Sarcastic bitch.

 liar(s) here. People make judgements way too quickly. Put the props down, just be yourself. We’re too obsessed with technology, phones, computers and shit to talk to each other face-to-face, these days. I like making connections with random strangers. Interesting ones, who want to change the world without becoming a footballer’s wife or a porn star. That’s all about meeting interesting individuals you come across in ways that you’d never expect.

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@yourfavouritefitch-blog @itskatie-xox-blog @lilikinili @bristols-only-jessjameson-blog @andthenitgottoohard-blog-blog 

Ray-Ban Sunglasses

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"Let's pretend it never happened" || Emily & Naomi

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  “Strongest person you’ve ever known? That can’t be true,” Emily replied. Naomi had to be lying to her. Emily always felt like the weaker one. Naomi had been such a force of nature in their relationship. She had been the rock while Emily was trying to find her way in the world. Naomi was smart and courageous, of course she was still trying to figure out her feelings…but that didn’t matter. Emily wasn’t strong and she certainly didn’t feel strong right now.  Naomi’s lips felt perfect. Emily didn’t even want to let go. She waited for Naomi’s reaction and hoped it would be a positive one. She was surprised when Naomi kissed her only for a brief moment. It had been so long since the two had last kissed, she didn’t want to stop. “I love you too, Naomi. We don’t have to do this anymore. We can work this out. I don’t know how yet, I have no idea…but I think we can figure it out. I know we will. If anyone can do it, we can. Right?” she pleaded, her eyes stinging with tears. She placed her hand on Naomi’s face and gently wiped away the tears streaming down her face.

“I’m not going anywhere, I promise. Just don’t leave me. I need you…I need you to stay,” Emily as she kissed Naomi. Her stomach was in knots. She was nervous and excited and terrified all at once. Part of her couldn’t believe that she was giving in. She had never intended to let Naomi back into her life again. After hearing that she had cheated again she wanted to kick Naomi out of her flat and never see her again. But when Naomi didn’t have the money to go anywhere else, Emily didn’t have the heart to throw her out on the streets. Plus, after the initial anger wore off, Emily realized that as horrible as she felt about herself, she couldn’t ever let Naomi go. Now here she was, kissing Naomi and telling her that all was forgiven. Emily hated herself for it, but she was also the happiest she had been in months. Naomi was the true love of her life. She needed her and she wanted her, that much was clear. “I love you so much. Just please stay with me. Let’s start over,” she whispered, placing a kiss on Naomi’s cheek. 

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 "But you are Ems, you trully are. I always admired you for that", the blonde replied. What Naomi said, was true. She had never admired a person like that before. No matter what, Emily always had a smile on her face ad she always made others feel better. She was pure and that's what Naomi liked about her.

 Naomi exhaled and smiled at Emily. "You promise? You promise that no matter what, we'll always find a way?", she asked and looked straight into Emily's eyes. Naomi could never imagine that the two of them are finally doing this. They're actually read to forget the past- for the second time and begin their relationship over again. It was obvious enough, that the two of them were meant to be; Naomi was certainly sure about it.

 "I won't leave you, never. I'll do whatever I can to make it up to you. I'm sorry... I'm just so sorry", she cried out and kissed Emily again. Naomi didn't want to let go of Emily's lips. She missed the feeling, the softness a kiss from Emily was like. Naomi's heart would always be with Emily. She realised it the second she felt that she was losing Emily. 

 Happiness, joy and mostly love were the feelings Naomi felt right now. The heart ache left, along with the pain. Of course, she felt horrible for what she did to her love, but she was willing to forget about it and start over again with the person she was meant to be with. "I love you more than anything Ems. I'll keep you close, no matter what. I'll try... this time for sure. I'll try to be strong and not to break like I always do. I'll do that, because I love you", she said and she felt tears running down her cheek for the hundrenth time. "Shit, now I'm crying again", she noticed and giggled. She wiped away her tears and holded Emily's hand as tight as possible. "It's us forever, yeah?"

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It'll be nice to get away.

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Not necessarily.

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So you're just going away with Cook, as friends?

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Had a blast with Paddy, now its time for adult fun.

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I wont ask but we will have so much fun you will forget what’s on your mind girly.

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Thanks Cook.

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It'll be nice to get away.

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Good observation.

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So, it's you and Cook then?

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Had a blast with Paddy, now its time for adult fun.

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Good where would you want to go?

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At some club, please.

I need to distract my mind.

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It'll be nice to get away.

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Yeah, he is.

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So, you don't care obviously.

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All Messed Up || Freddie + Naomi

Clearing his throat, Freddie lit another joint. Things were starting to mix themselves up in his head again. He assumed the drugs weren’t much help, but he still craved that sense of apathy that accompanied the illegal substance. God, everything was so foggy when he was high. He liked it, though. It was his emergency exit to the dark tunnel of depression. It’s like running…Running and running down a dark tunnel; exits lining the sides and you can see them, but they’re so far away- too far to reach. Everything goes white and jittery for a while, but when the drugs fade, it’s all so fucking unbearable again.

Freddie’s attention shifted, causing the smoke to get caught somewhere in his throat. He coughed and sputtered, waiting for that scratchy, burning sensation to pass. When it did, he eyed the blonde before him. Her ivory skin almost glowed in the dark. Something in his brain started to tick, but it was like pieces of a broken mirror…Fuck. Screw Doctor Foster and his stupid fucking ‘treatment.’ A few awkward seconds of silence passed before he began to place the woman.

He felt a scream building up in the back of his throat. Still, he supressed it. E…Effy, said it would be hard at first. Just gotta get used to it, he guessed. Having his memory stolen had basically messed up his entire way of living. “Naomi.” He said, relieved. Darkness engulfed him as he shot her a small smile, or tried to. Freddie couldn’t even recall how he’d made his way to this bridge, especially at 12:30 in the morning. Places had been kidnapped from him too. It was beautiful here, he thought. The rough pavement was kinda digging into his jeans as he sat on the edge, however, the constant swooshing of the water suited his indifferent mood well.

It smelt of burnt tires and he simply had no damn clue why. Maybe that was just him. Apparently, mood can affect the way you smell things. Apparently. “Sorry…Things are still a little foggy, you know?” Turning to face her, he offered her the joint. “Everything’s fucked. I feel like I’m wasting my time…” Silence. 

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 It was Friday night; Naomi usually would stay indoors watching old movies and eating anything she could consume but, this night she felt that a long walk would do her good. She got dressed rather quickly and left the flat without letting Emily know.

 She thought of going for a walk close to the bridge. That place was quiet and Naomi had many happy memories from there. She needed some quality time to think about everything. About hers and Emilys relationship, about Cook and Effy leaving, about her studies... about everything. She opened her packet of cigarettes, pulled out one and lit it. Her head was spinning around from all the unfortunate events that she had to deal with and no one seemed to care about that.

 Naomi took a long inhale and let out a puff of smoke as she walked. She then saw a rather familiar figure smoking infront of her. Freddie? Was that Freddie? She tried to look at his face but it was pitch black and she couldn't understand if it was trully him. The blonde walked closer to the mysterious guy only to confirm her thought, when he called her name. It really was Freddie after all. 

 "F-Freddie?!", she almost shouted at him. "I can't believe this. It's been so long, what happened?", she continued. Naomi was shocked that she found Freddie by accident. Naomi came closer to him and hugged him tight. "I've missed you mate, we all have". The blonde took a step back and smiled. "What are you even doing here? It's almost 1o'clock in the morning", she asked him and slightly pursed her lips. 

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Had a blast with Paddy, now its time for adult fun.

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Than when I come back we can hang out.

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I can't see why not!

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It'll be nice to get away.

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Don’t. I can’t do it.

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Right. I didn't want to bring that up, sorry.

But Eff, he's back now...

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It'll be nice to get away.

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It’s always been that way, hasn’t it?

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I wouldn't say "always"...

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Had a blast with Paddy, now its time for adult fun.

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I am, we will be back. 

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You better mate.

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"Let's pretend it never happened" || Emily & Naomi

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Emily felt so torn. Part of her wondered how she could consider herself strong. After everything, she was sticking by Naomi. Through all the hurt and the deceit and lies, Emily has stayed. How could anyone think she was strong? In this moment, Emily didn’t think she was strong. She hated how terrible she felt right now. She wanted to be with Naomi more than anything, but how could she when she felt this awful about herself? Emily needed to find a way to feel okay with herself if this was ever going to work out.  “That’s the problem though. I do think you’re strong and perfect and beautiful and wonderful. I think you’re amazing, Naomi. You’ve hurt me over and over again, but I don’t know how to stay angry at you. It’s driving me insane because you make me feel horrible about myself. I used to be strong…not anymore. Now I’m just some pathetic girl who follows you around like a little puppy,” Emily said, tears streaming down her cheeks.

She felt the pain in her heart as Naomi described their moments apart. Emily felt the same. The time spent living in the same flat, but barely speaking was the worst time of their lives. They both hated not being able to talk or even look at each other anymore. All she wanted was for things to go back to normal. She hated that things were so screwed up between the two of them. If she could, she would take everything back. Emily just wanted everything to be alright. She was so tired of all the hurt and the pain. 

“I love you too, Naomi. I’ve always loved you and that’s never going to change…” she wiped away her tears. The moment she heard that Naomi couldn’t live without her, she couldn’t take it anymore. Emily couldn’t take it anymore. “I can’t do this anymore. I love you too much,” Emily said as she ran towards Naomi. She placed her hands on Naomi’s face and pressed her lips to hers. “I need you. I don’t know how to live without you,” Emily kissed Naomi’s cheek and wrapped her arms around her, trying to stop her tears. “Just be brave, please,” she whispered. 

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"No!- You are strong. In fact, you're the strongest person I've ever known", Naomi cried out. Her feelings were rather complicated, she just wanted to kiss Emily and tell her what a prick she was for cheating on her all this time. Naomi would have never thought that she would cheat on Emily- again. She felt ashamed, horrible some may even say. 

 Why was this happening? How on earth did the two of them end up in such a situation? They were in love, they still are. Naomi's head was starting to hurt from all the thoughts and the hurt that occurred. She would give up anything for Emily. Anything. That's how much she loved her. Emily ment the whole world to Naomi and the two of them being still apart, didn't seem right.

 Suddently, the blonde's eyes goggled and her heart seemed to beat uncontrollably fast. Emily kissed her. Naomi couldn't take this no more. She hugged her one and only love as tight as possible. Tears streamed down her face, but she couldn't care less. She was actually holding Emily after a really, really long time. "I-I love you. I love you so much, it's hurting me. I'm so sorry for being such a tit but I can't do this anymore. I love you more than anything Emily. I need you, I need you so much", Naomi sobbed. 

 Words couldn't describe how happy she felt that moment. Her feelings were mixed up; she couldn't stop thinking of all the wrongs she had done to Emily. Naomi felt butterflies in her stomach the instant Emily pressed her lips on hers, the same butterflies she always felt whenever they kissed. She had missed this feeling more than anything. "I can't lose you again Emily, I just can't. My heart wouldn't bare it, not again". Naomi looked straight into Emily's eyes and let a smile peak. The two of them finally, were kissing after all this time. Naomi gently pressed her forehead against Emily's forehead and gave her a long passionate kiss.

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It'll be nice to get away.

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Why should I?

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Dunno actually, just wondering.

No more Freddie, then?

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It'll be nice to get away.

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What about him?

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You don't talk with him anymore?

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Had a blast with Paddy, now its time for adult fun.

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I’m not sure but most likely back at his flat.

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Cool.

I heard you're leaving for London... with Effy...