So, this is probably going to be really long and I apologize for that and the fact that I completely forgot this blog existed. Okay. First off, It's my favorite youtuber ever's birthday. He's the most amazing person ever. He's helped me so much. I remember 3 years ago I was on tumblr and I saw a video so i clicked on it. It only had a few notes, and I didn't used to watch videos on tumblr, but this one was an exception, and I'm so glad I did. I was in a really bad place. Tumblr had been my escape for as long as I could remember, but then I found this video, and I watched it and honestly I loved it more than anything ever. It made me laugh so hard. I had finally had the laugh that I hadn't had in a good couple of months. I didn't have a bedroom and was sleeping on a couch in my grandmother's living room. Everyone else in my family had a place to sleep and for me, it was never something I had felt I had there. But then as I continued to watch his videos, and watched everyone he had that night, I was really happy. I started to find comfort in this boy. And then I realized that even though he appeared happy, some of his videos were very sad, and that's exactly how I felt I appeared to everyone else. Fast forward a year, and I finally had a bed and a home of my own, but I still felt something was missing, so I still relied on that little cutie with the flippy hair and purple sweatshirt. He meant the world to me, and at that point, I started reaching out to him, he'd reply to my comments, followed me on tumblr/twitter, and was genuinely the greatest person I've ever had the pleasure of 'meeting'. I remember one night I was in a really bad place, my mom was in the hospital and I was crying my eyes out, contemplating ending it all, and I sent this boy a message. I didn't expect an answer, I just needed to vent, and that's what I did. I got a reply back in no more than a few minutes. From that point on, I knew I owed this boy my time, let alone, my world. He was so sweet and caring when no one else was. Honestly, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here, he's my hero, and he saved me, in every sense of the word. Now here we are 2 more years later and I still love this boy with all my heart, and he's still one of my favorite people ever, and it's all because he decided to make these videos. He honestly means more to me than anyone. I've talked to him on the phone, and gotten replies from him, and the only step left is to meet him. Let's just hope this happens. Either way, I owe this man the world. I'm so proud of how far he's come. He's the most genuine person I've ever talked to. Sometimes I look at how far he's come, and I just get this proud mom moment because honestly, he deserves it all, and more. I'm really happy to enjoy this journey with him and the fizzy family. <3
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