phil antro phobia

what i describe as the fear to love others

[filantrophobia]

inside my head

there are many voices

they tell me that i am not good enough

and i fear you can hear them too

[filantrophobia]

i thought that love was on the crowd. in giving yourself to strangers.

S

[filantrophobia]

i want to fly with you. i want to be with you looking at the moon dance above the ocean. i want to find another path, put on a scarf, and walk away together. i want to tell sadness that she cannot cross my path today.

january blues

[filantrophobia]

today i feel a bit out of space

today i cannot breathe properly

today your lips are not there where i left them

today life isn’t exactly how i dreamed it

today i remember the day you kissed me

today everything shined - your eyes, your hair

today everyone moved and i didn’t know what to do

today i didn’t know whether to kiss you or run away

today you held my hand forever

today i knew the strength that ties us together

today let’s run away together

today wherever you want

[filantrophobia]

Y yo aquí culpándome por no quererte.

Y tu ahí olvidando que alguna vez te importó que te quisiera.

[filantrophobia]

but i'm not afraid 

to walk away, 

because i know 

i'm built to live alone

[filantrophobia]

poor little misunderstood baby no one likes a sad face but I can't remember life without him i think I did have good days i might have had good days

[filantrophobia]

comfortable as i am

i need your reassurance

and comfortable as you are

you count the days

but if i wanted silence

i would whisper

and if i wanted loneliness

i'd choose to go

and if i like rejection

i'd audition

and if i didn't love you

you would know

you say you see the light now

at the end of this narrow hall

i wish it didn't matter

i wish i didn't give you all 

and why can't you just hold me

and how come it is so hard

and do you like to see me broken

and why do i still care

[filantrophobia]

let’s play to be humans

let’s wear our sleepless cat costumes

[filantrophobia]

welcome, you are now part of my nervous system

[filantrophobia]

my words are the only weapon i hold

[filantrophobia]

sometimes, the sun comes out

but that does not mean that new clouds are not on the way

[filantrophobia]

te recuerdo sin esfuerzo

[filantrophobia]

while my words escape my entrails tear apart

[filantrophobia]

what i’ve got, they use to call the blues

[filantrophobia]

the reason i cannot commit honey is because at a minimum sign of interest i need to take it

 don’t love myself enough

[filantrophobia]

the more reasons you give me to stay the further i go

#scaredoflove