
"I am." You stretched and stand. "I am ready to marry you." You kiss his cheek and walk off.
He sits in that chair for the next two hours, silent and blushing a profuse pink.
Content: smut, p in v, fingering, squirting, alcohol consumption, hookup culture lol
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There is nothing better than being fucked completely senseless.
Arguably the best remedy for a chronically overactive mind.
After five straight days of managing passive-aggressive emails and smiling through situations that tested the absolute limits of human sanity, you decided the only cure for this impending mental breakdown was a stiff drink and zero inhibitions on this lovely weekend.
Two shots of whatever was closest, and the company of a man who looked just as desperately in need of a distraction as you, if not more so.
Beautiful was what you initially pegged him as, eyes sweeping along the striking lines of an exhausted face and the stubborn swoop of hair spilling carelessly over his brow. Then you decided he was just prematurely aged. The silver threads catching at his temples and the aggressive shadow of a stubble made him look worn down by a decade of exceptionally bad sleep and even worse stress.
He looked like a man who could fuck good. Looked like he approached sex the exact same way he approached the rest of his miserable life, with unrelenting stamina and a terrifyingly methodical focus designed to dismantle whatever stood before him.
He also looked like an easy target, staring into the amber depths of his glass with a level of sad depression that practically radiated off his shoulders. All it took was you stepping directly into his line of sight, ordering another shot with a dramatic sigh, and offering him a painfully cynical comment about the state of the world (while deliberately showing off your cleavage).
The guarded set of his jaw twitched into the faintest ghost of a smirk.
You offered your name, he offered his (Leon—was it short for Leonard? Leonel?), and he leaned in when you laughed at his terrible attempt at a joke. A genuine chortled laugh because you hadn't expected a dad joke from a man who looked as brooding as he did.
You licked your lips, he followed your tongue.
Hook, line, sinker.
Which explains how you now find yourself trapped in a mating press on a mattress that probably costs more per night than your rent. A dingy, cheap motel would have been your practical choice, but you had noted the expensive gleam of the watch on his wrist within five minutes of sitting next to him. Freaking Hamilton that looked distinctly like a limited edition, judging by the brushed steel and intricate dial.
Frankly, you shouldn't be surprised he carried that much net worth. He’s handsome, weathered beautifully into his age (Late forties? Early fifties?), and clearly paid an exorbitant amount of money to survive whatever horrors are actively ruining his mental health.
What does surprise you is how you’ve underestimated the scope of his physical abilities.
Over the past blurry hour, this complete stranger has effortlessly folded you into positions that defy your understanding of your own flexibility. Knees pressed so securely beside your own ears you start to believe the fee you pay for your weekly reformer pilates class might be a scam.
Apparently what you needed to achieve this level of advanced mobility was the unrelenting dead weight of a very, very capable man. So fucking capable that you’ve genuinely lost count of how many times he’s wrung you out on these expensive sheets.
Four orgasms? Maybe five? Whatever the number is, another one is dangerously crawling up the base of your spine.
Your sanity might be beyond saving at this point. You’re sweating profusely, and the backs of your thighs are screaming in dull protest from being pinned back for god knows how long. Leon pulls out and snaps his hips again with a jarring impact that seems to grow more ruthlessly aggressive with every single grind.
He does it again and again and again until you’re basically screaming from the unavoidable crash of yet another orgasm, toes curling frantically in the suspended air while your nails bite into the heavy muscle of his arms.
This man is something else, obviously nothing akin to the standard parade of disappointing men who talked big but possessed absolutely zero game. They were a flimsy attempt to scratch the very surface of your boredom. Leon, by comparison, is clawing straight down to the bone.
There’s a slowness in his thrusts now, and you blink to find an actual smile breaking through the sweat and exhaustion on his face. The warm puff of a chuckle against your cheek tells you he isn't simply amused. He’s actually entertained.
You huff, making a valiant but entirely useless attempt to mock him, "Stop laughing."
The sweat beading along his heavy brow does absolutely nothing to detract from how devastatingly smug he looks right now. “You’re shaking so much. It’s cute.”
So much for playing the femme fatale act at the bar. He swipes a thumb across your blotchy cheek, courtesy of his rough afternoon shadow.
“You okay?”
You sigh out a harsh breath, blowing a damp strand of hair out of your eyes. “Have you," you manage to wheeze, "even cum yet?”
He shakes his head, blue eyes glinting with unapologetic amusement.
"Are you ever going to?"
His low laughter rumbles warmly in your ears. “Why, you want me to stop already?" he presses a kiss against your jaw. "Thought you were having a good time."
“I’m having a great time.”
“Then what’s with the rush?”
“Maybe we should take a break,” you whine, gasping sharply when the weight of his pelvis rocks aggressively against your lower belly. “I-I need to pee.”
He seems unfazed. Moves like you didn't utter a word to begin with. Instead, what he does is press you even further into the mattress. “Is that right?”
“Fuck—Leon—” You arch your back as he maliciously tilts his hips. “You’re not helping.”
“I actually am,” he argues.
“What—”
“Let's test a theory," he drawls, hot breath ghosting over your pulse. "Do you really think you just need to pee, or are you about to squirt?”
You go completely still for a moment. Considering your track record of thoroughly uninspired hookups and non-lasting relationships, there is absolutely no palpable evidence to suggest you are capable of doing what he’s asking.
“I’m pretty sure I need to pee,” you reason quietly. “I’m not a squirter.”
He pulls back enough to meet your eyes. “You’re telling me you’ve never done that before?”
“I have no prior experience to suggest it's even an option.”
He looks genuinely offended by your answer. “Do you want to try?”
Your head falls back to fully take him in. He really is pretty. Never mind the faint, tired wrinkles bracketing his pale blue eyes, or the harsh features of a man who has clearly seen too much and slept too little. He’s simply too devastatingly gorgeous for his own good.
Even with the fragments of scars you’ve spent the last hour subconsciously counting on his neck, his shoulder, his chest. Scars that make you wonder what kind of terrifying life he leads when he isn't in a hotel room with a stranger, fucking their brains out.
And you’re very much aware you’re one of the few he’s taken to bed.
But is he always this attentive? This generous?
Does he fuck everyone else this hard yet still find the gentle grace to cradle their face and brush the hair out of their eyes?
You instantly hate how territorial you sound. It's wildly hypocritical for someone who values the cheap thrill of a purely physical transaction just as much as he clearly does. He’s just a good lover, you decide. And if tonight is the only night you get to have this man all to yourself, then so be it.
If he thinks he can make you squirt, then who are you to deny?
“You really think I’m about to squirt?”
“There’s only one way to find out.”
You frown. “What if it’s just pee?”
He kisses the wrinkled line between your brows. “Make a mess then, I don’t mind.”
Yeah, you’re going to let him absolutely ruin you tonight.
“Then make me squirt, Leon.”
He dips his head, breathing the hot air of his lungs directly into your open mouth. “Yes, ma’am.”
Your pussy tightens reflexively at that, which he obviously catches. He catches on to every desperate tell your body gives him, actually. Probably the sole reason why you've already come an embarrassing number of times.
Not enough, apparently, because he’s already moving his hips in rapid rhythms—not too fast or too slow, but enough to have your eyes sliding shut, focusing on the stretch of his cock driving deep in and out of your cunt.
“Fucking beautiful,” he hums, binding your wrists together above your head. “Just lying there looking all pretty."
“H-harder,” you whine, weakly pushing your hips up to meet him.
“Yeah?” He squeezes your wrists together, leaning even more of his massive frame over you. “You like it when I go hard on you?”
Like it? You thrive on it, nodding frantically as your trembling thighs try to lock around his waist. Try is definitely the word when he’s practically flattened you beneath his crushing weight, effortlessly trapping your body. You can feel your limbs turn gooey and powerless, your stomach contrastingly hard.
“I know, baby, I know,” he rasps, ramming his hips harshly against yours. “Feels good, doesn’t it?”
“Ngh—h—”
“That’s it, give it to me. Make a mess on me.”
The panic hits you first, quickly swallowed by an absolute wave of pure heat. Starts as a buzzing ache in your core before violently spiking into an unbearable sensation. Your belly burns, coils, rattles—and you blink your eyes open, brimming with tears. “Leon—”
He instantly reads the panicked clench of your muscles.
“Don't fight it.”
“I’m not—”
“You are.”
Your groan is feral. “I can’t—”
“Come on, baby, you’ve got to trust me,” he croons softly. “Do you trust me?”
Surprisingly, you do, even if your only judgment on this man comes from the three hours that have passed since you sat down next to him at the bar. “Yes.”
“Good. Then let it happen.”
Your breath stutters. Your body jerks.
“Breathe through your nose.”
He plunges in with a particularly harsh thrust and you gasp. Your eyes roll to the back of your head. “Oh, fuck—”
“That’s it.” He closes the last inch of space between you. Foreheads touching. “Let it go.”
You try to follow his words and suck in a sharp breath. Lungs expanding, ribs flaring, and the rush of oxygen pouring into your blood sharpens every sensation to something blinding.
It’s like a switch. One moment your muscles are tensed, then a passage of whines pitches upward as your orgasm barrels through you without warning. Strong and gut-wrenching. Body hot in bliss and shame—only for two seconds. Quick as it hits, he abruptly pulls out, instantly replacing his cock with two calloused fingers.
Your mouth gapes in a silent scream. Even more so when his offhand curls around your neck. Fingers pressing against the sides of your throat, palm flat against your windpipe, but exercising barely any pressure all the while his fingers fucks your swollen, dripping cunt.
You’ve seen yourself getting wet, you’ve felt yourself getting drenched, but you’ve never experienced anything as wild as this.
Speckles of liquid spatter across the sheets the more he drags his hand in an up-and-down motion, its squelching sound rising above the fight of your labored breathing.
He pushes his palm against your clit.
“Oh fuck! fuckfuckfuck—”
A sudden rush spills over him. Soaks the sheets beneath you in dark patches and streams down the inside of his wrist, seeping hot onto his thighs. He continues to pump his fingers while you lie there—crying openly, violently shuddering. It goes on for what feels like forever until he smoothes out his pressure around your throat, kissing the drool glistening on your lips with a disbelief chuckle.
“Should’ve met you sooner,” he laughs into your mouth, easily slipping his cock back in.
Maybe it’s the bliss completely corrupting your nervous system, or perhaps it’s the overwhelming stretch of his thick cock driving back into your overstimulated cunt. Whatever it is, you completely lose your grip on the casual nature of a one night stand, eager words spilling past your wet lips before you can even screen them.
“Can we meet again?” You pant. “Like—after tonight?”
You’re somewhere right on the edge of a pathetic whimper and a helpless laugh, entirely too pleasured to think straight, dangerously too giddy at the possibility of actually getting to know him. To uncover those scars in daylight, to figure out what kind of hell he had to survive to inherit those devastatingly sad yet kind eyes.
To learn his last name. To unearth his middle.
You gasp when he effortlessly flips you over, twisting his fingers in your hair and pulling it back.
Yeah, you’re going to let him absolutely ruin you tonight—and all the days that follow.
summary: to your chagrin, you get partnered with an irritating DSO agent who happens to take an interest in the case you're working on.
cw: nsfw (18+) - mdni!!, smut, re9!leon, fbi!reader, age gap, kissing, vaginal fingering, oral sex, blow job, p in v, spanking, choking, finger sucking, brat taming, praise kink
wc: 10k
a/n: obsession's gotten so bad i started having dreams about him <3
also on ao3!
There’s a man sitting at your desk.
You’d arrived at work a little before 9, steaming cup of coffee in hand and a stack of case files tucked under your arm haphazardly. It was only until you’d heard the curious, hushed whispers that you’d realized your desk was currently taken, occupied by an unfamiliar man clad in a leather jacket.
Were you being relocated? Promoted? Demoted?
A barrage of thoughts flits through your mind as you approach your desk slowly, mentally preparing yourself to give the man a piece of your mind. The man doesn’t even flinch when the case files drop onto your desk loudly, your coffee cup following soon after as you set it down roughly before crossing your arms over your chest.
“Can I help you?”
His head tilts towards you, shaggy hair shifting as his gaze travels over you with interest. You stare back at him blankly, brows furrowing when you take in the scruffy stubble covering his jaw and the weathered look to his skin. He had to be at least twice your age, but even you could admit the man was stupidly handsome. You’re only left with more questions than you started with as you continue to stare at him, feeling bewildered. The flex of his gloved fingers catch in your periphery, distracting you as you glance down to find him piecing together a disassembled gun with practiced ease, the parts set out neatly on your desk.
His voice is gruff when he speaks. “You’re younger than I expected.”
“You… were expecting me?” you ask, irritation seeping into your voice, patience growing thin. “Who the fuck are you?”
The man’s brows raise at your blunt question, fingers still moving deftly, his eyes flickering with mirth.
“You know, the FBI promised me a warm welcome,” he says, the chair swiveling as he turns to face you fully. “Can’t exactly say you’re delivering on that promise.”
“Yeah well, I didn’t make any promises,” you retort, giving him a tight smile, watching as he leans forward, sliding his newly assembled gun back into its holster. “Besides, you still haven’t answered my question.”
He sighs, leaning forward, his arm outstretched as he offers you his hand. “Leon–”
He’s interrupted by the Unit Chief calling out your name. Your eyes narrow when you see the case file in his hands, glancing back at Leon before you leave him, stepping inside the Unit Chief’s office, the door clicking shut behind you.
“We’ve got two new bodies,” he says, handing you the case file. “Unsub’s been crossing jurisdictions and the local police department is… well, concerned to say the least. Think you can handle it?”
You nod, flicking through the pages, nose scrunching when you see the images of the crime scene – each more grisly than the last. Mutilated bodies, blood smeared across the walls, messily carved symbols etched into the wooden door of the victims’ home.
“Seems ritualistic,” you murmur, reading through the reports. You glance up at him, clutching the case file to your chest protectively. “You’re letting me take this alone? I’m flattered.”
“Ah,” the Unit Chief shakes his head, nodding towards Leon. “Not exactly.”
“What?” you scoff, looking at Leon who gives you a smile and waves through the glass. You glare at him, yanking the blinds shut. “The old man?” you hiss, “he’ll only slow me down.”
The Unit Chief sighs, taking a seat in his chair. “That man is Leon Kennedy. DSO. It’s only a precaution. He’s more experienced than any team we could put together and after what happened with Agent Ashcroft, the FBI is trying to be more… mindful.”
“Ashcroft?” you echo, remembering the Rhodes Hill incident. “That’s– that’s because they sent an analyst into the field of all things. She must’ve been terrified. I’m a field agent, I can handle myself.”
“Agent Kennedy took an interest in the case,” he replies, hands clasping together. “If there’s bioterrorism involved, he’ll be useful. If there isn’t, use him as an idea board. The Unit Chief peers up at you, his expression stern. “My decision is final.”
Your jaw works irritatedly before you huff out a heavy breath, nodding reluctantly. “Yes, sir.”
Despite your sour mood and the urge to slam the door shut, you carefully close it, making your way back to Leon. You drag a spare chair towards your desk, sinking down onto it. Leon shakes his head when you offer him the case file.
“I’ve already read it.”
“Huh,” you stare at him, lips pursing while your eyes squint in recognition. “Leon Scott Kennedy,” you drawl, jabbing your finger at him, “you’re the Raccoon City cop. I’ve heard stories about you. Shouldn’t you be…” you gesture to him pointedly, “retired?”
“Ouch,” Leon says, his hand moving to press against his chest as he feigns being hurt. “You really don’t want me here, do you?”
“All I know is that you’re some big-shot DSO agent that I don’t need on my case, Leon,” you shoot back, flipping open the file to read the autopsy reports more thoroughly.
“The first case you’ve ever been in charge of,” Leon muses, his leather gloves creaking softly as he picks up a stray pen, putting it back into its place. “I’m impressed. Not everyone gets to be a lead on a case like this. Then again, you’re pretty good at this kinda thing.”
Was he buttering you up? He had to be. You don’t bother looking up as you mark a few things of interest off on the report.
“Thank you,” you murmur, scrawling a few notes down on a notepad before you pause, head turning to find him watching you carefully. “How did you know that?” you ask, a hint of suspicion in your voice, “we’ve never met before.”
Leon shifts, grunting softly as he tries to get more comfortable in your chair. “I took the liberty of reading your file,” he replies flippantly, his expression darkening as he tries to work the chair’s jammed lever. “Fuckin’ chair… how do you sit in this all day?”
“I don’t sit all day!” you snap, “and you read my file? I don’t care if you have the fucking clearance, you can’t just–”
You’re interrupted by a loud snap, teeth gritting together when you realize he’s pushed the lever too hard – or perhaps, underestimated his own strength – the lever cleanly detached and now clutched in Leon’s gloved hand.
“Sorry ‘bout that,” he murmurs, setting the lever down on your desk, patting it awkwardly. “I’ll buy you a new chair.”
You have half a mind to reach over and strangle him. You even consider doing it, until he grumbles under his breath and shrugs off that jacket of his, your murderous intent forgotten as soon as you catch sight of his thick biceps. With those things, Leon could probably strangle you and have no problem doing it.
The sheer size of him renders you incapable of tearing your gaze away, your stare settled firmly on his shoulders, arms and chest – every part of him unfairly thick and muscular – his skin-tight shirt leaving you barely conscious of the way your throat was beginning to dry up.
Your newly broken chair creaks once more under Leon’s weight, the sound piercing through the haze of your shameless staring. You blink uncertainly, taking another lingering peek at his biceps while he’s too busy trying to get comfortable.
“We’d better get going,” you announce, grabbing the file before standing up abruptly. “The local PD is probably waiting for us.”
“We can take my car,” Leon says as he follows you into the elevator.
“I’m not in the habit of getting into cars with strange men,” you say testily, pressing a button before turning to face him.
“And I’m not in the habit of babysitting FBI agents,” Leon drawls, leaning against the wall of the elevator, his arms crossing over his chest.
The movement makes his shirt stretch tighter if anything, the fabric clinging to his broad forearms stubbornly, his watch glinting softly in the lighting. Your head tilts, eyes narrowing with irritation when you register his insult.
“No one asked you to babysit,” you say, shaking your head. “I have a gun,” you take it out of the holster attached to your hip, pointing it at him, “and I’m smart. I’ll have this case wrapped up in a day or two, so stay the fuck outta my way.”
A smile pulls at his lips, the corners of his eyes crinkling as he lifts his hands in mock-surrender. The amusement in his eyes makes him look a little younger, your heart fluttering with delight for a moment before you tamp it down violently.
When the elevator comes to a stop, Leon takes your bag before you can protest, his gloved fingers brushing yours briefly. You step after him, brows raising with begrudging respect when you see his car. Big-shot DSO agent, your mind supplies as he puts your bag into the backseat, gesturing for you to get in. You sigh heavily, opening your mouth to argue but Leon’s already disappeared inside his car, the engine rumbling to life. Muttering a curse under your breath, you get in his car, pulling the door shut firmly.
–
“What do you mean there’s only one room available?”
“What’s there to understand?” Leon asks, dangling the singular key in front of your face. “Rooms are all booked out. They’re celebrating some special harvest festival according to the receptionist.”
“Harvest festival?” you echo, peering up at him. “You gotta be fucking kidding me. That’s like the perfect cover for our unsub.”
“I would help,” he murmurs, nudging your shoulder gently to get you to step aside, “but you wanted me to, what was it?” you roll your eyes when he snaps his fingers, pretending to think. “Ah yes, stay the fuck outta your way.”
You snatch the key hanging from Leon’s finger, ignoring his aggrieved sigh as you push past him and stomp back down the stairs to the reception, ready to demand another room. All the receptionist does is give you an apologetic smile and offer you a discount. You swallow your pride as you trudge back up the stairs, doing your best to avoid Leon’s eyes when you find him leaning beside the room’s door, his brows raising amusedly.
“I don’t want to hear it,” you mutter, slotting the key into the lock.
Leon shrugs non-committally. “I wasn’t going to say anything.”
The door is heavy as you push it open, Leon’s hand moving to keep it open for you as you step inside. You fumble in the darkness for the light switch at the same time Leon does, his strong, calloused fingers brushing over yours. It’s enough to have an unwanted shiver running down your spine, warmth blooming in your chest and a flush settling high on your cheeks despite your stubborn annoyance with him.
“Fuck me.”
You follow his gaze when he swears, taking in the lit room. There’s a shitty couch in one corner, a tiny area with a coffee machine and table, and… a bed.
“Okay,” you say slowly, staring at the one, pitiful bed you had been afforded. “Great! So I think you should go and chew out the receptionist.”
“I’m not doing that,” Leon scoffs, bending down to take off his boots, his gun clattering against the table as he sets it down. “I can take the couch.”
You look back at the couch, brows furrowing. “That’s really nice of you and all, Leon,” you begin, stepping further inside the small room, “but I don’t think you’re exactly going to fit.”
“You care about me or something?” he drawls, looking over at you with a smile as he opens his duffle bag to pull out a towel and a set of clothes.
“Get over yourself. I’m just worried about your…” you gesture towards him vaguely, “potentially geriatric bones.”
Leon chokes on a laugh, his brows shooting up. “Geriatric? I’m 49. My bones are in perfect working order.”
“Right, nevermind. You did break my chair.”
“I did you a favor,” he retorts, slinging the towel around the back of his neck. “It was a hunk of junk.”
“It was in perfect working condition!” you scoff, crossing your arms over your chest.
“Do you always defend inanimate objects with such passion?” Leon muses, stepping closer until he’s only a few inches away, head cocking to the side.
“When they’re close to my heart, yes.”
“A chair is close to your heart?”
You decide to double down. “Yes, Leon.”
“Huh,” he nods slowly, clicking his tongue. “You got attachment issues?”
“Did my file not tell you that?” you smile up at him snarkily.
Leon grins, shaking his head. “I’m afraid I skipped over your psych eval.”
He turns, disappearing into the bathroom. You glare at the door and huff out a sigh, removing your shoes before grabbing the case file and flopping down on the bed tiredly. You flick through the pages absentmindedly, settling on the symbols carved onto the door. You hadn’t seen anything remotely like it before and the database search you’d done earlier in the car had come up empty.
“Fuck,” you mutter under your breath, glancing towards the bathroom.
You’d exhausted all your options save for one. A reluctant groan leaves you as you stand, approaching the bathroom, leaning against the doorframe.
“Hey, Leon?” you call out when you hear the spray of water come to a stop. “I… might have been a little difficult earlier,” your voice sounds strained, “but if you could maybe take another look at the file, then I would… you know, probably appreciate it or whatever.” You swallow, face twisting with discomfort. “Please?”
Leon laughs, the rich, deep sound seeping through the crevices. “Don’t hurt yourself,” he says, sounding entirely too entertained by your attempt to ask him for help. “I’ll take a look for you.”
You frown at the door, jolting when it swings open suddenly. A few wisps of steam escape, and you blink owlishly, finding yourself face-to-face with his bare chest. It’s hard to keep your gaze from wandering over his exposed skin, a light dusting of hair covering his chest coupled with a few scars. A strange, gurgling noise escapes you when he shifts back to grab his towel, his broad, muscled back now visible to you. You sway, moving to grip the doorframe, knees feeling weak.
“You okay?” Leon murmurs, glancing over at you as he ruffles his damp hair, brows furrowing.
“Yes!”
Your voice is shrill, pitching up awkwardly until you clear your throat and give him an equally awkward smile.
“Perfectly fine,” you clarify, this time sounding breathless as you try and fail to not look down, inhaling sharply when you see his defined abdomen and the dark, coarse hair below his navel, disappearing into the waistband of his sweatpants.
“It’s just that you look…” you trail off, fingers itching to reach out and squeeze and touch. Hot. Attractive. Fuckable. Really fucking fuckable for a 49-year-old man. “Like shit,” you settle on, the words tumbling out of you in a strained manner as you force yourself to meet his eyes. “You– you look like shit, Leon.” You pat his shoulder jerkily. “Unfortunately.”
“Right, sure,” he says, his head tilting as he stares down at you, unconvinced. “You really know how to flatter a man.”
“I’m charming like that,” you say, hands clasping behind your back.
Leon hums, and you stare back up at him, gaze flitting away for one moment to get a glimpse of his left hand. No ring. Perfect. You pinch yourself as soon as the thought comes.
“You gonna let me out?”
“What?”
When Leon gestures towards you, you realize you’re still standing in front of him, blocking the way out. You move to the side sheepishly, pushing the case file into his chest quickly before locking yourself in the bathroom.
You let out an embarrassed groan once you’re in the shower, burying your face into your hands. What the fuck was wrong with you? There was no way that all it took was some dorky, attractive, older man to have you feeling out of sorts. A dull ache flares between your thighs at the thought of Leon, fingers sneaking past your folds to rub at your traitorously swollen clit. It doesn’t take much, just the image of his body pressed against yours, his arms wrapped around you, mouth pressed against your ear while he grunts–
You cum with a muffled whine. Scrubbing the rest of your mortification off of your skin with soap, you dry off, slipping into a pair of sleep shorts and a hoodie. You pad out of the bathroom to find Leon sitting at the table – thankfully with a shirt on – a few containers of food littered across its surface while he’s hunched over his laptop.
“Hey,” he greets when he sees you, gaze travelling over you briefly before turning his laptop towards you. “I had a look. Your guy might be part of a cult,” Leon brings up another image, showing it to you, “they’re not the exact same, but similar enough. Might be worth looking into.”
“Cult? That’s fun,” you murmur, dropping into the chair beside him, watching as he runs his hair through his hair. “Thank you for taking a look, and the food.”
His brows raise. “Those might be the most sincere words to come out of you today.”
“Shut up,” you say, although a small smile pulls at your lips.
Dinner is quick as you both make a plan for tomorrow – visit the local PD, check out the crime scene and investigate a few related areas of interest. Leon settles down on the couch soon after, adjusting his pillow a few times before grunting as he tries to get comfortable. You were right, he doesn’t fit. He looks so awfully crammed, knees bent and back hunched at an awkward angle that even you feel bad about it.
“Leon,” you say exasperatedly, “we can both fit on the bed. That can’t be good for your back.”
“This is fine,” he replies stubbornly, shifting onto his back uncomfortably, arm hanging off the edge. “I’ve slept in worse places.”
“I can’t deal with you complaining about your back tomorrow,” you say, gesturing towards the bed. You lay down, squirming to the side to make space. “See? You can have the other side.”
“You sure your boyfriend won’t mind?”
“What?” you ask confusedly, sitting up on your elbows. “I don’t have a boyfriend.”
Leon grunts as he gets to his feet, dropping down onto the bed without further protests. It’s a tight fit, but you both manage, a sliver of space left between your bodies. You stare up at the ceiling, lips pursing, feeling antsy.
“Did you…” you glance over at him, feeling entirely too bold for your own good, “did you ask because you were interested?”
He stares back, brows raising. “Interested in what?”
“In what?” you repeat irritably, “are you seriously playing dumb?”
Leon smiles back at you, shrugging lazily. “I have no idea what you’re talking about. Maybe if you clarified what it was you wanted from me–”
“I don’t want anything from you!” you sputter, flushing hot. The bed creaks as you flop onto your side, facing away from him. “You’re old and weird and infuriating and–”
“I feel like you’re avoiding my better qualities.”
“Fuck you.”
“Yeah, I know you want to, baby.”
It’s a miracle your neck doesn’t snap with how fast you turn to look at him.
“May I remind you that this,” you gesture between your bodies wildly, “is a professional relationship?”
“Yeah?” Leon murmurs, raising his brows, “is that why you got off in the shower? Rubbed one out to make yourself feel better ‘bout liking me?” He looks unfazed when your jaw slackens, tapping the wall behind his head. “Thin walls.”
“That is none of your business.” You lean closer, eyes narrowing in an attempt to hide your growing embarrassment. “HR is going to have a fucking field day with you.”
You flop back onto your side, trying to put some distance between you, but there’s such a little space on the bed that you end up half-dangling over the edge. Leon doesn’t say anything, the silence between you thick and stretching on uncomfortably until you sit up, turning to face him.
He stares back at you, the bed creaking softly as he shifts, folding an arm under his head. His shirt stretches tight, thick bicep flexed and the sight is enough to make you lose your last nerve.
Your hand cups his jaw, head dipping to press a kiss to his lips. It’s meant to be quick, fleeting, to get whatever the fuck you have bottled up inside of you. Leon doesn’t seem to agree as he returns your kiss roughly, stubble scratching against your skin, his hand moving to cup the back of your head, blocking your escape.
“Where’re you going?” he murmurs, lips brushing over yours.
“This–” you whine softly when he kisses the underside of your jaw, fingers tightening into his shirt. “This is a bad idea.”
“I happen to be full of those.”
“You’re so fucking corny,” you groan, mouth dropping open as he trails kisses along your jaw lazily.
His lips are soft, calloused fingers massaging your scalp whilst an arm slides around your waist to pull you into his side. Another whine escapes you, head tipping towards him as his hand wanders under the hem of your hoodie, hot skin drifting over your waist and higher, his thumb grazing the curve of your breast.
“And you’re a fucking brat,” Leon says, watching your expressions closely as you whine and pant, pulling him towards you for another kiss, arms wrapping around his neck tightly.
He groans into your mouth, lips slotting over yours feverishly, his hand squeezing at the back of your neck. You squirm, throwing your leg over his hip, mewling when he licks into your mouth. Leon’s a good kisser, you think dazedly as his tongue strokes against yours in a filthy motion that has heat blistering in your stomach. His hand moves, circling around the front of your throat, squeezing gently.
You blink up at him hazily when he pulls away, lips slick with spit and pupils blown out. A smile spreads across your lips as you arch into him, hands sliding up over his strong forearm, fingers wrapping around his wrist.
“You can squeeze harder,” you whisper, pressing his fingers into your skin harder, gasping when he grants your request, eyes rolling back as the pressure around your throat constricts.
“That’s a little fucked up, baby,” Leon breathes out, watching as you writhe and suck in a ragged breath, his brows furrowing.
His brows raise when you glare at him, leaning over you to let his nose nudge against yours, kissing you gently before he tightens his grip a little more, drawing out a choked noise from you. There’s a heady fog settling over your mind the more he keeps you from barely breathing, something slow and syrupy creeping into the crevices of your brain as he presses a kiss to your cheek. He’s letting go before long though, brushing the pad of his thumb over your lips roughly.
“I can handle it,” you mumble hoarsely, head tipping as he massages your throat, huffing out a breath when he laughs against your cheek.
“Yeah?” Leon rasps, his gaze darkening when you suck his thumb into your mouth, tongue swirling around the digit needily, head lifting as you feign bobbing your head. “What, you want me to put you in your place or something? Is that what you need?”
The idea is appealing. You’ve been strung tight for months, between work and the never-ending cases that were stacking up on your desk, you hadn’t exactly gotten much time to yourself, to wind-down from the constant wear and tear brought about by the commitments demanded from you by the FBI.
“Maybe,” you say slowly, looking away. “I don’t know. I guess I just want some… attention or whatever.”
“From me?” Leon says, his fingers sliding over your jaw to guide your gaze back to him. “Your way of asking for attention is acting bratty?”
“I don’t know!” you sputter, pushing at his chest, feeling shy.
“Oh, that’s cute,” he coos, smiling down at you. “Don’t worry, sweetheart, I’ll give you all the attention you fuckin’ need.”
You squeak when he moves suddenly, sitting up before he’s dragging you towards him, maneuvering you until you're bent over his lap. A whimper is punched out of you when he squeezes the fat of your ass through your shorts, lashes fluttering when each consecutive grope grows rougher until it stings lightly.
“Guess if you’re into choking, you should be into something like this,” Leon murmurs thoughtfully, squeezing your ass greedily. “‘s been a while since I’ve done this with someone.”
“Since you’ve– ah– groped someone?” you ask, hips wiggling when his touches disappear, ass lifting involuntarily to chase after his touch.
“Kissed, touched,” he sucks in a sharp breath, “groped… fucked.”
You glance at him over your shoulder, brows raising curiously. “Can you still get it up?”
A sharp yelp escapes you when his hand comes down on your ass, hard and punishing. It stings, the pain spreading out over your ass unforgivingly. You try and glare at him but his hand is coming down again, landing another heavy spank to your other ass cheek.
“It was just a question!” you protest, squeaking when he spanks you again and again, eyes squeezing shut as the red-hot pain spreads over your ass, the ache in your pussy beginning to burrow deeper.
“I know,” Leon murmurs, his fingers hooking into the waistband of your shorts. “Do you want me to stop?”
You pout into the sheets, voice quiet. “No.”
He huffs out a soft laugh, tapping your hip. You lift them, letting him tug your shorts down, mewling softly when he squeezes your ass, his fingers dipping past your panties, stretching them before letting them snap back against your skin.
“Cute panties,” he says, his hand rubbing over your stinging ass, fingers sneaking between your thighs, brushing over the drenched, ruined fabric. “Too bad you’ve made them all messy, baby. So fucking wet for me. You like my hand on your ass?”
“Yes,” you grumble, glaring at the wall. “Stop asking stupid questions, you jerk.”
You jolt when he spanks you, letting out an agitated breath when his hand palms over ass before coming down again in several repeated motions. A whimper escapes you when pleasure bleeds through your body, teeth sinking into your lower lip when the pace of Leon’s slaps quicken. It hurts but feels so good all the same, your thighs trying to squeeze together with how uncomfortably wet your pussy is becoming.
“Don’t– fuck! Don’t stop,” you mewl, arching your back, tears prickling at your eyes. “Leon– please ah–”
“Please?” Leon echoes, “look at that, you’re back to being polite. Good fuckin’ girl.”
You whine in agreement, nodding dazedly as you look back at him, unfocused eyes finding his lopsided smile, heart fluttering in your chest. You reach back for him, hand fighting his shirt, lips parting, eyes slipping shut when he leans towards you, head dropping to kiss you deeply, his fingers squeezing at your ass gently.
“You gonna stop being a brat? Hm? You wanna be my good girl, baby?” Leon rasps against your lips, stealing another soft kiss, his hands still palming at the blistering flesh of your ass, squeezing every now and again to force a pitiful whine out of you. He clicks his tongue when you slur, nose nudging against yours gently. “I asked you a question, sweetheart. Use your words for me.”
“Yes,” you manage out, pushing your ass back into his greedy, awaiting palm, a few stray tears dripping down your cheeks. “‘m gonna be– nghh– ‘m gonna be your good girl, Leon.”
“Yeah?” he breathes out, voice sounding rough as his thumb strokes over your cheek, wiping away the tears. “My sweet, pretty girl.”
“It– it hurts,” you babble, jerking in his lap when he rains an unsuspecting slap down onto your ass, teary eyes rolling back when his fingers slip between your thighs suddenly, rubbing at your swollen, aching clit through the dampened fabric of your panties. “Leon– ah fuck!”
“I know it does,” he soothes, pressing harder against your clit until your legs kick up, “but you asked for this, baby. Remember? You came up to me all pretty and said you wanted attention.”
“Stop being mean,” you hiccup, leaning into his palm when he offers it to you, nuzzling into the warm, rough skin.
“Mean?” Leon whispers, “‘m taking care of you, sweetheart.” He hums as he wipes away the saliva beading at the corner of your mouth, spreading it over your lips before his thumb presses down more firmly, a grunt of satisfaction leaving him when your lips part obediently. “There you go,” he breathes out, “suck on my thumb while I play with this needy, little pussy, baby.”
You whine, fingers clinging to his wrist as you suck lazily, tongue swirling around his thumb. His fingers rub against your wet panties, drawing out a soft mewl from you as he pets your clothed pussy.
“You can take them off,” you mumble around his thumb, biting gently before sucking again, happy to have your mouth occupied. “Want you to touch me.”
“I kinda like ‘em on,” Leon murmurs, his fingers grabbing at your thighs before they move, slipping past the waistband. “Besides, I can touch you like this.”
Your eyes flutter shut when his fingers glide through your sticky, puffy folds, breath hitching while Leon groans when he feels your wet pussy. His fingers are thicker than yours, slipping over the soft skin before the calloused pads find your clit. Your thighs twitch, toes curling when he starts to rub your clit using slow, measured circles.
“Is this how you do it?” he asks, leaning down to kiss your cheek. “Did you play with your clit til you came in the shower?”
“Mhm,” you nod, peering up at him, lashes fluttering. You lap at his thumb, tongue flicking against the tip playfully, letting him watch.
“Fuck,” Leon rumbles, his thumb brushing over your bottom teeth before rubbing against your tongue. “So fuckin’ gorgeous, sweetheart. Look at you.”
You smile, lips wrapping back around his thumb soon after, eyes rolling back when his fingers leave your clit to play with your fluttering hole. A long whine leaves you when he circles your hole teasingly, the tip of a finger pressing in briefly before he draws them back out to rub at your clit.
“Put ‘em in,” you mewl, hips beginning to roll against his hand, one of your hands squirming underneath you to try and move his wrist. “Leon,” you grumble, pulling his thumb out of your mouth when he tries to press against your tongue again. “Put ‘em in.”
“What happened to being polite?” he muses, dipping his finger in again and then pulling it out.
“If you put ‘em in, I’ll be polite,” you reply, blinking up at him sweetly, a smug smile on your face.
Leon laughs, watching as your mouth drops open when he finally inches one finger inside of your clenching pussy, beginning to slowly fuck it in and out of you.
“Go on then,” he coaxes, “beg all pretty for me, sweetheart. Tell me what you want.”
“P– nghh– please fuck me with your fingers,” you whimper, fingers moving to rub at your throbbing clit. “Please, Leon? Want– fuck– want another finger.”
He doesn’t make you beg any further, sinking another finger into you. You shove your face into the sheets, hips wiggling back to meet the thrust of his fingers, your fingers quickening their pace against your clit.
“Taking me so good,” Leon murmurs, using his other hand to spread you open. You flush, feeling entirely too exposed as he stares down at your pussy stretching around his fingers. “Pretty fuckin’ pussy just sucking my fingers in.”
Your walls flutter around his fingers at that, hand reaching out for him blindly, fingers managing to curl into his shirt. You yank him down, mumbling something incoherent around his lips before dragging him down further, lips pressing against his. You moan into his mouth when he starts thrusting his fingers in and out of you harder, curling them just right.
“Leon,” you pant against his mouth, biting his lower lip before tugging it. Leon groans, his fingers scissoring before you moan again, lapping at his lips. His eyes roll back when your lips find his neck, head tipping to bare more of it to you until you manage to move, crawling up onto his lap, his fingers slipping out of you momentarily.
His back hits the bed when you push at his chest, his fingers finding your pussy again, thumb rubbing at your clit while his fingers sink back inside. You shove your face into the crook of his neck, breathing him in with a mewl, pawing at his firm chest as you let your hips drop, fucking yourself on his fingers.
“You gonna do that on my cock?” Leon moans, his fingers tangling in your hair when you kiss his neck feverishly, teeth scraping against his throat, the action enough to draw a hoarse growl from him. “Gonna ride my cock like you’re riding my fingers, gorgeous?”
“Yeah,” you murmur against his neck, latching onto his skin and sucking, all with the intent of leaving a mark of your own, like he had done on your ass. “Wanna– ahhh– wanna ride your cock, Leon.”
“Fuck,” he mutters, an arm clamping around your waist to hold you flush against him, his thumb pressing against your clit harder, the lewd noises of your pussy growing louder with every snap of his wrist. “You’re gonna drive me fucking insane.”
You smile against his throat, kissing the underside of his jaw when his throat bobs uncertainly.
“We haven’t even fucked yet,” you whisper, fingers slipping into his hair, pulling at the strands to make him expose his neck further, drawing out a pretty whine from his lips. “Think you can handle me?”
Your smile fades when his fingers pull out of you suddenly, a sharp yelp leaving you when he grabs your hips and manhandles you onto your stomach, the fabric of your panties tearing loudly as he rips them off of you and pulls your ass into the air.
“Those were comfy!” you protest, glaring at him. “Leon?” you jolt when he slaps your ass hard, pulling your asscheeks apart. “Leon, wait– ah fuck!”
You squeal when he buries his face between your thighs, lurching forward unsteadily on your knees, hands grabbing out for the pillows. He’s ruthless, tongue gliding through your warm folds, drinking down your slick with a rough growl, his hands squeezing at your hips, tugging you back onto his mouth when you try and squirm away. The stubble on his cheeks and jaw isn’t helping, scratching against your skin deliciously as he nips and spits onto your cunt.
“Where the fuck do you think you’re going?” he snaps lowly, biting punishingly into your thigh when you try kicking at his chest. “Huh?”
“I didn’t–” your leg jerks when Leon bites the back of your thigh, fingers curling into the pillows tightly when he bites the fat of your ass soon after, tongue laving over the bite.
“You didn’t what?” Leon asks, thumb finding your swollen bud, his tongue drifting over the inner crease of your thigh, barely shy of your aching pussy. “You didn’t mean it, is that it, baby?” he drawls, wet fingers rubbing over your pussy.
“Yes!” you choke out, hand slapping against the pillow when he sucks your clit into his mouth lazily, his nose pressing into your pussy, rough hands massaging your ass. “I– nghhhh– I didn’t mean it, Leon.”
“Oh, I think you did,” he sighs heavily, feigning disappointment. He clicks his tongue condescendingly. “I thought you were being my sweet girl, but turns out you’ve just got one hell of a mean streak. Just can’t help being a bit bratty, can you, pretty baby?”
“I’m not a brat,” you wail, shoving your face into the pillows the same time he presses his face into your pussy.
You don’t think anyone’s touched you like this before, let alone used their mouth like this. Leon’s strong, his hands clamping down onto you to keep you in place as he flicks his tongue over your clit, teeth scraping over the sensitive bud. You drool messily, whimpering and whining as he laps at your cunt, his tongue prodding against your hole.
“Oh fuck,” you whisper, glancing behind you, eyes wide to find Leon looking at you hungrily, his gaze dark and feral. You swallow nervously, thighs twitching when he kisses the curve of your ass. “Leon, Leon– oh fuck!”
A squeal escapes you when he presses his tongue into your clenching cunt, eyes squeezing shut so tightly that you feel dizzy, hips pressing back needily to meet the movements of his tongue. He fucks it into you, head tilting as he holds you against his mouth, a hand moving under your hoodie to stroke over the length of your back.
You arch, mewling, hips swaying dazedly as he caresses your pussy with his tongue. A soft, ragged moan leaves you when his mouth moves, returning to your clit, toes curling when he presses his fingers back into you.
“You sound so pretty falling apart on my tongue,” Leon murmurs, rubbing his tongue over your clit with a groan, his fingers crooking inside of you. “You gonna cum, baby? Pretty pussy’s clenching around my fingers.”
“Nghhh–” you slur into the pillows, trying and failing to keep your eyes open, your lids drooping shut when his fingers press against that spot inside of you, his fingers rubbing over it with just the right amount of pressure.
His stubble brushes against the backs of your thighs, lips soft as he trails hot kisses all over your skin. Your hips jerk when he fucks his fingers into you harder and faster, the pressure in your lower stomach growing greater. When his mouth latches back onto you, you moan loudly, knees beginning to buckle.
“Fuck! ‘m gonna cum– ‘m gonna fucking cum, Leon,” you whine, hugging the pillow to your chest, a sharp breath of air leaving you.
“Cum then, sweetheart,” he whispers, “be a good girl and cum for me.”
You cry out when he sucks harder on your clit, his face pressing harder into you, nose buried into your pussy. Leon groans loudly, the vibration shooting up through you, making your pussy clench around his fingers tightly. Your body trembles, knees giving out finally when his tongue flicks at your clit, another moan tearing its way out of your throat as you cum.
“That’s it,” Leon snarls, managing to hold you up despite your arms feeling rubber. “Cum just like that. Good girl. Good fuckin’ girl.”
You whimper, still twitching as he laps at your cunt gently, tongue sweeping over your folds as he slurps down your slick, his thumb rubbing against your clit to draw out the final waves of your orgasm while his fingers slow their pace inside of you before pulling out completely.
Leon’s body is hot when he hovers above you, his hands brushing away the sweaty hair clinging to your skin, head dipping to press soft kisses to your cheek, his stubble oddly soothing as it rubs along your skin.
“You okay?” he asks softly, hands drifting down over your back, squeezing your waist soothingly, hands petting at your still reddened and slightly bruised ass. “I guess I’ve been a little pent up.”
“A little?” you murmur, fingers sliding into his hair when he kisses your neck. “I think you’re more than a little pent up, Leon.”
He grunts in agreement, dropping another kiss to your neck before laying down on his back, letting out a heavy breath.
“I haven’t exactly had time to relax,” he sighs, “too many fucking responsibilities ever since Raccoon City.”
You hum, sitting up, arms still a little wobbly. Leon watches you, his eyes tracking your every movement. You smile at him, eyes twinkling, fingers hooking into the hem of your hoodie before you pull it up over your head, tossing it to the side. He sucks in a sharp breath when he sees your breasts, hand reaching out before he pauses mid-reach. You take his hand, pulling it toward your breast, smile growing wider when he squeezes.
“Are my tits helping you relax?” you ask innocently, hands landing on his chest as you swing a leg over his hip, straddling him.
“Guess so,” Leon says, his other hand joining the fray, squeezing your untouched breast. “Pretty fuckin’ tits, sweetheart.”
Your eyes flutter shut as you let him play with your tits, distracted momentarily by the way his fingers move – pinching and tugging, thumb sweeping over your hardened nipples. It’s when you shift on his lap that you become aware of how hard his cock is, hips rolling against the clothed length.
“To answer your question,” he murmurs, tracing the curve of your breast, gently cupping one in his hand, thumb stroking over the soft flesh. “I can, in fact, still get it up.”
You snort, unable to stop the laugh that bubbles out of you. Leon grins back, his head tilting as he peers up at you, hands sliding down over your sides to grab your waist.
“I didn’t doubt you for a second,” you breathe out, voice laced with amusement, your hands beginning to pull at his shirt. He helps you, lifting his arms so that you’re able to pull it up over his head easily. “You do look pretty good for a 49-year-old.”
You lean forward, kissing him gently before you trail kisses down his neck and over his chest, lips brushing over his thick pecs. Leon sighs, his eyes slipping shut, a hand cupping the back of your head as you continue to lay his skin with kisses. You kiss his scars tentatively, squirming lower to kiss his abdomen, tongue darting out to trace the defined ridges of his abdomen.
“You tryna make me cum?” Leon rasps, half-lidded eyes watching you as you bite at his side playfully.
“That is a priority, yes,” you say, following the trail of coarse hair that lies under his navel and the thick bulge laying further down.
His hands in your hair tighten when you nuzzle into his sweatpants, nose brushing against the fabric. When you breathe in, you can smell him, all heady and musky and arousal is seeping into your bones once more, mouth sucking at his clothed cock.
“As much fuck– I would like that,” he grumbles, hips bucking when you mouth at him again, spit dampening his sweatpants, “I’ll cum if you put your mouth on me, baby.”
“Just one suck,” you mumble stubbornly, pulling his sweatpants and boxers down.
Your eyes widen when his cock bobs heavily, struggling with its own weight. You swallow, blinking dazedly as you take in the length and the thickness and the heavy balls that sit underneath. The tip is flushed angrily, darkened and dripping with globs of pre-cum that don’t seem to stop, his cock twitching when you lean towards it slowly.
“It’s big,” you whisper, glancing up at Leon before your eyes find his cock again, pussy beginning to throb as you imagine the stretch. “Really fucking big. You’re– you’re that hard for me?”
Leon grunts, his hand wrapping around his cock, giving it a quick pump. “Yeah, just for you, sweet girl.” He pumps it again, holding his cock towards you. “You said you wanted a taste, go ‘head, pretty baby.”
You don’t need any further invitation, licking your lips hungrily, tongue lolling out. You drag your tongue along the hot length of his cock, feeling the smooth skin and saltiness of his pre-cum. Leon groans, his hips bucking again, another glob of pre-cum dribbling out. You lean forward just in time, catching it on your tongue before your lips wrap around his thick cock.
“Fuck– fuck, baby,” Leon moans, twitching underneath you as you bob your head, beginning to suck. “Your mouth– hah– fuckkk.”
You peer up at him, eyes glittering as you let your tongue swirl around the head before you pull off, pressing a wet, sticky kiss to the tip of his cock.
“Don’t do that,” he mutters hoarsely, shaking his head, “don’t fucking kiss my cock like you’re fucking in love with it.”
You do it again, brows raising when his cock twitches, looking over to find his hand clenched into the sheets, knuckles nearly white.
“I think you like it,” you tease, moving to wrap your hand around his cock, stroking it slowly. “And… I think your cock likes it too.”
“Fuck me,” he growls, head tipping back when you take his cock back into your mouth, sucking and slurping lewdly. He groans and grunts through it, eyes peeling open to watch you swallow around his cock, your pupils blown wide with lust.
When his head lolls to the side, you take your chance, head dipping before he can stop you to suck one of his balls into your mouth. He tastes so dizzyingly nice, spit beginning to leak from the corners of your mouth. Leon’s cock kicks and you land one last kiss to the tip before he’s pulling you up towards him, muffling your whine with a messy kiss.
“Wanna ride it,” you mumble against his lips, worming closer, breasts squishing up against his firm chest.
Leon doesn’t answer, too busy tipping your head up by your chin to kiss you again, stealing your breath. You paw at his chest, fingers finally latching onto his thick biceps. Squeezing, you moan into his mouth when his tongue strokes against yours, arms wrapping around his neck as he pulls back up onto his lap.
Your hips roll, bare pussy gliding along the length of his cock, the tip catching on your newly swollen clit, making you twitch. He refuses to let up with the kisses, groaning into your mouth when you pull at his hair, feverishly swallowing up every little noise that bleeds from your throat.
“Yeah?” he breathes out finally, head tipping back for a moment as he catches his breath, calloused hands squeezing at your hips. “You wanna bounce on it? Hm? This needy pussy of yours need a fat cock to keep it happy, baby?”
“Mhm,” you nod, biting your lip, arousal blistering over your skin, lust beginning to cloud your thoughts once more. You press closer, lips brushing against his ear as though telling him a secret. “It needs your fat cock, Leon.”
“C’mere,” he mutters roughly, moving you up onto your knees, hand grasping the base of his cock to hold it steady for you. “Sink down on it, sweetheart.”
You shift, lowering yourself slowly, letting out a muffled gasp when you start to take his cock, the head of it already beginning to stretch out your pussy as it bullies its way past your entrance.
“‘s just so fucking thick,” you moan softly, peering up at him.
Leon hums, his thumb stroking over your lower lip while his other hand strokes over your hip soothingly.
“You got it, baby,” he smiles, dropping a kiss to the corner of your mouth. “You took my fingers and my mouth so fucking good. Only got a few inches left, yeah?”
Your brows furrow as you bite your lip harder, gasping when you finally take all of him, pussy fluttering around his cock wildly in an attempt to adjust to his sheer size. You feel so full, so much so that you think you can feel him in your stomach.
“Good fuckin’ girl,” Leon whispers, his arms wrapping around your waist as he leans against the headboard of the bed. “Take what you need from me, sweetheart. ‘s all yours.”
“Leon,” you mewl, dragging out the syllables of his name, whimpering against his mouth when he kisses your cheek. “I… I can’t,” you say, flushing hot, “it’s too big, I don’t–”
“Good girls don’t give up,” he breathes out, hands moving to squeeze at your waist, “not to mention you were so headstrong earlier. Where’s that attitude now, baby?”
“You fucked it outta me,” you retort poutily, shoving your face into the crook of his neck.
“And to think you said I was old and weird– shit, baby–”
You relish in the loud, guttural groan he lets out when the walls of your pussy squeeze around him. Nuzzling closer, you kiss the spot under his ear before your hips move, rocking and rolling in a lazy rhythm as you get used to his size.
“I’m not giving up,” you murmur, glancing up at him as he watches you, head tipping back when his hand moves up over your breasts, slipping between them to wrap around your throat.
“Atta girl.”
Leon squeezes and you moan, grabbing his wrist as your knees dig into the bedding, hips beginning to rise and fall. He pulls you into a sloppy kiss, growling into your mouth, panting as his tongue slips over yours messily, his thumb prying your mouth open. You pant, tongue lolling out as you ride his cock, the bed creaking from your motions as you fuck yourself on his cock needily.
“Fuckin’ gorgeous,” Leon rasps, watching you with dark eyes, his hair messy and hanging over one side of his face. “So fuckin’ gorgeous, sweetheart.”
You smile at him dopily, breath slowing when his hand tightens, starting to cut off your intake of oxygen. His nose nudges against yours, breath hot as he kisses you, lips working against yours eagerly until his grip loosens, letting you suck in a breath.
“You trust me that much?” Leon asks, smiling back at you with a feral look in his eyes when your hand wraps around his throat. “You think that’s a good idea, sweetheart? You wanna choke me out while you ride my cock?”
“Oh, you can take it,” you whisper, tightening your grip. Your movements don’t slow, thighs smacking against his as you bounce on his lap, your hand landing on his shoulder for leverage as you drop yourself down on his cock harder, setting a firmer rhythm. “Heard you– ahh– kicked ass back at Rhodes Hill.”
He grins, eyes glinting, a ragged noise leaving him when you pant into his mouth, licking at his lips.
“Yeah, I still hah– got it,” Leon muses, hands squeezing at your ass.
Your brows furrow when his grip tightens, a moan punched out of you when he grips your hips starting to lift you, using you as he fucks you on his cock.
“That’s it,” he drawls, controlling the rhythm and you, his forehead pressing against yours as he jerks you up and down his thick, throbbing cock. “Take my fat fuckin’ cock, baby. Cute, little pussy’s just swallowing me up.”
You whimper, hand sliding to cup the nape of his neck, your bodies moving together as his cock carves its way through your pussy, nestling against that spot before it glides out and drives back in. His chest is pressed against yours, firm muscle pressed against your soft breasts, the coarse thatch of hair at the base of his cock rubbing along your clit.
“Harder,” you whisper, eyes finding his, hips starting to sway back to meet his thrusts when he plants his feet into the bed, knees bending as he fucks his cock up into you. “Want it– nghh– harder, Leon.”
“That might strain my joints, baby,” he says softly, smiling up at him when you huff out an annoyed breath. “What? You were concerned about my bones.”
“Fuck your bones,” you groan, pushing at his chest, squirming off of his lap onto your hands and knees, ass swaying up into the air. You look back at him over your shoulder, hand worming between your thighs to spread yourself open for him, wet, dripping pussy all on display for him. “‘m so empty,” you whisper, voice lilting. “Fill me up?” You bat your lashes, “please?”
Leon mutters a low curse, his chest heaving as he rises up onto his knees, using your ankle to pull you toward him, his hand stroking his cock with uneven motions, knuckles tightening when he sees the slick webbing between your puffy folds and clinging to your thighs.
You’re half-expecting some witty remark, but all Leon does is brush a rough kiss to your shoulder, grunting into your ear before he’s notching the head of his cock against your aching pussy and driving his cock into you.
“Too– fuck! Too fast!” you squeal when he starts thrusting hard and fast, the bed beginning to rock with every snap of his hips.
“But you said you were empty,” Leon rumbles into your ear, “‘m just filling up this needy, pretty fucking cunt for you, sweetheart. So stop squirming,” his hand clamps down on your hips, “and fucking take it.”
You wail into the room, thrashing under him when his hips smack into your ass, balls slapping against your throbbing clit, the lewd noises echoing through the small space. He draws moan after moan out of you, his cock pounding into your pussy unforgivingly. You think you can feel it in your throat, his fat cock sliding through your gripping, fluttering walls.
Leon’s body is draping over your back, his mouth settling right next to your ear as he grunts and groans. Your toes curl, back arching when he pushes down on the small of your back, his breathing ragged as he grinds his impossibly thick cock into you.
“Fuck,” you mewl, spying his flexed bicep near your head, drool pooling into your mouth. Your head tilts as the muscle bulges, all inhibitions lost when you follow the line of his arm to stare hazily at his veiny forearm. You lean towards his bicep, teeth sinking into the thick muscle with a moan.
Leon’s breath hitches, his hips stuttering for a moment when he realizes you’ve bit him before his thrusts start up again, his hot, heavy cock pounding back into your needy pussy. You lick his bicep, tongue laving over his warm skin, eyes rolling back when his arm moves, wrapping around your throat, his bicep pressed up against the side of your neck.
“You keep– fuck– staring at my arms, sweetheart,” Leon rasps, grinning against your cheek when you let out a choked moan, his breath cut off by a low moan of his own. “Is this what you need? A strong arm wrapped around your throat, fat cock pounding into your needy cunt and sweet, little kisses?” He punctuates his question by kissing your temple.
“I– nghhh– need you,” you whine, feeling dazed as he drops his weight onto you a little more, enough so that you can feel every inch of him against your back.
You can’t really do anything but take it, his skin slapping against yours and breath rough in your ear. When his fingers move, finding your clit to rub the swollen bud, you whimper, clutching the sheets, nails raking against the fabric as the string of pleasure draws tighter.
“‘m gonna cum,” you say hoarsely, cunt clenching around his cock desperately. “Leon– Leon, Leon, Leon!”
“‘m right here, baby,” Leon whispers, kissing your cheek, “taking my cock so well. Doing so– fuck– good for me, yeah? Cum whenever you want, sweet girl, I’ve got you.”
Your body jerks when his fingers rub against your clit faster, a ragged scream erupting from you as you cum violently. Leon swears, his grip on you faltering, the arm on your throat drawing away as you twitch on his cock, grasping at the sheets, at the pillows until Leon offers you his hand.
Your fingers lace together with his and you squeeze tightly, gasping uncontrollably until his mouth finds yours, capturing your lips in a kiss. You whimper into his mouth, knees weak and thighs tired, your death-grip on his hand loosening when he soothes you with soft kisses. Your pussy clenches and Leon groans into your mouth, his hips jerking forward unevenly.
“‘m gonna cum too, pretty baby,” he grunts, fingers pushing at your ass gently, hips beginning to pull away. “Greedy, little pussy’s clenching around me too tight, I can’t–”
“Inside,” you mumble, letting your hips sway back tiredly, trying to swallow down the length of his cock. “Cum inside.”
“That’s– shittt– a bad idea, baby,” Leon groans, his head dropping forward to rest against your shoulder as his hips rock into you, pace stuttering.
You can feel his cock throb and twitch, a soft mewl escaping you. “You said you were full of bad ideas.”
Leon lets out a startled laugh, his breath coming out in short, choppy bursts. “I did– hahhh– I did say that. Take my cum then, sweetheart, gonna flood this perfect fuckin’ cunt with cum.”
He grips your hips, thrusting forward with a hard drive of his cock. Leon swears under his breath, his hips jerking into your ass as he cums, cock kicking and throbbing as hot, thick cum floods your pussy.
You let out a contented noise when he moans into your ear, low and guttural, the sound making you feel warm. His softening cock slips out after a few moments and Leon pulls himself away from you, the bed protesting under the weight of you both. You curl up into his side, head dropping over his chest, eyes drooping when you feel the steady beat of his heart.
Leon’s hand settles on your head, stroking over your hair lazily as he pants, chest rising and falling.
“Do you feel relaxed?” you murmur, peering up at him with a sleepy smile.
“I feel fucked out,” Leon mutters, his thumb tracing the curve of your cheek, rubbing at the spot of drool that had pooled at the corner of your mouth. “You did a number on me, sweetheart.”
“I aim to please.”
He laughs, hauling you closer and you smile, kissing the underside of his jaw. “You went above and beyond, I can tell you that much.”
You snort, arms wrapping around his neck. “Am I gonna get that in writing?”
“I’ll think about it,” Leon murmurs, his fingers slipping under your chin to tip your head, lips pressing against yours. You hum into the kiss, fingers tangling in his soft hair, a quiet noise leaving you as he squeezes your ass.
When Leon pulls away, you chase after his lips, eyes fluttering shut when he returns your kiss just as eagerly, your thigh hooking over his hip, brows furrowing when you feel his cock against your thigh.
You look down, cheeks flushing when you find his spent cock beginning to harden, the fat length bobbing gently as it fills out.
“Already?” you murmur, sighing softly when he leaves stubbly kisses along your jaw.
“What can I say?” Leon whispers, his hips bucking when your hand wraps around his hardening cock. “You uh… bring out the best in me, I guess.”
You raise your brows, unable to stop the wide smile that spreads across your face. “Your best attribute is your cock? That’s a little disappointing.”
He grins, groaning when you kiss his pec.
“You didn’t seem to think it was disappointing when I fucked you with it.”
“It is nice,” you acquiesce, head tipping back as he leans into you, trailing hot kisses down your neck, his hips beginning to rock lazily, meeting the strokes of your hand.
“I do have other nice, non-sexual attributes,” Leon says, his hand cupping your cheek, thumb stroking over your skin gently. There’s a light flush settled on his cheeks and he clears his throat, sucking in a soft breath when you squeeze his cock. “Maybe you’d like to find out sometime?”
Your smile softens, affection beginning to creep in through the cracks of your ribs. Leaning forward, you kiss him gently.
klaus mikaelson x mini crescent!werewolf reader, the mikaelson’s x mini crescent!werewolf reader
WOLFNAPPED
summary: when kol mikaelson stumbles upon a puppy, something he’s always wanted, and takes it home. the mikaelson’s think it’s the cutest thing, not realizing it’s not a dog at all, and that they’ve accidentally wolf-napped the most important thing in the wolf community. or that it would become the most important thing to the original hybrid.
warnings: 18+. 5.3K words!!! descriptions of accidental kidnapping. descriptions of violence. reader’s wolf form looks like a 3 month old dog. accurate representation of mates because they’re animals!!! they’re going to find each other attractive inside and outside of being in either form!!! explicit language. klaus is definition of ‘she knows where home is’. klaus’s wolf is immediately obsessed. reader’s nickname is mini. reader likes being pet and spoiled, if she’s being so then she really doesn’t gaf. #queen
it happened by chance, not purpose. kol was just on his way back from a night feed when he saw a four legged creature walking ahead. when he gets closer, making sure his footsteps aren’t loud enough to startle it, he realizes it’s a puppy. with a kneel on the hard cement sidewalk, he makes a beckoning noise to get its attention. it stops and looks at him, its eyes a soft brown with curiosity swimming in them. it looks like it could be a husky with a clean coat. the question of how it seems to be so clean as a stray doesn’t really cross the original’s mind. he just wants the dog. he extends his hand out for it to sniff and after a few seconds, it lets him pet it. it seems like it’s aware he could do something to hurt it at any moment, but for once that wasn’t his intention. plus, he’s already had his kill for tonight. setting his weight forward on his left foot, he snatches it quickly to make sure it can’t run and proceeds to continue the walk home. it -who he checks and turns out is a she- doesn’t seem to care about protesting or wiggling out of his hold. instead she watches the block pass as he does all the walking for her. when he gets back, the large wooden doors shut behind him, announcing his entrance. not that they need to because he’s calling out rebekah’s name the second he gets his jacket off.
the blonde comes downstairs exasperated, asking “what is it, kol? i was doing my nightly routine.”
he rolls his eyes. this girl and her damn routines as if she isn’t 1050 years old. “none of that matters, come look at what i’ve got!”
she walks over and sighs, hands on her hips, expecting to be met with something like a severed head or game on his beloved DS. when he holds the furry animal up, she gasps, eyes widening.
“oh my bloody heart! look at how adorable, where did you find it?”
she takes her from him without hesitation, cradling her. he explains just five minutes ago and they both agree on the name mini. the next morning comes and he goes downstairs for tea around 9:30. elijah’s sat in his reading chair with the latest newspaper, dressed in a sharp black and grey suit. of course, such a stickler when it comes to keeping his habits, he always gets up at the ass crack of dawn. as if he even has anything to do at that time.
kol sits in his favorite spot on the long expensive rust red couch, humming a pleasant, “morning”.
elijah’s eyes narrow at the black letters on the paper he’s holding. why did he sound so happy? typically, that only follows up with him having to do damage control for weeks if not months after kol had done whatever he has.
lowering it, he questions, “what have you done, brother?”
the younger maniac only sips from his mug, the smell of chamomile wafting into the air. the curtains are drawn back, windows of the compound letting in enough sunlight to make you forget that it’s late october. the tuft of fur sticking out from behind his legs shifts slightly, and elijah’s tone is filled with disbelief.
“kol. what. is that.”
“‘lijah, meet mini. my new puppy.”
if someone had told elijah yesterday that he would end up almost having an aneurysm with a side of toast the next morning, he would have believed it but not the cause of it. vampires, especially originals, don’t have pets. they all know the heartbreak that comes eventually and no one feels like dealing with that over and over again when they already experience it with friends and family. why on earth would he have gotten a puppy if he knows it’s going to die in 15 years, which is just a blink of an eye to them? the suited man looks down at her only to be met with the most adorable face he’s ever seen. her ears are rounded at the tips, fur a gorgeous shade of warm light red that fits in any season, big brown eyes holding irregular amounts of life behind them, and paws crossed in front of her. she stares at him and his brows furrow. this can’t be happening. he doesn’t know what’s worse. the fact that he’s actually falling for the classic puppy eyes or the fact that kol could get what he wants. he tries to snap out of it.
“you are not keeping any pet here. it-”, kol cuts him off, “she.”
elijah stares before gritting out, “she will take to ruining the furniture because i am sure you will not train her and there is no time to care for her with our lifestyle.”
kol scoffs, “says you. nothing will be destroyed and i do plan to train her, thank you very much. i, personally, don’t do much nowadays to make people hate me unlike you and nik so i do have time to care for her. don’t be jealous and project.”
in the following hours, kol brings her to a high-end pet supply store. if it wasn’t known that the mikaelson’s have like trillions of dollars from being alive 1050+ years, the employees would think he was insane for buying her a diamond necklace, a $200 bed, and a weeks worth of clothes. literal clothes from dresses to sweaters, booties, and somehow even hats. when he returns home, rebekah fawns over playing with her, and klaus comes back from dealing with a pair of witches that were making a stink in the peace treaty.
nose crinkling, “what is that smell?”, the hybrid demands before spotting the creature. he blinks and his eyes narrow.
“she doesn’t stink, don’t insult her. this is mini, my puppy.”
klaus deadpans, “your…puppy. are you sure? and no, she doesn’t stink, just..smells different.” for some reason, his wolf is stirring awake inside and seems to want him to get closer. he fights against it, not knowing why it would. he never listens to his wolf, even after going through the whole thousand year ordeal of trying to break the curse keeping that side of him dormant and succeeding three years ago.
“at least she doesn’t smell like your ass”, kol shoots.
offense takes over klaus’s expression, suspicion forgotten. “i smell just fine, you bobble headed urchin. that thing better not get on my expensive chair.”
“don’t worry, i’ve already let her have a go at your paint collection.”
klaus vamp speeds at him with all intentions to impale him with something, but elijah cuts it short.
“enough, children!”, the eldest shakes his head, “kol, stop antagonizing niklaus. niklaus, control yourself. the dog will be gone in a few days when kol realizes he isn’t fit for owning a pet.”
“we’ll see about that”, kol glares before he picks her up to go outside.
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honestly, you’ve never been more pampered. is it sort of creepy that you’re just letting this guy and his sister tend to you like you’re what they believe you are? sure, but it’s literally what the pack does just without the knowing what you are part. plus, with all the bullshit this family has brought about on the city, you’re doing a service by keeping two of them occupied from causing more. you don’t mind the dress ups and trimming of your nails because he feeds you a damn good steak after each time. who can really blame you for taking advantage of the ones who deserve it? either way it’s not like you’re all human brained. you’re not just rare because of your size but because of what comes with it. you tend to have more of an animal mindset than a human one unlike all other werewolves who only have human mindsets until angry or in wolf form. obviously, you can shift at will but you’ve never really been a fan of having two legs, so you stick to this. the diamonds resting on your furry neck are a big difference to the usual 15 dollar necklaces you buy from the carts in the quarter. having grown up in the bayou, your past night and day spent here in this massive house has been like going from rags to riches over night. maybe you should wander the streets more often. right now, you’re asleep on your silk bed with an expensive blanket on you when footsteps near.
klaus stops in the middle of kol’s doorway, glancing around. kol went to go get lunch, elijah is with marcel dealing with a vampire problem, and rebekah is who knows where. he stayed behind to plot but realized half an hour ago that you were still here. the curious creature from a few hours so. he approaches slowly, the floor boards creaking slightly under his weight, but it doesn’t seem to wake you. he squats two feet away before reaching out and feeling the texture of your fur. it’s much thicker than a dogs. when his hand goes up to your neck, you stir and your eyes peel open, meeting his. you stare warily for a few seconds, he reciprocates. he knows that you know that he knows you’re not a dog. but what are you, a werewolf that somehow killed someone at the age of three months, broke the curse, and now has a tiny wolf form? he’s never seen anything like this, so he can’t just deep dive into accusations. yet. his wolf stirs just like before when he saw you hours ago and he can’t ignore it this time. it no longer takes his refusal as an answer and pushes itself forward, making his eyes glow yellow with black scelera and black veins underneath. on instinct, unexpected to him, your eyes glow yellow in response. his human/vampire side immediately wants to throttle you and demand you shift to tell you how you’ve done this, why you’re here, if you’re a spy, or just kill you. when he brings his hand to wrap around your neck, it’s as if he’s being attacked from the inside, like something is keeping him from snapping it. you watch as his eyes flicker back and forth from yellow to blue-green repeatedly but you don’t cower like everyone else would.
he attempts at clamping down on it, only for him to fall flat on his ass. his wolf is not happy with the idea of him getting violent with you. he stares incredulously at you as if you were the one who pushed him. you snort, making him realize for the first time ever that being laughed at by a wolf is much more humiliating than it is to be laughed at by a human. he begins to interrogate.
“how old are you?” when you don’t move, he counts aloud, waiting for a reaction to one of the numbers. at 23, your nose twitches slightly, making him hum.
“23 years old and you don’t even care. that you’re living my family’s home freeloading. pretending to be something you’re not. taking advantage of strangers. they believe you to be a dog and you’re going with it. you must be completely and utterly shameless.”
you purposefully shift into a more comfortable position on the silk bed, front left paw poking out from under the thick blanket, then close your eyes with a whine turned yawn. you’re the picture of relaxed and pampered. hell, your nails are pink from rebekah painting them with k9-safe polish. he scoffs.
“what is it you want, hm? a home? information? where is your pack? are you a runt?”
you roll your eyes at him as if a runt is the farthest thing from what you are, but to him it’s the only thing that makes sense. why else would you be tiny enough to carry around and why else would you be so willing to take on a place in a random family?
“or…. are you unfathomably hideous to the point where you’ve decided to permanently stay in wolf form?” he asks, honestly quite genuinely.
your paw shoots out and claws dig into his foot making his groan and then curse. he grabs it and squeezes, prompting you to let out a sharp high pitched yelp of pain and the second the noise registers, he lets go as if having grabbed fire. he shakes his head, not understanding why he couldn’t continue as if you were just anyone else. his body fills with an emotion he’s always pushed down but can’t ignore this time. guilt. his wolf snaps and snarls at him from inside, livid at him.
he finds himself apologizing regardless of how hard it is and how strained it sounds. “i-i…i’m sorry. i..mini, i lost my temper. i am trying to have this conversation without being aggressive. i am. it seems as though i have no other choice either way.”
with your paw drawn back into your chest, curled up along with the rest of your body, your gaze points elsewhere. his chest tightens and his lips purse. he doesn’t want to care, he shouldn’t, but the animalistic side of him acts as if not doing so is some form of torture. obviously as a werewolf, you’ll heal but it doesn’t take away from the fact that he still did it, even if it was in retaliation for you hurting him first. he attempts to steel himself and go back into his cold and calculating mindset where he could turn you into a pawn, this situation into a benefit for himself. if you were looking at him -not that you really have to because at this point you can almost hear it- you would be able to see the wheels turning in his head. his blue-green eyes gleam as he forms a plan, more like an ultimatum.
“actually”, he starts with a cool tone, “i’m willing to keep your secret from my siblings for something in exchange.”
your ear flicks, showing that you’re listening even if you’re still not facing him, which he pretends doesn’t bother him.
“if you want to stay under your rouse, you will become my spy. you can pass as a dog and for some reason, lack the scent of a werewolf. no one will suspect anything from you being in a room with an enemy, meaning they will feel more than comfortable to speak freely. when on these jobs, you will report back to me with everything they said. otherwise, you can say goodbye to the divine class life and hello to whatever fate my brother will have for you when he realizes the creature he’s been petting and doting on is a person. more specifically a werewolf, natural enemy of vampires.” he weaves his words carefully like intricate poison just like you’ve been told he does.
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a day passes and you go on your first job, posing as a stray in the cemetery some witches plan to meet in to discuss how to overthrow klaus. honestly? your plan was to just give him a version of what you would hear, you don’t care about any king of new orleans. until the pack is brought up. ‘ambush the crescents and pick off their muscles’ was enough for you to decide that you’re going to start taking this seriously. once it’s done with, you go the long way back to the compound to make sure no one saw any connection and then slip through the back door. you trot up the stairs to his study before pushing the door open slightly with your side, sliding in. he’s stood on his balcony with a glass of bourbon when he hears you. you stick your neck out for him to take the bugged collar off and he presses play. the first ten minutes is of you panting and the sound of traffic passing along with pedestrians, all of which he skips, then there’s a moment where it’s quiet and you finally pick up the entire conversation the four were having. his features darken at the conspiracies he hears and he turns to you, expectant.
“where exactly where they placed?”
with a hop on the chair then desk, you look over the map of the factions territories before landing on the west side of the cemetery where there’s a tomb with an angel in front of it. you press your paw onto it and he files it mentally before scratching your ear, impressed.
“well done.”
that night, you’re gifted a perfect one-person chicken for dinner which you feast on as the others sit at the table. it continues for days before klaus finally acts on his plans and brings you with, in arm. you don’t mind the jostling of his determined stride, you’re paying more attention to some quarter residents doing double takes at the sight of klaus mikaelson, the great evil, the original hybrid, carrying what has to be the cutest dog known to man. if he notices he doesn’t show it. when you get to the location, he keeps you in hold as he speaks to the witches who are trembling but still planning like idiots to try and take him down. the second they begin to give him a brain aneurysm, he groans and instinctively brings his hands to his head meaning he drops you. one of the witches come forth and coos at you as you whine at his pain.
“don’t worry, cutie-”, she ends up cut off by her own scream as you launch yourself several feet into the air and bite her neck, shaking until her throat is ripped out. before she falls, you use her shoulder to jump onto the other witch next to her and do the same. with only one left, the surviving witch turns her aneurysm spell onto you, and the second you fall five feet to the ground writhing in pain letting out the most gut wrenching cries, a deep growl emits from klaus’s being. his eyes turn yellow with black rims and black veins and he vamp speeds at her and rips her apart unlike any kill he’s done before. he turns to you, picking you up.
he takes in the sight of the blood coating your fur and snout. unfortunately you end up in the bath which of course, to piss him off, you keep running around in. several attempts at keeping his patience barely works and being splashed by your filthy water isn’t doing any wonders for it. when you use your tail to send a wave toward him, his composer crumbles and the sound of a crisp smack floods the bathroom as his hand meets your tailbone. a sharp yelp spills from you as your tail tucks but you shift your body a little closer to him, looking back expectantly. he immediately catches onto this, rinsing the suds off of you.
“you like that, hm? cheeky little minx. you’ll have to wait until you’re in human form to get more.”
he lets out an actual chuckle when you flatten your ears at what you perceive to be bad news. that’s the first time you’ve ever heard him laugh. you try to ignore how your tail instinctively wags at it. he dries you then wraps you in a towel. you rest on your silk bed as he pours himself a glass of amber bourbon. the room is silent aside from the sounds of jazz seeping through the cracks of the window. the sun is setting with some purple and pink on the french quarter, causing it to be dimly lit between these four walls that contain you two. his voice breaks it.
“what is the longest you’ve been in human form?” he doesn’t have to shift his gaze or any part of his body to you because you’ve entered an unspoken routine. when he asks a question that can be answered with an amount, he counts the thumps of your tail or throws numbers around aloud until you make a noise. this time, your tail thumps only 2 times. his blonde brows knit.
“i refuse to believe you mean two months. please tell me it’s two years, though even that is low in itself.”
you thump once for yes. two years. a scoff of disbelief hits your ears. you’ve gotten this reaction before from your own pack. why would anyone willingly stay in the form of an animal when they’d be much more free in human? for you the answer is simple. you’re more free in this one. you’re not expected to talk to anyone, know anything, or be anything -well, unless you end up in a situation like this- and you could relax all day with absolutely zero responsibilities. your pack, of course, has grown used to this over the years and cherishes it due to your rarity. it’s a good advantage when needed. he on the other hand, racks his brain for a reason why you choose it. there’s only a few he can come up with so he asks the one that sounds the most realistic.
“are you more ‘animal minded’ than other werewolves? and that’s why you stay in this body? human nature doesn’t necessarily agree with you, does it?”
smart man. your smart man, your wolf thinks. a singular thump, and a hum from him. interesting, he’d never thought about what it would be like to be in the wolf mindset 24/7 and not just when a werewolf is transitioned. he’d only been in it the one time he shifted the night he broke his curse. he was in it for two days and will never forget how uncontrollable everything was. how he barely had human thoughts, just primal instincts he had no choice but to follow. his own rumbles in satisfaction at the thought of you being a type of feral and it’s hard for his human/vampire mind to ignore.
“that’s why you don’t mind being pet and treated like a dog. you see no difference.” he muses, assessing how you’re as snug as a damn bug in a rug under the thick quilt rebekah got you. designed with paw prints, bones, and crowns, if he didn’t know your secret, he would have bought you being a husky. when you’re like this, he can understand how kol believes you’re one. with everything that’s happened in the past few hours, you’re exhausted, and he can see that. he approaches, kneeling at your side.
his voice is soft just like his eyes. “you killed those witches for me today. i won’t forget that.” it’s the last thing you hear before you drift off.
by the time the others realize something is up, kol is having a field day. with all that talk from elijah about not keeping the puppy and her being gone by the end of the week, he could practically hold up a neon light sign that says ‘IN YOUR FACE’ and parade around with it following the suited original for the next decade. when klaus is sat on the couch, you’re there next to him. when he leaves the room to plot someone’s downfall, which is like every other day, you follow. hell, you’ve even taken to laying on his lap. kol has had enough.
“what have you done to make her so attached to you, nik? hm? have you been bribing her with gravy on her turkey? sliding her secret treats? why would she suddenly like you over me? you’re unbearable!” the brunette fusses, glaring daggers into both of you as you sleep on his thighs, head resting against where his pelvis and thigh meet.
the hybrid ignores his little brother, sketching a portrait of you in the rain with charcoal. “perhaps she’s realized i’m the best person here.”
this time rebekah chimes in, “poppycock. you’ve done something, nik, we all know it. you don’t even like dogs, you’ve always said they’re mange infested mutts who’s fleas are attracted to them because pests recognize pests.”
his lips purse and he says, “i stand by what i said. she’s different, look at her face. even my cold heart can’t look past how unsettlingly adorable she is, mutt or not.”
elijah’s eyes narrow in suspicion. he knows klaus better than anyone considering he’s like…his only friend, which makes him his best friend. if there’s anything he’s learned over the past 1057 years, it’s that if klaus knows something everyone else does, he keep it hidden until it’s useful. the fact that he’s switched how he feels about dogs just cause one is cute? yeah right, next thing he’ll do is start handing out flowers on valentine’s day. he can’t ponder it much longer as the doors to the compound are thrown open and boots clack in a rush on the cobblestone. hayley comes into view, frantic.
the werewolf begins, “i have an emergency that i can no longer handle myself. a wolf is missing from the pack.”
elijah’s brows furrow as he stands, approaching his girlfriend. “do we know them?”
she shakes her head, “no, but they’re extremely important. usually she leaves the bayou, explores for four days and then comes back to her cabin and sleeps for three more but she didn’t return and she isn’t there. me, jackson, and everyone else have searched up and down the bayou but nothing.”
“could she has snuck off for a long tryst? or possibly just leave the city for fun. if shes known to explore she could have just gone further.” rebekah ponders, but hayley refuses.
“no, she always comes back. and she can’t be tracked by scent because she has a rare ability where she doesn’t smell like a werewolf.”
while everyone is discussing, klaus discreetly gets up and begins to go to his study when elijah stops him.
“niklaus, where are you going? this matter is urgent and as king, you need to deal with it.”
“yes yes, i’ve heard. i can’t exactly solve a missing person’s case with art supplies.” the hybrid goes to keep walking when hayley questions when a familiar tuft of apricot colored fur catches her eye.
“wait. what is that? that furry thing you’re holding.”
kol pipes in, “my new puppy, mini.”
disbelief floods her system and elijah can tell something is off, most likely exactly what he believed it to be. “puppy? let me see.”
klaus refuses, “no. it’s sleeping and is rather not fond of strangers.”
rebekah scoffs, “why are you lying, brother? mini doesn’t mind strangers. just show her.”
all of a sudden, he breaks out into vamp speed, leaving everyone astonished. seeing that he’s more than obviously hiding something, they vamp speed after him.
“niklaus, open this door at once!” elijah rattles the knob of the study which barely moves. the sound of something being pushed against it to form a barricade is heard before klaus’s voice, muffled.
“i can’t, elijah. i won’t have anyone take her from me.”
kol pounds his fist on the wood frame, “what are you on about, you delusional twat?! give me my dog!”
rebekah swats his arm, “don’t you get it? i don’t think that’s a damn dog, i think it’s that girl hayley is looking for.”
“what?! how?!”, his brows furrow. “one, mini would be the tiniest werewolf in recorded history if that were true, and two that would mean she’s been parading around as a puppy for fun. who does that?”
“someone who doesn’t care for being human, that’s who”, hayley exasperates, “klaus, please! i need to see her to make sure she’s alright!”
“she is alright, now leave.” meanwhile, you’re sat on his desk curiously watching him open a locked drawer with a jagged key and pull out a case. revealing a set of huge handled ancient looking daggers, he takes out one and begins to prepare it. your tail swishes, creating a small breeze and accidentally makes some of the white oak dust in his container blow away. he curses under his breath, coating the blade, “you and your bleeding tail, i swear.”
outside, rebekah throws her hands up, “why is he so attached to her anyway? he wouldn’t even protect one of us like this.”
the werewolf thinks before blinking. “well…she’s a werewolf. so is he even if half. he’s seemingly known that for a while now, meaning she’s communicated with him. …if they’ve had enough back and forth, then…” she trails off.
elijah looks to his girlfriend wearily, fearing what he knows she’ll say next. “then?”
“then a mate bond could have formed.”
kol’s face greens. “i think i’m going to be sick.”
“it’s natural,” rebekah rolls her eyes. “just odd to us because we haven’t known her truth. nik, if you just let hayley check on the poor girl, we’ll leave you be!”
no response. so elijah uses force to push the door open. after two rams of his body, the cabinet blocking it has fallen over and their eyes land on the hybrid with his favorite souvenirs, mini sat on a second bed placed on his desk they didn’t even know he bought for her.
“oh bloody hell, he’s gone homicidal over her already.” kol quips.
holding out both hands placatingly, elijah insists. “brother, please. think about this. do you truly want her to see this fight? she has a family and home, hayley only wants to bring her back. that doesn’t mean it has to be the end of your seeing her.”
klaus bristles, eyes glowing yellow. the concept of you going back to the bayou to a worn cabin surrounded by swamp, where any other mangy mutt could try and claim you, not living in luxury, infuriates him. his expression is cold along with his voice.
“no.” his grip tightens around the tough handle of the dagger, body buzzing with primal instinct to protect you at all costs, even if it means putting his family down and into the coffins they’ve resided in years before.
“mini, come.” your fellow crescent tries to beckon, only for you to stay exactly where you are, small furry body positioned towards him but head towards the three mikaelson’s and labonair in the doorway. they spread out and klaus uses his body to block you from being grabbed. “do you have idea of how worried sick we’ve been? only to find you you’ve been here roleplaying as a dog and having found your mate?”
you let out a huff and she says, “that’s it. you’re coming home. now.” the brunette moves forward and her and klaus begin to brawl, which makes elijah jump in. your man is wiping the floor with them which you would feel bad about if you had the cognitive ability to see it as what it actually is. the fight goes on and on and he shoves the dagger into elijah’s side and then one into rebekah’s stomach. but when he turns to kol, you let out a whine. he doesn’t react at first, pushing the tip of the blade into his little brothers chest when suddenly sharp teeth nip at his ankle. he curses and goes to kick out of reflex until he sees it’s you.
“what are you doing? stop it!”
you tug on his jean hard enough to rip it and he steps back, which gives hayley an opening, and she grabs you. before he can reach for you, elijah takes a hold of him from behind, restraining the now shouting blonde. paying no mind to him, hayley inspects you as you nip at her fingers playfully. she takes off her coat, setting you on the floor, and holds it up as a visual barrier. a sharp whimper escapes you before it goes silent. his eyes widen as you rise, now in human form for the first time since kol took you off the street, and since august in general. wrapped in a black coat, but naked underneath, your face comes into view. soft and sharp features, large brown eyes that stay puppy-ish even now, long ruffled curls that needs detangling and a wash, but still perfect in his eyes. his lips part as his wolf goes insane on the inside at the thought of what you look like under the fabric blocking your most precious work of art. he stills, no longer struggling in his older brothers grip, only paying attention to you. when your gaze lands on him, he only has one thought.
klaus mikaelson, you are screwed.
i loved this (hence why it’s so long) 😩. let me know if y’all want a part 2!! i know i do lmao.
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summary: spencer accidentally let it slip that he has a wife, but he thought that they knew
The bullpen is louder than usual.
A case just closed — messy, exhausting, emotionally draining — but closed. And that always brings a certain kind of restless energy to the team.
“Alright,” Derek announces, spinning slightly in his chair. “We deserve a drink. Real one. Not whatever’s been fermenting in the break room coffee pot.”
Emily snorts. “Seconded.”
“Thirded,” JJ adds, already grabbing her bag.
Spencer doesn’t look up at first. He’s reorganizing his go-bag with that meticulous focus he gets when he’s trying to decompress.
Hotch gives a small nod. “One hour. Then home.”
Morgan leans back in his chair and eyes Spencer. “You in, Pretty Boy?”
Spencer finally looks up, blinking like he just remembered he’s in a room full of people.
“Oh, um.” He glances at his watch. “I actually should probably head home.”
Morgan frowns dramatically. “Since when do you skip celebratory drinks?”
Spencer shrugs. Casual, almost too casual.
“My wife doesn’t love when I get back too late after a case. It messes with our routine.”
Silence.
Not the normal end-of-shift shuffle silence.
The kind where the air changes.
Emily freezes mid-zip of her purse. JJ slowly turns around. Morgan’s smile drops.
“…Your what?” he asks carefully.
Spencer blinks at him, “My wife.”
Morgan stands up fully now. “Your what?”
Spencer looks genuinely confused. “My wife? Why are you repeating it like that?”
“Reid,” Emily says slowly, “you don’t have a wife.”
Spencer stares at her, “Yes, I do.”
JJ’s eyebrows shoot up. “Since when?”
Spencer’s forehead creases like they’re the ones being ridiculous, “Since 2012.”
Morgan’s mouth actually falls open. “Two thousand and— Reid that was years ago.”
“Yes,” Spencer says patiently. “That’s generally how time works.”
“Spencer,” JJ says gently, “we would know if you were married.”
Spencer’s lips press together in mild disbelief, “I assumed you did know.”
“How?” Morgan practically shouts.
Spencer gestures vaguely. “I wear a ring?”
All of them look down. He does. A simple silver band. Always has. They just never clocked it. It blended in with his watch and the ink stains and the everything else that is Spencer Reid.
Emily steps closer. “You’re serious.”
Spencer exhales softly. “Of course I’m serious. Why would I joke about that?”
Morgan runs a hand over his head. “Okay, okay. Hold up. You’re married. To who?”
Emily crosses her arms. “So let me get this straight. You’ve been married for over a decade and we’ve never met her?”
Spencer blinks. “Well… yes.”
Morgan points at him. “That’s insane.”
Spencer looks offended. “It’s not insane.”
“It’s a little insane,” JJ says gently.
Spencer shakes his head, standing now, suddenly protective in a way they’ve never seen before.
“She’s not a secret,” he insists. “I just… I don’t bring her into this.”
Morgan narrows his eyes. “Why not?”
Spencer goes quiet for a moment.
And when he speaks again, his voice is softer. Not defensive anymore. Just honest.
“Because this job takes things.”
The room stills.
“She met me when I was just starting at the BAU. Before any of the… really bad stuff.” He swallows. “She’s seen what this job does. To all of us.”
Emily’s expression softens.
Spencer continues.
“She was there when I couldn’t sleep after my first execution-style case. She sat with me and read out loud because I couldn’t get the images out of my head.”
JJ’s eyes glisten.
“She was there when my mom’s condition got worse. When I didn’t know how to handle it. She learned about schizophrenia just so she could understand what I grew up with.”
Morgan shifts, quieter now.
“And when I—”
Spencer stops.
The prison memory hangs heavy in the air without him even saying it.
His jaw tightens.
“When I was in prison,” he finishes softly, “she visited every week. Even when I told her not to.”
Emily inhales slowly.
Spencer’s voice steadies, “She wrote to me every day. She memorized the visitor protocols. She advocated for me when no one else could. She never once doubted that I’d come home.”
Morgan’s teasing expression is completely gone now.
“She kept our apartment exactly the same,” Spencer continues, almost like he’s replaying it in his mind. “She said she didn’t want me walking into something unfamiliar.”
JJ wipes at her eye discreetly.
Spencer looks down at his ring, “She’s been there for every version of me. The anxious twenty-something. The grieving son. The addict. The inmate. The profiler who can’t always leave work at work.”
His lips twitch faintly, “She’s the only constant I’ve ever had.”
The room is completely silent.
Morgan finally speaks, softer than they’ve ever heard him.
“Why didn’t you tell us?”
Spencer hesitates, “Because this job makes enemies,” he says quietly. “And I could never forgive myself if something happened to her because of me.”
That lands harder than expected.
Hotch nods once. He understands that logic more than anyone.
Emily steps forward slightly. “So you just… what? Go home every night and we never knew?”
Spencer gives a small shrug, “Yes.”
Morgan exhales slowly. “Reid, that’s not something small.”
Spencer tilts his head, “It’s not small to me.”
There’s no arrogance in it. Just certainty.
“She makes me dinner when I forget to eat. She leaves sticky notes in my books when she knows I’ll be stressed. She reminds me that I’m more than my IQ and my trauma.”
His voice softens again, “She married me when I was still figuring out how to exist in the world. That’s not small.”
JJ smiles through tears. “Does she know what you do?”
“Yes.”
“And she’s okay with it?”
Spencer nods, “She worries. But she says she’d rather love me in a dangerous world than not love me at all.”
Morgan shakes his head slowly, “Reid, that’s real.”
Spencer frowns slightly. “Of course it’s real.”
Emily laughs weakly. “We just didn’t know you had that.”
Spencer looks genuinely confused again.
“Why wouldn’t I?”
And there it is, the quiet confidence.
He doesn’t see himself as someone unworthy of love because someone has loved him consistently for years.
Morgan finally smirks faintly. “Alright, so when are we meeting her?”
PLEASE I NEED RE9 LEON SO BADLY IK HE WPULD LOOK AFTER US SO WELL PLSSSSS
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જ⁀➴ Aftercare with RE9!Boyfriend!Leon ᝰ.ᐟ 18+
Leon wasn’t a stranger to hard work or long distance— he was trained for it, quite literally. That’s why he cherishes his time at home, with you, why he settles for nothing more than to worship every inch of you in bed.
He’s gotta make up for the lost time somehow, right?
And fucking you into the mattress until the only thing on your mind is him… is exactly how he does that, and he’s damn good at it too. He knows your body like he knows his way around a gun; it’s second nature to him. He knows exactly how to coax those breathless moans from your perfect lips and how to get you to arch up into him, when to press deeper and when to ease up, how to bring you over that edge and keep you right on the brink.
He gives it to you good, so it’s only logical that he takes care of you after he’s done fucking you dumb.
“You always take it so good, baby,” he coos against your shoulder blade, where he brushes a series of feather-light kisses, his lips trailing slowly down your spine— his stubble whispering against your flushed skin. “You okay, hm? not too sore?” he almost sounds proud of himself.
“A little achy, it’s a good ache though.” You hum into the pillows from where you’re lying on your stomach, face buried into the silk— your voice lazy and a little muffled.
“Good, means I did my job right,” you can feel his lips curl into a smug grin as he presses his face into the nape of your neck— his big palm running over the curve of your hip. “c’mere, let me hold you.”
Your body, heavy and boneless, relaxes into his big warm arms— he had joked one time that they were shaped to hold you, just like this, with your head tucked under his chin whilst his fingertips run nonsensical patterns up and down your spine in long soothing strokes, his touch grounding you in the moment, his heartbeat under your ear.
“Want me to go run you a bath?— reheat that pizza?” he murmurs against your temple, brushing a kiss to your hairline as you tilt your head to gaze up at those baby blues of his that the warm lamplight catches.
“Mm, in a minute… just wanna look at you first,” he smirks at your needy response, bringing a hand up to run his fingers through your hair, a silent 'I'm here' in his touch.
“Don’t think there’s much to look at… m’just wrinkles now baby,” he says, a faint chuckle catching in his deep voice.
He watches you roll your eyes at him, in that fond way you do whenever he says or does something ridiculous and god does he just thrive off of your little expressions— it’s free ammunition, that frown you get between your brows and that pout to your lips of yours that he loves to kiss right from your mouth.
You huff, muttering something about him ‘ageing sexily’ as you press a kiss to his stubbled jaw, then another to the corner of his mouth, lingering for a moment. “You’re still my man.”
“Damn straight I am, baby, all yours.” He beams, pride warming behind his ribs and bleeding all through his chest as he hauls you closer to him— dragging your thigh across his hips, your soft curves pressing up into the hard planes of his body like puzzle puzzles. “My girl,” he whispers as if to remind himself, bumping his nose against yours before stealing a slow kiss that has you melting further into him with a pleased noise.
Your fingers thread through his salt and pepper hair, smiling against his mouth when you feel him lean into your hands with the faintest hum— his forehead dropping to yours.
“I’ll build you that bookshelf tomorrow, after I make you breakfast.” you feel his voice rumble through his chest like distant thunder as he speaks, low and yet impossibly tender— always tender with you. “Right now, I’m gonna run you a bath and get some food in you.”
And all you could do was nod, humming a grateful thanks. His words weren’t up for debate, not when it came to looking after you.
AN: oh my god writers block has been beating the shit out of me lol. I’m watching someone play Re9 and got the sudden urge and wrote this <3
summary: Dean will never feel anything for you but friendship, and you have long accepted that. So what's getting him all worked up about you receiving a bit too much attention from one of your witnesses?
warnings: mutual pining, jealousy, idiots in love, friends to lovers, lightly implied age gap, smut (unprotected p in v, creampie, mentions of fingering & oral - f receiving, dumbification, love confessions during the act lmao), a lot of fighting but they're soft for each other, cursing, um ig reader is a little bit of a crybaby and it's mentioned that dean takes care of her
word count: 8.7k words
a/n: if this is bad please don't tell me lol
You don’t have to fake your skittishness as you twirl restlessly on the stool, elbows sticking to the dirty bar counter. The bottle of beer in front of you looks grossly unappealing but you catch Dean’s gaze from across the bar and he raises his eyebrows at you expectantly. You bring the rim to your lips and try not to wince as the bitter, lukewarm liquid goes down.
You do your best to look out of place and uncomfortable, but something tells you that you don’t have to try too hard. The bar is dimly lit and grimy, with deer heads watching you sullenly from the wall. They’re not the only eyes on you. The bar is reasonably busy but there is only one other woman present, and she’s behind the bar. There’s a sinking feeling in your gut and you’re determined that you will never take over Sam’s gig again.
Dean saunters over, cool and cocky, the way you had seen a million times before - but this time he’s sauntering over to you like that. And it makes your stomach do strange, pathetic things.
“Hey baby, you here alone?” he asks, getting up in your space in a way that should be creepy but isn’t because it’s Dean.
“Um yeah,” you mutter, because you may have to fake your body language, leaning away from him in a way that’s supposed to express discomfort, but you don’t have to fake your shyness.
“Lemme buy you a drink. Pretty thing like you shouldn’t be left alone.”
“I’m good, thanks,” you say, twisting your beer bottle around.
“C’mon, just one drink. I don’t bite unless you want me to,” he says smirking, and the way he says it is so unlike Dean, it sets your teeth on edge. If you were really a girl he was trying to pick up, he would have taken no for an answer, but left the door open for you to change your mind, which you inevitably would. He would have said something like; ‘If you’re sure. You know where to find me, baby’ and taken his seat back with a flirty wink. He wouldn’t have insisted or thrown that corny, overused innuendo at you.
“No, really, I’m okay. Thank you.” And you’re squashing your eyebrows together, squirming in your seat, trying to look intimidated but this is Dean and nothing about him is intimidating. Not to you.
“It’s just one fuckin’ drink, bitch. Don’t be such a stuck-up priss.”
Dean’s a good actor but you know he feels remotely uncomfortable having to say any of this to you. It doesn’t matter. The man beside you, taller than Dean but not quite as broad, stands up off his stool.
“Didn’t you hear the lady? She said she doesn’t want a drink, punk.”
Dean makes a big show of backing off, raising his hands in submission and muttering something about how he was ‘only trying to be nice’, before backing away to his table once again. You turn to your saviour with a smile that you hope is radiant.
“Thank you so much,” you simper. “That got a bit scary for a second.”
He looks nice. He is lightly tanned with wavy brown hair, soft green eyes and a handsome smile that verges on shy. You think that this must be what Sam would look like, if life had been a little kinder to him.
“Don’t mention it,” he says with a modest shrug. “God, I can’t stand guys like that. I’m sorry you had to deal with that.”
“Happens more often than you think. Not many people would step in like you just did.”
His chest puffs out like a pigeon at the praise. “Maybe it’s because I’m a cop, but I can’t stand when people sit around and do nothing when something like that is happening in front of them. Makes me sick.”
“You’re a cop?” you ask, smiling and trying to do that ‘doe-eyed shit’ that Dean always accuses you of. It’s harder to do on demand. “That’s so cool, I really admire you guys. Your job must be really hard.”
He shrugs again, cheeks going a dusty pink. “It’s worth it if I can get to help people. But yeah, it can get a bit hairy sometimes.”
“I bet,” you sigh. “I heard about this weird killing spree in the next town over. Those guys sure aren’t living the dream right now. I can’t imagine all the things they have to see.”
He straightens up immediately, animation dropping from his face. “Actually, I- uh, I’m working on those cases right now. You’re right, it’s not pretty.”
You’re losing him. His eyes are drifting away from you, away from the conversation. He’s searching for an out. You’re dimly aware of Dean’s eyes on you from afar, boring holes into your head. In a blind panic, your eyebrows shoot to your hairline, one hand reaching out to his arm in a consoling manner. His eyes drop just once to where your hand meets his wax, green jacket and you feel him coming back to you.
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry for bringing that up,” you say, teeth worrying your lip with anxiety that you don’t really have to falsify. “I had no idea. I’m a bit of a true crime junkie, but the last thing you want to do is talk about that right now on your time off. I’m just gonna go. It was nice meeting you and thanks for, uh-” You make a vague gesture towards Dean, who is still watching you with dark eyes.
“No,” he says, hand moving over your own one on his arm to stop you from moving. He smiles in such a genuine way, it almost makes you feel guilty. “I can let you in on a couple secrets if you promise to keep it between us.”
You brush your hair behind your ear and laugh, soft and shy.
“I’m Jeremy, by the way.”
You have to stop yourself from saying I know.
“Sold it a bit too hard back there,” Dean grumbles, leaning against Baby with his arms folded and watching you dart out of the bar. He’s wearing an irritated scowl.
“Don’t be an ass,” you say, rolling your eyes as you open the car door and slide into the passenger seat. It’s not often that you get to ride shotgun and it feels weird - like you’ve suddenly become more important. Dean follows. “You’re the one that told me to ‘charm the pants off him’ if I remember correctly, so-”
“Yeah, charm him,” he says. “I didn’t say to fuckin’ feel him up.”
“Feel him up?” you splutter with a half-laugh as Dean pulls out of the drive. “You’re ridiculous. I put a hand on his arm. I’ve seen you do worse.”
“Yeah, whatever. You get anything outta him?”
You launch into the story and try to share all the same bits that Sam usually does. You tell him how the victims were all men in their early 20s, recently discharged from a hospital not far away. How the cops are currently questioning the hospital staff but haven’t found anything suspicious just yet. You describe all the gnarly injuries, all the pieces of evidence left behind.
“Um- I think that’s it,” you say, eyebrows furrowing together as you try to figure out whether there is anything you left out.
“That’s it?” Dean says with surprise, eyes shifting from the road to you briefly. “You were in there for damn near an hour. Thought this was about to be some fuckin’ Sherlock Holmes shit.”
“Well I couldn’t just leave straight away once he gave me the information, Dean,” you say, frowning at him. “That’s suspicious. And rude.”
He squeezes his eyes shut for a second and shakes his head. “Never mind. What hospital is it?”
You bite your lip, face flushing. “Um- I don’t know. Should I have asked?”
“Goddamnit, sweetheart-”
“I can ask!”
“Ask who?” Dean frowns.
“Jeremy. The cop from the bar. I mean, I probably can’t just call him up and ask him outright but if I tell him I want to meet up then maybe I could-”
“You exchanged numbers?”
“Well yes,” you say, watching Dean carefully. He is looking more wound up by the second. “He asked and I couldn’t really say no after talking for so long. Besides, it’s useful now because I can ask him what hospital it was.”
“Jesus Christ. I asked you to charm information out of him, not to start a fuckin’ fling-”
“Well maybe you should have waited for Sam or done it yourself!” you say, voice raising in frustration. Your lip is wobbling a little bit and it feels like barbed wire is tightening around your throat. “I’m no good at this stuff, the flirting for information. I get nervous. You know that.”
Dean takes one look glance at you out of the corner of his eye and all his exasperation slips away. He lets out a puff of breath and his body deflates with it, eyes going soft and gooey like they always do when you get upset. It makes you feel like a kid in a horrid, humiliating way, but it’s better than being on the receiving end of his frustration. Dean being annoyed at you is your own personal hell. Of course, he doesn’t know that. He doesn’t know anything about that and you’d like to keep it that way for as long as you possibly can.
“Hey now, none of that. I’m sorry, sweetheart. I’ll find out what hospital is it, don’t you worry about it.”
You nod once and turn to face out the window, still fighting the unsteady feeling in your throat and behind your eyes. Damn him - you’re so soft when it comes to Dean. No matter how much you rebel against it, no matter how many phases of denial or resistance you go through, you just can’t fight how you react to him.
He is still giving you cautious looks whenever he can pry his eyes away from the road. “C’mon, sweetheart. Y’mad at me?”
You shake your head because you don’t trust your voice to carry anything, but you still don’t look at him. He sighs and pulls in to a gas station at the side of the road. It’s one of those small, Americana-style ones you’d find on route 66. You can’t imagine he can get very much in there. He gets out without saying anything and you flinch as the car door slams shut.
You tap your fingers against the window as you wait for him and think resentfully about the fact that he, and he alone, seems to determine whether you’re going to have a good day or a bad one. One smile is enough to make you feel the sun on your skin even when the clouds are out, but his disapproval or disappointment shatters you in a way that not much else can.
It’s hard to remember a time when that wasn’t the case. You look back on your life before the Winchesters as boring - insignificant, even. It’s probably pathetic and un-feminist to admit, but it’s true.
The before of your life seems grey. Before Sam convinced Dean to let you tag along with them because you had nowhere else to go. Before you managed to convince him that you were more than just a burden - that you could help with their jobs. Before you wormed your way into his heart, even if it’s not in the capacity that you might have wished for.
When Dean slides back into the car, he has a cherry cola and a pack of those sour green gummy worms that make your face scrunch up and your tonsils hurt. They’re your favourite.
He watches you as you take them from his hands and when you smile, so does he.
Dean finds out which hospital it is two days later. You’re not sure whether he called up Sam, who is out of commission in a motel a few towns back with the flu, or if he did some digging of his own while you were asleep. But he’s tugging on his jacket by the time you wake up in the motel bed, bleary eyed and sore from the awkward position you slept in.
“Dean?” Your voice is thick with sleep. “Where are you going?”
“I’m headin’ out to the hospital to poke around. It’s early. You go back to sleep, I’ll be quick.”
You would usually fight him on this, but your body is tired, having only recently shaken off the flu that you had so kindly passed on to Sam. You nod drowsily, a bit dizzy with sleep, and he gives you a fond, amused smile, as if you did something very funny. You watch him leave.
Your mind is too awake to drift immediately back into your stupor, and your body gradually wakes up with it. Within a few minutes, you’re too alert to even try. The red digits on the alarm clock read 7:09, and you suppose most coffee places would be open about now.
Dean has all your expensive hair products and shower gels out on the counter of the bathroom and you file that away to complain about later, even though you secretly kind of like when he uses your stuff. You like to think that he might have struck out a couple times because the woman could smell the sweet, girly scents on his skin and hair, and assumed he had a girlfriend.
The shower you take is short, only because there is a film of dirt on the shower floor that makes you feel like you might slip. Most of your clothes are in dire need of laundering so you pluck one of Dean’s plaid shirts up. You tell yourself that it’s ok because he has used something of yours too, even though you know you’re lying to yourself. This is very different. You’re wearing Dean’s shirt because some ugly, desperate part of you wants to feel close to him - wants to smell his scent on your skin. He’s explained to you why he uses your toiletries; “All that girly shit is fuckin’ luxe. Makes my skin feel like a baby’s goddamn ass”.
You check your phone for any updates from Dean before you leave the room, but you see only the same text that had been sitting there since yesterday.
JEREMY (COP FROM BAR - HOSPITAL MURDERS): I really loved meeting you last night. Let me know if you’re free any time soon. I would love to take you on a date.
You smile despite yourself as you descend the stairs of the motel, which leads directly onto the streets of the town. The guy really was sweet, but Dean’s reaction is enough to stave off any intentions to respond, even just for a ‘fling’, as he termed it. It’s hypocritical, really, that Dean has the freedom to chat up whoever he wants on a job but considers you to be ‘derailing the operation’ whenever there is the slightest hint of a connection on your end.
Ultimately, though, it’s fine. Your feeble old heart has a one-track mind and any attempts to satisfy it with some shoddy, off-brand replacement, whether for one night or more, leave you feeling sick and heartbroken. You’ve learned well enough by now that any time you try to move on, it just leaves you bereft.
It’s not even that you think that nobody can compare to Dean - not exactly. Dean is good and he’s kind and is smooth enough to make a nun blush. He’s smart, funny, loyal - the best kind of person there is. But you’ve met a lot of guys with those same qualities. It’s just Dean’s unique blend of those characteristics that you feel must have been concocted within him specifically for you.
And it’s fine that Dean flirts with other women. That he can pick up a girl as easy as others can tie their shoelaces and throw them away even easier. Because he has suffered enough and done enough good in this world to be allowed these kinds of indulgences, and you know that if he was aware of how you felt, he wouldn’t do it anymore. He would lock himself away to avoid hurting your feelings and eventually go insane with frustration and you know he would bear it for you if he thought the alternative was hurting you.
But you won’t let him. Because you love him and there aren’t many things you can do with your love. You can’t get rid of it, you can’t put it down anywhere, or give it to someone else. So you choose to love him in this strange, silent way instead. You suffer so that he doesn’t have to.
The diner you choose is straight out of one of those ‘small town America’ travel brochures. You’ve seen ones just like it in those autumnal TV comedies that you put on in the background. Sam watches them with you with mild interest, even if he pretends he dislikes them, but Dean complains about anything that isn’t chock-full with cars and guns and hot girls. It’s bright when you walk in and fairly clean, even if the red vinyl of the booths is cracking and there is a small stain on your table. A tall, pretty girl takes your order of coffee and scrambled eggs on toast and manages to bring them over to you almost immediately. The food is not great, but it’s not bad either.
“Hi there. Mind if I join you?”
Jeremy is standing in front of you, dressed in his blue uniform and hair askew. He’s smiling hesitantly, as if he’s not sure whether you’re about to tell him to get lost.
“Jeremy, hi,” you splutter, even as you do your level best to seem collected. “Of course. Please.”
He seems a lot more assured of himself as he slides into the booth in front of you, hesitant smile giving way to a charming grin. “You remember my name. That’s a good sign at least.”
You breathe an awkward laugh. “Sure I do. Wouldn’t forget. Are you on duty?”
“Nope, coming off. Just ordered some breakfast at the counter. Then I gotta head over to my niece’s seventh birthday party.”
“Ouch,” you say, wincing in an exaggerated way. “A seventh birthday party is a lot for the morning after a night shift.”
“Tell me about it. You kinda forget how loud kids are at that age.”
He uses the waitress’ name when he thanks her for bringing his order. It makes you smile.
“So you remembered my name and you’re good with me joining you, but you didn’t reply to my text,” he says with a small, teasing grin when the waitress - Justine, apparently - goes back behind the counter. “Trying to figure out what that means. Can you help me out here?”
Your face flushes with shame and mortification, your brain racing to come up with an excuse. He’s handsome and nice and not even trying to make you feel bad about the fact that you ignored him and he should be perfect for you. You should be jumping at the chance for someone like him to take you on a date.
“I’m so sorry,” you gush, real guilt pouring through. “Your text was so sweet, it was really shitty of me to not reply to you. It’s just- well, I’m only here for a couple of days and I didn’t want to waste your time.”
“Relax,” he laughs. “I wasn’t mad. Just don’t wanna be sitting here bothering you if you’re not…”
“You’re not bothering me,” you say, and it’s the truth. Jeremy smiles.
“Where do you live, if you’re not from near here?”
“I travel around a lot for work,” you say, and because you know that’s not really an answer that doesn’t raise suspicion - you add; “But technically Kansas.”
“Kansas isn’t that far from here. Just a matter of a few hours when the traffic’s light.” He’s not looking at you, cracking pepper onto his plate casually.
You’re not worth this kind of attention. Guilt, along with something much more complex and difficult to describe, gnaws low in your stomach. You know that you should be thankful that someone like him would even look twice at you, let alone suggest hours of travel to see you again after meeting you once. But your ungrateful heart can only scream that he is not Dean. Not even close.
“I’m in Kansas maybe thirty percent of the time,” you say with a regretful smile. “I really do move around a lot.”
Jeremy responds, but you don’t hear it. Because another sound has taken up your attention; something low and gravelly and something that sounds an awful lot like Dean.
Your eyes snap over to the counter where Dean has just ordered two coffees to-go. You watch in slow-motion while he looks around the diner - probably looking for a hot girl to chat up, your traitorous mind taunts you - before his gaze finds you.
Sitting in the booth.
With Jeremy.
It looks so bad - it looks planned - and you can only gawp open-mouthed as Dean stomps over, looking completely murderous. Jeremy is giving you a strange look now, wondering why you have suddenly stopped responding, but there’s nothing you can say. You feel like a mouse in a trap.
“We’re going,” Dean snaps out when he makes it all the way over, placing his hand on your arm in a firm grasp. “C’mon.”
Jeremy’s eyes darken as he stands up. “Get away from her right now,” he spits. “Or we’re gonna have a real problem.”
Dean seems to remember the part he played in that little private investigation at the same time as you. The pushy creep who wouldn't take ‘no’ for an answer. His eyes flick between yourself and Jeremy for a second, before he decides it’s not worth it to blow your cover, or to get arrested on charges of sexual harassment. He scoffs for just a second and shoots you a very unimpressed glare before walking out of the diner without his coffees.
“I told you to stay here!” Dean snaps as soon as you walk in the door to your motel room again. It has been over an hour since that moment in the diner and you had been dreading this every moment since. The rest of your breakfast was pleasant, if a little awkward after that interaction. Jeremy had insisted, insisted and insisted again on dropping you back to the motel in his cruiser in a show of gentlemanliness that did more to annoy than impress you. And sure, maybe a part of you understood that you would consider the same gesture charming if it had come from Dean, but Jeremy isn’t Dean so that doesn’t matter.
“No you didn’t,” you sigh, throwing the key onto the table.
“Well, it was fuckin’ implied.”
You give him a bewildered look before collapsing down to sit on your bed and peel off your shoes. “In exactly what way was it implied?”
“When there’s a ghost going around whacking people, your natural instinct should probably be to stay the hell outta the way.”
You roll your eyes and make sure he sees you do it. “Well I’m not a male in my early twenties, so I’m not really the target here, am I?” Your mind catches up a second later. “Wait, you found out it’s a ghost?”
“Yeah, it’s a ghost,” he replies, but he really doesn't seem to want to linger on that subject right now. “That little piggy you were with might be a male in his early twenties. You don’t know, which is why you should have stayed the hell inside.”
“He’s late twenties at the very youngest and you know it,” you say. “And since when am I not allowed to go get breakfast while on a job? Come off it, Dean.”
Dean is still furious, but he seems to be scrambling to figure out how to respond. You take advantage of his momentary speechlessness. “Tell me what you got.”
He is hesitant to drop it there, but he eventually does. He still looks displeased while he walks you through what he figured out - the fact that it’s a ghost; a female from the early 1900s who was left to rot in hospital in favour of a male patient in his early 20s and subsequently died from medical neglect. She has been enacting her revenge with a host of killings every ten years around the anniversary of her death. You will be going back to the hospital after hours, when it’s a bit quieter.
“Pretty standard job. In and out,” he shrugs, and you thought he might distract himself with the details and have gotten over the whole diner incident by the time he finished telling you about it, but he’s still not looking at you. It sends a bolt of hurt through you but you shake it off.
“Right, in and out,” you agree.
The job is simple. In and out, just like he said. You distract the receptionist by asking after a grandmother that doesn’t exist while Dean chases the leads he had found earlier. He finds the bones within thirty minutes and burns them. He’s a bit banged up by the time he makes it back to where you’re waiting in reception, clothes askew and hair mussed up with a cut or two spilling blood through his shirt, but he won’t tell you what happened except that he ‘Sorted it.’ The receptionist gives you a skeptical look when you walk out with him, but she doesn’t say anything else.
You feel exceptionally useless when you climb back into Baby. The power rush you had from riding shotgun has evaporated.
“I can’t believe you made me be the distraction again,” you mutter, scuffing your shoes against the car floor just to piss him off.
“Someone’s gotta to do it,” is all he says back. He still won’t look at you, not even to give you evils for the way you’re treating Baby. Hasn’t looked at you properly since this morning in the motel. It hurt before and it still does, but now you’re just fed up more than anything. There’s only so much awkward silence you can take.
“Dean, will you- Goddamnit, can you look at me?”
He takes a second, fingers flexing around the wheel as he pulls out of the carpark. His lips flatten into a thin line, before he looks at you for a brief second, raising his eyebrows as if to say; ‘There. Happy?’
But you’re not.
“What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t know what the big deal is. You can pretend all you want that this is about me going to get a breakfast, but it’s not is it? You just didn’t like that I was with Jeremy.”
Dean wasn’t expecting that. All exasperated sarcasm melts from his face as he steals an astonished glance at you, eyes alarmed and mouth somewhat ajar. “I don’t know what you’re-”
“You don’t want me getting distracted on a job.”
At that, he seems to relax, slipping back into the same easy grouchiness as before and you wonder what it was he thought you were getting at. “Yeah, that’s it,” he mutters lowly.
“You’re such a hypocrite,” you sigh. “How come you can do whatever you want but I can’t?”
You surprise yourself as much as you surprise him by bringing this up. That’s a subject you always stay well away from - Dean and girls. You look away and pretend not to hear when Sam teases him after he stumbles into the motel room the day after a job ends. You’ve smelt all kinds of perfume on him - sweet, spicy, cheap expensive and say nothing. You excuse yourself to go to the bathroom so you can stop yourself from retching when he approaches some random table in a bar and shoots a suave smile to someone who isn’t you. But it’s spilling out of you now; not because you can’t hold it in anymore (because you can and you will until the end of time), but because it’s simply not fair. You couldn't move on if you tried, you know this, but who is he to tell you whether or not you can try?
“Because, sweetheart, it’s different,” he says, and the word ‘sweetheart’ is uttered almost sarcastically, in a way you had never heard before. You had always been his only sweetheart - one of the only things he could give you and you alone, but it was always said with a sort of gentle veneration - never like this. It feels tainted now. No longer yours.
“How is it different, Dean?” You’re trying to keep that damned barbed wire from closing in on your throat again. Trying, for once, to not be the baby that cries too easily and loves too easily and gives herself away to him for nothing in return.
“Because those girls don’t mean anything. They’re not distractions,” he explains, voice thick and low. “But you can’t have someone who doesn’t mean anything. You carry on with that asshole and you’ll end up in some fuckin’ picket fence house with a wraparound porch.”
He’s halfway there. He’s right, of course. You couldn’t just have an indistinct someone who doesn’t mean anything. You could never let them warm your bed without making yourself feel ill and blue - you had tried it before and it didn’t work out well.
But he really doesn’t understand that you could go on a hundred dates with Jeremy or with anyone else and you still wouldn't end up anywhere but right here. Following Dean around like a slobbering puppy. Because your sick, stubborn heart decided what it wanted years ago and has not forgotten.
Dean must mistake your silence for something else, because he watches you wearily, frustration falling away from his face and giving way to a panicked sort of concern. “Unless that’s…” he coughs nervously. “Unless that’s what you want.”
“That’s not what I want,” you confirm glibly. You don’t mention that it could be what you want, if he decided that it was what he wanted too. It’s your turn to avoid his eyes now. You watch the rain stream down the car window.
“C’mon, I’m tired of fightin’ with y’, sweetheart,” he says and the designation of ‘sweetheart’ is once again yours to claim. He is speaking to you sweetly, coaxing you out of your corner. But tears are springing to your eyes so you keep them trained away from him.
It’s mostly for his benefit, that you hide this from him. It’s not his fault that your world is moved by his hands alone. It’s not his fault that all his attempts to take care of you have worked so well that they backfired and hurt you.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t’ve-” he sighs and you can hear him running his hand through his hair, even though you can’t see it. You can smell a burst of your shampoo when he does it. “I don’t know how to… Did I upset you?”
You don’t say anything for a moment, and he seems ready to speak again.
“I don’t want the… picket fence and porch,” you say, tracing raindrops with your fingers. There’s a wobble in your voice. “But it would be nice to just have someone, maybe.”
That ‘someone’ is Dean, obviously. But you can still dream of someday breaking free of these feelings - finding someone else. You won’t feel a fraction of this intensity for them but that would be ok, that would be alright. And they wouldn’t look at you the way Dean does and they wouldn’t be able to make you laugh like he can but you would learn to live with that, maybe even learn to numb your feelings for Dean from this fire into a dull ache.
Because what good is your love for Dean when you’ve had to debase it so many times? You’ve tried to bastardise it - to turn it platonic, to turn it familial, even to get rid of it altogether and none of it ever works. It returns to you, defiled and wounded but no weaker, every single time.
“You could have me.”
Even the tears in your eyes can’t stop you from looking over at Dean now. You’re searching for any sign that he might be making some sort of joke, but you can’t find it. His eyes are trained firmly on the road, a worried pinch between his brows. You almost feel like you imagined it.
“I… What?”
“If you wanted to have someone. You could have me.”
Your breath feels stuck in your lungs. Dean has no idea what he’s saying; how unintentional cruel he is being to you. You have no idea whether he means as a friend or as a warm body to satisfy some part of your longing. You don’t want to think too long about whether he means the latter - because you’re deathly afraid that you are weak enough to accept his offer and then the whole thing really will fall apart.
“I didn’t mean it in that way. I meant-”
“I know what you meant. I want to be that. For you.”
He is speaking so uncharacteristically soft. It’s not the same soft that he offers you when you’re scared or upset, the confident arm around your shoulder while he coos and comforts. This is another kind of soft. He always looks tired, but right now he looks exhausted. You’ve only seen him look this vulnerable a handful of times and you feel a strange discomfort when you realise each time has been when he was speaking about his dad.
You are soaking in his words as he puts the car in park outside the motel. Crickets croak to fill the silence between you. He is sneaking glances and you know him well enough to know that he is trying to get a read on you.
“Why?” you land on eventually.
He frowns. “The hell do you mean why?”
“Why are you offering to-? You don’t need to feel sorry for me, or whatever-”
Dean laughs, more angry than amused. “You really think I’d tell you I want to be with you because I feel sorry for you? I’m fuckin’…” Dean sighs, face twitching with discomfort and awkwardness. “I think if you just gave it a chance, I could maybe be the someone you’re talkin’ about. Maybe.”
Your face flushes with heat and your brain feels like the scrambled eggs you had for breakfast. Your mind is racing to make sense of what you’re hearing - he could ‘maybe be your someone’? “What…”
Dean shuts down, as if a sudden door slams over that vulnerability he had shown you just a minute ago. “Y’know what, forget it-”
“No!”
He pauses, his hand going still on the car door. Your thoughts aren’t making sense at this point but you’re desperate to say something - anything - that might stop him from leaving.
“I want to-” you stutter, clumsy as a baby goat. “I want you to be my maybe-someone too, but I want to know for sure that you… I don’t know how to talk about this, but please don’t leave.”
Dean is skittish when he looks back over to you. You see a flicker of something masked by a cloud of doubt. Slowly, he reaches his hand out for yours. You clutch it with urgency, holding it tight against your own. His hands feel big and rough against your skin. Your thumb glides along all the little ridges and bumps and callouses; the results of the dirty work he never lets you do. He looks as if he is almost afraid you’ll bite when he reaches the other hand out, hesitantly moving up to your face, and his throat bobs a little bit when you lean in to his touch. His pretty green eyes are watching you carefully while his thumb works its way slowly along your cheekbone and you wonder for the briefest of seconds if this is another one of your dreams.
But the next second he’s kissing you and you know it can’t be a dream. Because even in your dreams, you don’t allow yourself to imagine it would be like this to kiss Dean. In your dreams, his kisses are hot and rough, the same way you had seen him dole them out to an endless carousel of girls in dark corners of bars, while you and Sam play solitaire and try to ignore what’s happening in your eye-line.
Dean’s lips are warm and unsure, like he doesn’t know whether he is really allowed to do this. You melt into him slowly, because you had thought about this moment too often for you to freeze up when it is finally happening. He takes your bottom lip into his mouth, pulling you up against him, and chokes a broken sigh into your mouth, as if he was the one who had been waiting on this for years. As if he was the one who had to suffer all this longing, had to wield his love carefully so it wouldn’t pour out of him like water from a faucet.
You have gone astray in the feeling of his lips, of his large hands gripping your waist with such painstaking gentleness. Your heart is aching in your chest and you know it’s lost to him forever when he runs a careful hand through your hair, holding you with the same tenderness that he treats you with in all regards.
You’re not even thinking when you press yourself closer to him, clasping your hands around his shoulders and pushing your chest to his urgently. Your need for him - to just be close to him - is growing rapidly inside you like a fire. You shake a bit as Dean kisses you harder, mouth moving against yours, hot and messy.
Gone is the sweet gentleness from just a moment ago, but this is still not quite how you have seen Dean kiss strangers in bars. He’s holding you a bit tighter, kissing you with a bit more exigency. Maybe it’s wishful thinking, but you’re sure you had never seen him kiss anyone like this. Heat is pooling low in your stomach and you’re squirming, legs twitching as you try to get closer to him. Eventually Dean grunts, the sound sending sparks in your stomach and between your thighs. He splays a hand over your thigh and shifts it over his own. In this position, you become aware of how hard he is. You can feel it even through the layer of jeans and it makes you gasp.
“Dean,” you breathe, struggling for air.
He’s undeterred. One hand moves to gently caress the side of your neck as his mouth moves to kiss you there, soft but insistent.
“Hm?” he hums against your neck. You feel its vibration.
Your brain is failing you. The need for him is catapulting you off the edge of sanity and all your focus is garnered towards that bulge below you. You press down without even meaning to and Dean groans at the contact.
“Hey now, slow down, sweetheart,” he says, pulling away from your neck and looking up at you with half-lidded, blown-out eyes. You make a noise that you don’t even hear. You think it’s a protestation.
“F’you think I’m gonna take you in the front seat of Baby out in some scabby parking lot for our first time, you’re crazy,” he says, thumb reaching up to pull at your bottom lip.
Your heart soars. First time.
“What, you think that mangy motel room is better?”
Dean laughs. “Maybe not. But ‘least there I can lay you out all pretty. Take my time with you like I always pictured.”
His words go straight to your abdomen in a strange, pleasant mix of love and desire. You clamber off his lap in record speed.
You frown. “Are you sure?”
“Am I - fuck - what the hell are you talkin’ about right now?”
Dean is sitting up against the headboard of the bed. His gaze is dark and unfocused, sweat dripping down his brow and on to his naked chest.
“Are you sure that you want to be my maybe-someone?”
He gives you a strange look, eyes squinting and corners of his mouth poking up in that Dean-is-very-bewildered way. “Huh?”
“I just want to make sure that you’re sure, because I don’t think I’ll be able to- Oh…”
Your mind trails off the subject as Dean uses his grip on your waist to thrust his hips up just a bit, hitting that sweet spot you had just recently (tonight) discovered. His cock is deep inside you, stretching you out in a way that is almost enough to make you want to drop the subject. If you cared about him any less, you probably would.
“I don’t wanna be your maybe-someone, sweetheart. I wanna be your someone. I love you.”
That brings you back. Your heart thuds painfully in your chest, and you have the odd compulsion to cry. Your body is experiencing a lot right now. “You love me?” The barbed wire is tightening again, but this time in a good way. That steamy grin Dean had been wearing crumbles into something softer. He nods.
“But what about the girls?”
“What girls?”
You flush. “Y’know. The girls you… in all the bars…”
His hands palm your hips with a bruising grip, flexing there as he bounces you on him experimentally, like he’s trying to get you to forget that any girls ever existed. Your cunt clenches tight around him, entire body buzzing, and black spots dance behind your eyes, but you sit still because you have really fucking great self-control.
“Shit, baby,” he groans, head rolling back. “I don’t wanna talk about any damn girl except you right now.”
“Dean.”
His face scrunches up in exasperation as he fights to keep his eyes on yours. They keep travelling down to your tits. “I wasn’t lying when I said they didn’t mean anything, sweetheart,” he says, dropping down to press kisses to your neck. Your eyes flutter shut and you unintentionally grind down at the wonderful tingly feeling it gives you. Dean grunts.
“Tried to go on as normal for a while. Thought I could get over you, ‘cause I didn’t wanna burden you with my shit. Didn’t work. Just ended up with a loada pissed off girls who kicked me out after I said the wrong name. That’s it.”
You barely notice that you had begun to grind down on him again until Dean wraps his lips around one of your nipples and you let out a desperate moan. His right hand moves down, feather-light, to stroke up and down your thigh.
“How- how long?”
“Dunno. Kinda sleep-walked into it,” he says, gasping between sentences as you leisurely ride him. “Think I realised when we were at Bobby’s house that one time and I heard you bangin’ around in your room for at least twenty minutes. Walked in and saw you wrapped up in that bedsheet like a ghost ‘cause you couldn't get it on and wouldn’t ask anyone for help. ’S stupid but it made me laugh so damn hard.”
He laughs shakily as he remembers it. You try to recall, but the angle he’s hitting inside you is turning any thought into a tough feat. “I don’t remember that. Must have been years ago.”
He just nods and leans up to kiss you, pretty and desperate. You pull away, even if you would much rather not.
“You’ve loved me for years?”
“Probably longer than that too, sweetheart. Everyone else seemed to figure it out before I did. Everyone except you.”
He’s trying to distract you again with his lips on your neck, but your brain is working too fast now.
“Everyone- Dean, does Sam know?”
He grunts and you can feel it rip through his chest under your fingertips. When he looks up at you, his pretty green eyes have gone a shade darker.
“Please don’t say another man’s name while I’m fuckin’ you ever again, sweetheart,” he damn-near growls. “ ‘Specially not my brother’s.”
You’re being flipped over then, your skull narrowly avoiding the headboard, until you’re under him, knees pressed up and he’s sliding into you at his pace this time.
“But yes. Everyone means everyone.”
He rolls his hips into yours and you can’t stop the breathy moan that escapes at how he feels inside you. He’s so deep and you’ve never been this full before, but there’s no pain to it because it’s Dean and he had made sure you were ready for him - of course he did. He had played with your pussy; rubbed it and fingered it and licked it in ways you didn’t even know were possible before sliding into you with a slow, loving reverence that made your legs tremble and your heart quake. He’d eased in slowly, despite you whining that you wanted to take him all the way. Dean has always taken care of you and he always will, especially now.
“And since you clearly can’t be trusted on top yet,” he says, punctuating his point with a brutal thrust that has you gasping and clenching around him. “I’m just gonna have to fuck all those thoughts outta your clever little head. Maybe then I’ll let you get back on top. When you can’t treat this like a job we’re workin’ on and all you can think about is me and how good I’m fuckin’ you.”
God, his voice is travelling right through your body and you still can’t quite believe that this is really happening. Your hips jerk up to meet his thrust as he turns you to ruins below him. You’re still fighting to hold on to your line of questioning, but he’s making it so hard.
“Dean, I- oh-”
His hand goes down to find your clit, gives it a rub with his thumb without losing any of his rhythm.Your eyes squeeze shut and your body moves against his as if your mind doesn’t have any say or involvement in the matter.
“That’s it, let me fuck you stupid. Forget about everything else. I’ll sort you right out, baby.”
It shouldn’t be possible for him to fuck you like this. One hand still under your knee and the other playing with your clit, still maintaining a bruising rhythm that sends stars to your eyes.
It’s not fair.
Because for as many times as you had pictured being fucked by Dean, as much as you had known that nobody else could compare, you still had no concept of just how good the real thing could be. How thoroughly it would destroy you for anyone else.
“So pretty and dumb when I’m splitting you open like this,” he whispers, fucking himself so deep in that you can feel the tip pushing against your cervix. “Can’t believe you’re letting me have you like this. Knew you’d feel this good, sweetheart. Thought about you like this every goddamn day.”
You have already come twice. Once on his fingers, once on his tongue. And now he’s about to make you come with his cock. You love every woman he has ever been with for showing him exactly the ways to touch you in order to make pleasure flash in every nerve, and you hate them for ever having him like this before you did. But it doesn’t matter now, because Dean seems as far gone as you and his face makes you think that maybe he’s destroyed for anyone else too.
The noises you’re making are barely coherent - something about how good it feels, how deep he is inside you - but they make Dean smile at you, sly and patronising as his tip keeps hitting that spongy spot inside you.
“Yeah, baby?” he coos at you, and all you can do is nod, even if you’re not sure what exactly he’s asking you. “Doin’ so good. Tight pussy’s suckin’ me in.”
Your eyes flutter, fighting the instinct to close only because you want to keep watching Dean - you don’t want to miss a second of how sweet and wrecked he looks above you. He’s got the control now, but you can tell he’s close to losing it by the way his eyebrows furrow just a little and his face goes unfocused. His drooping eyes travel around your body quickly, shooting from your face to your tits to where you’re being split open by him, like he can’t decide where to look.
“Please, Dean. Need more,” you whine, just centimetres from coming. You’re not even sure you could take more at this point, but you want to see what he’ll do.
“Nuh-uh, sweetheart,” he says, even as he slams his hips into yours harder. Your eyes roll back. “Takin’ you nice and sweet right now. Gonna make you come apart real pretty for me. Enjoy it ‘cause next time I’m not gonna be this nice.”
Your brain stutters at the thought that this is him being nice. This feels utterly filthy to you.
There’s an overwhelming pit of pleasure in the bottom of your stomach and it seeps low into your pussy. You twitch once, clenching down on him, and with one more brutal thrust you’re falling over the edge, grinding right down on him. You’re spewing out words incoherently, babbling in tongues. One thing that is coherent, though - one thing that is entirely unmistakable - is how you gasp out; “I love you” in a broken moan.
You hadn’t really noticed that you hadn’t said it back when Dean first admitted it. It had felt obvious to you, like a fact of life. The sky is blue, the grass is green and you love Dean Winchester. You didn’t really think about the fact that he didn’t know.
But you think about it now. When Dean’s half-lidded eyes suddenly shoot open and he’s marvelling at you with such open awe that it makes you feel like maybe you’re something sacred to him too. His face crumbles and he seems to lose control while you’re still riding your high, spilling so deep inside you that you can feel his warmth in your tummy.
Once he’s spent, he slows his hips down and thrusts shallowly while you twitch and jerk around him, his body folding over your own in a way that makes you feel wholly and completely surrounded by him. You feel lax and satisfied as you had never been before.
“You mean it?” he asks against your neck, lips pressing a small kiss there. You know that that kiss means; it’s ok if you don’t.
You shudder out a breathless laugh and your chest moves against his because of how closely your warm bodies are pressed together.
“You really don’t understand. I’m crazy in love with you, Dean.”
His head lifts up and he searches your eyes with the same expression he uses to investigate a haunted house or look for evidence in some abandoned warehouse. “Since when?”
“Since forever,” you say, heat flooding your face. “Even when I was just some dumb kid you didn’t want tagging along with you and Sammy.”
He goes soft. He melts to a puddle and wraps himself around you even tighter, hand going to your face while he presses a hot, gentle kiss to your lips. “My girl,” he murmurs against your lips.
“You girl?” you repeat, pulling back even though you still feel like you’re floating. “Are you sure? I know you don’t really-”
Dean groans. “Sweetheart. You gonna make me fuck all those doubts outta your head again?”
You smile. “Maybe later.”
a/n: first supernatural fic! i am genuinely terrified!