fidelissimi - most loyal

ruby- his fatal flaw - his weakness in oh, so many ways… …his addiction, the one who’d taken his heart and his hope and had carved it into an animal of her own design. power hungry and ambitious... — 'inkchester' Sam Winchester

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❝  St. Mary’s – abandoned in ‘72 after a priest disemboweled eight nuns.❞

              ❝ What’s black and white and RED all over? ❞

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❝  St. Mary’s – abandoned in ‘72 after a priest disemboweled eight nuns.❞

              ❝ What’s black and white and RED all over? ❞

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          sorry i’m late with the demon delivery                             i was just being tortured

[fidelissimiarchive-blog]

new blog

check ruby’s new digs over here

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          sorry i’m late with the demon delivery                             i was just being tortured

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gonna re-watch s3-s4 and then make ruby a new blog.  i can’t get rid of muse for her, no matter how long she sits idle, so i’m gonna give her another shot in a new home.

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might archive this blog, because i would love a fresh start for Ruby. i haven’t played on here seriously in a long time and i’d love to start again. i’ll post another update when i make up my mind.

[angelinasjoli]

[fidelissimiarchive-blog]

shippy angst starters.

"You're an idiot if you thought I cared about you."

"You took advantage of my feelings for you."

"Fuck you, fuck your boyfriend/girlfriend and fuck everything about you!"

"I'm in love with you and I'm sick of having to hide it."

"You were supposed to be different."

"You were the one, I can't just move on!"

"I loved you, and just because we broke up doesn't mean I can turn it off."

"I love you too much and you don't love me at all..."

"I would've done anything for you..."

"You left me. You don't get to come back."

"I want you to hurt like I do."

"That's it? You're just giving up on me?"

"I never thought we'd end like this."

"It's such a shame to let you walk away."

"Love isn't a three-way street!"

"Is this goodbye?"

"I would have followed you anywhere. "

"Do I even matter to you?!"

"My back has turned on you."

"I should have known you'd break my heart."

"You're gone and I'm haunted and I bet you are just fine!"

"Goodbye, my almost lover."

"It's over."

"I can't do this anymore."

"I'm leaving you."

"I'm done crying over you."

"I have to let you go."

"You said you loved me..."

"I LOVED you. Past tense."

"I don't believe in love."

"I never loved you."

"I hate you."

[liftedandgiftedd]

if her legs aren’t shaking when you’re done then you’re not done

[chaoticvictors-archive]

Send “You’re hot when you’re angry” for my muse’s reaction to your muse saying this.

Or say “I’m hot when I’m angry?” for your muse’s reaction to my muse asking them this.

[theenvyofeden]

[ for aisling & @malusspiritus & @xmutuallyxassuredxdestructionx & @fidelissimi​ & all the other megs & rubys & badass demon bitches & their muns.]

[ & also @cagedindarkness​ when in drag ]

[shemueloftheirinim-archive]

more than who we were before

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Sam gave her a small wounded smile when she said she was sorry. Oddly enough he believed her. For all their differences in the past, that whole clusterfuck wasn’t her fault alone. He stopped blaming her for it years ago. After all, she hadn’t forced him to do what he’d done. As she said once before, she’d given him choices and he’d made his decisions. He had accepted his part in that.

The shock and surprise in her voice when the pieces fell into place turned the wounded smile wry, though he glanced warily around the diner briefly. Habit. But no one was close and no one was paying them any attention so he turned his eyes back to the former demon sitting across from him.

“Got it in one,” he said softly. He shrugged a shoulder. The revelation was still new enough to make him awkward, bright and shiny like a new penny he kept staring at and turning over. “I was. Something about what I went through with the Trials finally jogged it loose. Forced me to remember. I’m still human, no Grace, but all the memories are there. Apparently… I was also loyal to Lucifer, though I didn’t fall when he was cast out of Heaven. That came later.”

And at a price. But it had been his choice. He’d known what would happen when he made it and he’d do it again without hesitation. But his eyes turned serious. “That’s why I wanted to say… I get it. What you did. Why you did it. If it had been me I’d have tried just as hard, likely done most of the same things you did. If I’d known then what I know now I might not even have fought you on it. But… I wanted you to know. That I understand. I don’t… hold it against you. I don’t blame you.” A small wry smile. “Actually, I’m pretty impressed if I look at it from my angelic point of view.”

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As grateful as she was that there was some semblance of understanding for all of her actions before, there was still a knot formed in her chest learning of his own once angelic existence. Even now she’s trying to tie the pieces together, but nothing is fitting right, because an angel shouldn’t be charged to be the guardian of another. The moment he says he’s without his Grace is the clarifying point, and she starts to wonder if this had all been a part of the Big Plan all along.

“Do you think God had this all mapped out then? I don’t know how your timeline worked out... all still seems kind of skeevy to me. I’m getting a headache thinking about it.” To emphasize, as if on cue, her hand reached to dig fingertips into her temple, across her forehead and down to the bridge of her nose. She understood him losing his appetite now.

“Look I didn’t want to do what I did, but I knew it was the only way. Yes, there was a plethora of manipulation going on but I really did have the best of intentions. I’m just glad you know that now.” Ruby drags in a deep breath, lets her hands fall back to the table and just because Sam should be used to her habit of stealing fries off his plate, she reaches for a tomato this time, because it’s there and she’s starting to get hungry herself. The cherry red vegetable, (fruit? -- she’s still not entirely sure how that rule works) is popped into her mouth and she chews it well enough before speaking again.

“So you don’t have your Grace, but did you plan on looking for it? Got any clues on that yet?”

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                                She had a flower tattoo on her wrist;                              “What does that mean?” he asked her.                    “Absolutely nothing,” she said, “it’s just a flower.”

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                                               Have yourself                  a Merry little Christmas...                                     Let your HEART be LIGHT

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MUTUAL STARTER CALL

[wnq-writers]

Most days my demons are silent, but when they talk, oh, God, how they scream.

writersblockedmind(viawnq-writers)