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🔊 🔊 🎶 (at Fremantle Arts Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bol8exrFmZ-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17pynh4c0rlsi

Ruby Fields, San Cisco and {If we stay awake} Ball Park Music 🎶 (at Fremantle Arts Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bolsp8vlaci/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p413kuwdpcyh

👗 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bolse95let-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=psg3b5lum512

Pout 💋 . Last day at the Marian Centre. 4 weeks #inpatient here, a week in hospital before that. It's been a fucking ride and I'm both excited and terrified to go home. It's my time. I'm as ready as I can be and that is all I can ask for. I've worked my butt off, relaxed and taken the time I need to bring myself back from the brink. I'm ready for this chapter to be over. And I'm ready for the next chapter to begin. Looking forward to crochet and taking care of myself and preparing to return to uni next year. And planning our wedding which is less than 6 months away! Continually reminding myself that there is room in my recovery for relapse. It's not ideal, but it is okay. And it's not a failure. I'm not back at square one. I'm more aware of myself and my emotions and how I can prevent it next time. Here's to going home. 👍 (at The Marian Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/BodG0JvBbrb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1q7dawf22ltb8

#inpatient

👌 (at Subiaco, Western Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BobHIflFCyd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1axlv5uysom5g

Went to churros with @bronayre over the weekend. ☕ What did I do to be fucking blessed with amazing friends and supports around me? Honestly. Bron sat with me in the ER for 6 hours, until like 2 in the morning so I wouldn't be alone. She's come to visit me multiple times since being in the marian. I'm blessed with not just Bron, but Kate and @hhoges and Amy and @sunofrobin and @bekjackson__ and @gameofcrohns14 and @shengzzzz_ and @alexgorman93 and @stizef who have supported me through everything this past 5 weeks. From messaging me everyday to being there when I was kicked out of royal Perth to visiting me at marian to burgers at charlies. You were all there for me in some capacity when I needed love and support. To a few of you I actually owe you my life, so Thank you xoxo https://www.instagram.com/p/BoYDGdoFnTs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1f6wkbjucyhdx

🍓 (at Subiaco, Western Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoSpMOuFf9k/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14hbhue78mma8

Positive affirmations ✌ https://www.instagram.com/p/BoQBzJWlcC6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=httzf4ua3g3n

No filter needed for an afternoon at @bouclacafe !! . Discharge day is set for next Thursday to start the outpatient DBT group on the Friday! I think I'm ready to go home, but I could be wrong and we'll find out. The longer I'm inpatient, the harder it is to integrate back home and back into the community. I need to be able to trust myself and my judgement and I feel like I can. They're increasing my pristiq to help boost my mood possibly, so we'll see if that helps. Recovery Warrior Fuck yes (at BOUCLA) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoOOzjzFsgG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ia4w72nxdiiv

Look at my model of a fiancee 💋 . Rocking a snap back to mask his #radiation hair loss! #starwars t-shirt 👕 (at BOUCLA) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoOOa3bFtiX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=11ai15ynhoh7n

#radiation #starwars

Was feeling as though I was ready to go home, and now I'm feeling as though I need more time to deal with the emotions I'm feeling inside. I want to be ready to go home in time for the group that starts next week. I want to be home with ks to help him. I want to feel better and safe with myself. #fuckdepression https://www.instagram.com/p/BoLLJqeFhu9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lfqv652bua8t

#fuckdepression

My #temperatureblanket just got its first line of yellow! First 27+degree day this spring! ☀ #nofilter https://www.instagram.com/p/BoI8t5-F8Iv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19bjy1og3h6xe

#temperatureblanket #nofilter

Coffee and biscuits ☕ Went for a lil walk this morning before therapy classes. My day ended well yesterday and today has started well. And therapy class went well. I reminded myself that relapse is common, understandable and not a mistake. I'm not a bad person for it. And people don't look down on me for it. Here's to more good days. Maybe the #latuda is kicking in? (at Cafe Cafe) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoIoVj1lkUN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1xgcgza9yw8ox

#latuda

I go up to this window 4+ times a day #medicatedandmighty https://www.instagram.com/p/BoGrtMGlv4t/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4z4desb9qoea

#medicatedandmighty

The meds that get me through these hard thoughts also make me hungry as fuck. Which means I get hungry and overeat. And then the ED thoughts go nuts that I shouldn't be eating and that I'll be weight etc. And the thoughts are slowly easing off with #olanzapine and #brexpripazole and I also had my dinner meds. Going home seems a while away, but things could change as well and I need to keep my self realistic not too pessimistic that I can't be ready when I want to be. 💊 https://www.instagram.com/p/BoEMzQ-FfNp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tvxe20laj7a9

#olanzapine #brexpripazole

Donuts forever at @mary_street_bakery 🍩 (at Mary Street Bakery) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoDuEPEFZAK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yvdyfhygwe5s

Good morning ☀ https://www.instagram.com/p/BoDI77XF8n4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1dwmmjk4mdxlv

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