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anthology, journal + picturebook original art + poetry

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selfish, 2022

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it is important that in moments where i feel close to the ground

i must remember it is not all that i am

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i love you, 2025

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and after months of burning this is how i feel now, 2022

a visual excerpt from a larger installation piece i did when i was in art school <3

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the eye will watch the way you left yourself, 2026

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my biggest downfall has always

and was always going to be myself,

because my right hand is the weapon

and my left hand is the wound. 

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i promise you

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your body will miss you soon

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and a rebirth of round three

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some delicate monoprints from january and february

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an invisible human being

i was thinking recently about how one of my best friends didn’t wish me a happy birthday last year.

it hurt in the way it would for anyone. 

but it was a familiar pain for me. 

i mean nothing to most of the people in my life. 

i know my place as an invisible human being.

and so,

even with a tear in my stomach,

i don’t expect the love back.

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to be an artist is to live in a cruel body, 2026

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my life has no timeline. i do things with care. and because i am unwell, i do things when i'm ready. i'm trying to get rid of this fast, non stop, machine like mentality. i am not a machine. i am not perfect. i am purely flesh and an overcooked stained brain. i must be gentle, especially with myself.

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talking to god