hi!! this is my fandom/art blog, and these are the creatures currently inhabiting my brain. bolded are more active. tags, minor interests & specific blorbos below the cut.
the SCP wiki, specifically:
Fifthism <333 (and TINAD/Antimemetics due to their occasional overlap + similar vibes)
Various neat canons, including ADMONITION, REDTAPE, On Guard 43, Broken Masquerade
Various neat GOIs, including VKTM, GAW, CotSH & the SPC
Various other topics/departments, including memetics, the Fire Suppression Department, Murphy Law & Pataphysics (I'm hyped about anything technobabble!)
17776 and 20020, the serialized speculative fiction multimedia narrative by Jon Bois, AKA "What Football Will Look Like in the Future" & "The Future of College Football."
Ace Attorney (Playing SOJ now!)
Other interests that are floating around in there somewhere:
Cult of the Lamb! I used to be a COTL blogger, now I'm mildly interested in it again. big TROD fan!!
Half Life VR but the AI is Self Aware (HLVRAI) - still haven't started part 2
xkcd. i know i never talk about this ever but i literally spend 10 hours a day on the explainxkcd wiki
PVP Civilization, Lifesteal, End Barrens/Zero World, rekrap2, Squiddo, Kenadian/Wato1876/Wifies, godispasen/Cure/gg/Bitzel, & other MCYT
Undertrack, the Undertale AU I used to co-create with @ken-TFC and @youregonnahavetime (read more here)
Prophettale & Ichortale, my very own undertale AUs
Undertale/Deltarune/UTMV in general, youregonnahavetime's UTAU Choicebound in specific
MISC: AvA/AvM, Hadestown, Mycology, Mongy Monday
Aurora, Thunderstruck and a ton of other webcomics
The blorbos:
AA: Simon Blackquill, Franziska von Karma, Sebastian Debeste/Eustace Winner, Ema Skye
17776/20020: JUICE all the way
HLVRAI: all of them but Benrey in particular (the guy ever)
AvA/AvM: purple :3
Aurora: Dainix mostly but I do love Erin
UT: #1 Chara fan I will fight you
UTMV: if you've read this far you get to know Horror is my secret blorbo shh don't tell anyone
"Footage From An Afterlife", TheRealSquiddo / "Immortality" by Clare Harner / God is dead [Wikipedia] / Angel [Wikipedia] / "Take My Hand (The Wedding Song)" by Emily Hackett / SCP-3812 "A Voice Behind Me" by djkaktus / 千島桜(接写).png [Wikimedia Commons] / Luke 2:10 (New International Version) / "The Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock" by TS Eliot
& just btw, aromantic erasure is so bad that on pubmed, many of the very few studies that have looked into aspec people specifically, categorize us as a type of asexuality. from this study:
Our findings highlight that aromantic people wish for aromanticism not to be considered a part of asexuality—a practice that has dominated contemporary literature (Antonsen et al. 2020; Carvalho & Rodrigues, 2022; Clark & Zimmerman, 2022; Hall & Knox, 2022; Zheng & Su, 2018). Many participants clarified the distinction between their sexual identity and romantic identity and highlighted that though they may be connected for some, they should be considered independently as unique contributors to an individual’s identity and experience. This aligns with a previous aromantic community survey that showed 72% of the sample did not identify with asexual terminology (AUREA, 2021a). In combination with our findings, this suggests that a tendency to conflate and describe these identities as the same or linked may be to the disadvantage of a significant portion of the aromantic community.
this is why it is so important to include aromantic people as our own group and to specifically include non-asexual aromantics. i hope y'all can understand how frustrating it is to be erased through a group that is already erased.
asexual representation is sparse? all aromantic rep is asexual and most of the time people don't even bother to remember that "aromantic" is its own thing. i can't count how many times i've seen a character talk about not experiencing romantic attraction, only for people to go "wow asexual rep!" even though sexual attraction was never brought up.
asexual community & resources are sparse? when i try to look up groups for aromantics, i get resources on "ace & aro groups" that are literally all asexual-focused. at best asexual-focused with a mention of aromantic people. which isn't really helpful when you are aroallo and don't really want or need a group that is clearly meant for alloro asexuals and aroaces.
asexual history is sparse? i've literally never seen anything even trying to talk about aromantic history. the most impactful thing on aro history is that one tumblr post talking about a woman at a nursing home who heard the term and realized her best friend was likely aro. see above with the character situation as well.
my point here is not "aros have it worse than aces" because we are both aspec and both get fucked over by the same forces and in fact, a LOT of asexual aromantics are also very frustrated by aromantic erasure! i've even heard some people talk about not identifying as strongly as asexual, even though it fits them, because they feel their aro identity is more important to them but gets constantly erased by their asexuality.
my point is that it is so fucking disheartening to be aro even in queer spaces that are trying to be asexual-inclusive, even in supposedly aspec spaces, because it swiftly becomes apparent that people see your entire identity as just a footnote for asexuality. so many people never even realize they are aro because they aren't asexual and don't realize that you can be aro but not ace. i dealt with some really intense arophobia as a teen after realizing i was aro, feeling broken and alone. it hit much harder than any internalized homophobia or transphobia did for me at the time. i did not meet another person who identified as aromantic irl until this year. any resources and community that i had as a queer teen, as a trans teen, did not exist for me as an aro teen and does not exist for me as an aro adult, really.
and big problem is that, because people think of aromanticism as just a footnote of asexuality, they implicitly assume that more asexual rep, more asexual resources, more asexual visibility will automatically serve aromantics too. and when it doesn't work like that, aro people continue to suffer as a result.
things have improved over the years and i hope will continue to! but i really need every queer person to become more aware of aromanticism & arophobia & how the queer community contributes to it & hurts aro people. hence why i am so testy about when people will include the ace flag but not the aro one. YOU 🫵 will care about your aromantic siblings and consider us this pride month!!!!!
sybmotic relationship between killer sans fanartists and vocaloid producers' songs where teto sings about how she doesnt feel like she's a real person and just an empty shell
to be transmasculine is to be a ghost I think. transmasculinity is a haunting (silent, invisible, found hiding in the lost and overlooked, viewed as a stain, people prefer to ignore it than face what it might imply, etc.)
transmasculinity haunts "tomboy" and "dyke" and "female husband" and "woman hides as man" and "bulldagger" and "butch". transmasculinity lurks in the graves of the ones who were buried without being undressed. it's the invader in the 'normal' home. it's the presence that died in silence and is recognized only by the ones who can see the outline of where it might be. transmasculinity is the ghost that lingers unseen in the mirror as you walk by it
The thing is. I would eat the grapes. I would eat the pomegranate seeds. I would eat the Turkish delights. It doesn’t matter what the stakes are if you put a little plate of snacks out in front of me I’ll eat them.
If you sent me to an evil fantasy realm and told me that if I ate anything I would die a painful terrible death then set a charcuterie board down in front of me that would be it for me. Like it wouldn’t even be like a torturous internal struggle to not eat the cheese. I wouldn’t even need to be that hungry.
Nine yaps about their thought process in creating their consciousness-avatar-thingamajig
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my english AND dialogue writing SUCKS oml im so sorry if this was too boring or yappersome or nonsense (Nine’s apology is half my apology 🙏🙏)
also you can tell exactly which frame i felt lazy HAHA and again design inconsistencies dont exist 😀
Hey y’all I have an announcement! My web app that I’ve been working on, Afro Index, is now live! It’s a visual reference library of Black hairstyles, for artist, animators, writers, and anyone who wants to learn more about them!
Check it out at afroindex.org! 💛✨
A reference library for Black hairstyles with accurate naming,
structured filtering, and curated reference images.
