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Uhhhhhh my name is Kit and Kit is my name, i'm kit and being kit is the game

[fibberjunkie]

day?

i feel like im in a dark hole in which i see no light at all. I look around and see people change and be better people than i ever could. I can’t believe some people would consider me an addict. 

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username

used to be “imsadallthetime69″ but i used a username generator and choose insults twice. get ready for fibberjunkie

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a year since the first thing maybe

i’m noticing that i’m having manic episodes, and to be honest those feel really good. i wish i’d change my blog name, since i’m not sad all the time. i haven’t felt as happy as i did before the christmas incident. i wish i could’ve taken it all back or gone to the police and ruined his life for ever. I wish i didn’t back out. anyway still want to live on the country side

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bucket list (tbc)

go to a party to get wrecked WHILE “LIKE A G6″ IS PLAYING

cook and eat a gold fish

do heroin

as an adult, find a nice open area and every time when you buy bread, double the amount and spread out the extra bread on the open area. Do this for years.

go to Leum Uilleim

try drugs

ketamine

cocaine

crack

fent

lsd

mdma

graduate from high school

blow a tuba, trumpet, saxophone

go through a mirror maze while high

Psychology -> psychiatry -> behavioral science

[fibberjunkie]

day ???????????

yesterday i had a test which i think i totally fucked up hahah, it’s ok tho.... i mean it’s not but it doesn’t matter. i’m really behind on my school work, i just have no motivation to make anything, even if they’re creative things. so today i didn’t have any school so i woke up at 1 pm, i did nothing today. that made me feel kinda shitty, i even got a headache. we fought a week ago and only today i made a playlist about it. i got over it way to quickly hahahhaha anyway i also joined 1993 myspace, it’s pretty cool but i don’t know what kind of vibe i’m going for. i think i’ve gotten better at playing guitar and i’m proud of that. it’s 4.52 am and i have class at 2 pm... is that enough time? ahhahhahah uh oh

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idk what to say but this is a good update

I feel so much better. I’m finally happy for the future! I want to have a farm somewhere in the east of england. W E T A N D F E R T I L E L A N D. atleast E2 told me that. And i trust him. W said she would love to come visit me! I’d make a special room for her filled with books she might like! and i’ll make her an easel and put it in a beautiful area so she could paint with oil paints! along side of the books i’ll have my vinyls and the vinyl player. I’ll but some arctic monkeys since she likes them. i would love to be a farmer man. that be neat. I was scared of failing school and finishing at the top of my class but knowing that i’ll be going down a peg isn’t the end of the world. I’ll be studying bio and chem next year. If farming doesn’t work out i’ll be making meth and selling it on the dark web! teehee.... i’m kidding........................................................................... anyway

my dog is now 4 years old and i’ll prolly finish school in 2-3 years. my dog will be 7. i can move with him to the farm and he’ll have a big area to roam around! I’ll have chickens and cows! 2 cows maybe. Betsy and Margaret, or Rasp and Utin. And i’ll have 4 chickens! I’ll name them something related to cocks cause that's funny. I’ll name one Ochinchin, Cock and Ball torture (Seabitie for short), Charlie(not cock related but it’s a reference), and Cûmslút. It’ll be fun! I’m really happy about this idea

I’ll also plant her favourite flowers! she said she likes purple flowers that look like lavender but aren’t. I’ll also plant sun flowers for my mom. 

Will i actually move to the east of England, purchase land, and have a neat farm? 

I really hope so. The idea makes me really happy. Next school year I would like to talk to a therapist or something to make myself feel even better. I just want to be happy :) I really can’t wait to move to a farm. I grew up around farms so they feel like home to me.

I would like some internet on the farm..

I think i should name my farm something...

something cool...

hmmm....

Kit’s farm is too basic

Took me a while to think about one

soo...

here it is

Coward’s farm

cool name if i say so myself

I can’t wait for the thunderstorms so i can chill inside and watch the rain

I want internet so i can chat with my friends of course! maybe play some video games!... I have an XBOX BOYS with some cool games lol I want a tv so i can but cd’s and watch movies the old fashion way... better yet! VHS... nah... netflix is fine lmao... Maybe i’ll become a streamer or something to make some extra cash on the side

I”LL HAVE A CAMPFIRE OUTSIDE SO I CAN ROAST MARSHMALLOWS

i’ll be vegetarian so i don’t have to kill my sexy chickens or cows.. I”LL MAKE PANCAKES!!!

OHMYFUCKINGGODILLHAVEAHORSE

i’ll have a horse if it’s a girl i’ll name her Freya

If it’s a boy i’ll name him Felix

I like those names

I’ll be happy

If you have any farm tip please or Any advice please share

[fibberjunkie]

dd

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck................

i feel like i ruined everything

i always ruin everything 

fuck fuck fuck

DFSNLADSNJADFSJ;ADNADFSJADFSNLASNASJOFGAU;OGADBSJOAGSDBJABJAGSUOAGSUOAGBJDGSBJLGBGJLJLBGSDDNLGJL

FFS

WHY DO I DO THIS

WHY DO I TALK

WHY DO I TALK

NOW THEY’RE BOTH MAD

NOT MAD

BUT JUST TENSE

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

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Day6

tired so imma keep this short. had a singing and guitar lesson today. had fun. dad yelled at me and told me he wanted to bash my head in :) had some ok food. played minecraft. ok day.

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Day5

today i almost over slept for my Dutch lesson! haha i was playing alot of minecraft today. I was building a church in Minecraft!!!! for Her! I had a lot of fun. I ate some good food :) nice pesto pizza :) didn’t do alot today. i broke my amp cable for my guitar :((((((( Played alot of minecraft. converted to islam haha and sacrificed cats. my dad didn’t upset me at all :). His friend asked if i wanted food.. yeah, i said yeah because i didn’t eat anything. right before bed she asked me to make her homework. :/ not a good night. 

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Day4

Woke up at 7am?!?!??! that’s so early!!! I went to bed 1!! 6 hours of sleep, damn. Of course I went back to sleep. I woke up at 10. I quickly made geography just in time for the lesson. I filmed myself making pancakes for french! and then i edited the video and i think it looks nice :). i showed my step dad the video... Even tho i told him that i know the mistakes i made he still pointed them out. Later I read him a PO i wrote back in november. He again pointed out every mistake i made even when i begged him to stop. Then his friend arrived and my step dad kept laughing at the things i wrote. My step dad really likes making fun of me infront of other people. I went to my room and cuddled with Jack :). then She called and i grabbed some pancakes to eat. I left some for later. then she went to make her video i played minecraft. I ate my left over pancakes that i hid in my room. My step dad didn’t get dinner :( I worked on the mob spawner!!! It works pretty good :) Her video was really funny and it made my day. then E shut down the server so i made Her watch possibly in michigan. It’s so cool. I started to transcribe my favourite part. After the video we read some tinky winky x reader fanfic. Haha pretty good She started to play the sims And I continued to transcribe the video :) It got late so we hung up and i went to bed. 

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Day3

Woke up today. Started to make my bio test. I hope it went ok. Then W called and we talked cause she wanted to play minecraft. I thought she bought it. Turns out she wanted me to buy it. I felt shitty. I didn’t want to buy her the game. But I did want her to play it. I at first couldn’t figure out how to buy a gift code. So i gave up to make my test. She hung up. Later I bought her the game so we could all play together. Then She went away and I played minecraft a little longer. Everyone eventually left and E asked if we could take my dog out. I quickly ate some food. It was ok. And then I left. We walked to the park and I walked all the way to his house and then back. I played guitar for my step dad and his friend. His friend is really nice and he compliments me but my dad only criticized me. He got really drunk. His friend left and I put him to bed. I was trying to help him but he just kept swearing to me. I walked him to his bed but he was angry. Why do I even bother? I went to my room and finished the test. I think it went ok :). I have to make geography but I’m tired. So I’ll do it later.... Tomorrow. My dog is also tired so I’ll go lie down now and try to sleeeeeeeeep!! Prolly gonna watch king of the hill! 

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Day2

I woke up today and played some Stardew Valley with my greatest friend. Something seemed off tho, I felt tired today. After that I played minecraft with the Sovjet gang! We took a break for a couple of hours. In those hours I wanted to message her asking to play SDV again but I felt tired so I took a nap. I got a really bad headache for a couple of hours. In the meanwhile I played the sims for a little bit. Then I complained about school to my dad. Then I played some guitar for him. He so harsh sometimes. Then I ate some good pizza :) cheeeezzy crust mmmmmmm. Then I played more minecraft! I made my hermit cave! E turned the Cat disc into Le Festin!!!!! so coool!!!! and disc 13 into siren head sounds! I love the discs!!!!! My dad called the police on the neighbours because they were being too loud. They weren’t >:( He called me deaf. My friend finished reading the first Twilight book!!!! in like 2 days!!!!!!! thats soooo coooooooooooooool1!! she reads soo fast. The books are different than the movies besides bella’s dad. Decent day! 

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Day 1

Woke up today. Did some school calls. Played some guitar! I’m getting better.. I think I’m getting better. I’m learning a new song! Played some minecraft with friends. Everyone left so I msged her. She’s busy too I guess... Again... My dad still didn’t bring the camera :( I keep asking him but he keeps forgetting . It’s not fair. He get’s so mad when I forget stuff. He’s still drunk. We argued a bit but I got tired so I left. His friend came with dinner. The food wasn’t that good. They’ve been listening to russian music very loudly while my dad cries. I looked up my moms name on google. I watched a video about minecraft lava! I think i’m gonna go play some more guitar soon if I feel like it. I keep chewing on my guitar pick