[MESSAGE FROM THE CLERGY]
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 2/?
Fandom: Ghost (Sweden Band)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Dewdrop Ghoul | Fire Ghoul/Reader, Dewdrop Ghoul | Fire Ghoul/Original Character(s)
Characters: Dewdrop Ghoul | Fire Ghoul, Aether | Quintessence Ghoul, Nameless Ghoul(s), Multi Ghoul | Swiss Army Ghoul, Water Ghoul, Earth Ghoul, Rain | Water Ghoul, Mountain | Earth Ghoul, Nameless Ghoulette(s), Papa Emeritus IV, Original Angel Character(s)
Summary:
The fire ghoul had built his own Atlantis.
From the bare ground, the base, to the framework, setting the very first stone, until the final piece of the roof to complete a whole home, an Atlantis.
'We build this town on shaky ground'
Risk was always there, but for the heavenly being, the fire ghoul would go through it all, to keep them safe and sound.
For the fire ghoul, the heavenly being is his home, his Atlantis.
Like any other homes, can the fire ghoul's survive the earthquake that would shake the ground, the home so violently?
'I can't save us, my Atlantis'
'Proditio. Afflictus'.
Will the Atlantis stay as a fool's paradise,
or
Will it turn into a nightmare?
a/n: The following story is inspired by the song Atlantis by Seafret.
summary: You've been struggling with your body image lately, Copia notices and tries to comfort you.
content: 2k words, emotional hurt/comfort, tw for body image issues, reader is gender neutral with no physical descriptions, established loving relationship, Copia is an absolute sweetheart angel baby.
This is absolutely self-indulgent, but I kept it very vague so that it’s as relatable as it can be. It’s more on the emotional side for sure but (I hope) still ends with a positive message. Please don't read this if you’re acutely triggered by negative self talk.
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It happens by chance.
You have been avoiding the big, ornate mirror in your room for a few days now, pretending to wear blinkers. If you weren’t sharing a bedroom with Copia, you might have covered it with a sheet. But this morning, as your love gets ready for work, humming to himself in the bathroom, you can’t find your habit. Panicked that you can’t immediately cover yourself, you start a frantic search and your gaze gets caught by the reflection of your hectic movements. Your eyes meet your full-length mirror image, not the small one you’re used to seeing in the bathroom, and it’s like looking at a stranger. For a second you’re in shock, wondering who this body you feel so unfamiliar with belongs to. But then you realise that it’s yours. Instead of walking away, your eyes focus on every single part of it and the vile thoughts that enter your brain meet you like old friends.
You know the image in your head, the view in the mirror and your real body are three separate things. You know that what you’re seeing is distorted by the pain and self-loathing you’ve been harbouring for the past week. And yet no rational thought fully settles in. They pass, they don’t even puncture the disgust you feel.
You startle when you feel two strong arm wrap around your midsection, when the smell of freshly-applied cologne hits your nose. Copia pulls you into his chest and it takes you every ounce of restraint not to flinch back, not to fight your way out of his arms and hide like a wounded animal.
“Hmm, you look beautiful today, amore,” he whispers, then stamps a wet kiss to your cheek. “You always do.”
The disconnect between his reaction and your own perception is enough to make you frown. Copia’s eyes widen, like he’s afraid he said something wrong. He stares at you in the mirror and he must see the tears that colour your eyes red.
“Car-"
You slip out of his grasp, in search for the habit. It sits on a chair next to the bed, waiting for you, your saving grace. But before you can pull it over your head, Copia takes your arm, gently holds in his strong grasp.
“I need to get ready.”
“Something is wrong, amore,” he states. “You are upset.”
“I need to get dressed, Copia.”
He shakes his head vehemently, nearly dropping his red biretta. “Is it about last night? You said you were tired, too.”
“I know. I was.”
You truly were. But if you’re being honest, exhaustion was not the reason you were glad that he didn’t initiate anything last night. There is no way you would be able to let go right now, to allow yourself any pleasure.
“I know, I have been busy lately, we did not have much time for… for intimacy.” His thumb rubs a slow circle over your wrist. “But that does not mean I desire you any less. Ti amo, ti desidero, con tutto il cuore. Always.”
His words caress the wounds on your soul. But even so they can’t heal them, not after you ripped them open for days. “I know.” You try to force out a smile. “It’s okay, really. You did nothing wrong.”
“Che cos’è? You are almost crying, amore. I don’t believe it. You don’t even say you love me back.”
You desperately want to, you wish you could find words for him. But instead you vaguely shrug, not sure what to tell him for fear of lying, of abusing his trust. You stare at his hand on your arm. Even though his grip is loose now the black leather of his gloves makes it look almost violent. As if he has the same thought he moves his hand down in favour of linking your fingers together. You wish he would just let it go, that his touch wouldn’t make it all worse, even with the leather as a barrier. How is he not repulsed, how would he willingly be close to you?
“Maybe I am a little upset,” you admit, finally.
“With me?”
His soft voice breaks your heart. You look up at him and see the insecurities plainly written on his face. Of course he assumes that he is the reason. Even now, after being together for so long, he is still so scared of messing up.
You squeeze his hand. “No, not with you. Never with you. I do love you back, so much.”
His shoulders visibly relax and he pulls his brows up into a pleading look. “Can I hug you?”
Despite feeling so ashamed, so miserably vulnerable, you nod. You cannot refuse him, no matter how scared you are of what his touch will do to you. So you wrap your arms around his neck, feel him sink into you. The fabric of his cassock is stiff, hiding the shape of his body and making you feel even more naked. His hands rest on your bare skin, the leather warm as his fingers spread over the small of your back. You feel his warm cheek on yours, the only true skin contact, his sideburns tickling when he nuzzles your neck with a deep sigh.
“Tell me why you are so sad, amore,” he whispers. “Help me understand.”
You know you would never have told him if you’d had to look at his face. But here, hidden in his embrace, your senses busy taking in his scent, his warmth, you feel infinitely safer. Completely filled with the affection you don’t feel like you deserve, you whisper your question. “Copia, do you think I’ve changed?”
He lets go just enough to look at you. “Changed how?”
You shrug, averting your gaze as you fiddle with the buttons just below his neck. “Changed… physically?”
“Your body?”
“Mhm.”
He frowns and you regret the question. This must seem so trivial to him, so pointless. He may not be able to see any changes, he may not even have payed attention, so swamped with work and more important things to worry about.
“I don’t think so,” he finally says. “Did I miss something? You did not get a haircut? New clothes?”
“No. No, that’s not what I mean.”
“What do you mean, amore?”
You fight back tears. Satanas, you feel pathetic, so embarrassed by the situation. How is he still asking? How is he not giving up and telling you to get a grip, that he needs to go to work? You cannot help but feel a bit crushed, undeserving of this love that he has for you, of his patience, all the comfort he offers. You wish you could love yourself like he loves you, be gentle and kind with your body.
Copia takes your chin between his fingers and gently tilts your head up.
“You know I think you are bellissima?” he asks. “That you are a gift, not only for my eyes but for my soul?”
You close your eyes, trying to let his words sink in. “Yes. Yes, I know.”
He clicks his tongue. “No, you forgot. I made you forget because I was so busy. I did not love you enough.”
You don’t have the heart to tell him that it’s not a lack of compliments or displays of affection, not when he seems so happy to have found a solution. How could you explain that you’re just messed up sometimes? Maybe it is unfair to let him try, to exploit his affections. You can’t let him think he’s lacking in any way.
“You did, you alway love me enough. You–“
“No, it is alright.” Copia shakes his head. “I will make it better, amore.”
His soft, plump lips press against yours. Before you can reciprocate, he moves them to your jaw, to your neck, featherlight touches that make you shiver. For as long as his body covers yours, they feel wonderful, but then he lets you go and you’re exposed again. Copia sinks down before you and his lips dance all over your chest, leaving a trail of black lipstick.
“So beautiful,” he whispers against your sternum. “Sono tanto fortunato.”
His words, as genuine as they may be, ring hollow. Your mind is telling you that he’s lying. That he can’t possibly mean any of it. He’s saying it because he has to, because he wants to cheer you up, because he is kind and generous like that.
“Cara mia, sei tutto per me. More than I could ever deserve.”
His hands trail down your sides as he kisses your belly, moving down to your navel. That’s when you tense up completely. You can’t take it, it’s like he’s trying to extinguish a flame by adding more fuel. His words, his kisses, his obvious display of his undying devotion, they are too heavy.
“Stop,” you say, barely able to breathe out the words. “Please.”
He looks up at you in utter confusion, chin resting against your stomach. “Amore?”
“I’m sorry,” you blubber out. “I’m so sorry, I don’t think I can do this right now.”
“Nonono.” He moves his hands up and down the backs of your thighs. “I am just trying to show you how beautiful you are. How much I adore you. We don’t have to do anything.”
“That’s not it. Its’ just…” You feel the first full tear rolling down your cheek. “I don’t think I can believe any compliments right now. They are wasted on me. You are wasted on me.”
You can practically see his heart break at your words and you cry silently – for yourself and for him.
“What are you saying, tesoro?”
You know the question is rhetorical. He perfectly understands. “You deserve so much better, my love.”
He stands up and you watch as he takes off his gloves. With his now bare hands, he cradles your face, wipes the tears away. He’s too slow to catch them all and you wish he would not have to see you cry, he would not see you puffy and pathetic. But you are too weak to move, too weak to fight him when your whole body and your very soul are so desperate, so hungry for his love.
“Can you feel this?” he asks. “How my hands feel on you?”
You nod and he strokes your cheeks. He is so gentle, his fingertips massaging your skin like he’s trying to rub the sadness out of you.
“When I touch you, do you think about how it looks or how it feels?”
“How it feels.”
He brings his face closer, waits for you to flinch, to pull back. But you don’t. So he kisses you, firmly, tenderly, and beneath the salty tears you can taste his love for you.
Ever so patient, he doesn’t pull away. His lips linger, barely grazing yours, as he whispers against your mouth. “And when I kiss you, what do you think about, amore?”
“How good it feels.”
Copia smiles, a pained but beautifully heartbreaking smile. “What about when we make love? What do you think about then?”
“I think about how much I love you, how good you make me feel.”
“Me too. It’s all I think about when we’re together. But it is more of a feeling than a thought. You agree?”
Again, you nod and he nuzzles your nose, keeps his hands on your head. He pushes them into your hair, angles your head up just slightly so that he can kiss the tears from your cheeks. For the first time today you don’t want to leave your body, you want to stay exactly where you are.
“If you cannot believe my words, then maybe you can accept my affection? My love?” he asks. “Can you accept that it is not tied to your body but to all of you, even the things you cannot love about yourself?”
You take a shuddering breath. “I don’t know, Copia.”
“Let us try, amore. Let us try every day to love each other the best we can, sì? To focus on how good it feels?”
You hum in agreement and he hugs you again, pulls you so close that you barely even feel your body anymore, just him and what he does to you. Maybe you can accept his love, even if you are not always capable of understanding it. And maybe by loving him with all your heart you can find a way to extend that love to yourself as well. One day.
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Thank you for reading! I hope you're feeling okay and that this story helped a little bit – and if not, my inbox is always open. Take care now, I love you, I like you. Get sleep, get well etc etc ♡
Summary: Sometime after midnight, when most of the Ministry was dreaming away, a sibling of sin is having trouble sleeping.
Hey! :) I haven’t written anything for Copia (this is only my second fic for Ghost) and I will be honest, I don’t know if I wrote him very well. I just wrote the version of him I have in my head! Either way, he’s a comfort to me and I’m sure to a lot of people! So I wrote this because I needed it, and I hope you find this if you need it, too! Please enjoy <3
This is fluff! Should be safe for everyone! (Also made the reader GN) This is also meant to be very platonic- but if you would like to interpret it as romantic, feel free to do so! <3
Summary: Sometime after midnight, when most of the Ministry was dreaming away, a sibling of sin is having trouble sleeping.
Hey! :) I haven’t written anything for Copia (this is only my second fic for Ghost) and I will be honest, I don’t know if I wrote him very well. I just wrote the version of him I have in my head! Either way, he’s a comfort to me and I’m sure to a lot of people! So I wrote this because I needed it, and I hope you find this if you need it, too! Please enjoy <3
This is fluff! Should be safe for everyone! (Also made the reader GN) This is also meant to be very platonic- but if you would like to interpret it as romantic, feel free to do so! <3
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