Finding God Again

My story of how I had forgotten and abandoned my faith and my journey to find it again.

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I believe in the sun even when its not shining. I believe in love even when I am alone. I believe in God even when He is silent."

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The Most Amazing Things Have Happened!

I haven't updated because honestly, there hasn't been much to update on -- until now.

I finally was able to attend church yesterday. It was actually a small chapel near my school that I found online. It was really nice: small and intimate, clean and tranquil. Although I attended makeshift masses at my high school once a month for four years, I hadn't attended church, church in YEARS.

I went to mass with a friend who is of the Hindu religion but was curious to see a Catholic mass. For some reason, throughout the whole ceremony I was calm -- more than I normally am. I was really into it (I'm sure that sounds cheesy). I felt like I truly was in the presence of God! Afterwards, my friend and I went to a local park where we sort of sat and reflected (both silently and out loud) about mass.

Today, I was going through my things and packing up for Thanksgiving break when I decided to go through an old purse. In it I found a blessed wooden cross that my aunt had given me years ago that I had lost before we moved!

After that, I was going through my desk drawers and found a paper in there my mother needed that I couldn't find! I know what you must be thinking, "Big deal! Papers are usually in desks!" But when I had first lost this paper weeks ago my roommate and I pulled apart every inch of my desk drawers, bureau, and closet leaving us an hour and half worth of mess to clean up and we couldn't find it! Then I find it randomly in my desk drawer?

The power of Christ is truly amazing!

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Sin is washed away by Him. :)

Disclaimer: Not my original quote. I saw this on a pin during a book convention a few months ago.

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I highly recommend taking ninety minutes out of your life to watch these videos. He and his fiancee (at the time) talking not only about staying pure until marriage, but also about love in general. Check them out!

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Sorry I Haven't Been On!

I went home for the weekend and never got the chance to update!

I still haven't gone to church either. Clearly I'm failing at all aspects of this. I definitely have not been the best Christian over the weekend. I think if anything when I went home I sort of forgot my "mission".

It's just difficult trying to change my ways so quickly. Or should I say trying to change back so quickly.

Anyways there's not much else. I really need to try harder at this. Any advice would be greatly appreciated either on here or on my Facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Finding-God-Again/234096569987602

In the meantime, I'll post the first video out of nine by my favorite chastity speaker Jason Evert. I highly recommend taking ninety minutes out of your life to watch these videos. He and his fiancee (at the time) talking not only about staying pure until marriage, but also about love in general. Check them out!

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Great Day!

I don’t think I’ll do a big update today since I just spent literally seven hours typing the longest research paper of my life… so far, anyways.

Today was a bit better than yesterday. I got an amazing grade on a paper I wrote for a class I’ve been having tough time in as well as acing two out of two tests. I ran to my dorm where normally I would call my parents or yell about how excited I am to my roommates. But this time I didn’t. I prayed and thanked the Lord for giving me the ability to write the paper as well as I did and for the encouragement to keep this up.

This is definitely the start to untangling that mass of wires in my heart and mind!

God Bless <3

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First Day

Today my journey officially began. To be completely honest, I don’t feel any different. I thought I would wake up this morning with a renewed feeling of being alive and well and that I would be radiating with faith in my Savior – I thought everyone would see a difference in me. Then I realized that I need to continue to work on my “Christian abilities” before I could lift the heaviness of last night’s revelation from my heart and truly feel different.

 My day went on normally, always with the thought in the back of my mind that my new goal was to better my soul and mind to be what the Lord wants us to be as best as I can.  And of course with any new course in life, I had slip-ups: swearing a few times and saying mean things (stuff I hate admitting but I promised I’d be honest!). But that’s really it. No more “wow moments”. No more revelations. If anything, I think I felt a bit gloomier today. I suppose its normal… at least I hope it is.

You see, my heart and mind feel like a thousand wires that are twisted and knotted into a maze that I only just discovered. Slowly and frustratingly I need to pick it apart, following each thread to see where that will lead me. Perhaps it will create more knots, perhaps it will release one. I don’t know if I’ll ever completely untangle them. I just know that I cannot give up: no matter how angry I am or how exasperated and weary I am.

The Lord did not give up on me, so why should I give up on Him?

God Bless <3

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It Is Not An Easy Path.

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Being Christian isn’t easy. Many people think it’s a way out. It’s an escape from death. It is an escape from death, but you have to give up your life to escape. Being a Christian, truly being a Christian, is one of the hardest things to do.

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fathershane:

You are not defined by what you feel. You are defined by what you accept and submit to.

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