Update: what was here previously is no more as of December 10th, 2024.
So, while I do have my qualms with certain actions that individuals have taken in the past, and beliefs they once held, I am going to wash my hands of all this.
I will apologize to Terez. Should she completely be away from these negative sorts of beliefs, then I hope she continues to grow away from them and becomes the best woman she can be.
My situation at the time, while not completely an excuse, but more so likely a reason as to why I was so dogged on my crusade was due to an untreated mental health situation, which I am now taking responsibility for and doing what I need to in order to make sure I keep myself in check and don't end up with a wild hare up my butt and end up in the same sort of situation.
I will not be directly going to Terez and expressing this because as I myself have concluded, and others have advised me: it's not a good idea. We just do not mix. It's an oil and water kind of situation, and while I am apologetic for my part in events that happened between us, I recognize that bringing two forces together that repel each other so clearly is a bad idea.
I figure it's best to stay in each other's lanes and move forward so as to maintain a light touch and avoid any potential speed bumps. You can say sorry, but that doesn't entitle someone to forgive you, nor does it mean you are allowed to invade their space to make them do as you would like or prefer. "You" being used in a general sense.
I will not be apologizing to Cora, as she is a complicated individual who I feel no remorse towards due to certain behaviors she has in relation to portraying her actual intent when approaching in the guise of a friend. I allowed myself to be burned multiple times by this individual, and I have no conscious intent of doing so again.
To those who hold company with Terez, should we encounter each other in the future, I have no intention of engaging with you OOCly at all, but should there be for whatever reason a necessity to engage ICly, that is where it will stay. It's difficult to play out scenarios that may involve not just one of this category, but a number of those uninvolved, and could lead to stumbling blocks in a story or event if I chose not to engage on a character level with other characters played by those who I am not in contact with on an OOC level that may be involved, and that is a complete inconvenience and inconsideration towards all those who aren't part of past problems, who just simply wish to have fun and write stories together.
Whoever came here looking for ammunition, I want zero part in anything, and I have no want to rehash past animosities, as not only is it a waste of time, it is also detrimental to the mental health of multiple individuals and serves no purpose but to stress and upset, and I do not wish to contribute towards those means.
I have my problems, and they are my own, but... Should anyone wish for a warranted apology from myself, please feel free to reach out and we can talk, if the only goal is to be disingenuous, then please do not feel free to reach out.
-- Finnegan
Updated Tuesday, December 10th, 2024
